Hey guys! thanks so much for all the reviews from the last chapter! it means a lot to hear from u guys! um so this chapter is both EPOV and BPOV i felt like u had to hear from both them in this important chapter lol i hope u like it! :D
Edward's POV
I sat at the corner of Bella's room on the rocking chair. Her chest rose and fell. She looked beautiful sleeping so peacefully. I yearned to have her in my arms, but knew I couldn't which made me sad. I wonder how much longer she would stay peaceful. Today I would finally tell her what I was. She will probably never want to see or talk to me ever again. It hurt me to think this. I didn't want that to happen, but I knew I couldn't keep this from her any longer. She had to see that she could trust me. I wanted her to trust me and know who I truly was. I didn't want to pretend any more in front of her. Hopefully things won't go the opposite.
"Edward…" Bella mumbled. I looked over to see her with her hand under her face. She looked like a little kid sleeping; it was adorable. I remember the first time she said my name when I first came here, I thought she had woken up. When in saw her roll to her side and say my name again I saw that she was sleeping. Hearing her say my name brought this weird feeling to my chest. Was it that I was falling in love with her already? I knew it was gonna happen, there was no avoiding it; not that I wanted to avoid it…
The sun was starting to come up and I knew that I would have to go home and change. It hurt to think of leaving; I didn't want to. The only thing that allowed me to actually leave was the fact that I was coming back later to spend the day with her...Hopefully… That is, if she would let me still be part of her life after her telling my secret. There was a part of me that was selfish that told me not to tell her, so she could always be at my side. The reasonable side of me told me that it was for the best for her to know the truth, so I can gain her trust and make her happy without having to lie to her because that would lead nowhere good. Plus maybe she was better off without me. She deserved someone human and not a monster like me. I don't think I would be able to turn her into a vampire just so I can have her with me forever. That would be selfish of me to take her soul away from her, just so I could have happiness. I didn't deserve happiness I was a monster; a soulless monster to be exact.
I sighed and got up and started walking toward the window. I needed to do a quick hunt to be prepared and I needed to change. I heard Anne starting to wake up so I rushed out and ran straight into the woods. I soon came across a deer. It was drinking water from a little pond I slowly sneaked up on it, but it heard me and started running I ran quickly after it. I saw where it was heading so I ran ahead of it and stood by the tree waiting for it. I heard it coming closer and I prepared myself to catch it. It started to jump over the log that was on the ground when I grabbed it and sank my teeth into its flesh. I could feel the hot, sweat blood going down my throat. I sucked all the blood until there was only a carcass on me. I threw it to the side and then ran home to change. I heard my family when I got there and surprise, surprise it was about me.
"We are going to have to move again if Edward loses control today and I don't want to move for his mistakes! We just moved here and we can actually be normal here!" Rosalie argued.
"Rosalie! We have to trust Edward, plus Alice see's nothing wrong happening." Carlisle said.
"But Alice's visions are subjective! It takes one decision to change everything!" Rosalie continued to argue.
I decided to go in then. I was tired of hearing Rosalie's arguments.
They all looked up to see me. Esme's eyes looked at me with love and understanding while Rosalie gave me a death glare.
"Edward you're home." Esme said happily coming over to hug me. I hugged her back and then let go of her to talk to my family about today.
"Rosalie, I wouldn't do anything that would endanger this family or Bella. She means the world to me Rose or she will once I get to be with her more and for that I need to be honest with her and tell her what we are. She has issues that don't let her trust people easily, plus I want her to get to know the real me."
"Oh poor girl…" Rosalie said sarcastically. "Edward what if she runs away telling everyone what we are? What if she never wants to see u again?" she argued.
"Rosalie, stop this right now!" Esme pleaded.
"Esme don't you get that he's gonna ruin everything?"
"Rose stop… don't you trust my visions?" Alice said sounding hurt.
"Rosalie really needs to calm down… don't worry Edward I got your back and everything will be fine promise." Alice thought.
"Poor Edward he doesn't need all this from Rosalie…Don't listen to her Edward. She doesn't mean it, she is just worried. We all believe in you." Esme thought.
"Edward we all believe in you son, don't worry." Carlisle thought.
