Chapter Thirty Nine

Bella

It was strange to walk into a beautiful and large house and know it was home. Jasper left the decor and furniture to me, well me and Grace. She picked the decor in her room, pale pink and silver with twinkle lights around the window frame and her baby four-poster bed with lace curtains draped at the head and foot. The rest of the furniture was white with silver colored handles and Shadow had pride of place on the pink princess duvet on her bed. She was so excited that by the end of our first day she was falling asleep on her feet by early evening so after a bath she was asleep almost instantly and I went down to the huge open plan lounge to find Jasper sitting on the couch by the fire which he had lit gazing into the flames. He patted the place at his side and I sat down leaning into him as he wrapped his arm around me. It felt new and slightly uncomfortable, the atmosphere charged with a certain excitement. This was our first night totally alone and I wasn't sure what to expect, we were almost strangers.

Jasper

I felt out of my depth, I wasn't sure what Bella expected of me or how to act with her. I knew I desired her body and mind but I felt nervous. As she sat down I felt her own mixed emotions which didn't help me much. We sat in silence for a little while then she turned to look at me,

"This is crazy. We're sitting here like a couple of school kids on a first date. We need to talk Jasper."

"OK, you first"

"Coward!" she smiled as she said it.

"Well I think we should be totally honest with each other so here goes. I love you and I want you, in my life, in my heart, in my bed. I want you to make love to me."

I swallowed, she had certainly been honest so now it was my turn.

"Bella, its been a long time and I'm frankly terrified that I won't please you but I have to tell you that I want you, body and soul and I'd like nothing better than to take you to bed and show you how much I love you."

She took my hand and stood up pulling me with her to the stairs her eyes never leaving mine. I swept her off her feet into my arms and ran up to our bedroom with her. The French doors leading out onto a balcony were shut against the autumn chill and as I lay her gently on the bed I felt as if a huge weight pressed down on me. She felt my apprehension and pulled me down beside her kissing me and running her hands through my hair, every stroke of her fingers starting another fire inside my belly. Her fingers worked their way slowly down my shirt, undoing each button and pulling it apart as she went. As she pulled it from my pants and slid it off my torso I waited, ready for her to flinch at the sight of my scars but she ignored them, running her hands down my chest to my stomach then laid her head on my skin, a flaming brand against my cold flesh but still she didn't flinch. I had no idea what she was thinking but love and desire were flooding into me from her.

Bella

He was so tense and guarded and when I took his shirt off I could see the terrible scars on his chest and neck, down both arms almost to his wrist. He had been attacked over and again by other vampires, presumably when he was in Mexico. As I lay my head on his bare skin I tried to send him my love and desire and I saw his erection through his pant so I caressed him very lightly and heard the hiss of his in drawn breath. Knowing I would have to make the first move I sat up slowly and took off my shirt and bra watching his eyes as they raked my naked body. His hands came up to cup my breasts followed by his lips and I knew he was going to be fine now. He pushed me back down gaining confidence all the time. His hands and mouth explored every inch of exposed flesh before his hands swiftly undid my jeans and slid them off to expose the rest of my body to his gaze.

"God you are beautiful."

"So are you"

He raised an eyebrow but didn't speak as I undid his pants and slipped them and his boxers off his hips and down his legs to throw them to the floor. His hip and one leg were covered in the same scars but they did nothing to mar his beauty, he was like a marble statue, perfect in every respect. As I took him in my hand and started to slowly caress him he grew harder and the throbbing became faster. I smiled as I felt his hands under my buttocks lifting me up to allow him to enter me. He was just right, we joined together perfectly and as he slid inside me I gasped and ran my hands through his hair again, kissing his throat and mouth, anywhere I could reach.

He pulled me close then started to thrust in and out slowly, making my body scream for release but holding back knowing exactly how to keep me right on the edge. When I could take it no longer and pleaded with him he smiled and started to move faster holding my arms as gently as he could when his climax came in time with my own. I felt the coldness as he came deep within me and breathed his name over and over as I fell back to earth in slow motion, his hands caressing my body as his lips met mine in a long sweet kiss.

Jasper

Bella was exactly right for me, we fitted together like two puzzle pieces locking together and making a whole. Wrapping her in a blanket against my cold touch I held her close whispering my love for her as she lay dozing and satisfied, whispering my name occasionally and running her fingers along my jaw line. I was surprised when her caresses became passionate again so soon, she was as hungry for me as I was for her and we made love over and over the first night in our own home. Our bedroom became a place of joint passion and it wasn't until the sun peeked through the blind that she finally slept thoroughly spent, she was insatiable.

I heard Grace moving around so reluctantly I left Bella sleeping and throwing on a pair of pants went downstairs. Grace sat at the table with Shadow, a bowl of cereal in front of her, the milk and cereal box neatly placed on the counter top. She smiled as she saw me,

"Daddy, can we explore today?"

"Sure, we'll take a picnic with us as soon as mummy's up."

She smiled at me and carried on with her breakfast so I went back upstairs to shower and kiss Bella's beautiful sleeping face before going back down. Grace informed me in a very grown up voice that she was going to shower and would I please wash her hair for her. This was one of the little things that made me feel like a real father. I washed her hair for her wondering at the perfect little person I had helped to create.

Leaving her to get dressed I went down to make the picnic. Bella and Grace had been shopping while I hunted so the cupboards were well stocked and I made sandwiches, threw in some cookies and fruit and a bottle of soda with beakers and napkins. Turning at a slight sound I saw the most wonderful sight, my mate still looking tousled from sex smiling at me from the top of the stairs. She looked at the picnic hamper on the counter top and bit her lip,

"Nothing for me to do?"

"Just come down here and kiss me, then my day will be perfect."

She laughed and came down straight into my arms,

"I love you Jasper."

"I love you too darlin' now get yourself fed, we have exploring to do."

"Exploring? Right"

Her seductive smile and the hand that brushed my crotch set me thinking of another sort of exploration,

"Later I promise" I whispered as Grace came running down the stairs,

"Mummy quick, we're going exploring. Do you think we'll see any bears or wolves?"

"I hope not"

"Oh mummy, that would be great"

"I'll settle for squirrels and deer, less scary"

Grace giggled and ran into my arms to be swung round, she loved flying through the air giggling madly and I loved the feel of her in my arms, my daughter.