Chapter 18
Kiss Me Hard Before You Go
Beep.
Beep.
Beep.
Amy sat up at the unfamiliar sound of Karma's abrasive second alarm. She'd slept through the first one. That one was a gentle song that Karma fell in love with. It went off on her cellphone around 5am and she woke to a soft Amy laying beneath her.
Amy didn't wake at all but Karma had gotten up and began her routine. She started with her basics and then her hair. Then she checked her emails and had her espresso. And now her second, just in case, alarm was going off and she felt horrible because she really wanted Amy to sleep.
For at least 45 minutes Karma had been walking on a cloud. Amy made her feel that way. Amy made her feel happy and good about herself and worth knowing. It was a lot different than Karma's usual thoughts and she was more grateful towards her than Amy could ever truly understand.
Beep.
Beep.
Beep.
Amy sat up and seemed perturbed. Her eyes weren't really even open yet but she was trying to be a good worker who wakes up at a normal time and lives a crazy busy life like her new best friend. If Karma could do it so could she.
"Uh-uh, no," Karma said, noticing Amy's state and rushing to stop her from this nonsense of trying to be the perfect employee. She swooped into the room, shut the alarm off quickly and pushed a hand to Amy's chest, pushing her back down onto the bed and kissing her to quiet her mind. There would only be good mornings for the likes of Amy Raudenfeld. "Not on my watch," Karma whispered sweetly with her lips still on Amy's as she tried to softly kiss her back into dreamland.
Dizzy and confused, Amy felt her eyes shut and her body fall back down. The kiss was more than welcome. "Mmmm," Karma hummed. Even in near-sleep Amy knew she wanted to be kissing her again.
"I should get up," Amy said, her eyes closed. "Mmmm," her tastebuds kicked in and she noticed the hints of coffee that came from Karma's tongue.
"Sleep baby," Karma cooed, kissing her cheek and stroking her face with her thumb.
One kiss was mighty fine but two was addicting. Karma couldn't help herself from sinking deeper and wanting to stay with her and kiss her forever today. It'd be a lot more fun than dealing with her drama.
"Fuck, why do you have to taste so good?" Karma asked, almost angry with Amy for making her want to be late. Karma rarely ever heard her second alarm. The thing was obnoxious for a reason. She must've forgot it because Amy was beneath her and distracting her with her perfect existence when she first woke up. Typical Amy being cute and irresistable. Karma reminded herself to scold Amy for that much later when the girl was more alive.
"Why do you have to get up so early?" Amy mumbled, she was nearly incoherent. No one should get up before dawn but Karma usually did.
"I dunno, but I'm starting to think I should stay home with you." Not enough hours in the day. That expression had taken on new meaning ever since the boys first began to slack at their own firm and pawn all the work off onto her.
"Mmm, yes please," Amy said, reaching her arms up and actually catching Karma and pulling her down ontop of her to kiss her again. Amy was waking up now. The kissing was too nice. Every kiss woke her up a little more. It did more than that though. Amy wanted Karma. It was morning. Another day.
It couldn't hurt now to kiss her deep and touch her skin and try and feel all the things Karma wanted her to feel last night. Amy was scared last night but she wasn't scared today. She had all day again. A morning that would eventually lead into a night. Nothing in the morning could be an accident, right?
Karma got it, upon waking Amy was hungry for her. Horny even, she guessed that was the correct word.
Now though? Karma thought and felt frustrated and almost sad. Last night they had all that time. What did they have now? Two minutes? Three tops?
Not an option.
"Amy!" Karma laughed, forcing herself to break away. Fuck, she was sexy though. The girl had even forgotten all about the fact that she was naked under there. "You can't come with me anyway," Karma knew that denying her would be the only way. "I'm meeting Liam. He emailed last night."
"What?" Amy asked, hazily. She didn't like that guy now.
"We have to talk about the divorce," Karma said, pulling her shoes on and wishing it could all just happen through magic. "And the firm." Karma was sure he had talked to Shane and come to his senses. For a tiny bit Liam had run from things. But he'd address them now because it made more sense, she had to force herself to be calm and mature and try to take it all with a grain of salt even though it was ALL his fault and not hers.
"Can I come with you?" Amy asked, she opened her eyes to look up at Karma and pout. It was sad thinking of Karma dealing with all that crap all on her own.
"You can but I don't want you to," Karma said. Amy didn't need to get mixed up in all that. "Liam puts me in a shit mood. Last time we were altogether I snapped at you, remember?" Karma hated herself for that. It was the only thing with Amy that she actually wished she could take back.
"Still…" Amy said. She hated the thought of things being so complicated.
"How about you stay here and sleep and I'll come get you in two hours for breakfast?" Karma stared down at Amy and adored the site of her sleepyhead in her bed.
"Breakfast?" Amy asked, cheering up.
"It'll give me something to look forward to," Karma confessed.
"How about you just stay here and don't go?" Amy suggested. She laced her fingers with Karma's and wished that they could just runaway or something, skip town and forget about all this messy crap. Karma's palm against her own made her weak. She felt a burning deep down, and a want to kiss her again and taste her, to do things she hadn't thought of before.
"You know I want to," Karma said, noticing Amy's thirst. She held Amy's hand in hers and brushed Amy's hair from her face, looking down at her in near wonderment. "I'm gonna like thinking about you up here like this," Karma sighed. She let her thumb slide lightly across Amy's lips and Amy kissed it. "You're even sexier when you're grumpy," Karma smiled.
"Whatever," Amy sighed. She was sure now that she couldn't sleep. Why was Karma up at the crack of dawn to see Liam? Why was she leaving? And why didn't Amy just let herself have sex with her last night? It was all she could think.
One thing was true, Amy was grumpy.
But one thing snapped her out of it and right quick.
"Just sleep," Karma said, kissing her forehead. "I love you." She had to go, there was no more time to spend on meet you laters and maybe one days and how abouts.
Amy felt her body stiffen and then relax as Karma left.
By the time she had come to the real truth of what had been said Karma had gotten up, shut the light back off and left the room.
Gone.
Gone.
Gone.
Amy sat up, alone in Karma's space.
She loves me? Amy thought, confused by it all. How could she love me?
She fell back into Karma's bed and let the dark sleep steal her away.
Whatever that was, she'd have to deal with it later. She couldn't be thinking of all manner of strangeness at fuck-my-life in the am. There was something disgustingly wrong about that. Being unconscious made a lot more fucking sense.
Karma left the room and rode the metal box down. Resting on the railing she closed her eyes and remembered the night before and Amy next to her. She felt happy for the first time in a long time. She felt ready to end things with the main who had broken her heart.
Amy was asleep by the time Karma hit that main floor and got out of the elevator with a bit of confidence in her step.
It was all fine and good. There was just stuff to work out.
She drove to meet Liam and Shane and left her girl back at home sound asleep and naked in her bed.
It was their secret, for now. And Karma reeeeally liked that.