Hey guys! it's been a while since i've uploaded! I apologize for that! I want to thank all of u that have been reading my story and my new readers! it means a lot! :)
anyways i'm going to upload 2 chapters today to make up for my long time and cause i'm in a good mood! i got my liscense today and a dog! but what sucks is my ear hurst really bad i think i have an ear infection but idk lol anyways i do not own anything Stephenie Meyer does :)
Bella's POV
It had been a week since I had seen him, a week since I had stared into his beautiful eyes, and heard is beautiful voice. I couldn't stop thinking about him for some reason. I didn't want to think I was falling for him since we had just met and we had barely talked, but I couldn't get him out of my mind. I was stupid enough that every day at work I would look for him in the crowd, but was never there. This disappointed me more than it should. I tried to not think about him, but I failed trying to. As I put on my turquoise halter tie top and matching ruffled miniskirt I couldn't help hoping to see him tonight. I walked out to bump into Lauren who was wearing an outfit similar to mine, but hers was black.
"Watch it bitch!" she said angrily.
What was her problem?
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to." I said.
"Uh huh sure, you think you're all that and hot but you're not!" She looked like she was about to slap me, but Vivian came and stood in between me and Lauren.
"Leave before I disfigure that face of yours!" Vivian growled at her.
"I'm not scared of you bitch!"
"Really because it looks like you are!"
"Lauren let's go! What are you thinking?" Jessica said as they walked away.
"Yeah bitch! Walk away!" Vivian yelled after her.
"Vivian stop, I think she gets it." Angela said.
"Are you okay Bella? Did that bitch touch you because if she did I'll go over there and kill her." Vivian said.
I laughed. "Vivian chill, she didn't touch me."
"She knows if she does I'd kill her."
Angela rolled her eyes at her and said "Don't listen to anything Lauren says. She's just jealous that you're so gorgeous and how popular you are."
"That's crazy! She's gorgeous!" I said
"Bella I think you need to get your eyes checked. That bitch is ugly! She wishes she was are gorgeous as you are!" Vivian argued.
"You're just saying that because you hate her." I told her.
"Ha! Yea right! If she was so gorgeous she would have been the star of the show!"
I didn't know what to say. She got me there, but it still didn't change anything. She smiled knowing she was right.
"Whatever let's get going backstage." I said.
Victoria started talking and then she called my name to start the show.
I walked out and was received with whistles and applauses. I went up to the strip pole and started doing what I know best. I couldn't help, but look for him. As I looked around I almost froze. He was sitting up front with the big muscular guy and the blond guy staring intently at me. He looked even more gorgeous than the last time. He smiled at me and I looked away blushing. Every time I looked over at him I caught him staring at me which made me self-conscious.
His eyes never left me to look at the other girls when I introduced them. When he realized I was going backstage his eyes became sad; it was hard to look at. I had the urge to go over to him and comfort him, but I know I couldn't. That would be crazy. The question was why was he sad?
I was backstage chilling and thinking about Edward when Ben came up to me.
"Bella someone wants you to give them a lap dance."
I sighed and followed him out. I really wasn't up for this. He stopped at the table and I stared in shock. Edward Cullen stared at me with a teasing smile. I was giving Edward Cullen a lap dance? I had to be either dreaming or this was a joke.
"Hello Bella." He said nicely.
I kept staring at him not knowing what to say. Speak Bella!
"Um… Hi Edward." I managed to say.
I heard the two guys next to him chuckle.
"Let me introduce you Bella, these are my brothers. This is Emmett…" He said pointing at the big muscular guy "…and this is Jasper." He said pointing at the blonde guy.
"Hi…" I said shyly.
"Hey Bella! It's great to finally meet you in person! You are pretty amazing up there." Emmett said.
I blushed, "Thank you."
"Hello Bella." Jasper simply said with a kind smile. He looked like he wasn't breathing, which was weird.
"So Bella, tell us about yourself. You seem very interesting." Emmett said.
I saw Edward glare at him.
"Um… I can't do that… I have to be dancing at all times out here pleasing the customers… or else I don't get paid…" I said nervously not knowing why he wanted to know about me. It was weird because nobody had ever asked me that.
"Aw! Well fine but you have to give Eddie here a lap dance then…This is his first time so be very careful with him I don't want anything to happen to him." He said chuckling.
"Emmett shut up!" Edward growled.
"What? I worry about you! I wouldn't want you to strain yourself…" He busted out laughing.
Edward reached over and slapped him in the head.
"Hey!"
They acted like two children fighting. I busted out laughing this was so funny. Edward and Jasper joined in laughing too.
"You know this isn't funny! I will get my revenge!" He threatened looking at Edward.
