Rachel makes her way to Finn's apartment and knocks on his door she's surprised when Quinn is the one who opens it
"Quinn..."Rachel says
"You're Rachel...Puck's sister right..come on in..Finn is just resting he's had a hard day...so I offered to cook him dinner after he got off work."Quinn smiles
"Uhm...I just wanted to talk to him...if you don't mind."Rachel says
"I have to finish up some paperwork at the Hospital I'll see you at the funeral tomorrow..."Quinn says Rachel nods and rolls her eyes then closes the door on her she looks around and walks into finn's room and sees him still wide awake just looking through an old photo album
"Hey you.."Rachel says Finn lifts his head up and Rachel is heartbroken seeing his eyes are red and puffy she walks over to him and holds his hand
"Im so sorry about what happened."Rachel says
"Thanks."Finn says Rachel looks at the photos and sees Finn's big smile as a child as he's in his mother's arms
"You look so happy.."She smiles Finn nods and then looks at Finn
"About last night...I didn't know..."Rachel says
"It's no problem..."Finn says a little coldly
"Finn.."Rachel says
"I have no reason to be pissed...you're right we're just FUCK buddies and it means nothing right."Finn says
"Are you upset with me."Rachel asked
"No im... just ...Im done...Im done with everything...I guess...when I called you after getting the worst new in my life I didn't expect you to completely blow me off..but its okay...what was I thinking you're not my girlfriend why should I called you first."Finn says
"Finn enough.."Rachel says
"No...its fine..Quinn's been a great help lately and I guess..Im stupid because you're..the one I needed and you just feel that way about me...you don't care about me.."Finn says
"Finn that is not true!"Rachel yells
"Really...then where were you when I needed you the most Rachel...because last night I really needed you...and you were no where to be found."Finn says almost in tear
"Finn...I...I just..."Rachel says
"I gotta get some sleep...you can show yourself out."Finn says and ushers her out of his bedroom and closes his bedroom door in her face Rachel sighs and holds her face she needed to make him understand...she needed to make him forgive her...she wanted to be there she was just being stupid she didn't even have a great time with Robin...she wanted to be the one making him feel better not Quinn ugh what was wrong with her...Rachel takes a walk back to her apartment and she closes her eyes thinking of the pain she caused Finn not just today but for the past few months...why was she feeling like she screwed up with him its not like she loved him...sure he always tells her she's amazing...and wonderful and that he wants to be with her...and that he loves her...but she's never expressed those feelings back to him..ever...and the thought of Quinn sweeping him off of his feet especially during this tragic time for him...it drove her crazy...no it drove her mad Rachel groaned and looked at the other couples holding each other and kissing she rolled her eyes and began to think of a song perfect for this situation...
'if there's a prize for rotten judgment
I guess, I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history, been there, done that
(Rachel walks past the park and then sees two older women walking past her and begins to sing)
Who do you think you're kiddin'?
He's the earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, you can't conceal it
We know how you feel and
Who you're thinking of?
(Rachel)
No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no
You swoon, you sigh
Why deny it? Uh, oh
It's too cliche
I won't say I'm in love
(Rachel looks out in the lake and sees images of Finn and Rachel him holding her and her smiling at him)
I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming, get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry your heart out, oh
(Old Ladies)
You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling?
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw you hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown up
When you gonna own up
That you got, got, got it bad
(Rachel shakes her head and walks towards her apartment complex looking up at the door seeing another image and her and Finn kissing against the door frame...Rachel sighs and walks into the building)
No chance, now way
I won't say it, no, no
Give up, give in
Check the grin you're in love
This scene won't play
I won't say I'm in love
You're doin' flips read our lips
You're in love
You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say it
(She finally makes it inside her room and looks into the mirror staring at the reflection)
Girl, don't be proud
It's okay, you're in love
At least out loud
I won't say I'm in love
"I love Finn.."Rachel says holding her chest
~At the Funeral~ Finn is standing over the coffin looking down at his mother tears shedding down his face
"Hey...you okay."Puck says Finn doesnt respond and he shrugs his hand off of his shoulder Rachel and Kurt walk inside and sees Finn standing alone Rachel takes a deep breath
"Are you two okay?"Kurt asked
"I'll be right back."Rachel says and walks over to him but before she can Quinn walks up to him and Finn is actually relieved to see her Rachel watches Quinn rub his back and he smiles at her slightly and he wraps his arms around her placing his eyes on her shoulder Quinn smiles and kisses his cheek whispering what seems to be comforting words in his ear
"That should be me.."Rachel says to herself
Puck sits next to Rachel and he shakes his head
"I've never see him so torn up before...he wont even talk to me."Puck says
"He'll come around...he just needs space.."Rachel says
"But it seems like Fabray and him are hitting it off though she's really been there for him since Mama Hudson passed away...she's been amazing for him."Puck points out
"Yeah...seems like she really likes him."Rachel says staring at Quinn with so much envy she should be the one wiping Finn's tears holding his hands...kissing his cheek so he calms down...none of this was right none of it.
Quinn gets beeped at the hospital and has to leave the viewing for her work shift so Rachel stands up and walks over to the coffin and she reaches down and laces her fingers together with Finns Finn takes a deep breath and Rachel looks at him
"It's going to be okay.."Rachel says squeezing his hand
"I want to believe that..but."Finn stops and tears fall down his face Rachel turns to face him and she wipes her tears away with her fingers Finn closes his eyes and Rachel leans her forehead against his
"Im so sorry Finn...about everything..."Rachel whispers and wraps her arms around his neck and holds him tight Finn pulls her body close to his what they dont know is someone is watching them from the corner...