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~100~

We finally pulled away for air and I looked into his eyes "What we had to do on the Ark doesn't have to define how we live our lives down here."

With that he brought his lips back down to meet mine in a heated kiss.

~100~

"I should probably go, Jasper and Monty will be wondering where I am." I spoke up into the silence that had lapsed between Bellamy and I. After our… talk by the fire we had retreated to his tent. It was now hours later and definitely sometime after midnight.

I sat up from my position against Bellamy's naked chest grabbing my shirt that had found its way to the other side of the tent, letting the blanket fall off me I pulled it over my head, searching for my jeans next.

I felt an arm wrap around my waist pulling me back down against his chest. I tried to move again but he just held onto me tighter "Seriously, Bellamy no one can find out about this, especially not Jasper."

Bellamy loosened his grip slightly, turning me over to look at him. "What? Don't want your little boyfriend finding out about us?" He had a smirk plastered on his face.

I scoffed at him, "Jasper isn't my boyfriend." I pushed away from his chest, grabbing my jeans. "Anyway there isn't an 'us'. This was nothing. We were both sad about Charlotte and needed comfort."

Bellamy sat up, showing off his tanned chest and I couldn't help but stare, the sound of his voice breaking my gaze. "It didn't feel like nothing, Lola."

I sighed, moving to pull on my boots "I'm not going to be another one of your skanks that you take advantage of."

I moved to exit the tent but Bellamy grabbed my hand, pulling me down beside him "Then don't be." He tucked a piece of my tangled brown locks behind my ear. "I told you my biggest secret. I trust you."

"I'm not going to be writing 'Mrs Lola Blake on my diary anytime soon." I stated firmly. Too many people were already dying down here and I couldn't let myself care about anyone else, I already had Jasper and Monty to worry about.

Bellamy let out a deep laugh "I wasn't thinking of anything so… emotional."

I examined his expression through narrowed eyes "So just… sex?"

Bellamy nodded "Like friends with benefits."

"Except we're not friends."

Bellamy smirked at me "Exactly."

I sent him back a smirk of my own, pushing him back onto the ground, moving to straddle his waist, him grabbing my hips tightly as I kissed up his chest, sucking lightly on his neck causing him to let out a throaty moan "There's just one condition." I whispered in his ear. "There can't be anyone else. If we do this, I'm the only one, because I'm not getting some sick disease because of one of your groupies." I bit on his earlobe softly. I felt him nod slightly, tightening his grip on my hips. I pulled him into a heated kiss. He groaned as I pulled away too soon, sitting up he tried to capture my lips again but I pushed him back down. "I'm serious, Bellamy Blake." I leaned in to whisper the next part into his ear. "I don't share."

With that I pulled myself off him, grabbing my jacket on the way out of his tent, a giant smirk plastered on my face.

~100~

I tried to quietly sneak back into the tent that I shared with Jasper and Monty but I tripped over the blankets falling into a heap. Great.

"Lola?" Jasper muttered, wiping sleep out of his eyes "Where the hell have you been?"

I sent him a wide eyed gaze as Monty sat up too sending me a questioning glance. "I-"

"Oh my god!"

"What is that?" People called out cutting my conversation with Monty and Jasper short – thank god.

"Bellamy! Lola! Come outside!" That one was Octavia.

I quickly untangled myself from the blankets, racing outside to see the rocket flying through the sky.

"There! They're coming to help us." Octavia pointed at the sky.

"Now we can kick some grounder ass!" Some guy that I didn't know called out.

I grinned up at the ship, watching it crash off not too far away. Finally!

"Please tell me they brought down some shampoo." Some girl muttered to herself. I quirked my eyebrow at her. Shampoo? I could probably think of a hundred things that we needed more than shampoo.

I turned to see the stony look on Bellamy's face as he stared at where the pod had crashed and I remembered what he had told me only a few hours before. Okay. Maybe this wasn't so great.

~100~

"If it cleared the ridge, it's probably near the lake." One of Bellamy's henchmen, Miller spoke up as him, Bellamy and I stood around the table in what was now known as the strategy tent.

I nodded "We should get moving."

Octavia moved into the tent "Everyone's ready."

Bellamy shook his head "No one's going anywhere." He sent me a fleeting glance "Not while it's dark it isn't safe. We'll head out at first light, pass the word." Miller nodded, exiting the tent.

Bellamy went to follow him but Octavia moved into his way "Everyone for 100 miles saw this thing come down. What if the grounders get to it first? Bell, we should go now."

"I said we wait until sunrise." Bellamy gave her a firm stare before exiting the tent as well.

"Lola, come on." Octavia pleaded with me "We need to go now."

I took in a deep breath, keeping Bellamy's secret was proving to be harder than I thought "Bellamy's right. We can't leave yet."

Octavia groaned in frustration before exiting the tent.

I leaned up against the table, rubbing my face. I knew Bellamy was going to leave now, to find the pod so after I collected myself I moved to my tent to grab a few items to follow him.

