Dear Diary,

I have been here for almost a year. Time seems to move slower. I haven't seen my family or friends since I came here. This place, I feel has allowed me to evaluate my life and how I reacted irrationally when you know who broke my heart into millions of pieces.

In retrospect, a hero and a villain's daughter would never have worked out. I tried so hard but at least I have happy memories and can move on. The type of guy I should be with has to come from my own circle, be evil of course, not too much older than me, cares for me as much as I do him, similar to Daddy, well accepts how am I and will not change it, and most importantly loves me. Yeah, that'd be a great guy. How he looks is whatever, okay if he's handsome I would not object, you know? But what does this mean for me?

To be honest if he asked me if we could be back together, I would in a heartbeat. At the same time, I know that probably isn't going to happen. One could always hope. When I first got here, I still had these thoughts of Billy coming, saying he made a mistake and that he loves me and we fly off to the sunset. How unrealistic I know, but..I don't know...

Have you ever noticed that Klarion looks like he wants to say something important but says completely stupid things instead? Like the other day when he was teaching me how to use magic. He was showing off of course by magically juggling giant boulders. He said that magic is all about the user's control and focus, because if he didn't focus he could die. Well he can't die but mortals such as myself could, his words not mine.

Well I was practicing with pebbles, I seem to understand the basics just well enough, but to put it in practice is completely different. Well I was actually juggling for one, and two the only magic I could do was stage magic. Real magic is so hard but at the same time so simple. I could like slightly move small objects with magic but then I lose focus when I get frustrated. God, so annoying. Klarion says when I actually don't think about it, the objects actually do what I want but I have yet to see it.

The funny thing was, he was losing focus when he was trying to help me. So keep in mind the boulders are still spinning above us, he cupped his hands over mine and says to just breathe and imagine the pebbles circling as they did before but without my hands to guide them. He leaned in and realized his face so close to mine and well, all the boulders started to speed up spinning faster and faster that my dress started to lift with them. The pebbles soon joined the boulders but not of my accord but his. His face turned bright red and either out of embarrassment or anger, he pushed me down to the ground and yelled that this is why mortals are so stupid and he shouldn't waste his time as he flew off.

The boulders fell around me making an odd shape. I walked out from the area in quite a daze and that it was a heart...

Does Klarion like me? But why?

Do I like him? Well he gave me a getaway to ease my mind off things. He acts so immature at times but he always makes sure I'm safe from any shenanigans that he pulls. Also when he touched my hands, it made my heart beat a bit but then again boulders were also starting to spin out of control. You know what maybe it's because I've been spending a lot of time with him and I'm getting nightingale syndrome from him taking care of me this past year. He hasn't really left me alone or even returned to my dimension to reek havoc and what not. Then again my dad, Brainiac, and legions of supervillains would kill or at the least maim him from me being even minutely hurt. Also Stokholm syndrome is another possibility but again I'm not really into, destroying everything for fun. Manipulation sure but not really a big violence and destruction type of gal.

What to do? If Brainiac was here I would ask him, but then he would human emotions are meaningless and unecessary. He would also point that Klarion has said several cruel things to me but I would just tell him. He hasn't hurt me and he really doesn't mean it. To be frank, Brainiac would take me away to explore the universe and beyond after he has conquered and enslaved Earth. I show promise he says.

But what to do about Klarion? I could check or test it out. Should be simple.

Later on, when we were in his castle, he was playing with Teekl. Somewhat cruelly since he put him in a dress and was laughing his ass off. Did I forget to mention I curse now , deal with it. Okay, I'm sorry Brainiac, but I'm growing up and should use the appropriate words that go with the situation. As I was saying, I approached them wearing somewhat scandously. Well for me. Have you seen some of those superheroes and supervillains. There's one who's boobs keep getting bigger and bigger everytime I see her. Probably some guy's twisted pleasure but no one else seems to notice. Whatevs.

I was wearing a skirt that I pulled really high and then folded, so half of my thighs are being shown. I cut up an old t shirt and made it a mid drift and cut the top to show my nonexistent cleavage . So a lot of skin.

He is still distracted with his back towards me. I gave him one of those hugs that I've seen Harley give Daddy. I pressed my chest to his back and squeezed.

"Hey, Klarion. "

He disappeared. Like poof and then I saw him sprawled out on the wall, bug eyed. He was panicking and he asked "Luna, hey. What the fuck are you doing?"

I played it off like how I see Daddy do to Harley. "I don't know what you mean?" I tilted my head and put my arms out in a slight shrugged pose.

"Are you trying to seduce me, Mrs. Robinson?"

I chuckled. " I think you are older than me, Klarion. "

I crossed my arms behind my back and slowly walked to him as I got about a foot from in. I leaned to him, grinning. "But do you think I am?"

He looked stunned. He looked right and left. He let his arms fall and they slowly reached out to me. I let myself be embraced by him. He burrows his head into my neck as I wrap my arms around, but I don't know still. I like him of course but not how I felt when Billy showed up with a bunch of broken roses still as Captain Marvel , looking so embarrassed that he was 2 hours late to our first date; the movie long over. He shrunk down and he started to wipe his eyes with his sleeve and not wanting to see me he kept it there. He screamed that he was sorry as he thrusted the flowers to me. I fell in love with him that day.

Klarion. He took me away. When I was younger, he would say that he would take over the world and that I was the only female who could reign beside him. I thought he was this funny looking guy who was sweet when he wants to be but at the same time he can be cruel. Just like Daddy. I've seen things you know? When Daddy has his moods, he forgets about me and once that happens he loses himself. He gets erratic, hateful, and vicious. That's why I have Brainiac. When everyone goes crazy, I need someone, but now I'm losing everyone as I grow up, and here's Klarion. He has not abandoned me this year. Always with me or at least nearby.

I will choose him at least for now. With tears falling out, I told him, "Yes, I am yours and you are mine ."

He smiled and he picked me up and swung me. "We will rule together, my queen! Forever."

I just smiled, because if this is the rest of my life, with him, I could grow to love him or use him, as he'll probably use me. That mutual understanding could let me do something, keep me occupied, until I figure out what to do. I'm going to break so many promises but this is my life now and I will do what I want.