Just a quick note!
In the last chapter, a lot of people asked since I changed the ages of the characters if Prim should know about sexual things. You guys should keep in mind that she is from a District that doesn't know much other than to survive. In schools, they didn't teach about sexual education, I'm assuming, so please keep that in mind. I'm trying to keep the type of girl Suzanne Collins created Prim to be! Prim is innocent and has never experienced something like this with a boy so everything is new to her.
I hope you understand!
CATO:
It looks like I'm not going to sleep tonight, since I'm going to be busy trying to make sure that Molly wouldn't come and do anything to Rose in her sleep.
Last night was very.. Fun, in simple terms. I didn't expect to break down like I had done in front of Rose, let alone cry, and I definitely did not expect for Rose to open herself to me like that (if you know what I'm sayin). Usually hitting that old boat in the backyard kept me calm, but this time, it didn't work. I've had that boat for years, almost four, and I would go to it every time there was a situation where I couldn't control my anger. I get so worried about Rose, way too much than I would like to, so nothing is ever enough when it comes to her, not even that old boat and my bat.
After giving her the very first of many future orgasms, I was finally at peace. She was so fucking sexy sitting on top of that counter, back arched, head back, sweating like crazy and breathing hard.. The way she tugged at my hair and moaned, the way she bit her lip and rolled her eyes upward..
Holy mother god damned fucking shit.
She was sleeping now, tucked into my arms. It took a whole hour to get her back to sleep again. I had only been in the shower for, at most, twenty minutes. I knew Rose had to be sleeping by the time I finished my shower because she had definitely been tired out, especially after everything. What I didn't expect, though, was for her to be tossing violently in her sleep and mumbling 'no' over and over again.
It was weird seeing her like that. I've been there when she's had nightmares before.. there was usually one a night, mostly about being back in the Games, but they were only as bad as the one tonight when it came to Pete. I expected her to say it was about him, and I would console her like I always did. But when she said it was about Molly, I knew exactly what she was dreaming about. It didn't take a rocket scientist to know that she dreamed about me fucking Molly. What I don't understand is why that would invoke such a response from her in her dreams. Rose was the one that had to wake me up from violent nightmares, and those only happened when she wasn't there.
I don't know what the hell I'm going to do about Molly. No, she doesn't have any time to do anything remotely dangerous since we would be leaving later tomorrow night, but Molly was the type to plan her strategies for long periods of time, leaving you waiting for what she was going to do next. It could take her a full year, for all I know. She probably already hatched her secret plan. Molly was a maniacal scheming bitch. One time, she almost ripped a girl's eyes out for staring at me for too long.
What I do know is that if she hurts Kitten in any way, I'm not going to show any mercy. I'm going to imagine her in the arena, where I don't have any rules or limitations, and I'm going to do some horrible, horrible things to her.
I'm tired, but I know that from now on until whenever Molly hatches her evil plan, I will not be able to sleep. It's hard for me to sleep now, and I know that it's only going to get worse. It doesn't matter though; I made a commitment to sacrifice everything, even myself, for her. She cried about her dream the whole hour it took to finally calm her down.
All night, I watched her sleep. It didn't seem to take very long, and soon night was turning into day. Right as the sun began rising, Mum knocked lightly on my bedroom door and peeked her head inside. She always woke up early to prepare breakfast for me and Charlie and to get him ready for school, but she went to sleep early anyway.
"Hi, Pumpkin," she whispered as she noticed Rose sleeping.
"Hey."
"You didn't sleep at all, did you?" she asks. Mum knows me too well to tell what was wrong or if I lied in any way.
I shook my head no. "I needed to be awake to watch her," I answered.
Mum came and sat down on the edge of the bed. "Why? She's fine. You need to rest, too."
I shook my head again. "I need to make sure she's safe. I've done nothing but made her upset and put her in danger."
"I understand that," Mum nods, "but you need to sleep. She would want you to."
She's right. If Rose found out that I hadn't slept, she'd be angry with me. She's a healer and knows all about shit like that..
