Gone

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''….and I said I knew….I didn't….but I didn't….I didn't…want anybody else to…to get hurt…and he let me go….but then when I wanted…when I wanted to walk out the room….'' Matt said then as he got tears in his eyes.

''If you don't want to tell me, don't tell me.'' The doctor said as he knew just thinking about what happened was hurting the man.

''Look, it is good if you can talk about what happened with me but I don't want you to hurt…just know you are always safe to tell everything here.'' The doctor said then as he knew it was time to finish up the session, not so much because of the time but he knew the man could not take much longer anymore.

Matt just nodded and walked out then. He just wanted to be out of here to a place where he did have to go back to those weeks that Nesbitt had had him. It was like his brain was trying to block it but then people kept talking to him about it and that hurt. It hurt to think about it again. He walked to the waiting room. he was so happy that Gabby was there as she seemed like the only person he could really trust…and she was so sweet to him…he was just happy that she had forgiven him for disappearing. He hugged her, so happy to hold her again and he hoped that soon, he could be the boyfriend for her again that he should be because of their baby. He just hoped he could do that…but she was amazing and without her support the would never be able to do it.

''How did it go?''

Matt just shrugged and she nodded, not sure how to reply because she was not sure how it really gone because he was not really talking again.

She walked to the car with him again and just tried to smile to him as they were going to firehouse and she was hoping that it would have a great afternoon with the guys and that it would make him feel better and talking with the guys would make him talk more. If they were talking about all the things he used to talk about before with all of them was maybe something that would make it easy for him to return to normal.

She held his arm as they walked into the common room and she just hoped that everybody would react like nothing was up. But obviously they all looked a bit shocked when they saw him. Matt walked inside, slowly and looked around then.

Kelly tried to take a deep breath as he saw his friend. He looked better than the last time he had seen him when he had visited him in the hospital, but Matt still looked so think and scared compared to the man he was before.

But then he jumped up.

''Great to see you here man…'' Kelly said and he walked Matt's way.

''hey…'' Matt said softly as all the man kept talking to him and he wasn't sure who to listen to. Honestly it all overwhelmed him so much.

''Let's go and sit down…'' Kelly said then.

Matt nodded slowly as Kelly guided him to the table and they sat down. They tried to talk a bit calmer now as they saw that they talking so much and fast to overwhelming on Matt. Matt didn't say much but they still tried to entertain him.

''Matt, did you see the football yesterday?'' Kelly asked then and finally Matt started to smile a bit. He had seen it this morning so he would finally be able to talk about something.

''yes…I watched it this morning…before going…before going to the doctor.'' Matt finally said and they all talked about it and Gabby was so glad as he as finally talking a bit more. The old conversations they always had was enough to get him back to the old good times and she hoped that it would make him feel better.

''By the way…we got something to tell you….'' Gabby said.

Matt looked at her, not sure if she was going to tell them the good news and what to say to them. Was she going to tell them about the baby? It made him a tiny bit nervous but he was really excited for him to know. The baby and Gabby were the only people that were keeping him together now so that he could not completely fall apart, but he was so happy about the baby.

''We are expecting a baby.'' She said then and all of them seemed to be happy, but also worried but they were hiding that form Matt. After they celebrated the news a bit Matt and Gabby were ready to go home as Matt seemed so tired.

''They looked at me…so weird…'' Matt said then as he looked out of the window but she could see tears filling his eyes. Sometimes it seemed like it was like old times but then soon he broke down again to that fragile person he was sometimes.

''They are just worried about you…and you know, they were also really happy for us about the baby.'' She said but Matt kept looking out of the window. He was out of his happy please now and back in his unhappy place and that made her so sad. It had been going so well.

As she parked the car Matt walked out and into the apartment. She walked after him, hoping that he would be doing okay because it upset her that he was so upset again when he walked to the baby room, grabbing a brush and started to paint the wall again.

''Matt the room is done…there is no more pa-''

Angry he made strokes with the brush and Gabby was quiet then. He kept making the strokes angry and finally the tears streamed down his cheeks but finally it seemed like it was actually calming him down. She just let him go, let him paint the wall until he seemed to collapse.

''Matt…'' She just said softly and he dropped the brush on the ground then and started sobbing. She sat down beside him on the ground and pulled him against her again and tried to comfort him but when he finally stopped crying, he fell asleep against her and she realized that today might have been a bit much for him. He was asleep but he still seemed so stressed.

She had barely ever seen him cry before all of this and she gritted her teeth, angry because Nesbitt had changed him to this broken man.

NOTE: Matt has been talking a bit to the doctor again and we got a bit more insight and of course we will still find out more in the upcoming chapters! He went to the firehouse a bit later and while the guys overwhelmed him a bit at first and did not talk at first but then when the guys started to talk about sports he finally started talking again and he and Gabby even talked about their baby. After that Matt got upset though because of the guys were a bit shocked when eh saw him he suddenly went to the baby room and was just trying to pain there as he was so upset. He collapsed then and Gabby was just so angry at Nesbit for doing this to him…this sure isn't over yet!

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