Authors Note: Okay enough of the crying hahaha. Sorry but Yi Jeong needs something strong enough to whack his slow brain. At least, better late than never right?

Chapter 11; A Shining Horizon

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I was panic and stormed into Yul Jin's room. I kneelt down on my knees and wrapped my arms around her waist from behind. "Please, please don't go!"

"Sunbae!" Ga Eul was shocked at my action and slightly wanted to turn her face to look at me but I tighten my hold and rested my chin on her shoulder with my cheek touched hers.

"Please forgive me. Please forgive me for being a jerk, forgive me for being ignorant, forgive me for all the pain that I caused you, please forgive me for everything. Please, you can scold me, scream at me or even hit me but please don't leave me." I was already sobbing while begging those words at her.

"Sunbae, are you alright? You're shivering." I heard her asked me gently.

"NO! I'm not! You're leaving me, how can I be okay."

"Who said that I will leave you?"

I loosen my hold for her to move slightly to face me but still afraid to let her go totally. I looked at her with a confusing eyes and she was smirking at me.

"Aigoo, look at you sunbae. You're such a cry baby just like your son." Her slender fingers gently wiped away the remaining tears that running through my cheeks.

"But you're packing."

"Yes, because ommonim and abonim want to take Yul Jin to Disneyland in Hong Kong for two days. They came this morning and told me that they've promise to bring Yul Jin for a vacation if he start to eat again. He's already at their place and ahjusshi (family chauffer) will pick his bag when it's ready."

"My parents?" She nodded. "For two days?" She nodded. "So you're not going to leave?" She nodded. "So you're really really not going to leave me?" She nodded and nodded and nodded again while smiling.

"If I want to leave, I will not wait until today to do it." I heard her said it gently and simultaneously washed out all my worries.

Slowly I tighten back my embraced and kissed her cheek again and again and I moved my lips to her neck as she giggling the sweetest melody in my ears.

"I love you." The words came naturally from my lips as I nuzzled my lips at her neck. I waited sometime but I realised there was no reaction from her. Maybe she didn't hear it so I said again; "I love you."

Okay why I don't feel any reaction from her body? No stiffen shoulder and no abrupt stop of her giggling. I slightly pulled my face and stared at her. "I said I love you."

"I know, I heard it."

"Then, why you're not surprise?" I asked her back. Oh please don't tell me Jae Kyung already showed her my confession's video.

She fully disentangled herself from me and turned her whole body to face me. Slowly she cupped my cheeks with both of her hands and gently caressed it. "I always had this strong feeling in my heart that told me you love me. The way you treat me like a queen, the way you've been patient at my weaknesses, the gentle touches and caresses from you and also, you openly accepted me and Yul Jin." She sighed softly, then her smile became sour a little and she continued;

"But I'm not an angel sunbae. My heart still tainted with darkness. I thought it is enough to just have you by my side but then I become greedy, angry and weak. I always believe that actions speak louder than words and you've proved it to me but my greedy heart wanted to hear your love from your lips. I become angry to myself for my stupidity, to love you to the point that I felt that I'm not who I am anymore and worst, I blamed it all on you. I become weak, all the insults and critics from others really worn out all my strength."

"So I choose to ignore my guts feeling and pretended that I never felt your love. I feel that I've been patient for so long and part of my mind told me to give up. I even hurt you by saying those harsh words that I never meant to." She tried very hard to stifle her sob. "When I saw your broken face, I knew that nothing I can do to swallow back the words to my mouth. You look so sad and hurt, and I felt that I just killed you on the spot. I can't forgive myself and I'm afraid to face you and I don't know what to do to make you forgive me. I'm really sorry sunbae, I never meant what I said to you, I could never imagine myself having a child that not yours." And she let her tears fell down freely.

"Shushh, Ga Eul-yang." I hugged her tightly, caressed her back gently and tried to soothe her. "No, I mean yes I was hurt but when I think it over and over again, I realised that I'm the one who should be blame here, you've done nothing wrong. I've love you for so long but I'm too afraid to admit it and it caused all three of us to live in misery. But I promise it won't be happening again, ever, because I love you so so much."

And I ended my honest confession with a searing kiss. A kiss that I long to have every day since the day we fight, a kiss that only be broken by the need of air and the kisses continued again and again until I practically pulled away from her. I saw her slightly pouted her lips to show her dissatisfaction and I chuckled at her naughtiness.

"Relax Ga Eul-yang. Don't you realise where we are right now. I don't want to taint our son's clean bedroom." Then I scooped her with my arms to carry her in princess style and slowly stood up with her. I slowly walked to her room, our room now and continued what we started on Yul Jin's room and only stopped after the third delicious round to compensate what I missed for two weeks.

Heavy breathings were slowly calm down and we still embraced each other with me on top of her. Our sweat also started to completely evaporate by the cold air from the air conditioner. I slowly rolled to my side and pulled the blanket beneath us and cover both of our naked bodies from the chilled air. Then I pulled her close to me and wrapped my arms around her warm body. She just rested her head at my chest.

"I love you." I whispered to her while caressing her bare back but she chooses to keep silent.

"You really miss me huh?" She murmured the words softly and broke the long sweet silence. I can feel that her lips curved up at my chest.

"You bet! You're my drug Ga Eul-yang and I'm addicted to you. My addiction cannot be cure so I must have you all the time. Without you I maybe can live but I'm sure my life would be in misery."

"So Mr drug addict, how long can you stand without me?"

"Hmmm maximum is four months but only on a very special rare case but usually only a week and because of another special case like last week. Wait! Now I understand why you're turning to be Emily Rose, you've been possessed by your hormones again." Bingo, that's the reason why my sweet Ga Eul become cruel all of sudden. Why I didn't see it earlier.

