Callie walks away from the debacle. She holds her head high and walks down the hall. When she finds an empty bathroom she slips inside.
She stares at the makeup that is ruined on her face. The black circles from her mascara. So much for waterproof.
Her blush is tear streaked beyond repair. She splashes water on her face and she wipes her face with a brown paper towel.
Staring in the mirror…
How could I have been so stupid?
I should hate him but I can't.
I love him. How can I love the guy that raped me? The guy I wanted to destroy for hurting me.
Maybe because I saw a different side of him, the real Noah Puckerman.
The side he hides away from the rest of the world.
But now…
He hates me, I know he does. I saw it in his eyes.
Oh God his eyes. The pain, the fear, the humiliation, the hate.
The tears slipping down his beautiful face.
The words he flung at me. They cut me so deep, but some of them were true.
It's all my fault.
Why couldn't I just told him the truth in the beginning.
I've screwed up my life, his, and yours little one.
She rubs her hands over the small bump.
No, I cant screw up your life little one. Whatever it takes I will make sure you're happy and safe. I will make the right choice about you. I've already made my choice. I am keeping you little one.
And no matter what, you are going to know your father. He may hate me, but he cant hate you.
Now we are going to walk out of that door and say the hell with all of them.
I am going to be strong for you baby.
Callie picks up her book bag and walks out of the bathroom.
She is greeted with an empty hallway, looking at her schedule she heads to her next class.
Callie is heading to her Calculus class when Ms. Pillsbury walks up to her.
"I think we need to go to my office and talk Calinda. I heard about the incident in the choir room."
"No we don't need to talk Ms. Pillsbury. I created this mess I don't need any help in placing the blame anywhere else." Callie wishes the germ a phob would go away.
"Callie I have some pamphlets in my office that help you decide what you want to do with the baby."
"You talk like I have more than one choice. Look I know what I am going to do with him. I am going to keep him. He is a part of me and I wont give up a part of my being."
Callie's voice is dripping with conviction and anger. She doesn't realize that she is calling the baby a him.
"Look we can go to my office and talk."
"What part of I don't want to talk to you don't you understand? I don't want to talk to you or anyone else about this, I just want to get to my next class and get through the rest of the day." She walks faster down the hallway.
"Callie my door is always open if you do decide you need to talk to someone." Ms. Pillsbury walks away from her towards the other end of the hall leaving Callie in peace.
The bell rings signaling the end of first period. Suddenly the halls are swarmed with students.
She just walks with the flow of students to her class. She hears her name, sees the fingers pointing at her, hears Puck's name. She bites back the tears and acts like nothing is wrong.
Puck has stopped crying in Coach Sylvester's office. He is listening to both Coaches say what they think about this whole fucked up mess. He is really listening to them, his whole future is on the line.
I cant believe that Coach Sylvester held me while I cried, she was actually being cool. Well except for slamming me into the door. Shit made my head hurt worse too.
And Coach Bieste held my hand for a while, even though she looked like she could rip me to pieces with her bare hands. I know she is pissed at me, but she is still trying to help me.
Sue
I think you both fucked up Puckerman. You cant blame the drugs and alcohol entirely for what started this whole thing.
You could have said no to both. But you didn't.
Ms. Kincaid should not have gone to the hay loft with you. But she did. And the end result was rape.
Bieste
You know Puckerman, it is taking everything I have not to beat the hell out of you. You forced a girl to have sex with you against her will. You took her virginity, something that she can never get back.
I agree with Sue, Puckerman.
You both are at fault. I should cut you from the football team over your own admission to drug use and rape, but I wont as long as you can pass a drug screen.
Plus you are going to need something to keep you busy this year.
Plus, I can take my frustrations out on you during practices.
Sue
I agree with Bieste about the drug screening. As a matter of fact you will report to her every week for a drug test.
As far as the date rape, if she presses charges you can be tried and sent to jail. But that is up to her. You committed a crime, no sense in whitewashing over it.
Sue pauses thinking about Callie.