Edward stopped laughing and gave him a death glare.
"Don't give me that look. You asked for it!" Emmett said.
I decided to stop fooling around and start working.
"Um… So are you going to want the lap dance or not?"
"Oooo someone is anxious to give a lap dance!" Emmett said wagging his eyebrow at me.
I blushed, which only made him laugh.
"Look if I don't do it I will get in trouble by Victoria. She knows I'm out here and if I don't get the money I'm going to get it taken out my paycheck and I need the money."
"Fine then, I'll just give you money so you won't get in trouble…" Edward started to say but Emmett interrupted him.
"That's nonsense! Let the girl do her job! If you won't take the lap dance I will." He said wagging his eyebrow menacingly at him.
Edward let out a low growl that sent shivers through my body. How can a growl sound so sexy coming out of him? He looked over at me worriedly, like if he had scared me or something.
"Fine then…" He said exasperated.
"Bella…" He paused and took a deep breath. "Would you do me the honor of giving me a lap dance?" He said nervously.
Why was he nervous? Was it cause it was his first time getting a lap dance? Did he not have a girlfriend? Had he never been near a girl? Why did it make me happy the thought that he didn't and I was going to be the first to be near him?
"Um…Sure…" I said nervously.
I walked over to him and sat on his lap hesitantly. It was weird I had never been nervous about giving someone a lap dance. Well except the first time I actually lap danced. Bella focus and breathe, he's just another client. I kept telling myself, but it was useless.
I started dancing on him avoiding his eyes, knowing if I did look at them I would freak out and walk away. He sat there as still as a rock as I danced on him. He smelt so wonderful; it was really sweet. I heard Emmett and Jasper chuckling and whispering things to each other, but I tried to not pay attention to them and focus on not freaking out. All of a sudden I felt his hands start moving on my exposed back. His hands were ice cold against my skin, but it felt nice since I was starting to get overheated. His hands kept moving down to my thighs. Why was it when others felt me up I felt disgusted, but Edward feeling me up felt like heaven. I started dancing on him more sensual and stole a glance at his direction his eyes were closed and he was smiling like he was enjoying himself. I started getting carried away and so was he. I couldn't do this I told myself, but I also couldn't stop. I was addicted to him and his body against mine. It felt so right, like we belonged together…
No! I couldn't think that way! I couldn't belong with anyone I was meant to be alone forever. Well that's what Renee had always told me. In a way I believed her because I had never had a boyfriend. Guys never seemed to notice me, I was never asked out. Maybe I wasn't attractive or maybe they had seen me go through my awkward phases.
I stared at his eyes and he stared back it seemed like I was staring at his soul. My eyes started roaming down his to his lips. They were red and beautiful. I imagine leaning in and kissing him. I wanted to breathe in his sweet scent and taste him. I slowly started leaning in mesmerized by him and he started leaning in too. Our faces were inches apart. I could feel his cold breathe on my face.
We were interrupted by Emmett.
"Oh yeah! Looks like you two are about to get it on any second! You better be gentle on her Edward." He said laughing so hard.
Edward stiffened underneath me and pulled back. I reacted by doing the same. I saw Edward glare at Emmett. The saying if looks could kill came to mind.
"Bella I think that's enough…Thank you that was…interesting." He said kind of strained.
I really didn't want to get of his lap and I felt like he didn't want me to get off either since his hands were still holding me by the waist. I hesitantly got up cursing Emmett in my head for ruining our moment.
"Um okay… and you're welcome." I said. I started walking away dazzled when Edward stopped me.
"Bella wait…"
I turned around and saw him with money in his hand reaching out for me. Wow I had forgotten about the money. Victoria would have killed me if I hadn't gotten the money. I would have never heard the end to it. I reached for the money.
"Thank you." I said sincerely. I heard Emmett and Jasper laughing their butts off as I walked back stage.
What was going on with me? I couldn't think straight around this guy.
The rest of the show went well. I was pretty exhausted and still in shock from what had happened with Edward. I kept repeating it in my head, his hands on my body and his face so close to mine…
I was walking outside to my truck when I heard my name being called.
"Bella?"
I turned around and saw Edward walking toward me. He looked so beautiful walking toward me under the moonlight. He looked like he was glowing, if that was possible. My heart skipped a beat staring at his gorgeousness.
"Yes?" I replied when he was right next to me.
"I wanted to apologize for my brothers and my behavior tonight."
What was he talking about? He had done nothing wrong. His brother on the other hand had interrupted us from kissing. I should be happy that he did though; I couldn't get attached to him in any way.
"You guys did nothing wrong."
