ANNNND WE'RE BACK ;D

I poked Josh with the tv remote with a scowl on my face. He was such a little bitch when he wakes up and I wasn't in the mood to deal with it.

"What the..?" He opened his left eye a bit. "Ugh I told you to stop waking me up like that."

"Sorry but I had to tell you something." He rolled his eyes and covered his ears. Josh was immature. And yeah, Percy Jackson was immature too. But Josh was immature in a bad way that made you want to rip your hair out..

"You have my full attention." Sarcasm was detected there.

"No I don't. I never do. So stop and listen to me for once!" My somewhat crazy person tone seemed to have freaked him. "Fine. I'm listening this time."

Good. "I don't want you to take this the wrong way.." I was going to do it. There was no way around it. I'm not an idiot, I would never tell him the details! I would only do that if I wanted him to murder Percy.

His eyes widened, "What do I stink or something?"

"No.. it's just-"

"I do stink don't I?"

"YOU DON'T FUCKING STINK!" I rarely swore and Josh knows that. This is the part where he realizes something is truly eating me alive.

"Then what is it." He was curious and probably had his theories. At this point he knew it was serious, but how serious? Did he know I was going to call off the wedding? Even after the invitations were sent out? The food ordered? Everything was set. Except for my heart.

"I really don't know how to start this.." I didn't. Whatever I said this wasn't going to be an easy pill for him to swallow. "I've been thinking."

"About?" He hugged the pillow close to his body, ready for the next part.

"I just don't know if this is going to work?" deep breaths. How the Hades did my yoga instructor tell me to do it?

"What's going to work?" He asked even though deep down he knew the answer. People always ask stupid questions, whether they truly know or not. In Josh's case he knew what I was going to say. Why did he ask such an obvious question? Because he wasn't ready to believe it.

"Us. The wedding. Everything about us. I can't do this anymore; try so hard to love someone that I'm not in love with."

Even if I wasn't telling the whole truth about why, that part was true. Every single word I said in those sentences I meant. It had been a long time now that I wasn't in love with him, but just like Josh had done right before I wouldn't admit it to myself.

"Wow." He stood up, his face red and his mouth making an 'O'. "You're kind of a bitch, you know that?" He was angry.. Just as I had expected.

I didn't respond, because he didn't want me to. Josh was feeling on a rant. He always yelled and ranted when he was angry, and quite frankly I didn't even want to argue with him.

"How could you fucking say that!? Pretend to love me? God damn it, I'm the best fucking thing that ever happened to you ungrateful little-" He stopped and took a breath. "I'm pissed. Actually I'm beyond pissed!" I. Don't. Care.

He kicked the chair and then slapped me in the face. I stood up now. That was too far! "What the heck is wrong with you!?" I pointed my index finger in his face. I wasn't afraid to go head to head with him. He had to learn how these things work. You don't ever hit a woman, even if she is breaking up with you two weeks before your wedding.

"Nothing is wrong with me! It's you who's the crazy one!" I protested. I raised my arm ready to strike him and he backed away.

"I'm not the one who hit a girl. Do you feel better about yourself now, huh?" With each word I smacked his arm. Oh, I was saving for the punch square in the face for last!

"Like I said, crazy." He rubbed his arm where I had hit him. "I bet it's because of that bastard Jackson." He said his name with so much venom it could kill someone.

"Guess what!? It IS." I hadn't planned on telling him, but I was done. I was done with his behavior. I was seriously starting to question how I ever fell for this guy..

His voice cracked, "I knew he was gonna come and steal my girl." Emotion.. I hadn't planned on seeing emotion. A tear or two slid down his cheeks from the corner of his eye. "I thought we had something, but I guess not." No, I was smart enough not to fall for this. Sure, he might have genuinely felt bad, but he had still hit me and I would never go back to him for that.

The living room light flickered on and off. There was a short and sweet moment of silence before I spoke up. "I'm sorry. I never wanted to fight, bhut you brought this upon yourself."

"Leave. Go get your stuff. This isn't your fucking house anymore." He gave me a light push towards the bedroom indicating for me to grab everything I owned. Of course I had no place to stay, but I'd sleep on the streets before I spent the night in this house.

I quickly packed up my belongings only taking what I could carry. I'd come another day when we had both cooled down to get the rest.

"Bye." I said and slammed the door of the apartment. Yes, I cried. Anyone would have after what I had just gone through. I didn't know what i was feeling. Mostly relieved I guess. Relieved to have gotten it over with, but not in any way was I happy. Hell. I was feeling like hell.

There were a few options of places to stay. I couldn't go to Percy's, not with Charlotte still around. How could they still be living together? i sat on the curb for a while before finally deciding to go see Piper.

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"Pipes?" I asked as she opened the door, "Can I spend the night?" I looked like a complete mess, but I knew Piper wouldn't judge me. i also knew that piper knew exactly what had happened if she saw the remnants of my tears.

"You did it huh?" Her brown hair was in a messy braid and her kaleidoscope eyes showed concern for me.

I choked one word out, "Yeah."

'Can i get you anything?" She asked as I stepped into the small two-floored house she shared with Leo who was playing a video game. He paused his game and looked up at me not speaking.

"Just some mint tea and a friend to talk to."

Piper hugged me. "I can get you both."

sorry if it was a little too sad. I write sad stuff when i'm sad.

now i want some mint tea. :P

~*LOLA*~