A/N- I have been gone forever. I know. I'm so sorry! It's just everything caught up with me plus my writing partner, muse19, was getting married (wedding's done, it was great) and we both hadn't written a lot of this next chapter. I meant to have this up 2 weeks ago, I was planning to finish it on the plane to Russia to meet Danila (if you want to know about that pm me) but I ended up studying for APs instead. Thank god that's over. Only 3 more weeks of school to go and then I'll have plenty of time to write. Though for now, I hope this makes up for my super long absence.
Chapter 3: Unbelieveable
Rose POV
I stood there stunned for a moment. Then all of a sudden I shoved the test into my pocket and stomped out of the clinic. I knew I wasn't taking this well but I didn't know what to do. I just needed to be alone to think. I couldn't tell Dimitri, he would think I cheated. I didn't know what I would do. I should keep it, it was a miracle baby, but I couldn't raise a baby alone. I can't ruin Dimitri's career, ruin my career, but could I really take the life of my unborn child. I brushed passed Dimitri on my way out. He called after me but I didn't stop.
I kept walking deep into the woods. When I got to the edge of the cabin I walked toward the garden and sat down in front of the tree staring at my hands. I had taken the test out and was flipping it back and forth.
Moments later I heard the crunching of grass around me, Dimitri must have caught up with me. I paid him no mind, still staring at the test in my hands. "What's wrong Rose?" Dimitri asked. I didn't answer for a moment, thinking about what I was going to say. Finally I looked up at him and took a deep breath. "Dimitri...Something is wrong. And… and I need some..." I looked at him with his worried expression. "I need time away from you."
Dimitri stared at me shocked. I guess that was the last thing he thought he'd ever hear me say, especially since I usually was the one who pushed him to give in to his feelings for me in the first place. Then suddenly I felt myself being pulled up by Dimitri and then pushed into the shadows against a tree. He trapped me with his body towering over me. "Tell me what's wrong Roza. And I'll fix it. Don't push me away." he pleaded with me.
I didn't know what to say to him. I wanted to tell Dimitri everything, I really did, but I don't think I could take it if he left me too. I had already lost so much, I couldn't lose Dimitri too. Rose: "I'm..." I started, I looked at him and felt my insides shift. I started again. "Dimitri...I would never lie to you." He nodded. "I know that Roza." he said to me. "Tell me what's wrong." He trusted me so implicitly, what would he think of me now, would he think I broke that trust?
"I don't..." I don't know how to tell him. Dimitri was more relaxed now. I managed to pull away from him. "I'm sorry." I said to him, before running further into the woods. I didn't know where I was going I just needed to get away.
Before long Dimitri caught up to me and scooped me up into his arms. I should have known this would happen. Damn him and his long legs. He put me down, but kept an iron grip on my arm. "Tell me what's wrong Rose." he commanded. No matter our relationship status, he was still my senior and mentor and I couldn't ignore a command. My head shot up and I snapped, "It was positive!" Dimitri looked at me confused. "The thing...the thing was positive! And...it means...it means…" Dimitri's expression didn't change. Exasperated I pushed him away and threw the stick at him. I stood a distance away, just waiting for the shame, anger, and disapproval.
I watched as Dimitri picked up the stick and stared at it. He flipped it in his hands not different from what I was doing earlier. I wonder what was going through his mind; did he think I cheated, raped, or would he believe me, believe that this is our miracle baby. After a while he just looked up and stared at me, asking for an explanation. "I've only been with you." I told him as he just stood there. "Only you."
Dimitri shook his head in denial and confusion. "It's...it's not possible Rose." he said seriously. Did he think I would joke about something like this? I looked at him and I felt my face drop at his expression, he didn't believe me. The worst feeling that I ever had came over me. "I swear." I pleaded with him. "I swear on Lissa that I never." Dimitri kept shaking his head in denial. "Rose don't...tell me who did this to you." he demanded.
He really didn't trust me. I was heart broken, the man I held above everything in the world didn't believe. "You did this to me..." I said slowly, giving him one last chance to believe. I looked at him with wide eyes. " You ...don't..." I nodded my head. " Okay. I see." I had never felt so cheap, used, so low. "Why should you trust me?" I started going off. "I'm just Rose Hathaway. That dirty little blood whore, everyone talks about."
