It had been hours since we had retreated into the caves to avoid the weird acid-like fog and Atom was still missing. All we could hope was that he made to safety with enough time. Charlotte had fallen asleep not long ago and it was just Bellamy and I awake, sitting in silence on either side of the cave.

My eyes still swam with anger when I looked at him, memories of the other night swirling in my brain. How dare he?

"So are you over it yet?" Bellamy spoke up, breaking the silence.

I sent him a glare "Over what exactly? The fact that 2 days ago you basically attacked me and forced my wristband off, or that just this morning you stood in front of me and told me you were going to murder my best friend!" In an attempt to keep my voice down not to wake Charlotte my words came out in harsh whispers.

Bellamy scoffed "It's not murder, Lola, he's already gone, and I'm just putting him out of his suffering."

"He is not gone. Clarke will save him." I drew my knees to my chest as the dread fell into the pit of my stomach "I have to believe that, because if I don't, I don't know-" I don't know if I would be able to survive.

Bellamy opened his mouth but was cut off by Charlotte's scream.

"No!" Both our heads snapped towards her pained face still locked in sleep. She was having a nightmare.

We both moved to help her but Bellamy got there first "Charlotte, wake up."

He shook her shoulder gently causing her to wake suddenly, sitting up bolt straight. She relaxed when she saw Bellamy and I's concerned faces. "I'm sorry." She looked down ashamed.

I grabbed her hand "You don't have to be sorry for anything,"

"Does it happen often?" Bellamy questioned. Charlotte sighed looking away from his gaze, giving him his answer. "What are you scared of?" Charlotte looked over at me but before I could say anything he continued. "You know what? It doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is what you do about it."

Charlotte sent him a confused look "But…I'm asleep."

Bellamy gave her a comforting smile which shocked me, this was a new side to Bellamy that I had never seen before and honestly I didn't know if it warmed my heart or just made me extremely uncomfortable. "Fears are fears. Slay your demons when you're awake, they won't be there to get you when you sleep."

Charlotte looked totally engrossed in Bellamy's words. "Yeah, but… how?"

"You can't afford to be weak. Down here, weakness is death, fear is death." I couldn't help but think that those words were slightly directed at me also. "Let me see that knife I gave you." Charlotte shifted slightly, pulling the knife from her belt loops. Bellamy gripped the knife tightly "Now, when you feel afraid, you hold tight to that knife and you say, screw you. I'm not afraid."

He handed the knife back to her and she gripped it just as tightly as Bellamy had, with both of her hands. "Screw you. I'm not afraid," she spoke timidly causing Bellamy to throw her a look.

During this entire exchange all I could do was sit there and watch as if this act of kindness that Bellamy had portrayed had me transfixed.

"Screw you. I'm not afraid." Charlotte spoke again with more determination in her voice.

Bellamy smiled, patting her shoulder gently. "Slay your demons, kid. Then you'll be able to sleep."

Bellamy moved away to sleep and I went to follow him but Charlotte grabbed my arm causing me to turn back to her. Her face was full of guilt "I'm sorry about what I said about Trevor, I should feel honoured that you treat me like you treated him. I know how much you loved him."

I just sent her a weak smile "I know you didn't mean it. It's okay, Charlotte." I pulled her into my arms, giving her a hug "Go back to sleep, we still have a while yet until we can leave."

She nodded, lying back down and closing her eyes, after I knew she had fallen back asleep I moved back to my spot against the cave wall.

After a moment Bellamy spoke up "Who is Trevor?"

"None of your business." I snapped at him.

"What was he your boyfriend or something?" Bellamy smirked at me, obviously trying to rile me up.

"No he wasn't." I pulled my knees to my chest.

"Then who was he? A fuck buddy? Another one of your teachers that you got floated-"

"He was my little brother okay!" I burst out at him. He fell silent as I sent him a fierce glare "You're not the only one on the Ark that had a sibling okay?" I buried my face into my knees.

Bellamy was silent for a moment until I heard shuffling and him lowering himself onto the ground next to me "What happened?" he whispered quietly.

"My parents weren't as good at hiding a second child as your mum was. They got through the pregnancy but not long after Trevor was born… they though he was his friend, they thought they could trust him… but he turned them over to the council and they were both floated. I was only six years old and Trevor was just a baby."

"Mummy? Daddy? What's happening?" Lola cried as they were escorted out of the apartment and down the hall by three guards. One each holding their arms behind their backs and the other dragging Lola down by the hand.