But, if I weren't in her life altogether, she wouldn't have to experience anything like this at all. My life has been predetermined for me, so I never had the choice to be anyone that I wanted to be. Because of my dad, this is the only way I could be. I'm constructed to be with girls that are like Molly, ones that are wild, loose and don't give a shit about the way I treated her or talked.. Just as long as the night was eventful enough.
Rose wasn't my type, not at all. But there's something about her. She is the most beautiful girl that I have ever seen. Its just that she's not right for me and I'm not right for her. Rose deserves a guy that will buy her flowers everyday for no reason. A guy that is sweet, and takes her out on romantic dates. One that makes sure he doesn't put her in danger, but can always keeps her safe.
Rose doesn't deserve me. She needs someone that isn't so destroyed and destructive at the same time.
"I know what you're thinking, hun. And you know it's not true," Mum interrupted. She completely read my mind, something she's been able to do for I don't know how long.
"Mum," I sighed, "she deserves better."
"You're the best she can ever have, Cato, and I think everyone knows that, especially those people in the Capitol," she responds. "Why would President Snow let you both live if he didn't think you were worth it?"
I open my mouth to respond, but really don't know what to say. She's right. Like always.
"But I'm not going to rest for the entirety of my life until I know she's out of danger. And right now, that's not happening. I'm only bringing her trouble."
Mum pauses and stares out at the rising sun, watching as the sun blended different shades of orange, pinks and even purples.
"Do you love her?" she asks after a while.
"What?" I ask, completely surprised.
"Do you love her?" she repeated.
"I do."
Mum smiled wide and reached to grab my hand. "Did you think about how she would feel if you left her?"
Dammit. She's right again. Rose would be devastated. I have no doubt.
"No," I admitted. Rose stirred in her sleep, mumbling something while pushing her body closer to me. Mum watched her and smiled distantly, like she was thinking about something completely different.
"Then think about the consequences of your actions before you take them. They're not always the right choices."
She pat my hands and stood up, walking out of the room and closing the door behind her.
Goodness, why does she always have to be so right? Her words made me think back to when we were in the Capitol and I pretended to be dead. Rose had been so devastated, and I didn't need to leave my room to know that.
I waited out in the hallway everyday, waiting to see if I would hear her move, or if she would even leave the room to eat something. I waited to see if she would actually make conversation with Haymitch and Caesar when they came to visit her every couple of hours. She didn't though. I heard her cry all day long, and when night came, she would cry to sleep and cry in her sleep. On the first night that I was without her, I tried sleeping peacefully by thinking about the fact that she was only a room away from me, but that didn't help at all. So, I sat outside of her door and waited until I couldn't hear her anymore.
That night, I snuck into her room and watched her toss and turn in her sleep. It was difficult sitting there, watching her without being able to do anything to help. If I were to touch her at all, it would wake her up. I couldn't lay down with her, or even talk to her. I just sat in the chair next to her bed and watched as she moved. Rose would only stay asleep for a couple of hours, but that was enough to make me drowsy enough.
Just from one day, I could tell that Rose was heartbroken, so thinking about how it would hurt her if it were longer than that, I knew I couldn't just let her go. It wouldn't only hurt her, it would hurt me, too. I'm a little pansy bitch when it comes to Rose. I can't say no to her, especially when she gets all pouty and puppy dog eyes on me.
I wanted to give her everything in this world, but first, I would have to change myself. That means doing all of the sappy, romantic shit that girls like. I already gave her the roses.. Now how do I do the romance?
It took almost an hour after Mum left, but Rose did finally wake up. I was just beginning to fall asleep myself when she stirred and her eyes fluttered open.
She stared up at me for a while before speaking. "You didn't sleep at all, did you?"
I shake my head, knowing that lying to her wasn't going to do anything. "I was watching you. Are you okay?" I was concerned on how she was doing mentally. It's not everyday that someone gets threatened by a crazy 'ex-girlfriend' that is also a complete bitch.
