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Chapter 5: Edwards Hideout

EPOV

I was lying on my own on a tanning chair in my secret hideout. I was at home and couldn't stop thinking about Bella, finally I decided I needed to get out of the house to distract myself from sitting there watching my phone waiting for a response. I couldn't take it anymore! I wasn't supposed to be weak and falling all over a girl. I was Edward Cullen for fuck sakes, and Edward Cullen doesn't fall for girls. Girls fall for him, he—why was I talking in third person? Anyways, point is. Girls fell for me, and then I fucked them, and told them I couldn't see them exclusively, because I didn't do relationships. It just was not my thing.

But Bella… this girl was driving me insane! I wanted her, and I didn't just want her the normal way I wanted girls. I didn't just want Bella for sex; I wanted her as a person. I wanted her to be mine. I didn't want any other guy out there to be able to get his hands on her. She seemed upset all the time and I wanted to know why, Laurent was such a dick and he was going to pay. No guy, especially not Laurent was ever going to hurt Bella again. I was going to make sure of this even if it took me everything I could give to keep him from hurting her.

I closed my eyes to relax. I didn't wanna think anymore. About anything, especially Bella. I just wanted to lie down and relax forever. I never wanted to have to get up and go home and I especially didn't want to have to go to school tomorrow.

BPOV

I walked towards the brick wall not wanting to think about the climb up and the climb down. I didn't have Edward with me to catch me this time, and that thought scared me. It didn't take me long to drive here, I was in a rush to get away from my mom and that man. I didn't even know who he was because I had never seen him around town at all. This was a very weird thing considering we lived in such a small town where everyone knew everyone else. You really couldn't hide much in such a small town, which made me wonder how long it would be until my dad found out. I in no freaking way was I going to tell him because it would ruin him. He loved me mom so much and he took her back after she left him once. Why could my mom not be happy with my dad? I didn't understand at all.

As I walked up to the brick wall I didn't hesitate to stop climbing because I feared if I did id chicken out and not climb the wall at all. But I really needed the serenity of Edwards little getaway, because I couldn't stop thinking about him. Maybe if I was here, I could think about him enough that it would wear me out and I wouldn't think of him anymore. Oh who am I kidding, I didn't think I'd ever be able to stop thinking about him. He had me so hypnotized I didn't think I ever wanted to go back to the way things were before. I didn't want him to ignore me again because just the thought of that made me hurt. I didn't want to go back to where I was all alone all the time. Except for my friends of course, but I was lonely without love. Sure I had Laurent, but then again I didn't think he ever really loved me. I was just there, meaningless to him. I was just some sex toy to him, that he could play with at any time.

As I reached the top of the wall I breathed deeply. Now it was time for the climb down and then I would be okay. I climbed halfway down the ladder and then jumped. Landing right on my feet nicely, surprised I didn't break anything on the jump down. I started walking towards the beach humming one of my favorite songs. When I was alone I use to sing all the time but I hadn't done it an awful lot lately. Everything had been piling down on me and I didn't know what to do anymore. Everything got so hectic so fast and I didn't know how to get it back in line.

As I neared the beach I could see someone sitting on one of the beach chairs. My first thought was to run the other way. Not wanting to see anyone. But then I wondered how they got in here. How they found this place at all. It was so far down the beach, no one ever came here. And it wasn't the nicest of days out. I wouldn't be out here at all if it hadn't been for what I saw back at the house… I had to forget about that. So I started walking towards the person. As I got almost to the person, he shot up off the chair turning and our eyes met. Creating sparks.

EPOV

As I was lying down relaxing I heard footsteps coming my way. I waited until I knew they were close and shot up turning around and having shock run through me at who I saw. Our eyes met, and I felt the sparks created between us making me not want to ever look away from her beautiful brown eyes. Bella Swan. The girl I came out here to get away from thinking about was standing before me with the wind blowing in her hair and her shocked look on her face. She looked absolutely stunning, so much so that all I wanted to do was barrel forward taking her into my arms and kissing those delicate lips of hers again.

Her mouth opened in a little o as she saw me. I just gave her one of my crooked grins.
"Look here, you like my little hideout" I joked. She blushed and I walked forward towards her. Taking her in my arms. She relaxed into my instantly. I liked the way it felt, having her relax in my arms. Knowing I put her at peace when I know her life is anything but peaceful. I felt her breath deeply into me and I couldn't help but smile.
"What are you doing here, Princess?" I asked.
"My mom's cheating on my dad…" she said in almost a sob.

I hugged her tightly. I'd been with a lot of girls but the one thing I didn't do was cheat on people. Especially because of reasons like this. Girls didn't take kindly to that fact. But her mom cheating on her dad? That was something that would definitely hurt her, because of all the things we talked about in class—which wasn't much at all. She loved her dad with everything she had. Sure she didn't like talking to her parents anymore but she use to be very close with her dad. What she said so far, he seemed like a really good guy. Why would her mom cheat on him? Especially knowing how much it would hurt Bella.

