Author's Note: Chu Ga Eul is the answer so starting from this chapter, the story is base on Ga Eul's POV. I'll try to minimised the repetitive scene because it's still the same story with the different person point of view.

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Chapter 13; A Silly Lady Named Chu Ga Eul

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How dare they leave me alone here while they were having fun just the two of them! Because of what? To have guys-bonding time together! Just because I'm a lady so I'm not eligible to follow them! And now I'm stuck alone in an empty house doing chores just to fill my spare time.

"Omma hope that you will be a girl and we can have girls-bonding time together someday." I whispered softly while caressing my still-flat-tummy. "We can dress with the same gown, do make up together and we can share secret that man cannot know." I chuckled softly while imagining the future with my unborn baby. "Oh but if you're a boy don't worry, omma will still love you like I love your brother. Omma will always love you no matter who you are and no matter how naughty you can be because you're my pride and joy and you're the seed of love between me and your father." I said it with a wide smile on my face.

Just yesterday I was confirmed that I'm pregnant with my second child. Tomorrow Yi Jeong-sunbae will take me to see the doctor to have the first scan of our baby. He was so happy when I told him about my pregnancy, much more different expression compared when the first time I told him that I was pregnant. That time, more than three years ago, I told myself that I would accept whatever decision he'll take except one. If he asked me to abort his child, I swear to myself that I would run away from him and leave him forever. For me, a father that willing to kill his own flesh and blood was not a human being and nothing can be done with this heartless 'creature'. No hope at all.

And luckily Yi Jeong-sunbae was still a 'person' with a heart and has a hope to be a better man. Yes he had many flaws, not to mention how many times that I had to endure heartache to be with him but I never lose hope in him. It worth to fight for him, all my patients and efforts were not thrown into vain. I'm happy and feel blissful now, that's all mattered.

That's me, a happy unwed mother who about to have a second child with the same man that I love with all my heart. How I got into this mess? Well let's go back to the time when Yi Jeong-sunbae came back from Sweden after four years of studying there.

flashback

Four agonising years of separation, days and nights I'm holding to his promise to meet me first when he landed on Korea. We did stay in contact while he was away but the feelings would never be comparable when the person that I missed so much was actually standing in front of my own eyes. He looks more handsome, taller and broader, more confident, more dashing than I thought he already be and more manly than before. Gone the 'boy' that I used to know, he's now a young man who ready to conquer the world.

I wanted to hug him and feel his warmth again but I realised that I'm not in a suitable place to do that affectionate display. We were surrounded by untainted eyes of young children. So we just talked, smiling and talked again until he was summoned by his leader aka his best friend Gu Jun Pyo to meet him. He looks very annoyed by the interruption and cursed at his phone but as a loyal comrade, he excused himself to follow the order.

I can't describe how happy I am to have him back. What really matter the most was he truly holds onto his promised and seek me first when he came back. That must be meant something right? A Casanova that kept his promised to a common girl like me for four years, which was odd. A Casanova that never went for clubbing in Sweden (I got that info from a very reliable source), that was odd. A Casanova that usually on the front page of gossip tabloids with different women, was actually manage to stay single in every snapshot during his four years in Sweden, that was really odd.

All the oddness made me think that he must have some feeling at me. Maybe he changed because of me. Called me a self-conceited lady but I'm sure he likes me. Maybe he still not in love with me like how I'm in love with him but I took it as a start. He just got back here and we still have a lot of time to spend together. Our relationship can develop slowly. I knew that he was afraid of love so forcing him to admit his feeling was not an option. So I planned many things that we can do together and perhaps little by little he will fall truly in love with me.

That time I still don't know that "we can take it slowly" could never be escaped from my lips. All because of the drunkenness that I had on the same night he came back. I was so happy by his returned, also happy that my best friend Geum Jan Di finally met her happiness after facing so much trouble and will marry her soulmate. I drank the wine until it exceeding my limits. Actually I have a very low tolerant of alcohol, that's why I seldom drink it but that night my happiness made me forgot to stay sober.

I lost my consciousness and the next thing I remember was that I'm lying on the bed in a foreign room without any thread covering my body and there was somebody hugging me tightly from my back. I was so shocked and tried to move but the slight movement made my head ached and it felt like it was about to explode. I massaged my head to ease the pain and slowly realised the mistake that I already committed. Not only my head hurt, I could feel soreness all over my body and pained at my lower region. I knew nothing I could do to have my virginity back.

I can't see the face of the man that hugged me. I only saw his muscular arms wrapped around my body as if he didn't want to let me go at all. I prayed with all my heart so the man that hugging me was him, the man that I love the most. I can't take back my virginity but at least I hoped I've gave my precious treasure to him only.