Well, maybe that is everyday... I don't know everyone in this world.
"I'm fine," Rose answered, sitting up and rubbing her eyes. "Are you?" she retorted.
"Yeah," I lied. Truth is, I'm fucking exhausted. But it's the last day that I'm going to be here with family and I don't want to spend the majority of it sleeping.
"Cato.." She raised her eyebrows at me.
I knew what she was thinking. And she's right, I'm lying.
"I know, I know, but I just don't want to take the chance to miss out on being with my family."
"The Capitol can wait," she tells me. "You have all day to spend time with them, but you can't do that if you're tired."
"I know," I sigh, rubbing my temples. I am really tired.
Rose brings her knees up and my shirt slips down her legs, exposing her smooth thighs and the white cotton of her underwear.
Oh, I definitely don't want to sleep now. I'm wide awake.
"You need to rest."
"I need you." I place a hand on her thigh and trace up and down. I kiss her neck softly and watch how she gets nervous.
Rose blushes and pushes my hands away. "Stop," she mumbles.
"You weren't saying that last night," I smirk. I know exactly what to say to make her itch.
"Shut up!" she tells, turning away from me. Her blush was spreading to the tips of her ears.
"You wouldn't shut up last night, so why should I?" Oh, this was getting good. I could go on for hours.
She watched my smile grow and turned away again. She was definitely nervous. "Oh my gosh."
"See, that's what you were saying."
"Cato!" she yelled. I could say another joke, but I kept my mouth closed. She was as bright as.. As... A red rose.
See what I did there?
"What?" I asked, trying to keep a steady breath. My abs were hurting at how much I was laughing. It was way too difficult not to say anything about the phrases she was using.
"Please stop."
I laugh and pull her back. "Why?"
"It's embarrassing," she says with a pout.
"Aw, Kitten is embarrassed," I teased. She was so adorable, blushing and covering her cheeks.
Rose pushes me away. "Why don't you go to sleep?" she says seriously. The smile on her face was gone and she was staring at me worriedly.
"Fine, shit, I'll go to sleep so that you and Mum will leave me alone." I had claimed defeat. It was the two women in this whole world that I would always listen to, so if course, I couldn't say no.
"Okay," Rose smiled. I settled in and she held me the way I held her while she was sleeping.
Rose pulled the sheets over us and rocked me back and forth, lulling me to sleep with her steady heartbeat. Her silky hair brushed lightly against my cheek and neck.
It was maybe eight hours before I woke up from sleep. Rose was missing from the bed, but I was well rested.. Well, almost rested.
I got up and washed up before trekking downstairs for some of Mum's amazing food. That's what I miss about home.. The food.
Ma was in the kitchen with Rose making what looked like my lunch. No one ate two full plates of food but me.
I kissed them both on the cheek and started shoveling food down my throat. I was starving, especially after last night.
Mum and Rose were talking and laughing with one another while I sat and ate. I loved that they were getting along so great. I don't know if I can say the same about Rose and my Dad. He was such a bitter and angry man, and he hated when I brought friends over because it would be an excuse to delay training.
On the other hand, I knew that Mum would love Rose. They're the exact same people with different ages.
"Pumpkin, when you finish eating, could you pick up Charlie from school? He was so excited to brag about his big brother to all of his friend today."
"I'll just go now."
"Do you want me to come with you?" Rose asked while drying her hands.
"No, that's okay, baby." I caught Mum trying to hide her smile.
"Okay," she nodded with a smile. I placed my dishes into the sink, my eyes never leaving her. I wanted to kiss her, but I didn't want to do that in front of Mum. She was watching us intensely with a knowning smile.
I turned to walk out of the door.
Shit.. I really wanted to kiss her so fucking badly, especially with her perfect pouty lips. Rose wanted me to kiss her, too. I can see it in her eyes.
Oh, fuck this.
I turned around and grasped Rose, giving her a tight squeeze and a kiss. Mum looked like she was going to break her jaws if she smiled any wider.