"Sorry about that bro, she is just worried…" Emmett thought.
It felt good that my family trusted me so. Only Rosalie was against me. Jasper was not against me but he wasn't for it either he was scared I would do something that would end up hurting our family.
I nodded to all of them thanking them.
"She will not tell anyone. I know she won't…"I paused because I was almost for she that she wasn't and Alice saw it too but what if…m
"…and if she never wants to see me again, well I'll be devastated, but it would be for her best." I said sadly.
"Edward don't say that son, you deserve happiness." Esme said. Always so motherly and caring that's why we all love her so much.
I looked at her with a sad smile. "She doesn't deserve a monster…"
"Edward you are not a monster son. You're anything, but that…"
I raised my hand stopping her. "Mom I am… look what I've done in the past."
"Edward, stop that right now! You are anything but that and Bella will see that. I think you should go change and get going to Bella's house or else you will be late to your date." Alice demanded.
I glanced at the time and she was right I had thirty minutes to get to her house so I ran up to my room to change. I dressed in a hurry putting on black jeans with a dark blue button down long sleeved shirt and then I ran out.
"Good luck Edward! Don't worry everything will be fine. Trust me! I can't wait to meet Bella!" Alice thought.
I rolled my eyes at her thoughts.
"Son it will all be fine I can feel it. Have fun." Esme thought.
I smiled and ran toward Bella's house already anxious to see her.
Once I got to her house I could hear the walking around her house. Her heart beating fast, I wonder if it was because she was anxious to see me too. I decided to give her a little while longer to get ready until I knocked.
I was too anxious to see her so I decided to knock. I heard he heart beat faster when I did and she ran toward the door. I chuckled because she seemed was anxious to see me as I was to see her… almost.
She opened the door and she was smiling really wide at me. She looked so beautiful. She was wearing a grey long sleeved shirt with faded and jeans and grey chucks. She carried a black jacket in her hands which would be unnecessary since it wasn't going to be cold.
"Good morning Bella." I said smiling at her.
"Good morning." She said with a shy smile.
"Are you ready to go?" I asked. I wanted her to say no just so I could prolong my time with her before she would tell me later that she didn't want to see me anymore, but at the same time I wanted her to yes. I was anxious to have the truth out.
"Yes, so I'm guessing that I'm driving since you didn't bring your car, am I right?" she asked.
"Yes that's right." I said smiling crookedly at her. I'm letting her drive because if she decides to leave me when she found out then she had a car to leave in.
We walked toward to her "truck" if you could call it that; it was ancient looking for crying out loud! Did she not see it? But she seemed to not care that it was.
"Where to?" she asked.
I smiled and gave her the directions.
During the ride I asked her about what she liked and disliked. I was fascinated with what she told me.
When we finally reached the place I started to panic. What if these were my last moments with her? Should I not tell her the truth? No I had to. It was what I have to do to gain her trust. I saw Bella look around and then started heading toward the trail. I walked toward her to stop her.
"Bella hold on." I paused and she looked back at me confused. "You're going the wrong way."
"The wrong way, but the trail is over here?" She said even more confused.
I smiled at her to reassure her that everything was fine.
"Yes, but where we are going is this way."
I heard her gulp and her heart fluttered faster.
"Are you okay Bella? You don't look so well?" I asked worriedly.
"It's just I'm a very slow and horrible walker. You may not know this but I can't walk without falling." She said which made me laugh out loud.
She blushed and looked down. I felt bad now for laughing because she was embarrassed. She was so adorable. That's why I loved her. Wait…did I just say that's why I loved her? Oh god. I did! I couldn't stop denying it. I was already in love with her and I couldn't deny it any longer. I smiled so big at my epiphany because I felt lighter for the fact that I had found what I had been looking for finally. I felt like I was home… But the question was did she feel the same way? I shouldn't think about that now. I should enjoy this time with her.
As we walked I kept smiling and helping her so she wouldn't fall. I asked her about her childhood; she seemed like she didn't want to talk about it. I mean of course she wouldn't want to talk about her parents. It's hard to lose them at a young age; I understood her completely. I couldn't stop staring at her it was impossible to she was so beautiful…
As we kept walking I started seeing the meadow after an hour of hiking.
