This chapter explains what happened to Rin and how she ended up where she is now. There is mention of rape and psychotic homicidal thoughts so not for people who get traumatized easily like me… n.n" YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED AND I DON'T WANT ANY FLAMES ON THIS! But first to clear a review! n.n

Icegirljenni: Rin now is about 9 years old. The 84 year old woman is another patient whose room is like 3 away from Rin's. The shadow.. Well we'll have to wait and see ;)

Kagome's POV

"Higurashi-san? H-Higurashi-san?" I blinked a couple of times before looking at my intern. "Yes?" I asked her. Her green eyes were worrisome and her nose was scrunched up a bit making her freckles a bit more noticeable. "Are you ok? You seem worried or something." she said looking up at me. I smiled at the sweet blond and nodded. She smiled back showing off her beautiful smile as she handed me a stack of papers. "The top ten papers are from the patients in the third floor in wing C…" she said taking the papercliped papers. "…and these are from the patients in M wing. This one is from our new patient." She was ruffling through the papers when she squealed and sucked on her finger. "Are you ok?" I asked taking her hand. "Paper cut." she whined. I looked at her finger as it quickly covered in blood. Too much blood for a simple paper cut. "Go wash your hand then go to the infirmary." I ordered her. She nodded her blond head and turned.

I looked at the papers and frowned when I saw a very thin trail of blood. When I looked down I noticed the three spots of blood on the floor. "Geez." I sighed grabbing a tissue and wiping the floor. "What happened?" The sudden voice made me jump and bump into the desk. "Ow! Sango don't do that!" I whimpered standing up. My friend smiled as she buttoned up her coat. "Still jumpy huh? So what's with the blood?" I threw away the tissue and looked at her chocolate eyes seriously. "Kim cut her finger on a paper." Sango shrugged. "Paper cuts happen." I shook my head and pushed the paper to her chest. "She cut her finger on our new patient's report." Sango stared at me for a minute before putting the paper down. "Kagome stop with this. Don't forget that this is a mental institution. We're going to have people like Rin. You have to stop worrying yourself about this. You have more patients to care for remember? What about Mr. Lakashi? The poor man will chew his fingers off if you don't look after him. O-Or Ms. Jacks? You know we can't leave her alone with the others for too long." She reached out and took my arm gently. She smiled but her eyes were dead serious. "But she is only nine. A child for goodness' sakes!" I said sitting down. Sango sighed and headed to the door. "I'll go get you a tea. It should calm you down for the hour and a half." I nodded and smiled. "Oh by the way… She hasn't had anything to eat and she won't come out of her room. Maybe you can help." I looked from the retrieving back of my friend to the hallway on the right. First I had other patients to attend.

"There you go Mr. Hakim. Do you feel better?" I asked with a smile. "Thank you Ka-go-me." he said squeezing my hand. "You're very welcome." My smile widened as the sparkle in the old man's eyes appeared once again. He had been here for 30 years. He had no family and he had trouble with his speech. I was one of the few that understood him. He was like a grandfather to me. I snuggled his jacket closer to him then I opened the window a bit letting the chilly November air in. I looked at the clock and smiled. It had been fifteen minutes and I was done with the medications… for now. As I walked to the front desk I smelled something sweet. I turned looking at Sango. She winked and handed me a warm foam cup. I mouthed my thanks and she left once again. Just as I took a sip of the tea I felt a shiver go down my spine. I place the cup away from my lips when I felt a stare on my side. I looked to my left but saw no one. I turned towards the sitting area but most if not all the patients there were asleep or looking outside. The hallway to my right was where our stairs were and no one was allowed there since the patients were kept separated according to floors. I looked at the hallway on my left again and started walking.