I stood there holding Bella until her sobs turned into just tears and her tears turned in to just streaks on her face. I would have held her here all night. And it had been hours already as it is. But it was cold out and she was starting to shiver in my arms. I wrapped my arm around her waist and walked her to the ladder.
"Go on, I'll meet you on the other side" I motioned to the ladder. She nodded and started climbing. I hated seeing her climb away from me, but I knew I'd meet up with her again on the other side. As I thought those words I instantly regretted them. She wasn't dying. I wouldn't ever let her die. I couldn't let her die when I felt so strongly for her… my bad boy façade was slowly falling down all around me, but I couldn't help it with this girl. I needed to be myself with her. Show her the real me.

I quickly climbed up after her, jumping down and as soon as I got down grabbing her hand. Holding it tightly in mine, needed to feel the contact with her. She didn't seem to mind. We started walking to where I parked my car. I realized we must have parked in different places if she hadn't of seen my car before she came to my getaway.
"Where did you park?" I asked.
"The other side of the beach… I needed the walk to clear my mind." She said quietly. I held her hand tighter in mine.
"Why don't we go back to my house? I'll drive you to your car, I don't want you having to walk all alone" I suggested. She nodded and smiled up at me.

We got to my car and I opened the door for her, letting her get in, then walking around to the driver's side and getting in. She had been so quiet and it worried me. I didn't want to bring it up though, it was hard on her. I could tell. I started the car and turned the heat on because she was shivering like a Chihuahua. I could see her face relax as the car started to heat up and I drove towards the far parking lot. I wanted her to speak, to tell me what was going on in her mind, but I didn't want to push her. I didn't want her to run from me again. I didn't think I could handle that. We finally got to the parking lot, but she didn't move from her seat. Not that I wanted her too, but I was getting worried.

"Bells, I'm here to talk if you want to" I said in the sweetest voice I could. I knew she needed compassion right now. I didn't want to break her already fragile state.
"I know, and I thank you for that. But I'm really not ready to speak…" she trailed off. I stayed quiet for what seemed like hours. Waiting for her to say something, anything at all to let me know she was going to be okay. I finally turned the car off and turned to face her completely, as awkward as that was in my car. I waited, and waited. Finally I heard a whisper coming from her lips.

"I just don't understand how she can be so unhappy with my dad again after all he's done for her…" she whispered too quietly I had to strain to hear her.
"What has he done for her?" I asked politely.
"My mom left him once, for some other guy, I was so young it didn't really click for me to know what was happening until she was gone. My dad… he was so heartbroken for so long. I had to learn to take care of myself because all he did was go to work, then come home and lie in bed… She left him for a guy half her age, that didn't even have a job. But I never got mad at her, because she was happy. Phil was his name… He treated her like complete shit and when she finally left his ass, she had nowhere to go so she came running back to my dad. He took her in like she never left, and has given her nothing but love…

"I just can't believe her sometimes. She's so selfish! My dad is always there for her! Always!" she screamed. I flinched at the anger in her voice. I'd never heard her so angry or loud. I loved that she totally opened up to me though. I unbuckled her seatbelt and pulled her over so she was cradled in my lap. Tears were running down her face, and she was sniffling, but I had never seen her more beautiful. This was Bella Swan. Emotional, heartbroken, so lost in this world she has to hide herself. She wasn't someone who needed other peoples help, but she needed other peoples love… And I was willing to give her just what she needed…

BPOV

I opened up to Edward. I didn't know who else I could open up to at this point… my friends wouldn't know how to deal with it… My friends! I was supposed to be going over to Angela's. Shit I messed up big this time! I couldn't tell them I was with Edward because they would flip. I had to come up with an excuse they would believe and wouldn't get me in shit in the long run.
"I was supposed to go to Angela's before I caught my mom… there going to be worried about me, so I should go." I said flatly. I didn't want to give away anymore of my weaknesses to him. He already had enough in his pocket to ruin my life in a heartbeat.

"That's okay. You sure you're okay to drive? I could drive you…" he trailed off.
"No!" I immediately yelled. I regretted it instantly because the look on his face pained me. He looked so hurt. I began to apologize.
"Its not that I wouldn't mind you driving me! They'd just ask me a million questions… and I'm in no mood to be answering any of those. I wouldn't mind if you drove me at all…" I started to ramble and a smile grew on his face.
"Bells, it's okay. I understand. Let me walk you to your car" he got out of the car, coming to my side to open the door for me and helping me out. He wiped the tears that were still wet on my face away with his finger in the sweetest way. It almost had me swooning.

We slowly walked over to my car, and I pressed the automatic unlock and then stood there looking at him. After a few minutes I opted for a nod and then turned around to get in my car. As I sat in my seat to start the car he leaned his head in the doorway and kissed me gently on my cheek. I smiled and started the car. He backed up, closing the door for me and stood there watching me pull out. As I drove away I looked in my rearview mirror and saw a picture that made me want to cry. There, Edward Cullen was sitting with his head in his hands crouched up on the ground. For a second, I almost believed he was crying over me… then I realized how dumb that would be.