"Roza." Dimitri started. "Rose you know I trust you completely. You know I don't think of you that way Roza. But what you're saying, it's not possible." Why wouldn't he just believe. There were miracles all around him. Heck, I was a miracle, I shouldn't be alive, but he I was, arguing with him in the middle of the night.
I walked up to him and I slapped Dimitri across the face hard. My face was tear stained and my eyes blood shot. "And what your saying, is what? Some Moroi raped me? Dimitri, not even Adrian is that good with compulsion." I shouted at him. It was good we were in the middle of the woods where no one could hear us. "No! What you're really saying is you want nothing to do with this child". I turned around and started walking away. With each step I took I could feel my heart crumbling.
Then Dimitri grabbed my arm again. "Roza please..." he said quietly. "I want everything to do with you. If you say this is my child then it's my child, but I have to ask Rose. Are you absolutely sure. This shouldn't be possible." If Dimitri was still doubting me, I didn't want him anywhere near me. If he could hurt me this much now, who knows how much it would hurt in the future. I can't let myself or my child be hurt by him, what if he leaves the baby. He didn't want to take responsibility now, I doubted that he would take responsibility then.
"I've already said the truth. I'm not saying it again." I told him, wrenching my arm out of his grasp as I turned from him and started back to the school. I didn't get far before Dimitri grabbed me and turned me around again. "Rose…" he growled. If I wasn't royally pissed at him right now I might have even found it attractive.
"Let me go." I hissed, tugging from him. My emotions and stress level was out the roof. I glared at him and felt a wave of pain hit me in the stomach." I need time to...figure this out..." I felt the pain hit me again. Dimitri suddenly let me go and I stumbled over towards a tree, letting it support by body weight. The pain hit me again and I fell onto the ground, clutching my stomach.
"Roza! Roza! Are you okay?" Dimitri hovered over me. He picked me up off the ground and started carrying me towards the cabin.I was in too much pain to fight him. " Dimitri..." I looked up at him and tears rushed down my face. "I need to go back." The last thing I saw before I passed out was Dimitri's face. The last thing I thought about was my baby.
Dimitri POV
I watched as Rose stomped out of the clinic in a fury. I hurried followed her, trying not to seem stalkerish. I wonder what was wrong. When I caught up to her we were right in front of the cabin. I saw her sitting in front of a tree flipping something over and over in her hands. I walked over and crouched down in front of her. Even like this I towered over her. "What's wrong Rose?" I asked. It has to be something really bad for Rose to act this way. She hadn't had an outburst in weeks.
Rose stayed silent for a moment before speaking. The small white stick just kept flipping back and forth between her hands, as if she was nervous about something. "Dimitri…" she started. "Something is wrong. And…" Rose was stuttering, whatever it was, I could see that she was preoccupied over it. "and I need some..." I looked at him with his worried expression. "I need time away from you." she finally said.
No. I refused to let her push me away now. Rose needed to learn that she wasn't alone anymore. I would always be here for her. I pulled her off the ground and backed Rose up into a tree deeper in the shadows. "Tell me what's wrong Roza. And I'll fix it. Don't push me away."
Rose stared at her feet, refusing to look me in the eye. "I'm..." she started, as she glanced up at me, not meeting me completely eye to eye. "Dimitri...I would never lie to you." she blurted out quickly. "I know that Roza." I said moving closer to her. "Tell me what's wrong."
Rose seemed to make herself even smaller. I had relaxed a bit now and she had managed to sneak out of my arms surrounding her. "I don't..." Rose started to say, "I'm sorry." she said instead, before turning away and running deeper into the woods. She was fast but I was faster. When I caught her I lifted her off the ground and turned her around. "Tell me what's wrong Rose." I said sternly, using my mentor voice.
"It was positive!" Rose yelled at me, getting louder and louder. "The thing...the thing was positive! And...it means...it means…" I was confused. Then Rose pushed me away and threw something at my chest. It fell to the ground and I picked it up. It was the white stick Rose was fiddling with earlier. I looked more closely and found that it was a pregnancy test. I only knew from when Karolina was first pregnant with Paul. It was positive, were my eyes tricking me? I just stood there stunned. I flipped it over and then back to look at the result again. Still positive. There was no way it was mine. Dhampirs couldn't have children together, as much as I wished for one. Did Roza cheat? No, Rose would never. Did someone force her?