~100~

I had been walking through the forest in the direction of the pod for a few hours now and I can honestly say I was so lost. I hadn't been able to find Bellamy yet and I hadn't thought that the pod was that far away.

"Lola!" I heard a voice call out causing me to turn around and see Clarke and Finn running towards me. "Where's Bellamy?" Clarke asked, grabbing my arm.

I shrugged, shaking my head "I've been looking for him or the pod for hours," I then sent them a sheepish look "I kinda got lost."

Clarke nodded while Finn sent me an amused look "Okay, well I'm pretty sure it'll be somewhere along the bottom of this hill."

"Should we split up?" Finn asked.

Clarke nodded "Yeah. You go that way." She pointed to the right.

"Okay."

Clarke then turned to me "You go to the left and I'll check the bottom."

I nodded and ran off down the hill searching for the pod crash site.

After a few minutes of nothing I made my way to where Clarke was looking. After a little while I saw the top of the pod causing me to run towards the site.

Clarke and Finn were already there with another girl who I presume came from the pod, she was kissing Finn.

I turned to see the look on Clarke's face and my heart clenched. I knew her and Finn had something going on but I never knew-

I quickly moved over to Clarke rested my hand on her shoulder "Hey, you okay?"

I saw her swallow heavily, nodding. When the girl pulled away from Finn I realised I knew who she was.

"Raven Reyes?" I squinted my eyes at her.

She turned her head recognising me instantly "Lola! I forgot that you'd be down here!"

"How did you get here?" I asked, looking over the pod in amazement.

"You know that big scrap hold, the one on K deck?" she nodded to the pod. Wait that was from that?

"You built that from scrap?" Finn asked her. Of course, Finn. I remember her mentioning her boyfriend but I never knew it was this Finn.

She just shrugged. "I kind of rebuilt it." He gave her a wide-eyed look and she grinned "Please. Like that's hard it just needed a couple parts and some love." She sent him a loving look and I looked over at Clarke's heartbroken face. This was insanely awkward.

Finn grinned at Raven. "You're insane."

"I'd do more for you and worse, just like you would for me." She stumbled a bit, drawing my attention to the cut on her head.

Finn grabbed her shoulders, pulling his jacket off and placing it on her shoulders "Come on, sit down." He led her over to a rock "Sit down here. Let me get something for that."

Clarke started to rummage around in her backpack before finding a cloth. "I'm sorry." Finn whispered to her as he walked up. So awkward.

Clarke shook her head, handing the cloth to him "Let's not talk about this."

"We've known each other our whole lives." He tried to explain.

Clarke just continued to shake her head "We don't need to talk about it." She then moved over to Raven "She needs to put pressure on her wound."

Raven smiled up at her as Finn pressed the cloth on her cut. "Thanks."

There was an awkward pause so I spoke up "This is Clarke. She was on the dropship, with us."

Raven's eyes widened in recognition "Clarke Griffin? This was all because of your mom."

Clarke sent her a confused look "My mom?"

Raven nodded. "This was all her plan. We were trying to come down here together. If we waited-" her eyes widened again "Oh, my God. We couldn't wait because the council was voting whether to kill 300 people to save air."

This was so not good. "When?" Clarke breathed.

"Today." Raven got up, stumbling to the pod "We need to tell them you're alive." She fumbled around in the pod before coming back out "The radio's gone. It must've gotten loose during re-entry." She groaned kicking the pod in anger "I should've strapped it to the A-strut. Stupid!"

Clarke and I exchanged a look "No, no, this is my fault." I spoke up, rubbing my head. What have I done? Trusting Bellamy? What the hell was I thinking? "Someone got here before us. We have to find him."

~100~

Clarke was a few metres in front of us as we combed the woods looking for Bellamy. 300 people were going to die and it was partly my fault.

If I had just- "Where is it?" I heard Clarke yell.

I ran up to see her confronting Bellamy "Hey, princess." He then saw me behind her his smile faltering slightly at my distraught look but he composed himself "Firecracker, You two taking a walk in the woods?"

I shook my head, stepping towards him. "Bellamy, they're getting ready to kill 300 people to save oxygen."

"And I can guarantee you it won't be council members." Clarke continued angrily "It'll be working people. Your people."

Finn finally made his way over to us with Raven a few feet behind "Bellamy. Where's the radio?"

Bellamy sent him a defiant look. "I have no idea what you're talking about." Seriously, Bellamy?

"Bellamy Blake? They're looking everywhere for you." Raven smirked at him. Oh no.

Bellamy glared at her "Shut up."

Clarke looked between Raven and Bellamy. This was not good. "Looking for him why?"

"Raven," I looked at her desperately "Please don't."

Clarke shot me a look before turning back to Raven "Why are they looking for him, Raven."

Raven sent me an apologetic look "He shot Chancellor Jaha."