Then we have this plan Ms. Kincaid was going to implement.
What the hell is wrong with you kids?
Sue is shaking her head looking at Bieste and then back at Puck.
She was going to catch you, then dump you to get back at you.
Public humiliation was her form of revenge for the rape?
No creativity in kids today.
Disappointment shows clearly on her face.
Why not just cut you balls off or your precious Puckzilla? That's what I would have done.
Sue has this strange expression on her face, followed by an evil smile.
Bieste
Sue. stay on topic please.
The plan went wrong because you both fell in love with each other. Don't deny it Puckerman, and from what we heard in the choir room, she loves you too.
I don't think any of this was really planned out and I don't think she would get pregnant on purpose either.
Why would she want a baby by the guy that took her innocence? It doesn't make sense. But this whole thing doesn't make sense either.
I think you need to leave her alone for awhile. You both need time to think about what you are going to do, about how all of this is going to effect all your lives.
Sue
Puckerman you have always been a loner, keep it up for awhile. Don't let anyone bait you into talking about this here at school. Don't talk about it in Glee either.
You have many decisions to make about your life and the life of your child.
You have a simple choice to make about the mother of your child, can you forgive her? Her choice, can she forgive you?
Can the two of you put all of this behind you for the sake of the child?
It wont happen over night, in a week or even a month, but the two of you will work this fucked up mess out for the sake of your kid.
She leans forward so that her face is inches from Puck's.
Now if I hear one word about what went on in this office out there in the halls I will hunt you down, cut off Puckzilla and drop it down the garbage disposal. Do I make myself clear?
Puck nods his head in agreement. Shit, Coach Sylvester is scary as hell and I think she would enjoy doing that to me.
Sue
Now go clean up and go to class. Not the nurse's office, but to actual class. This is something you have to face, you cant run and hide from it.
Don't let them smell fear on you Puckerman, if you do, they will eat you alive.
Puck stands up to leave when Coach Sylvester pulls him into a hug. She says gently to him.
"Believe it or not kid, I am on your side. I am hear if you need to talk."
Bieste also pulls Puck into hug telling him, "I am too, just don't make me regret helping you. I can still kick your ass Puckerman."
He nods at both women, still not believing that they both were there for him.
Puck walks out of the office and towards the closest restroom to his next class, Economics. He is glad that the hallway is clear.
The restroom is empty and he starts washing his face.
He starts thinking about everything.
I am going to be a father and I might go to jail.
Jail cause I'm eighteen, legal adult age.
Shit.
I fucked up so bad this time.
When I walked in to the choir room my world stopped spinning and it crashed around me.
Callie had planned this whole thing. At least that is what my mind heard, not that I was really giving her a chance to say anything.
The way she looked at me when I was yelling at her, I knew everything I was saying was cutting her like a knife. I just wanted her to feel like I did, to hurt her.
When she finally yelled back at me, what was left of my badass self was crushed, she said that I raped her. That it was her in the hay loft.
I couldn't believe it until Coach Sylvester showed me last year's school picture. No that wasn't right either, I didn't want to believe it.
And the really sad part to me, I still love Callie. And the part that makes me want to hurl; I raped the girl I fell in love with.
I never told anyone about that night, not even Finn.
Between the booze and the pills, I couldn't stop. It was like I wasn't even in control anymore.
When she said no my brain freaked out. No one says no to the great Puckzilla. Everyone wants a piece of this action. That is what my mind was saying.
I remember her saying no, stop, fighting back and then her screaming. I just put my hand over her mouth and kept going until….
He starts heaving in the toilet….The vivid memory playing out in front of his eyes….His stomach emptied and with shaking hands he walks to the sink and rinses his mouth out….Looking at his reflection in the mirror, he sends his fist smashing into the glass…He doesn't notice the pain until he sees the blood in the sink….He looks at his hand and sees the crimson liquid dripping off to mix in a swirl with the water going down the drain.
He looks up when he hears the door open. He is shocked to see…