Finally I looked toward Rose for an explanation. "I've only been with you." she said with confidence. "Only you." It wasn't possible. I knew what I was giving up when I decided to be with Roza. There was no way my child was growing in her stomach right now. I would still love the child if she decided to keep it, raise it as my own, but it wasn't mine, and it was cruel for Rose to entertain the thought. Maybe she was compelled to forget or something. "It's...it's not possible Rose." I repeated out loud to her.
"I swear." she pleaded. "I swear on Lissa that I never." My gaze didn't change. I saw Rose's face drop. I, I couldn't look her in the eye right now, there was so much hurt on her face, but it couldn't be. Now that I thought about it I never wanted a child between Rose and I as badly as I did now. And now she was probably pregnant with some morois child. Probably Ivashkov. "Rose don't...tell me who did this to you."
"You did this to me..." she said, her voice shaking. I didn't know what to say. She couldn't expect me to believe that right? It was impossible! It's what we've known for our entire lives. It had to be a delusion. I kept staring at her in disbelief. " You ...don't..." she asked. I shook my head slowly. "Okay. I see." she said, before she started going off at me, her mood suddenly changing. "Why should you trust me?" she shouted at me. "I'm just Rose Hathaway. That dirty little blood whore, everyone talks about."
Did she really think of herself so lowly? Roza was better than that, and she knew it. I knew it, Rose blew away everything that everyone had spoken about her when I first arrived at the academy. She had impressed me again and again. "Rose you know I trust you completely." I said to her. "You know I don't think of you that way Roza. But what you're saying, it's not possible."
*Slap* Rose stood right in front of me now, tears streaming down her face. "And what your saying, is what?" she shouted at me. "Some Moroi raped me? Dimitri, not even Adrian is that good with compulsion." Rose started jabbing at my chest. "No! What you're really saying is you want nothing to do with this child". She hit me harder with every word.
I was shocked by the way Rose was acting. I knew this fighting was going to get us nowhere. "Roza please..." I said quietly. We both needed to calm down. "I want everything to do with you. If you say this is my child then it's my child, but I have to ask Rose. Are you absolutely sure. This shouldn't be possible." I didn't want to get my hopes up. Never before did I want a child with Rose until now. Seeing the tears pour down her face I knew she did too, but I knew it wasn't possible. I didn't want Rose to have to live with the denial of what happened to her, to constantly live in fear with this child as a reminder of what had happened to her.
"I've already said the truth. I'm not saying it again." Rose said, turning around and walking away from me. I stopped her, grabbing Rose quite roughly as she turned around. I needed to know the truth. "Rose..." I said in a warning voice. This conversation wasn't over.
"Let me go." Rose hissed, pulling away from me. " I need time to...figure this out..." Rose stumbled toward a tree, groaning. Suddenly she dropped to the ground clutching her stomach. "Roza! Roza! Are you okay?" I hurried over to her. Instinctively I picked her up and started walking to the cabin. I needed to get her somewhere safe and comfortable. Surprisingly she didn't fight me. " Dimitri..." she whispered in pain. "I need to go back." My heart sunk as I saw my Roza in so much pain. Rose closed her eyes, "Roza?!" I shouted at her. I shook her in my arms, she wouldn't wake up. I tightened my grip on her and ran towards the clinic. I was so worried. What was wrong?
I was so worried for her and her child. Even if it wasn't mine it was still part Roza and if she decided to keep it I would love it like my own. The doctors took her away immediately and started hooking her up to a bunch of machines. I stood looking through the window as they worked. I hoped she would be okay. When the doctor gave me the all clear, I immediately went to her side, squeezing her hand. I hoped she could feel me. I think I was giving more comfort to myself than her. Hours later the princess showed, looking for Rose. We sat together waiting for Roza to wake up.
A/N- I hope that makes up for my longish absence! I'll try to have more up tomorrow or this weekend. TRY being the key word.
Ciao!
~Tiffany 3