Once I got to 35A I knocked. As expected, I got no answer so I walked in. Inside the white room was a white bed, a simple wooden table and a chair. The chair was facing the window and in the chair was a small figure. I gulped as I entered and closed the door. I looked at the uneven dull hair that was hanging loose from a simple ponytail. I didn't know what to do or what to say. That's when I noticed the goose bumps on my skin. The room was extremely cold. Freezing almost. "Rin-chan?" I whispered softly. The little girl didn't move. I walked to her side. She had the most beautiful features I had ever seen. Long, dark eyelashes that reached her eyebrows, a cute button nose, and rosy pouty lips. I smiled as I kneeled next to her. "Rin-chan? Are you cold?" She didn't even flinch. The fact that she was staring without blinking made me nervous. I got a bit closer to her. "Would you like me to turn the heat up?" I noticed a strand of hair that was awfully close to her eye. I reached up to tuck it behind her ear when she shrieked and grabbed my hand tightly. I flinched at the pain as the little girl twisted on my wrist with incredible strength. She kept screaming and her eyes shut. "R-Rin-chan! Rin-chan it's ok!" A nurse ran in and pried her off of me. Rin kept screaming at the top of her lungs. She thrashed around and kicked and scratched at the nurse. Her pale face was turning a deep shade of red. Just then Kim ran in and pulled me out. "Oh my gosh look at your wrist!" she squealed. I had forgotten all about that. I looked at the gruesome purple mark on my wrist. I gasped in horror. How could a little nine year old girl have done that! The head of the asylum ran to me. His brown eyes were full of fear. "Kagome you must go home and take care of that wound!" he said eyeing my hand. I nodded still in shock. "Call Sango. Ask her to come pick her up." he whispered to Kim who nodded.

I sat in the chair trembling. Kim was kneeling next to me rubbing my arm when Sango ran in. "What happened?!" she asked panting. "She got attacked by that new girl." whispered the blond next to me. Sango gasped and walked to me. "I'm so sorry Kagome." she whispered. I rocked back and forth. The look on her eyes. It was terrifying. "Come on Kagome. I'll take you home." With the help of the two, I was able to stand up. The cup of tea in my hand long forgotten.

We had arrived at my house at about 9:45. It was 1 o'clock and I hadn't been able to sleep. I cried for about an hour and even that hadn't tired me out. I sat up and decided to call Sango. Just as I was about to dial her number I felt the same cold gaze on me. I looked around but I was alone. I quickly dialed Sango's number and when I heard her voice I nearly broke down. "Kagome? Are you ok?" she asked with a worried tone. "I can't be alone Sango." I choked out. "Hold on. We'll go get you." Sango hanged up and I curled myself in my blankets as my eyes darted back and forth around my room.

Half an hour later I was sitting in the blue sofa in Sango's apartment. "That is very strange. Why hadn't you told me Sango?" I looked at Miroku, Sango's fiancé. My friend rolled her eyes as she picked her feet up and placed them on the small table. "Because I know how obsessed you get with these things." Miroku was a monk specializing in paranormal things. He feigned hurt by placing his hand at his heart. I giggled and my eyes slowly closed.

"Kagome. Kaaaagomeeee." sang Sango. I slowly opened my eyes and looked at her. "I'm going to Fukai." she whispered. "Why? What time is it?" I asked yawning. "About 5:30. I got called in. Stay here as long as you want. Miroku will be here so you won't be alone." I sat up and shook my head. "I wouldn't want to impose. I'll just tag along and make some extra hours." Sango looked at me. "Are you sure?" I nodded and followed her out the door.

I sipped on the warm tea as we entered the asylum. An older nurse sat on the desk fixing papers. She had a bandage on her arm. "She got scratched by her." I whispered to Sango. She stopped and looked at me from the top of her cup. I walked to the hallway only to be stopped by my brunette friend. "What are you doing? That child nearly broke your wrist!" she whispered. "I know and I find that strange. I need to know why she reacted the way she did." Sango sighed and let go of my arm. Once I got to 35A I knocked and again there was no answer. I sighed and opened the door. Again, the chair was facing the window and the young girl was sitting in it. "Rin-chan?" I neared her and kneeled next to her. "Rin-chan." She didn't move. I sighed and moved to face her without getting too close to her. I moved up just so I could look into her eyes. Big mistake. Her brown eyes were hard and cold. Lifeless even. She really did look like a doll with glass eyes. "Rin-chan I apologize." I whispered. "I didn't mean to upset you so much. I promise never to do it again." For an instant I saw something flicker in those stone cold eyes. "W-Would you like me to tell the others not to touch you like I did?" I said softly. My eyes looked into hers and I smiled. I was terrified but I couldn't show that to her. Her eyes were the same as the patients in F wing. That's where we kept the patients that had to be in white jackets, confined in windowless rooms with cushioned walls. They were the ones who were… a bit special. We had to have security guards with arms ready. Only males doctors and nurses were allowed there. Suddenly I realized that the little girl was looking at me. Not just looking through me. She blinked slowly. My smile widened. "Would you like me to let them know not to go near you unless it is necessary?" I asked.