"Bella do you see that light up ahead?" I asked her.
"Um… should I?" She asked uncertainly.
Crap! I forgot she couldn't see it yet and that she didn't know what I was yet. I easily forgot when I was around her…
"Maybe it's time for me to visit the optometrist." She sighed.
I snorted. "Bella your eyes are perfect. I was just wondering if you could or not." I lied about the second part because her vision was perfect.
"Oh." She simply responded.
I felt terrible for lying to her. The good thing was that I would soon have all my secrets out; well it all depended on her reaction.
As we got nearer to the meadow I started to panic. I didn't know how she would react to me being a vampire and sparkling in the sunlight. She'll probably run away screaming for her life.
I took a deep breath and grabbed Bella's arm to stop her. This was it. I was really going to tell her. This was going to either make things better or worst. She looked up at me confused.
I took another deep breath, "Bella…" I paused.
"Yes?"
"…I have something very important to tell you…" I swear if my heart still was beating it would have been beating frantically.
She nodded for me to continue.
"Please listen to me…don't jump to any conclusions… hear me out please." I begged her. "I'm doing this to show you that you can trust me and that I would never, ever lie to you." I said honestly.
"Edward what is it? You're scaring me..." she said worriedly.
Oh trust me you will be soon.
"Bella…I'm…I'm…" Deep breathes Edward. "Bella I'm a vampire."
"WHAT?"
Bella's POV
"Bella…I'm…I'm…" he paused then said "Bella I'm a vampire."
"WHAT?" I choked out.
"I'm…a vampire Bella."
Was he serious? This was supposed to make me trust him?
I busted out laughing. My laughter echoed through the forest.
"Edward…You…good…one…" I managed to choke out.
A vampire? Really Edward? Man he was hilarious!
Edward just stood there silent. He looked at me with a concern look on his face.
"Bella I'm serious…"
My laughter stopped altogether at his seriousness. I looked at his eyes and could see he was being honest. My heart started beating fast and he gave me a forced smile. It didn't touch his eyes.
"H-How?" I stuttered.
Edward is a vampire. Edward Cullen is a vampire… This had to be a dream.
I looked at him and saw him walk toward the light of the meadow. I followed slowly behind him. I saw him unbuttoning his shirt. What the hell was he doing? He stepped into the sunlight and what I saw made me gasp. I had never seen anything more beautiful in my life. Edward's skin looked like diamonds. His skin sparkled like thousands of tiny diamonds… He laid on the grass and I slowly walked up to where he was. I sat close to him. He looked up when I did.
"You're not scared?" he asked incredulous.
I thought about that for a second.
No, no I wasn't for some reason. Most people would, but I don't know it seemed normal. I kind of expected something like this from Edward. He never did look human; he looked inhuman. Gorgeous and perfect… like an angel…
I also wasn't scared because he hadn't done anything to me so far to hurt me. He was good. I knew that and could feel it. Like he said he was being honest with me and I appreciated that he was because I'm sure this wasn't an easy secret to reveal.
"Bella you're driving me crazy here." He said sounding impatient.
"Sorry…but no I'm not scared."
"What? Aren't you wondering if I drink blood and kill people?" He asked.
I sighed. I knew that was a good question, but I felt like I knew the answer. He didn't he was too good for to kill people.
"I'm not scared because I expect something like this from you… I mean look at you Edward. You are too gorgeous and perfect. Humans don't look like that. You always seemed like an angel to me…" I said honestly. If he was going to be honest then so was I. "And I don't think you kill humans. You're too good and nice."
He sat lay there quietly for a while then said, "You're wrong Bella."
I froze at his words.
"Wait! I don't kill humans now, but I did once. I now survive from the blood of animals." He said.
I unfroze. "Why?" I managed to say.
"Because Bella I don't want to be a monster… My family and I are different from others of our kind… We survive from the blood of animals while the rest survive from humans… I could slip up though. Don't feel too comfortable because your blood will always tempt me. It smells so sweet and delicious… Sorry I don't mean to scare you, but like I said I'm being honest here. You're scent is like a drug to me, you're like my own personal brand of heroin."
I should be scared at what he said, but instead I was in awe at what he said. He was even more perfect than I imagined. He killed animals so he wouldn't be a monster…
"Edward it's fine, I understand… so how did you…become…"
"A vampire?" He finished my sentence.
I nodded.
He sighed, "Carlisle changed me back in 1918 when I was dying of Spanish Influenza…"
I sat there not knowing how to respond.
"My dad had died of the influenza hours before; my mom and I were the only ones left. My mom was on verge of dying and she begged Carlisle to save me and Carlisle being lonely back then and desperate for a companion changed me…" he stared up at the trees lost in the memory.
I sat there and stared at his sparkling skin wanting badly to touch it. I reached slowly and cautiously to touch his arm. My fingers were trembling slightly. The second my skin touched his, an electric shock went between us. I pulled my hand back slightly and he looked quickly up at me.
"Sorry." I mumbled.
"It's fine. You can touch me if you want. It doesn't bother me." He said with a smile and this look on his face that I couldn't understand.
I slowly reached again and slowly stocked his arm. His arm was smooth, ice cold and hard. He sighed in pleasure when I did. Which made my heart beat fast for some reason. What was wrong with me? A simple sigh is making me heart beat faster? Nice Bella, way to be pathetic.
"You can't imagine how that feels." He sighed in contentment.
Way to go Edward! You just managed to make my heart to beat faster than it already was. I blushed and decided I needed to be distracted. I decided to also stop touching before I gave myself a heart attack.
"So tell me about being a vampire and about your family."
"Like what?" He asked.
"Anything..."
"Well I can read minds…" He said which made me freeze. He sat up instantly and stared into my eyes. I stared right back with wide eyes.
WHAT? So he was read my mind this whole time? Great!
"I can't read your mind though… I don't know why that is…" he said warily.
I felt a huge relief at his words. Thank god he couldn't or else I would be embarrassed and humiliated.
"Thank god! That would be so embarrassing!"
He chuckled. "Good thing for you, but for me it's frustrating. I'm so used to hearing people's thoughts."
I giggled. That must be annoying.
"So what about your family? I mean I have only met Carlisle, Emmett and Jasper… Do you have more family?"
He chuckled. "Yes I do Esme, Alice, and Rosalie. Carlisle and Esme have been parents to me all this time. They are great… After Carlisle changed me he soon found Esme, she had jumped off a cliff… After that Rosalie came into our family she had an incident. She soon found Emmett while hunting; he was getting mauled by a bear. Last Alice and Jasper came into our family…" He smiled at the memory.
"So…do you…you know…have to be dying to become like you?" I asked.
He sighed. "No, that's just Carlisle. He would never do that to someone who had another choice."
Wow, were all vampires so perfect? Well the Cullen's at least.
"So can you're family read people's mind like you can?"
"No, that's just me, but Alice can see the future and Jasper can control emotions…"
"Really? That's sounds cool! Wow I feel like all this isn't real. It's hard to believe."
"I know…"
"How about the rest of your family?"
"Well Carlisle in the most compassionate of us, Esme the ability to love passionately, Emmett his strength, and Rosalie her…pigheadedness, you can say." He said with a chuckle and I joined him. His laughter was so beautiful…
"But why do you guys think that is?"
"Well Carlisle has a theory, that when we were human we were sensitive to these things and brought them to this life."
"Oh well that makes sense…"
All of this seemed so impossible. I would never think all this could be possible, but here I was sitting next to a gorgeous vampire.
"So do you trust me now?" he asked warily.
"Hmmm…" I decided to torture him for a while by pretending to think about it. "I do… There is no doubt in my mind. This secret was a big deal and the fact that you trusted me enough to tell me is big."
"So are you going to tell me more about yourself?" He asked.
No Edward I'm not… I'm not ready yet to tell you the real truth about me… I'm scared…
"Um I don't think I'm ready for that yet…Please give me more time." I pleaded.
We stared into each other's eyes for what seemed like forever. Then he slowly leaned toward me. My breath hitched. He opened his arms and put his arms around me and pulled me to his chest. He rested his head on top of mine and we sat there hugging each other for what seemed like forever again. I didn't want to let go, I was too comfortable. I felt like he felt exactly the same. Hugging him and spending the day with him made me get this new feeling in my chest that I had never felt before. I didn't know what it was though.