Clarke's face overflowed with understanding "That's why you took the wristbands, needed everyone to think we're dead. And all that "whatever the hell we want"? You just care about saving your own skin." She then turned to me "And you knew and didn't say anything?" I just looked down at my shoes and Bellamy attempted to walk away.

"Hey! Shooter! Where's my radio?" Raven pushed her way in front of him.

He sent her a glare "Get out of my way. I should've killed you when I had the chance."

She smirked at him "Really? Well, I'm right here." Bellamy shoved her against a tree by her throat but before we could help her she produced a knife, pointing it at him "Where's my radio?"

Clarke pushed her way through them "Ok, stop it."

Bellamy walked away from the group "Jaha deserved to die. You all know that."

"Yeah he's not my favourite person, either." Raven commented "But he isn't dead."

"What?" Bellamy and I said together our eyes connecting.

Raven shrugged "You're a lousy shot."

I moved over to Bellamy, grabbing his hand "Bellamy, don't you see what this means? You're not a murderer. You always did what you had to do to protect your sister, that's who you are." I looked up into his eyes "You can help these 300 people, please Bellamy where's the radio?"

Bellamy broke our gaze, looking at the ground "It's too late."

~100~

We had gone back and gotten a few of the hundred to help scour the lake for the radio. Bellamy was sitting on the bank with his face in his hands.

"Hey." I spoke quietly, sitting next to him "It's going to be okay."

Bellamy lifted his head from his hands "And what if it isn't?"

"Well then we'll both have those 300 people's blood on our hands."

His head snapped up "What do you mean? This was my fault-"

"It was mine too." I cut him off "I knew you'd go off by yourself to find the pod but I thought it wouldn't matter, I understood why you were doing it, and I could've stopped you. But I didn't."

"Can you fix it?" Clarke's voice rang out, cutting our conversation short as I stood up to examine the radio next to Raven.

Raven brushed off some seaweed from it "Maybe, but it'll take half a day just to dry out the components to see what's broken."

"Like I said, it's too late." Bellamy stated.

Clarke's face went hard with anger "Do you have any idea what you did? Do you even care?"

Bellamy glared down at her. "You asked me to help. I helped."

"300 people are going to die today because of you." Because of us. A pang entered my heart at this thought.

"Hold up." Raven cut off their argument "We don't have to talk to The Ark. We just have to let them know we're down here, right?"

"Yeah, but how do we do that with no radio?" Clarke asked.

I looked up at Raven our eyes meeting and I knew we had had the same thought. Flares.

She grinned at me "Do you still know how to handle rocket fuel, Sparky?" she used the nickname that Wick used to call me.

I sucked in a deep breath "I guess I'm gonna have to try to remember right?"

~100~

I was in the dropship rewiring some circuit so that we could use the batteries to fire the flares. Raven and Clarke had taken a few of the hundred back to her pod to remove the rockets.

"Guys we need to bring out the pillars to hold the rockets up so that they will shoot in the right angle for the Ark to see." I told a few guys that had entered the dropship.

They nodded moving over to grab them, leaving the dropship soon after. I looked down at the two wires "Was it red to blue or blue to blue?" I muttered to myself. I stared at the wiring for a moment before slamming the wires back on the bench groaning in frustration.

"Come on, L. You know this stuff." Jasper spoke up, entering the dropship.

I sighed turning to look at him "I'm so stupid, J."

He sent me a look of confused "What do you mean?"

"Bellamy." I looked down at my shoes "He shot the Chancellor."

I looked up into his wide eyes "He what?"

I nodded "Yeah, to get on the dropship. Jaha didn't die though, but I still trusted him. I knew he'd look for the radio and I didn't stop it. 300 people are going to die because I stupidly thought that Bellamy Blake was worth my trust." Jasper stayed silent as I spoke "I thought because we had both done something horrible to help our siblings that we had something in common."

"You don't know that you don't. He obviously feels terrible about the radio and-"

I shook my head cutting him off "No." I sighed leaning my head on Jasper's shoulder "I know now that the only person I can trust is you."

~100~

We had just set off the flares and I was standing with Clarke and Bellamy – not really by choice.

"You think they can see it from up there?" Bellamy asked me.

I just shrugged, not answering.

"Can you wish on this kind of shooting star?" Bellamy and I gave her a weird look. Shooting stars? Wishes? I could use one of those right now. She saw our faces, sighed she turned back to looking at the rockets "Forget it."

"I wouldn't even know what to wish for." Bellamy confessed.

"I would wish that the past few days never happened." With that I turned and left the group not looking back at the gaze I knew Bellamy had on me.

~100~

Guest: I'm glad you like the story so much! you'll be glad that I've updated so soon! I really wanted Lola and Bellamy to connect on a more fundamental level, I always thought that in some fanfictions that it didn't make much sense how he got together with some OCs cause he's, well - Bellamy. I wanted their relationship to be a struggle more than anything else. I just wanted it to be real. and I really hope I'm able to convey that! anyway thank you so much for reviewing!

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