Her eyes wandered to the Styrofoam cup in my hands. I took advantage to examine her closer. Her hair was dull and cut randomly. Some of it wasn't held back in the messy ponytail. Her face was thin and it looked mildly dirty. Her gown was thin and it looked to be two sizes two big for her. I don't think the asylum has a gown her size. Her arms were frail and thin. Her hands were neatly placed on her lap. She was still looking at the cup. "Are you hungry?" I asked. Her eyes shot back up and they went back to being cold. I smiled and stood up. "Come on. Let's put that chair over by the table so you can have a drink." For a few moments she did nothing but stare. I sighed about to give up when she slowly stood. She didn't move. I moved to take the chair but stopped. "I'm going to take the chair ok?" I stretched my arms to take the piece of furniture without upsetting her. When it was put near the table I turned. "Ok. It's set. You can come and sit if you'd like." I whispered. I smiled as she turned and took small steps towards the chair. I moved out of the way so I wouldn't invade her bubble. Once she sat, I place the warm cup in front of her. She stared at it and looked back at me. "Go ahead. It's warm tea." I said smiling. Her trembling hands reached up and took the cup as if it would shatter at any moment. She picked the cup and placed it delicately on her lips and took a sip. The trembling wouldn't stop. She placed the cup down and looked at me. "It's yours Rin-chan. You can drink all you want." I said kneeling on the opposite side of the table. Her hands trembled more as she picked it up again. "Rin it's not going to hurt you. Nothing will happen to you if you pick it up or drink it." She stopped and held the cup in her lap. I looked at her eyes and inwardly gasped. They had changed to a light brown. Her eyes looked watery but I couldn't find any trace of tears. She looked like she had cried for years and the tears had been engraved in her eyes.

My own eyes watered just looking at her. "I…I promise, I swear that no matter what happened before, none of that will happen again. I will not let anyone hurt you Rin." I whispered. She took a sip of the tea and placed the cup down. "Why do you care?" I bit my lip at the harsh tone of her voice. She sounded like one of those men in uniforms that would shout at soldiers. "Because you are my patient Rin. And because you're young." I smiled at her. "Why do you smile if you do not mean it?" she barked. I flinched. "You are afraid of me. All of you are. You think I'm some sort of maniac!" she screamed. I flinched again at the harshness of her voice and at the strong words she was using. She growled and flung herself towards me. Her small hands gripped at my neck and all air was cut. "You think I'm dangerous." she hissed. I shook my head. "I d-don't." I wheezed. Her small hands got tighter. "That's what I want. I don't want anyone near me!" she yelled throwing me with brute strength. "If you do I will kill you." she whispered. Her face was twisted into a psychopathic smile. I sat up and rubbed my swelled up wrist. "Rin-chan, I don't want to harm you. I don't think you're dangerous and no matter what you say or do I will not leave you." I stood and looked at her with soft eyes. "I promise you will never be hurt again." I said with tears falling. "Why are you crying?" she asked coldly. I sighed and walked to her. I got to her eyelevel. "Because Rin. Because I don't want you to hurt. I don't want you to be afraid. Because it hurts me to see such a sweet little girl like this." I was caught off guard when she flew to me again. This time, however, she wrapped her arms around me and sobbed into the crook of my neck. I held her as she sobbed for what seemed like hours until she had quieted down. "Rin-chan." I whispered wiping her tears. "Will you tell me what happened?" I saw her nod and I sat her on the bed.

Rin's POV

I looked at this woman with curiosity. I had never seen her or heard of her yet she managed to make me cry. Something about her eyes made me confide in her. I was always taught to never trust anyone. I sighed. This was making me feel worse and worse. I decided to tell this woman about my past.