"I think otherwise…Anyways I was wondering…" He started saying in a husky voice which made my heart thump crazily.
"Yes?"
"If… you wanted to maybe…hang out with me sometime?" He asked nervously.
My heard was definitely going crazy now. Did I just hear right? Was he asking me on a date?
"Like on a…date?" I couldn't do this. I couldn't trust him he was probably like every other guy.
"Um…Yes…If that's okay with you?"
Why was he so nervous?
"Um…I don't know…"
I looked at his face and it looked so sad, like I had just hurt his feelings.
"Why not?" He demanded.
"Because…I've never gone on a date with a guy." I admitted.
"Are you serious? Never?" He said surprised.
"Yes, I have never been asked out before...I guess guys don't find me attractive." Why was I telling him this?
"I disagree… I find you very attractive." He said making me blush. "So what do you say? Will you or will you not go on a date with me?"
I really wanted to, but I didn't know if I was going to be able to handle it. What if he just wanted the one thing every other guy wanted…sex? What if his sweet behavior was just a way to lure me in? But then what if his feelings were true? I really wanted to give him the chance. I didn't know why, but I did. I kept going back and forth with my decision.
"Fine, I'll go on a date with you." I finally decided. I was thrilled and scared at the same time. What if this was a mistake?
He smiled. He looked really happy and excited. It made me happy seeing him happy.
"Good, so when are you available?" he asked.
"Um… I'm free tomorrow and Sunday up until 9 because then I have to work."
"I understand. How about we hang out tomorrow?"
"Sure." I said nervously.
"What time would you like me to pick you up?"
"How does ten sound to you?"
"Sounds perfect." He said giving me that crooked smile that only made my heart stop.
My heart was already beating crazily at the idea of having a date with him. I couldn't wait. I wonder where he was taking me though.
"Where are we going?"
"Now that's a surprise, but do dress in comfortable clothing."
He was killing me. I hated surprises. I gave him the most convincing smile.
"Okay then, can't wait."
He chuckled seeming to know I was lying.
"You will love it, I assure you." Man was his smile so beautiful. I had the urge to lean in and kiss him, but I resisted the urge.
"Okay well let me give you my address and phone number so you know where to pick me up."
I looked through my bag and found a piece of paper and pencil and wrote my address and phone number on it. He was staring at me intently while writing it down.
"Here." I said handing him the paper.
"Thank you. I guess I'll see you tomorrow then."
"You're welcome and yeah I'll see you tomorrow."
"Goodnight Bella, sleep well." He said sweetly.
My heart nearly stopped. I didn't know why he had just said goodnight. What was wrong with me?
"Yeah goodnight, sleep well too."
He walked away chuckling. What was so funny?
"Bella! Let's go I want to sleep." Vivian said bringing me back.
It was so weird when I was with Edward it seemed so surreal like I was in a total different world.
"Okay, let's go" I said.
The whole drive home I couldn't stop thinking about Edward and how I had a date with him. What was I thinking! I shouldn't go on a date with him. I barely even knew him! What if he did something to me? I couldn't trust him, but I didn't have the strength to say no to him. I wanted to go with him even thought I knew it was wrong.
"Bella what's wrong with you? You've been quiet this hold time. Is there something wrong?" Vivian asked.
Should I tell her? I told her everything, but for some reason I felt like keeping this to myself. No I had to tell her.
"I have a date with Edward Cullen tomorrow." I said quietly.
"WHAT? And you're telling me this now!" She shrieked.
"Vivian chill! This all happened today. He asked me out while waiting for you at the parking lot."
"Om my god! This is big! This is your first date! Oh my god! I need to make you beautiful for tomorrow. Where are you going?" She gushed.
"I don't know he said it was a surprise." I mumbled.
"This is great! He's so gorgeous, maybe you'll get lucky and get to hit that."
"Shut up! You know I'm not like that!" I said blushing.
"I know, but you never know Bella anything can happen."
"Whatever that's something that won't happen. I don't even know him that well. I can't even trust him."
"Bella you need to leave the past behind. You need to open up and give yourself the chance to be happy." She said seriously.
I sighed. Was she right? Should I leave the past behind and give myself a chance?
"So at what time is he picking you up?"
"At ten."
"Then you will have to get up at 8 so you can take a shower and I can have time to do your hair and makeup."
"Vivian you really don't have to do that."
"I know, but I want to." She said smiling.
I sighed. There was no use in arguing with her, she would just keep going until I agreed. Now I had to think about tomorrow, I wonder where he was taking me. What does someone even do on their first date? What should I wear? I had to stop before I started freaking out. As much as I was freaked out I was excited for my date with Edward Cullen, which scared me a lot.
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