At the end of the hall stood Marcus Kane. Someone they thought was their friend, someone they thought could help them with their secret. Marcus Kane. The man that was going to send them to their death.

I let out a deep breath "I didn't know about Trevor or why my parents were floated, no one did. Trevor was sent to the orphanage sector and Jasper's parents took me in. Jasper is like a brother to me, we grew up together."

"What happened to Trevor? You obviously know about him now right? So is he on the Ark?"

I swallowed a lump in my throat before continuing "It was about 2 years ago that I found out. Jasper, Monty and I were playing a prank on a lower grade and Trevor was in that class. I saw the class roll and he had the same last name as me. I thought it was just a coincidence but… I asked Kane-"

"Wait, Marcus Kane? Like the Councillor?"

I nodded "Yeah he was the one that betrayed my parents… and me."

16 year old Lola was walking down the hall towards the orphanage sector to walk with Trevor to dinner. When she arrived she couldn't see him anywhere so she went to look for Ms. Trenton the 'mother' of the orphanage.

Ms. Trenton was a short, plump lady that wore far too much pink. But as the head of an orphanage person went, she was alright.

"Where's Trevor? I was supposed to take him to dinner." Lola asked her quickly, she wasn't really in the mood to speak to Ms. Trenton, she had a tendency to ramble.

The old lady gave her a shocked and slightly pitiful look. "You haven't heard? Dear, Trevor has been extremely sick, I've sent him to the Doctors."

Panic flashed through Lola as she ran in the direction of the medical ward of the Ark. She burst through the door, relieved to see Trevor sitting up, although he was slightly pale.

Lola turned to Abby Griffin the Doctor "What's going on?"

Dr. Griffin, ushered her to the side giving her a look that Lola knew well, it was a pitying look that was given to all the people of the Ark that weren't privileged enough but they couldn't admit it out loud. "I'm sorry but Trevor has an infection in his right lung, there's nothing we can do."

"Nothing they could do my ass. What she was basically saying was 'sorry you're not worth the medication'." I scoffed.

Bellamy sighed "The twisted rules of the Ark." He turned slightly, pulling me around to face him. "This is your second chance. Earth. We don't have to live by their rules anymore. They can't make us suffer anymore."

I looked up and our eyes locked as Bellamy's breath fanned across my face as I watched his eyes drop down to my lips "Bellamy," I whispered, causing him to look back up to my eyes.

"I won't let you suffer anymore," he whispered back, lifting his hand up to brush my hair behind my ear, leaning forward slightly to join my lips to his.

"Bellamy!" We were broken out of our moment by one of Bellamy's henchmen.

Bellamy and I shared a look before he went to look outside and I woke Charlotte. "It's all clear." I heard Bellamy say before his voice became indistinguishable as he moved away from the cave.

I pulled Charlotte to her feet and we exited the cave, I saw Bellamy standing with a group of people but I noticed that Atom wasn't with them.

I quickly made my way over.

"What the hell was that?" I heard Bellamy say as I came into earshot.

"I don't know," A guy I think was called Jones replied.

I finally got to them "Where's Atom?"

Jones shrugged and Bellamy shot me a look but before either of us said anything Charlotte's screams rang out for the second time in the past few hours.

I quickly took off in the direction of her screams, Bellamy right behind me.

I pushed through the trees and into a clearing to see Charlotte staring down at a mangled body.

That was Atom.

I gasp escaped my throat as the image in front of me finally processed. "Son of a bitch. Atom." Bellamy breathed moving over to his side.

My feet moved on my own accord until I was kneeling down beside Atom's severely burnt body. Atom seemed as if he was struggling to say something, I leaned closer to hear what he was trying to say "Kill me. Kill me. Kill…me."

Tears stung in the back of my eyes but I blinked them away. Bellamy stood back up turning around, but I couldn't look away from Atom as he gasped in pain and lack of oxygen. "I… can't… breathe."

"Shh," I brushed his hair back careful not to touch the burns "It's okay."

"Don't be afraid," I heard Charlotte say, turning I saw her hand the knife he gave her to him.

Bellamy looked down at it before looking back up at the rest of the hunting party that had followed us here. "Go back to camp." He then turned to Charlotte "Charlotte, you too."

Charlotte and the others left and Bellamy knelt back down beside me. We both turned back to Atom as he was trying to speak again "Kill…me. Bell…a…my… Pl…ea…se."