Slowly I turned my body to face the man and he stirred at my movement. I released the breath that I hold after I saw his handsome face. 'Yes, at least it was him'. I studied his face for a while. I never have been so closed to him like this with the tip of my nose already touch his. His bangs covering his forehead and I restrained myself from combing his bangs to see his face clearly. There were visible stubble growing on his chin and upper lip and damned he looks so hot with those stubble. But one thing that made me sceptical about him, was he always sleep with a smile on his lips like he has now? He opened his eyes slowly and his smile became wider when he saw me.

"Good morning Ga Eul-yang." He greeted me and I can smell wine in his breath but I was too shock to greet him back. I just stared at him dumbfounded and he stared back at me. He immediately disentangled himself from me and rose himself to sit at the edge of the bed after he realised our proximity. "I…I'm sorry. I…I… it was a mistake because we were both drunk." He tried very hard to explain and he looks so stressful.

"I guess so sunbae. I can't even remember what happen last night." My head still hurt so I chose to lie on the bed while massaging my head.

I heard him clearing his throat and said; "Me too."

And that's all. No more explanation and we never mention about that one night again. The stupid me didn't even thought about the consequences from it. I should take some pills (which I don't know what pill because I'm a stupid naive ex-virgin) as a prevention and he the one that more expert in this field should remind me about it but he never did. So five weeks later I realised that there was something wrong with my body.

Every morning I got headache and nausea. My favourite 'thing' to go after I woke up was a toilet bowl. My body became weak because all the food that I ate will wasted in a toilet bowl therefore I can't get the energy from my diet. I thought it was just a normal food poisoning and not even suspected about any other important possibilities. And when the doctor congratulated me for being pregnant, all I can say was just; "Huh?"

I don't know what to do. How am I going to tell my parents, my best friend Jan Di and worse the father of this child? They must be disappointed on me. I could never imagine myself will end up in this kind of mess. First fault was engaging myself with premarital sex and now I had to receive the punishment by carrying the illegitimate child. I was so scared and I feel alone because I don't know to whom I can consult my problem.

A few hours after I knew that I'm pregnant, Yi Jeong-sunbae called me to have a dinner together. Well actually after he came back from Sweden we did met up almost every day. I spaced out during our dinner and he noticed that I'm not even touching my food.

"Are you okay Ga Eul-yang?" He asked me with a concerned face. "You look pale, are you sick?"

I looked at his concerned face and wondering whether he was ready to be a father yet. No, he just turned 24 and he has a bright future ahead of him. This thing happens too fast and I'm sure he will freak out when he heard the news. I wanted to have more time to think but no matter how long I take, it would never change the fact that he is the father of the child I'm carrying right now. He has every right to know.

I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply to gain more strength. Slowly I opened my eyes and looked straight into his eyes. "I'm pregnant sunbae."

His eyes widen in surprised and his mouth hanging open for a while. He regained composure after a few minute and asked me; "Mine?" and I nodded slowly. "When do you know about it?"

"This morning." I answered while looking down at my plate.

"What are we going to do about it?"

"How can I know?" I slightly raised my voice because I was annoyed by his questions. One thing I also noticed these past few days was that I easily got mad even on a simple thing and I feel my blood boiling all the time. "I'm sorry sunbae, I shouldn't raise my voice on you. It was not entirely your fault."

He averted his gazed from me. He seemed not comfortable when I talked about that night. "It's okay Ga Eul-yang but please give me some time to think. I… I really don't know what to do right now." I just nodded in agreement and true to his words, he went missing for a week.

For me, at first I thought this child was my biggest humiliation, but slowly I can't help myself to feel happy and fall in love with the soul that growing inside me. I knew I can't promise this child a good future and worse, there is high possibility that maybe my child will grow up without a father. But this sacred soul is mine and came from the man I love so carrying half of him inside me made me felt blissful. No matter what happen, I would never leave my child and I promised myself to protect and raised this child with all love that I can give.

Finally he came to my apartment and he looks so distressful. He promised me that he will take care of me but he apologised that he can't give his full commitment on me, in other word he cannot marry me. He said that he will do whatever I asked him to do, anything except marriage because he was afraid that he will hurt me more if I'm marrying him.

I'm not surprise by his decision because I expected him to back off. After all, he is still the So Yi Jeong that afraid of love. So the fact that he didn't ask me to abort his child was enough to make me happy. But what surprise me was he actually wanted to stay with me and he asked me to live with him.

I'm confused by his action. He told me he can't marry me but why he wanted to live with me? He told me he can't commit himself to me but he promised me not to play around with other girls ever again. I suspected that he had a mental problem because whatever he offered me was just as same as asking me to marry him, only not signing any official certificate. So if I accepted his offer (other name for proposal), it also meant that I accepted the risk of being 'intimate' with him again. Is that what I want?

Yes I want him because I love him and I want my child to have a father so nothing else mattered right? I can be with him and that's more than enough for me.

I don't have time to think so I just accepted his offer open-heartedly. At least he accepted me and his child. At least he wanted to take care of us. And maybe, just maybe someday I will manage to teach him about love and he will learn to love us. All I need now is patient, a lot of patient.