A/N: Another companion to Selfish.
Confused
I am confused.
My nature makes it difficult to hold a grudge.
I want with all of my heart to go back to him.
I want to trust him.
But I cannot.
I forgive him, though I have not told him so.
But I cannot simply forget.
Truthfully, I am still in love with Robin.
I am not in love with the obsessive, heartless creature that he becomes at the mention of Slade.
I am in love with the kind, awkward, and gentle boy that comforted me when I was sad, reassured me when I was doubtful, and worried when I was in danger.
That Robin was my best friend. He was the one that I shared lip contact with in Tokyo.
He keeps attempting to recapture my heart with material things, but they have no effect on me.
A roomful of floral arrangements does not mend my heart.
His empty apologies mean nothing to me.
I know he feels regret.
I just do not know why. Does he feel remorse for his words, or does he merely feel regret for making me unhappy?
I need proof that he wants me back because he loves me and is sorry for his words, not because he feels obligated to do so.
I need him to do something he is apparently incapable of doing.
I need him to be open with his feelings.