"Hiratsuka-sensei," I broke silence,"Yukinoshita-san urgently wanted me to attend club today."
"Hmm," she pouted,"fine very well, it'd probably be best if you changed up things every now and then.
"Hm, indeed.. Well, I'll be off then."
"Mata ne, Hikigaya-kun."
"Mm," I nodded back.
Pushing in my chair and heading for the door, I didn't hear a single shuffle from Hiratsuka-sensei, implying that she didn't glance away from me once during my travels to the door.
The more time I spend with her, the more and more I realize her inner side, the side no one could even imagine was even there... The more time I spend with her, the more I talk with her...the more instances our lips meet...the deeper I fall for her. It was disturbing, but I liked it.
However, Hiratsuka-sensei wasn't the only one that I noticed an irregularity to. Yukinoshita-san also seemed to be acting strange lately, especially with that incident yesterday... That was definitely something out of the abyss, Yukinoshita-san of all people!
She has been off a little these past few weeks, but nothing that off. Although, yes, she did catch my attention.
I stood before the door to the club room.
Upon entering I found, yes, Yuigahama-san wasn't in today and it was just Yukinoshita-san in the room, sitting in her normal spot. Her book wasn't open, being read in her lap however. This time it was set, closed, on the table by her steaming teacup.
"Konnichiwa, Hikigaya-kun."
"Domo."
My seat wasn't in its normal spot, it was set where Yuigahama's seat would normally be. Great, now I'd have to walk further and move it, increasing the already great amount of awkward in the situation. The moment I picked my chair a mere inch off the ground, she pressed down on it, grounding it immediately.
"No, sit here today."
"I refuse."
Her voice became considerably sweeter.
"Please?"
What kind of out of character Yukinoshita was this? This is a conspiracy...
"Where are you hiding Yukinoshita-san and what are your demands?"
"Sit, and maybe you'll find out."
Reluctantly, I took a seat.
"Hikigaya-kun, the school year is drawing to a close, and I must be fully honest with you...there are some things I have been keeping from you- Not that it affects you negatively, but...I have been harboring some thoughts and...how say...feelings?"
My heart just skipped a beat. Yukinoshita-san was being unbelievably adorable right now. What is going on?
"Hm?" was all I could reply.
She leaned over the table, closing much of the already small distance between us, to the point I could feel her breath.
"Hikigaya, I..."
Hikigaya shut the door gently behind him. I followed his shadow against the blurred glass of the faculty room until it disappeared.
I was the only one in this room.
The more I talk with Hikigaya, the more I find myself revealing more of my inner demons. I am revealing to much.
My heart races the entirety of the time we talk, even when just conversing about grades, and school, and jobs, and futures, and work.
I shouldn't allow this. I can't allow this.
But I can't resist this.
Every time we sit down together, even when nothing is said, I feel the urge to hug him tightly and not let him go, to seal our lips together again.
I am falling deeper and deeper into this hole...
and I can't find the strength to climb out.
Hmm... How long would Hikigaya be gone? It is starting to get lonely in here. I can hear the ticking of the clock as if it were ticking right next to my ear. Each minute felt like an eternity.
I gulped down coffee. Gah! Why can't I stop thinking of him?!
Shizuka what are you getting yourself into?! Snap out of it! He's a minor for crying out loud! NOT TO MENTION ONE OF YOUR STUDENTS!
Well... He was graduating in a few months- No. Weeks! At that moment, he'll be an adult and all of these thoughts and feelings can be justifi-
NO! It's wrong!
I picked up a pen and frantically began to jot lines down on my notepad.
I am not falling for Hachiman Hikigaya
I am not falling for Hachiman Kikigaya
I am not falling for Hachiman Hikigaya
NOT WORKING. I'll try something else.
Teacher-student relations are strictly forbidden
Teacher-student relations are strictly forbidden
Teacher-student relations are strictly forbidden
Gah! I out my hand over my chest. My heart was rushing. No use fighting. At this rate, I will pass out from hyperventilation. I have to see him, calm myself down.
The door slammed behind me as I hastily paced to their club room.
Honestly, what are you doing Shizuka? This will cause you great problems soon you know?
Of course I know, but in order to prevent passing out, I have to calm down.
"Hikigaya, I...I have something I need to confess. For the sole reason that it's been bothering me for a full year."
"Hm?"
"Hikigaya...I-I like you."
I stuttered a bit, but shortly regained my composure through disbelief.
"Hm. Funny. That's hilarious. Where's Yukinoshita and what did you do with her? Seriously, don't joke around like that. Isn't it bad enough that you down talk me about being a loner and having no social abilit-"
"Hikigaya-kun. Ive had these feeling for a while now, I just held it in because I noticed that Yui feels something too...but even I have a breaking point, everyone has one."
I was speechless.
"I had to be the first," she continued,"I could only hold it in so long, but Yuigahama-san still has yet to reveal anything...so I jumped at this opportunity... Hikigaya-kun..do you like me too?"
"I- Uh...I-I-" I was at a loss of words. If she'd have said this to me much earlier, like while on that boat ride at Pan-san's theme park for example, I would've immediately jumped at the opportunity. I couldn't respond.
"Hikigaya-kun...I believe I asked you to save me one day..."
"Y-Yeah..."
"Please save me."
She leaned in the rest of the way and pressed her lips against mine.
I couldn't pull away.
The door flew open and slammed against the end of the door track behind me. The noise was startling. I jumped a bit, but Yukinoshita-san wasn't fazed at all and didn't pull away.
I heard footsteps approaching and felt a firm hand grip my shirt collar.
Yukinoshita had done it now.