I turned to see Bellamy swallow deeply, gripping the knife tightly. I turned slightly to see Clarke kneel down on the other side of Atom but I ignored her, watching as Bellamy's hand shook.

"I heard screams," Clarke whispered.

"Charlotte found him. I sent her back to camp."

Clarke examined Atoms slightly before shaking her head at us. Bellamy looked down but nodded.

I grabbed Bellamy's arm as he lifted it up slightly, still shaking. He looked into my eyes letting me take the knife out of his hand.

I looked over to Clarke and she nodded in understanding, turning back to Atom "Okay. Lola and I are gonna help you, all right?" Clarke started to hum, reaching over and running her fingers through his hair soothingly.

I moved the knife over to the side of Atom's neck hesitating slightly. I don't know if I could do this.

I felt Clarke's other hand fold over mine of the knife, not stopping her humming. I took in a deep breath as Clarke moved our hands, piercing Atom's neck with the knife. We moved it back, causing Atom's neck to bleed out.

I dropped the knife quickly, my hands shaking.

I felt both of Bellamy's hands grab mine, pulling them to his chest.

"May we meet again." I whispered, closing Atom's eyes.

~100~

When we returned to camp Clarke quickly moved into Doctor mode. "We've gotta get to Jasper. I'll need boiled water to make the medicine."

Bellamy hauled Atom's body on a makeshift gurney turning to his henchmen "Get Clarke whatever she needs." He looked over to me, as if saying he was supporting Jasper.

Wells spoke "I better go get his grave dug." I nodded and he left.

I turned to move into the dropship to check on Jasper with Clarke but Octavia moved out of the dropship. Everyone knew that her and Atom had a thing. I felt my heart sting for her.

"It's about time. They're gonna kill Jasper. Did you get the medicine?" she asked Clarke, going to move past her.

Clarke tried to block her movements. "Yeah. I… I got it. Come on. Let's go talk."

Octavia ignored her heading for Bellamy who gave her a pleading look. "Octavia, just stay there. Please, stay back."

He grabbed her shoulder but she just shrugged him off. "Why?" he went to grab her again but she pushed him back "Stop." She moved closer to the body, removing the jacket covering him. "Atom," she whispered a heartbreaking look crossing her face.

"There's nothing I could do." Bellamy started to say but she stopped him.

"Don't." she started to cry, covering his face with the jacket again, moving to leave.

Bellamy tried to stop her "O…O…Please."

"Don't." She pushed him away once again, moving back to the dropship. I sent Bellamy a fleeting sorrowful look before going into the dropship myself.

I entered the top of the dropship to find Clarke talking to Octavia "I'm really sorry about Atom."

Octavia shrugged putting on a brave front. "I guess we're gonna have to get used to people dying down here, aren't we?" she then turned to Jasper, who was thankfully looking considerably better "But not you. You hear me? You're not allowed to die."

~100~

Later that night Finn, Octavia, Clarke, Monty and I sat around the dropship as Jasper slept, passing around an ancient bottle of whiskey that Finn had found in a buried in an old car.

I took a large swig of it, trying to push but thoughts of today. I coughed slight before handing it to Finn "Almost better than moonshine."

Fin swallowed some before he coughed too "Smooth,"

Ocatvia was next and she grimaced as it went down "Disgusting. Love it."

"Can I, uh, get a hit of that?" A raspy voice called out.

Wait that was- "Jasper!" I gasped as we all rushed to his side.

"Let's start with the soft stuff." Monty joked as we both grinned down at our best friend.

"Welcome back, buddy." Finn smiled at him.

"Was that a dream or did I get speared?" Jasper joked. Yep he'd be okay.

"You'll have a very impressive scar to prove it." Clarke spoke up causing Jasper to grin at her goofily.

"My Saviour!"

Clarke gave him a relieved look "Thank you for not dying. I don't think I could've taken that today."

"I'll try not to die tomorrow, too if that's cool." He then turned to look at me to see I had tears in my eyes. "Hey, hey, I'm gonna be alright."

I sniffed slightly as he lifted his hand up to rest on my cheek. "I thought I nearly lost you too. You're the one person I-"

"Shh, I'm not going anywhere, you'll have to try harder than that to get rid of me, Lost Girl."

~100~

sharkswillruledaWORLD: Thank you so much! This chapter gives you a bit more of Lola's back story, but not all of it! I'm really glad you like it though! and yeah I am haha I liked the song for the title and then I just decided to name the chapters after lyrics as well.

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