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I DO NOT OWN VAMPIRE ACADEMY, IT BELONGS TO RICHELLE MEAD.

CHAPTER 4
TALK

„Niko, Sonja!" I shouted as swung the door open, running into the house.

After the twins outran me, I quickly excused myself and headed straight home. I hoped they at least would talk to me. Maybe I should have told them Dimitri was their father when I found out he was here.

I went to Sonja's room but she wasn't there, then I went to Niko but he wasn't in his either; they must be on the loft. The loft was their space, the place they always went to when they were upset and just needed to think. So I went upstairs only to find the door locked.

„Niko, open the door, please," I pleaded, hoping they had enough mercy to talk to me about what happened. „We have to talk about it."

Still no answer though the small shuffling let me know that they were in there. Amazing. My kids hate me so much they won't even talk to me. And if that isn't enough, I could feel Lissa was freaking out: She was on her way here. Well, it seems like I'm prone to these awkward discussions today.

„Rose," Lissa yelled from the door. Well, I can't ignore it forever.

„Kitchen," I answered, rolling my eyes. Our house was tiny, she didn't exactly need to call out for me, she could find me in three seconds flat.

„Care to explain to me what that was? Adrian refuses to tell me anything and now Christian acts like his puppy was just killed. I swear if you don't tell me…"

„Take a breath Lissa," I cut off her nervous rambling. „Sit down and I'll tell you everything."

She did as I said, though she was on the edge of a breakdown. I could only hope she wouldn't be mad at me. It was more than enough my own children refused to speak to me.

„Dimitri is the twins' father," I said quickly, the longer I took to explain, the worse it would become; I'd just be digging myself a deeper hole.

Lissa's mouth hung open, her eyes widening. She was shocked, confused and she felt betrayed. Wait a second - betrayed?

„Lissa, it isn't that I don't trust you. You know that I trust you more than anyone in this world," I tried to explain to her but I could feel it wasn't doing any good.

„But how could you not tell me this? For 17 years? This is big Rose, this isn't just some little white lie you just forgot to tell me! This is huge, how could you not have said anything? 17 years Rose!" She asked, her big eyes filling with tears. Great, just awesome. I managed to make my kids so angry at me they wouldn't talk to me and my best friend cry, all in one night, plus Dimitri thinks Adrian is the father of the twins. Congratulations, Rose Hathaway, you won the biggest bitch in the world title. They should definately give me a medal.

„How did Adrian know about this and I didn't?" She asked, sobbing, neverending tears running down her face as she started to become angry. If I keeps this up, I'll have no one left. I'll have lost them all; Sonja, Niko, Lissa... Dimitri. None of them wanted me.

„Adrian knew about Dimitri and me, that's how he knows," I tried to calm her down but realized this wasn't the way. She became even more angry. Maybe I should just shut up.

„He knew about you?"

„He figured it out, you know our auras and everything," I said.

„He knew about you and I didn't," Lissa repeated in disbelief, now she was really hurt. I should shut up, everyone would be better off.

„I would have told you but there wasn't a good time."

That was a lie, there have been a million times that I could have told her, I just couldn't. Everytime I tried, the words just wouldn't come out: It hurt too much.

„What about Christmas? Every year you said you couldn't come with us to visit Tasha and Guardian Belikov because the kids were too little, then you wanted to spend that time alone with them because they grew up so fast. It was all a lie. Why couldn't you tell me?" By the time she finished she was yelling at me.

„Because it hurt, Lissa!" I yelled back, guilt rushing through our bond. „I'm sorry. I didn't mean to yell at you. It's just so complicated," I looked at her, feeling bad at how I snapped at her.

„No, I'm sorry," she started to sob again, pulling me to a big hug. „I didn't even think about how you would feel."

„It's okay, Liss," I said, trying to calm her down.

„No, it isn't. Does he know, Rose?"

„Ahm… The thing is… He thinks Adrian is the father," I said, glancing away.

„Adrian?" Lissa eyebrows raised, she wore a funny face.

„Well, Dimitri asked and I didn't deny," I shrugged.

„But Rose, don't you think he has a right to know?"

„No," I snapped, but inside I knew she was right. Dimitri had a right to know but I was still so angry at him – he left me, us, right after I gave him everything I had; my virginity, my heart, my love, myself. I gave him everything and I thought he returned my gesture but obviously it was all a lie.

„Rose… Did you… Did you love him?" Lissa asked shyly.

„What do you think?" I rolled my eyes. I know everybody thought I was a bitch but I wasn't. Dimitri was the first man in my life.

„And he…"

„Maybe he loved me too. At least he claimed so. I guess he just loved his job more or I don't know, maybe he never loved me. It was probably all lies." I shrugged casually. But it still hurt as hell. We were guardians. We were trained to put Moroi's needs in front of ours and still I couldn't deal with this, that Dimitri loved something more than me. I would have been ready to give up my career for him, I would have given up anything for him.

„Do you really not want to tell him?" Lissa asked again and I could tell she thought I still loved Dimitri. As much as I hated it, she was right.

„I will talk to the kids about it and see what they think: This will be their decision," I answered. „You should reassign him from Sonja."

Lissa sat silently for a few minutes and she blocked me out. She blocked me out! I couldn't believe it. What has she got in that pretty head of hers?

„There's nobody I could put next to her at the moment, so Dimitri stays," she stated as a matter of fact.

„I can train with her," I argued, a little harsher than I should. But really, it's so not going to end well if Sonja spends too much time with Dimitri.

„We both know that won't work," Lissa shook her head. „You tried once and ended up not talking to each other for a week."

„She doesn't talk to me now so it couldn't get any worse," I smirked.

Even if Lissa blocked me out I knew exactly what she was doing. She forced her way on us because she thought that would be the best. I knew she was right about Dimitri but on the other hand, my kids came first and I wanted to give them a chance to decide what they wanted to do.

„Dimitri stays," Lissa stated, standing up. „If you neeed me, call me anytime. I love you, Rose."

„I love you, too. Sorry for not telling you about everything sooner."

We hugged each other. Lissa left and I was once again, alone with my thoughts.

So what do you think? Was it good or bad? Am I the only one who don't like Lissa? Next chapter will be from Sonja and Niko's POV and I have some huge complication on the way. Yes, bigger than Dimitri at the Academy. MUHAHAHA

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