"It all started when Otou-san passed away. We were very close. We did everything together." I whispered as I eyed the spilled tea on the table. "My favorite thing was tea time. He would have Jasmine Oolong tea and he would always give me some in my cup. One night I heard a loud noise coming from his study and when I walked in, he was hanging from the ceiling. I cried and tried to run to him but my Mother stopped me. I looked at her and all she did was stare at my father. She didn't try to help him. I blame her for letting him die." I seethed. I swallowed and stared at the wall. "Then that man came along. He and Mother married quickly. He and his two daughters came to live with us. They always treated me badly. They pushed me and they said ugly things. Then one morning I was handed over to a man. He pulled me over to a car and I yelled for my Mother but she just stared. I was taken to a place where nuns lived. Since I was too small to work, they kept me locked in a room with other girls. We never went outside except when a man that we had to call Father came and took one of us out. About a year ago I was washing the clothes that had just came in. I was in a hurry because we were promised that if we finished we would be able to eat that night. I realized that I had forgotten the bundle I had ironed so I went to the room next to the laundries. That man came in and…" I trailed off as I felt tears stinging my eyes. I still felt dirty after all this time. I hated it! "and he touched me all over. He put his filthy hands all over me! He made me bend over and no matter how loud I screamed no one helped me!" I sobbed. The lady wrapped her arms around me. "But-but it's ok. He said he was going to protect me. He has. At first he couldn't c-cause he was in here and he only protected me in here." I pointed to my head tapping it. "But now he can! After that day he can! He comes and he protects me." I said gripping her shirt. "But then the bad guys come and he has to go back inside and we fight them together." I said explaining to her everything that I couldn't hold in.

Back to Kagome's POV

I looked at the little girl as she talked hysterically. "Rin-chan calm down. Talk slower." I smiled at her when she stopped talking. "I want to know everything about this magnificent protector. Ok?" She nodded and smiled. She smiled for the first time. "Ok let's back up. You said he couldn't protect you at first but he protected you here right?" She nodded again. She seemed happy that I understood her. "What do you mean?" I saw Rin look away. When her eyes went back to me they were the same cold eyes she had before. "I had bad thoughts and he made me stop." she whispered. "Bad thoughts? Like what?" "Like killing them. Like going to Mother and stabbing her. She didn't help Otou-san. And going to the nuns and everyone that starved us and hit us and made us work and hitting them. Watching as their faces broke. Stabbing their eyes and drawing with their blood." I gasped at the horrible things this little girl was saying. Suddenly I saw a flash across the sky. At first I thought it was thunder but after not seeing any more I thought it was an airplane.

Rin gripped her hair mumbling something like 'Sorry, I know,' and 'ok' over and over again. She looked at me with her light chocolate eyes. "I'm a bad girl. I didn't mean to let them loose! Honest I didn't! I tried to put them back but I couldn't! A-and now they're coming after me…" she whimpered pacing around the room. She rubbed her hands together and twitched slightly. "They're after me. They know I'm here. They're coming." she mumbled. I got nervous looking at her. "Rin no one-" she threw herself in front of me. Her eyes looked frantic and terrified. "Get out. Get out or they'll hurt you too. Out.. Out.. Get out." she whispered. "Rin.." I tried reaching for her but she pushed me, sending me stumbling towards the table. "Out! OUT! GET OUT! LEAVE ME ALONE! GET OUT!" she shrieked pulling her hair. Her eyes were wide and they looked so dark, almost black. I got up and ran to the door. I walked out quickly but I could clearly hear her talking. "I'm sorry. They're coming. They'll kill me. Help me. Don't leave me.. Out…" What I didn't see was a shadow slowly creeping into the room.

WOW! That took forever. I'm not so happy with this but oh well.. I'm tired and I need to pee. I know there is a lot of Kagome and Sango in this but it IS a RinXSesshomaru story. He will come in after I get un-lazy. Next chapter will probably not be this long but it will be about Rin's mind and what goes on in it. Please R&R! And thanks to Zaraki-lover 21 and icegirljenni who did! It inspired me to upload(: