well it not bate's but that taking to long, hopefully my bate read is still going but i haven't herd for some time, it as be spell checks and stuff but you know how good at that i am.

Ch10

"oh come on it only a little cut,"

"you've slit you wrist open for god sake, there Blood everywhere,"

"so it not like I'm going to die is it, I mean I do try but even my little full of the hokage mont didn't keep me in bed for two days,"

"you said that was an accient Naruto,"Sakura spock up for the first time.

"well dur i'm real going to say 'yar I try to kill myself, better look next time, hey,' that would of put a damperner on the all day," replied Naruto.

"i can't belive you Naruto," said sakura, "all I wanted was to help but you lied to me you proised, gave me your word, Naruto."

"so I have lie to you plent it just you haven't work them out yet, hell my life as been one big lie sine I came back," said Naruto and then sighed "if you can call it a life,"

"tell us then, tell us what you been lieing about, tell us now Naruto,"

"Should we not get him to the hosilpt wing first," said the panick Hermione.

"well sine you spock, let star with you mud-blood," all eyes were once agen on naruto with just a hite of agger in them and one par (Hermione) fill with worry, "do you know it was 5 yaer in this place before I work out that mud-blood wasn't the accedable name for muggle born how dum is that,

"you made a lot happen you know, I had to make sure there were telling the tuth, and they won't they lied and I wasn't sure if I care at first then that made me sick, how could I not care,"

"your not making an alful lot of sense Naurto. Slow down and fill in the missing bits who lied to you?" asked kiba.

Naruto was looking off in to space and didn't real listion, " the warm hot liquiwk which flows so freely draging the sreming live with it I cann't say it wasn't an enjoy watch,

"they lie to me I played for them I enjoyed playing, why should I stop cuase they lied, but I knew the games were worg were nughty game to play, but I liked them so,"

" come now Naruto talk to me not the fairy," said sakura, hand on Naruto chin genterly trying to make him look her in the eyes.

"why would you want to sakura really, i'm half dead anyway, 'why bother with little supit Naruto, he should just disapper'"

Sakura crinch, why bother with little stupit Naruto, he should just disapper, was a quowt one she herself as said long ago, in the addcatamy when she was a fooless little girl, running around after the uchiha. It hurt her now has much as it had hurt Naruto then.

" would you like to see how I real look sakura, i'm sure you will agree it cute," Naruto mode change looking at Sakura with a tilled head croise eyes. Eyes with pulid not as round as they were a mint ago and became nothing but slit of black in two mismach eyes one blue one Blood red the furry ear seem to come from the hair and the nine furry tail roll out from with in his skirk, moveing seemaly of there own acored. One tail even came up to storck Sakura, the girl jumped and the tail shot back, " do you not like it, is it to much, maybe I should have warnd you,"

" it a shock yes but you do look cute how could you not with such fluff ears," said Sakura fussing his left ear, Naruto lent in to the touch purring.

"I till think we should get him to the hostpsiltl wing he losing a lot of blood," said Hermione

"nun i'm alread heald up nicly, good as new just a bit weak i'll need some help getting to my bed when the times come," said Naruto getting up and pulling out his wand washing the blood off of himself, Harry look at that wand it was 9" long by the looks, it was thin and black and yet the 9 red line which warnd there way around was easaly differen form each other, "i have seen that wand before but were?" he ask more to himself then anything but he got an andwer, one he was not read for nor happy with.

" it the one I use to kill Cedric Diggory," said Naruto unthinking and uncareing.

"W-What!" said harry looking godfounded at him.

" I kill cedric Diggory you know in the grave yard, you were there so you saw it then I would imagen," said Naruto sitting on a sit looking at the shock face around " was I to blunt,"

the other sat there and look at him witch a mix of shock and confusion.

" but why would you have been there and whan to kill him," ask Hermoine.

"Naruto was a good boy, Hermoine, Naruto was so good but then as all mush he fell and fell long and hard, going deeper and deeper," repled Naruto, " and even when little Naruto stared to look for the light again it toke so long, so so long for even the dimes of light to fine it way to little lost Naruto."

" what do you meen Naruto what have you done," said suker taking a step back.

" you rebermer when I came back and you said how it was fuuny how I keep sukey forehaed portector, that I should get rid of it, it would only hurt me," replay a somber Naruto, " it isn't his, it mine the mark is form the hokage herself, a remider of my sham, lukaly I do not have to were it here, I would have had to in the village, did you not wonder why I wasn't pormote or even enerted in to the chin exam this is it for me no matter how storg, how fast, how claver, I will be luky if I hit chunin. It more then a tartor desver to be allow back in the village. Oh suker," naruto voice doped to shir dipaer, "I have kill tortoed and worst,"

" what worst then death,"

" oh it worst belive me hermione it worst, you don't have to live with death."

" no Naruto how could you," said the quite horrified voice of Hinata , " you know that that can ruin a person live, hell it nere riun your ethough, why?"

" I was told to make the child last hours on this earth the honorific that they would ever know,"

Hinata fell back ward on to a chair breathing havey her face stuk in horror, " child,. Children, what have you done Naruto, children a child I … I don't know you any more,... I real just can't... a child."

" what are you talking about," ask Hermione,

"rape," said a hollow Hinata.

"No you don't know me I don't know myself even now the light I see it it a long way of and I slip and clam and all just to keep in the dim lit part of my mind" said Naruto, "this isn't a really nice talk we having, let talk about flower or something."

" it a talk that we need to have," said a new voice of the door.

" sine you seem to think it wise, shike,"

" I do, they already know something is up, and you know you told them planty as it is but how about we stared from the begin for them. And sime you not making it ease I thought I would step in."

" be my gess," mutter Naruto looking away form the others. " on second thought let not, it all be over soon anyhow. all they need to know is that I ran away in desiar and this place as left me less then sense, I have done to much and have gone to far and I will be glad when I can go lie down and sleep for ever more, take me to bed shika,"

" I don't thing so," said shika.

" that an order," said Naruto in a voice the other have never hear.

Shika look like a deamon, but he swollow and got up, "as you wish chapting." And so the two left.

" I can not belive Naruto would do that,"

"looking in the eye," said Hinata. "Naruto childhood had more inpack on him then he ever let on I suppose it was only a matter of time before he crack."

two set of footstep click down , "who could of at lest tell that the rape was illution and not really," said the taller may.

" there were my memory, inplaned in to them, they were real, wather they had happen to them or not they die thinking it did, that is shurly whats count's,"

well there you have, if you have the odd word you can read you can send me how i have spelt it and how it meant to be spelt and i will get around to changing it,