"Am I that scary?"

"Only when you let your hormones speak. But don't worry, I still love the scary Ga Eul. I love you Ga Eul-yang."

"I think that's the 64th times you said you love me today."

"Really, then I still have a long way to go." She lifted her face to shoot me a confusing frown. I caressed her cheek gently while looking straight into her eyes. "I owed you those words for 2920 times, I love you since eight years ago and I should say it every day. I don't like to be indebted to anyone so starting today, I'll pay it with high interest rate for as long as I'm alive."

"Sunbae." She called me softly and I knew she was moved by my words. She gently pressed down her hand on my chest and raised herself to kiss my lips.

I cupped her cheeks when she pulled away from my lips and I stared at her big brown eyes. "I want you to know that Yul Jin is not my mistake but he is my prove of love with you."

"Yes he is our love sunbae." She smiled gently at me and wrapped her arms around my neck and buried her face at the crook of my neck.

"Can I ask you Ga Eul-yang."

"Hmmm."

"What make you stay? I mean, you've been hurt for so long but you choose to stay by my side."

"Because I'm stupid."

"Well, other than that?" She giggling softly and I waited patiently for her answer.

"Because you're just a mango and not a cloud."

"A mango!"

"When I was a child, I like to look up at the sky to see the clouds with so many different shapes. I really wanted to catch the clouds that floating at the sky. I begged my parents to bring me to Mount Halla. When I got to the top, I was really excited to see the clouds in front of my eyes. I took out many plastic bags from my backpack and tried to stuff the clouds into them. But at that moment, it suddenly hit me. I realised that impossible to hold onto clouds. I sat on the ground and started to cry. I worked so hard to climb to the top, but I got nothing out of it. But, it taught me that there are things that we can't get no matter how hard we tried to have it."

"Remember at Namsan Stair where I chose to let you go?" She asked me and I nodded softly. "That time I thought you were the clouds that impossible for me to hold, that's why I chose to give up."

"And now I'm a mango to you." I heard her chuckled at my words. "Why mango?"

"Because it sweet and sour and I really love to eat it."

"Of course I know you like to eat mango. When you were pregnant I think I've already bought more than 100 mangoes for you. Should I be touch that you equally love me like you love your mango?"

"So you want to know why you're my mango?"

"Yes please."

"When I was a child…" She started but I abruptly cut her sentence.

"Your childhood story again?"

"You want to hear it or not?" She sounded a little piss off at my interruption.

"Okay, please continue."

"When I was a child, my grandmother had a few mango trees at her backyard. She said the trees were older than me and it was very tall. My cousins and I liked to climb the tree to pluck the ripe mangoes that really sweet. Actually it's not easy to climb a tall tree which I'm sure you never experience that."

"No need because as far as I know, mango tree is not that tall and you can pluck the mango from the ground."

"My grandmother's mango trees are tall! And just shut your mouth and listen to me and don't insult my mango tree."

"Okay okay I won't say a word."

"Back to the story. One day I saw a ripe mango on top of the tree and I declared to my cousins that the mango was mine and nobody can touch it. So I climbed all the way up but at the middle I step into a fragile branch and it broke then I fell. I sprain my ankle and cannot walk for two weeks and the mango became rotten and fell to the ground. But I never give up and continued to climb the tree to have another mango. The best closure was eating the mango with my cousins on top of the tree."

"That's why you're my mango sunbae. It was not an easy pathway to go to you; it's tiring, need lots of hard work and patients, and sometimes I got hurt in the middle. But I can't give up and leave you on the top alone or you'll become rotten and fall to the ground. And you're worth to climb for, you're the flavour of my life. Sweet and sour just like the mango that I love the most."

I was speechless and touched by her words. She compared me with something so simple yet the meaning was deeper than Mariana Trench. I hugged her tightly and kissed her forehead and she hugged me back.

"Thank you. Thank you for never leave me rotten and never let me falling to the ground."

I lifted her chin to kiss her lips. It started with a gentle kiss but then it became intense as we switched position where my body hovering above hers. I felt her pushed me gently so I pulled from the kiss and stared at her redden face.

"Sun..sunbae, don't you think it's odd." She shyly spoke to me while bit the corner of her lip.

"What odd?"

"We've already did it three times and don't you think it's too much for a day." She asked shyly.

I smirked naughtily at her. "You're right Ga Eul-yang. Three is an ODD number. That is why I want to make it EVEN."

"Sunbae!"

I silence her with a searing kiss. At first she didn't kiss me back but then I heard her sighed in defeat and wrapped her arms around me and started to kiss me back with equal intense like I did to her. So the odd became even and the lady was too tired and sleep soundly beside me. She usually can't sleep with daylight but now she seemed so peaceful in her sleep.

I moved few strands of her hair that covering her face and looking at her made me felt complete. I was so grateful to have her by my side. She's my best friend, my lovers, the mother of my child and also my soulmate. Yes, I believe in soulmate now because I'm crazy in love with her. I tried to think for an explanation; why must her? She's not the prettiest woman I ever met yet her beauty never failed to mesmerise me. So the only logical reason was she's my soulmate.

I will woo her. I know I don't need to because we already reached this stage but she deserved it. I will take her on dates, watching movies in the cinema and strolling together hand in hand in the park. I smiled at my plan and kiss her forehead before whispered to her ear; "I love you."

I got up from the bed and dressed back before heading to Yul Jin's room to finish the packing. When I reached his room, I picked up one of the picture frames that line up on the top of his drawer. A picture of him in my arms as we look so happy together.

"Appa will get you back sweetheart, promise."