"I understand…Just remember I'll be here when you're ready." He finally answered. I had almost forgotten my question.
"Okay I will." I said with a smile.
Wow time flew by fast when you were having a good time. The sun was already setting and Edward's skin was very dim now.
"I think it's time for us to go." Edward said quietly.
He didn't want to move and neither did I. We tried prolonging the moment.
"I think you're right…" I said unwillingly.
We let go of each other and he got up and held his hand out, to help me get up
He looked at me with this look on his face that I couldn't understand. It was tender…caring… I was seeing too much into it. I smiled shyly at him and he returned it by giving me that dazzling crooked smile of his.
He put his hand on my shoulder and looked me straight in the eye with a serious look.
"Bella can I show you how I travel?" he asked excitedly.
I couldn't deny him when he gave me that gorgeous look.
"What are you going to turn into a bat?" I teased.
He laughed out loud; louder than I have ever heard him laugh. He seemed lighter.
"Like I haven't heard that before." He teased back.
"Yeah I'm sure you get it all the time." I smiled at him.
"C'mon hope onto my back." He said.
"What?" I asked and stared at him like he had grown a third eye. He must be kidding.
"C'mon little coward, get onto my back." He said again, but this time he grabbed my arm and put me on his back.
Once I was tightly grabbing him I said, "You know I'm heavier than an average backpack."
"Psh! Yeah right!" he said rolling his eyes.
Then he ran. It was the scariest thing in the world. His breathing remained the same. It wasn't labored or anything. If I wasn't scared for my life when he revealed he was a vampire, now I definitely was. He ran through the forest like a bullet. I was so scared I was going to hit a tree. My stayed wide open, I didn't dare close them. I felt him getting to a stop because he started to slow down and all of a sudden by my truck. This morning it had taken hours while right now it was a matter of minutes.
"Wasn't that fun? You can get off now Bella." He said still with an excited tone.
I couldn't move. My legs and arms where wrapped around him like my life was depending on it.
"Bella?" he asked worriedly.
"I think I need help."
He chuckled, "Oh sorry Bella, I should have warned you."
"No it's fine, it was…interesting." I said.
He was laughing again. "Oh Bella you're so funny." He said this while unwrapping my arms and legs from him and carrying me like a bride. He held me for a while and then set me on the ground. My head was spinning like crazy and I had a ringing in my ears.
"Put your head between your legs." He commanded and I did exactly that.
I immediately started to feel better. I felt Edward sit next to me.
"Bella look at me." He commanded.
I looked up and was surprised to see his face so close to mine. My breathing hitched and I could feel his cold, sweet breath right in my face. I didn't move I couldn't. I was mesmerized by the closeness. I saw his hand reach to brush a strand of hair from my face. When his cool hand touched my face, I felt the shock go through us again. What was up with that? He stared into my eyes like he was debating whether or not to do something. I saw his lips part and I couldn't look away. I wanted to lean in and breathe in his scent and taste him…
What the hell Bella? Why are you feeling these weird things?
"Bella…" He breathed getting closer to me.
No I couldn't do this! I wasn't ready!
I stared at him in panic and he stared right back. I soon felt his lips press ever so lightly against my forehead. It was such a sweet gesture. His lips were cool and smooth against my forehead; it felt good. He sighed and pulled back.
"Let's go before your sisters start to worry." He said with a smile.
I smiled back at him for calling them my sisters and for understanding me. We both got up and walked to my truck hand in hand.
I knew now that I felt something more for Edward than just friends. This was dangerous because I didn't want to get hurt. I didn't care that he was a vampire though. That was the least of my worries. I just didn't want to get hurt by someone I loved again.
Yeah I said it!
I Isabella loved Edward Cullen…
Problem is…does he feel the same way?
dun dun dun! hahaha Bella knows! :o and she loves him! yay! :D and u guys probably hate me for not having them kiss and for that i apologize but they arent ready to kiss! haha it's too early for that! haha anyways review!
and thanks for reading!
3 Angelica