I drove quickly to Angela's, not wanting my friends to have to wait any longer. When I pulled in, they both came running out the door.
"Bella! We thought you were dead! We've been waiting THREE HOURS!" Alice screamed.
"We were so worried about you…" Angela said in her gentle voice. One I very much preferred over Alice's high pitch yelling.
"I'm so sorry… my mom got talking to me and I didn't want to just leave on her…" I lied. Thankful that they both nodded, believing me. They both took one of my hands and we all walked inside.

We all sat in our regular seat in Angela's room, mine being on a supersized bean bag chair that I loved to relax into. We all stared at each other. Alice, of course, was the first to talk.
"What has been up with you Bella? You aren't yourself lately…"
"I've been really stressed with a lot of stuff, I'm sorry I haven't been around much. I can't fathom sitting there with you guys when I'm not totally there." I lied.
"We understand, but we're here to help you Bell… we're your best friends" Angela said gently, being her supportive self. I smiled at her, loving how she always tried to be gentle on everyone. Alice on the other hand… was not gentle at all.

"BELLA! How could you NOT come to us if something was stressing you out! We're great at helping with that shit!" she whined. I fought against the urge to roll my eyes.
"Alice, it's not your guys' job to deal with my stress. I can deal with it myself…" I trailed off, looking out the window into the dark. I couldn't help but think how I just left Edward like that… I swear he was crying. I guess he could have had something in his eye, but it just seemed like he was so upset. I took out my phone to check for messages and realized how late it was getting.
"I really have to get home and do some homework before school tomorrow, I'll see you both tomorrow?" I asked with a smile. They both nodded and Angela walked Alice and me out because they both agreed it was time to get home.

I got in my car and drove off, deciding to take a detour before I went home, wanting to be completely sure that my parents would be asleep when I got home. I didn't know where I was going, but I just drove. I drove away from my friends, and any memories that I didn't want to remember at this moment. I just drove and thought about all the good things…

EPOV

She drove away, looking so sad it left me heartbroken. I crouched down with my head in my hands and just sat there breathing deeply. I hated when people were sad, especially innocent people like Bella. I had always had a soft spot for certain things. People being hurt was one. Just like a puppy abandoned on the road, it just wasn't right. Once when I was a kid, I found a golden retriever puppy sitting, shivering on the sidewalk, in the dead of winter. I couldn't just leave it sitting there; I picked him up, put him in my jacket and ran all the way home. At the time I was only ten, but ever since then I had always been an animal person. I donated to animal societies, helped out at them for my community hours for school even. I just loved animals, as much as that made me girly, I didn't care.

Not that I would tell anyone of course… No one would believe tough guy Edward Cullen liked little animals. They expected me to hate them, and kick them around. When I saw people kicking animals, or pictures of animals that had been abused, it made me want to kick the owner right in the face. Bella was like a lost puppy. So sad, with those cute eyes and innocent soul, just waiting for some love. I wanted to give her the love I gave to all animals. She wasn't an animal, far from one, but she was in need of help. I couldn't leave her to do this on her own, but I couldn't let myself get attached…

I got in my car and drove off the opposite direction of her, heading towards the one place I wouldn't come across any of the ass holes from school. Forks Community Library.

BPOV

I ended up in the library parking lot. I couldn't understand why. The library was open 24/7 with a self checkout system, for the high school students who couldn't come until late at night. I always thought this was a great idea, especially now. I couldn't see any other cars in the parking lot, thanking the heavens because the last thing I wanted to do was run into some jerk from school. As I stepped out of my car it had started to rain, so I ran as fast as I could to the building to get under shelter. I slipped into the library going to the far back where there were comfy seats to curl up and read in.

Reading had always been one of my passions, ever since I was a little girl and my dad would read me a book before bed. I went to the fiction section, grabbing a random book and hopped it was good. I took off my shoes and put my feet under me as I curled up with the book in my hand. Focusing solely on the book so nothing else would stress me out.

EPOV

I headed right to the back of the library where no one went. On a one track mission to indulge in something other than my own mind. I stopped dead in my tracks as I saw the one person I was trying to avoid sitting curled up in a comfy chair, reading a book and twiddling her hair between her fingers. I couldn't take it anymore. I had to put a stop to all this!

"Why must you be everywhere!" my voiced boomed, making her nearly jump out of her skin. She gave me a shocked face and threw the book up in the air with a yelp.
"I can't take this anymore Isabella! I can't get away from you and when I'm near you it makes me want to be sick! I don't want to see you again, so please. Do me a favor and when you see me just walk the opposite direction! That's what I'll be doing, because I sure as hell can't stand being around you anymore!" I finished out of breath, turned and took off back to the front doors. I heard her whisper my name in pain as I ran off, but I couldn't turn back. If I did I'd be in deeper then I could ever imagine. I couldn't do this to myself anymore. I had to face reality. I just wanted her for sex; my brain had been fooling me telling me I loved her. But who was I kidding, I didn't love anybody. I wanted to fuck the shit out of her petite little figure and leave her. Like I did with every other girl. End of story.

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Kyla