Rose leaned into me as I pulled away. "Love you," I muttered so that Mum wouldn't hear. She wouldn't let me hear the end of it. Rose kissed me again and smiled with her blush spreading. She blushes so much.
The walk to Charlie's school was only about fifteen minutes. I was homeschooled by my dad after I turned twelve, so from then on, I walked him to school and picked him up. It was cool. I hadn't done it in about a year because I had to devote all of my time to training, but at least now I have a chance.
It was pretty cool outside, but everyone was either inside or in school. I saw a couple of familiar faces that stared at me, but I've learned to ignore it. I'm kind of famous, in a weird, murderer way.
By the time I actually made it to Charlie's school, there was about ten minutes before he would be released, so I sat on a bench in the front and just waited.
It felt weird being here. I hadn't stepped foot into a school since I was twelve, but I have so many memories of the place. I had a lot of friends before my Dad ripped me from my childhood. This is where I met them all, where I was able to be a normal kid and not have to worry about anything but having fun.
"I thought you'd be here," a voice interrupted.
Aw, fuck. Why is she here?
"You are the last person that I want to see right now."
"Why?"
Is she really this fucking stupid? "You send a note threatening my girlfriend, and you're asking why I don't want to see you? Are you asking for a death threat?"
Molly smirks and take a seat next to me. "I just wanted to talk to you."
"So you waited for me here so that you could have your chance? You're smart for choosing a public place; it makes it much harder for me to strangle you if someone might be watching."
Molly sighed and faced me fully. "Look Cato, I'm sorry. I was just upset about how everything happened last night. You know that I never got over you, and I know you still think about me, too. It would be impossible for you to forget all of the memories we share."
Why are girls so obsessed with me? We've already established that I'm fucking beautiful, and I have killer charm, but that gets me into bed and then I'm fine. What is it about me that keeps girls coming back? My killer oral skills, hip action..? Hm. Maybe I should ask.
"Molly, you are the last person that I think about," I tell her as calmly as I possibly could.
"Why are you even with her?" Molly asks angrily. "She's not even your type! She's probably a fucking virgin, for crying out loud!"
"It doesn't matter why I'm with her!" I yell. "It's not your problem and you need to stay out of it!"
I stand and take a few steps away from her to compose myself. Before Rose, I'd just lash out and destroy something, but I'm trying to make myself better.
Too bad there are annoying bitches like Molly that make it so hard to do.
"Cato." I feel Molly's presence behind me. "Can you at least forgive me?"
She comes to face me and places her arms around my waist. Her hands trace up and down my spine, knowing that was my weakness. I felt my body starting to give in to her touch.
Damn, we shouldn't be doing this.
"No, just-"
"Forgive me, and I'll let you go," she whispers, peering up at me through her thick brown eyelashes.
Shit.. It was the look. It's the fucking look.
"I don't.. I can't. I shouldn't."
Her arms reach to wrap around my neck and Molly smirks, making it obvious that she's knows that she trapped me. I haven't had sex in how long?
No, you need to get away from her before something bad happens.
I haven't had sex in so long, though...
Molly reaches up and attaches her lips to mine softly before she brings them back with force. Oh, I remember those endless nights.. Covered in sweat, but not stopping. It was the best exercise. Fucking Molly was always a calorie burner.
"Cato?" A voice calls to me.
Shit, what have I done?
I push Molly away and turn to Charlie, who was staring at me with a confused look.
Shit.
I just made out with Molly, willingly.
No.. No, no, no.
"Hey, buddy."
"I thought Rosey-Posey was your girlfriend. You have two girlfriends now?" he asks.
I turn to Molly, who has a successful smirk on her lips. She knew exactly what the fuck she was doing! She tricked me! This was her plan!
"No, Charlie," I answered, taking his hand and walking away.
I don't have two girlfriends. I only have one, and when she figures out what I did, I'm not going to have her.
Uh oh Cato. What have you done!?
I hope you enjoy this! Finals week starts tomorrow, so I don't know if I'll be able to update within a week which is why I'm doing this now.
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