AN: Lemons in this one people =)

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto.

Chapter Seventeen

"Hey Kitten want to go to the pool with me and Itachi?" Kisame asked me from my doorway. It was only us in the house, the rest of the gang out on different missions.

"Sure I´ll meet you guys there." I told him and closed my book in favor of searching for one of my bikinis.

I soon joined them in the pool and we immediately started a water fight. It was me and Itachi against Kisame and we were actually winning, until he dragged me beneath the surface that is.

As soon as I went under, I was attacked by a memory that I had managed to suppress. I was back in the hands of Sasuke and he was attempting to drown me in a bath tub. He held me down by my shoulders and only let me up when I was about to pass out.

I panicked and Kisame immediately pulled me back up. I gulped down air I didn´t really need but I could feel an anxiety attack closing in on me. "Kitten what´s wrong?" Kisame asked me, both he and Itachi was looking at me worriedly. I felt my throat tighten, making it impossible for me to answer them.

"Let´s take her to my room, it´s the closest." Itachi said and got out of the pool. He then lifted me up and carried me away, Kisame following. He put me down on his bed, not caring that his bedding got all wet.

"Sakura, look at me. What´s wrong?" He asked me, one hand around my neck and the other one underneath my chin. My teeth were shattering in fear but I managed to get out a few words.

"Flashback… Sasuke…"

Itachi and Kisame shared a look before Itachi told him something I didn´t hear. Kisame left the room and Itachi turned towards me. I had managed to get my shattering teeth under control but instead my whole body had begun shaking.

He pulled me closer, wrapping his arms around me in a hug before saying. "Tell me what my brother did." His voice was calm and soothing and I found myself telling him, not only about when he tried to drown me, but about all the other things as well.

When my voice died out Kisame had returned and sat in a chair, listening to me just as Itachi did. I shed no tears but instead sorrow had clawed its way inside my chest and was slowly eating at my heart.

Itachi send me into his shower to get warm, sitting in only a wet bikini had not been a good idea. As the hot water poured down my body I realized how lucky I was to have these guys as my family and a little bit of the sorrow disappeared.

I dressed in a pair of Itachis boxers and one of his t-shirts before going to the kitchen to look for some food, I actually felt hungry again. In the kitchen I found Itachi and Kisame again, it seemed that they too were hungry so perhaps my body was starting to get back its routines.

"You hungry Kitten? I made enough for you too." Kisame said from his spot at the stove and I could hear the hopefulness in his voice.

"Yeah I´d love some food… you need any help?" I asked him and his face got lit up by a smile.

"Nope, you just go sit and this will be done in a minute." He told me and I sat down next to Itachi at the table after getting a coke from the fridge.

The food was soon done just as promised and I found myself enjoying our silent meal immensely. We all helped cleaning up before moving to the living room to watch a movie. We ended up watching a horror movie witch made me scream when the front door suddenly opened and the rest of the guys came home.

We all gathered in the living room until the movie ended, when it did all went to their respective bedrooms. Except me. I clung to Hidans arm, begging him to not leave me alone. He just smirked at me and asked. "Are you scared of the darkness Cherry?"

"Only of what´s inside it…" I answered seriously, the scary movie forgotten. He paused for a moment before giving me a light kiss.

"Of course you can sleep with me; we can even have a sleep-over again if it´ll make you feel better."

I smiled at that, he really was a sweetheart when he wanted to be. I eagerly nodded and he left me in my bedroom to go and change into his pj:s. I decided that I could sleep in what I was wearing and instead lit some raspberry scented candles.

Suddenly two large hands landed on my hips and I yelped in surprise before turning around. I came face to chest with Hidan just as I had suspected and I hit him in the chest.

"Don´t scare me like that! I´ve told you that before…" I tried to sound angry but when he smiled at me I smiled back.

I pushed him to sit down on my bed before sitting down behind him, threading my fingers through his silky hair. I felt him lean back into me and while I continued massaging his scalp, I slowly leaned closer only to bite him in the juncture between his neck and shoulder.

Instead of flinching away or yelping in pain as I would have expected, he groaned in pleasure. When the first shock had disappeared, an evil little smile graced my lips and I made a trail with my tongue against his neck, making him almost purr.

I gently bit him just beneath his ear and tugged lightly on his hair, making him actually moan this time. Then he chuckled and said in a low voice.

"Oh you´re an evil little minx aren´t you Cherry…" he then spun around and pinned me to the bed, his face only centimeters from mine.

"Did you really think I was going to allow that?" He asked me with a smile and then latched on to my lips. I moaned, automatically giving him access to my mouth. Our tongues danced together and when we had to breathe again, he moved to my throat, sucking hard enough to leave a mark.

I returned the favor and felt Hidans warm hands gently massage my stomach. I moaned and he silenced me with a kiss before pulling off my shirt and then his own. Since I wore no bra underneath the shirt our bare chests rubbed against each other agonizingly wonderfully.

I pushed him to a sitting position and sat in his lap, wrapping my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. He bent his head down and latched on to my pierced nipple with his mouth, eliciting a loud moan from me.

I pressed myself harder against him, arching upwards to give him better access. He growled against my throat before pushing me back down on the bed, ripping Itachis boxers off my body in the process.

I relaxed on the bed, not caring in the least that I was now completely naked. Hidan quickly disposed of his own remaining clothes before joining my naked body on the bed.

He placed butterfly kisses all over my body, making the heat in my stomach tighten into a knot. I gave him an impish smile before flipping us over and straddling his waist. I leaned down and kissed him before reaching down and slipping him inside me, making both of us moan.

I rode him, slow but steady, making him grip my hips hard enough to bruise. He helped me move a little faster, making both of our bodies tense up in preparation.

He suddenly flipped us, pushing me down in the soft mattress. He moved both hard and fast inside me, making me scream his name in mere seconds. He soon followed but not before flipping us again, making me the one to collapse on top of him instead of the reversed.

"I love you…" I whispered against his neck. "I love you too Cherry…" He murmured back and I smiled even though he couldn´t see that. It didn´t take long for either of us to fall asleep.

A few days later, Konan trapped me in the living room, telling me some things that I didn´t want to hear.

"You haven´t been out of the house since we got you back from Sound, are you afraid of going out?" I froze up, not wanting to answer her but knowing that I had to.

I gave her a small nod and then kept my head lowered, I was ashamed and didn´t want to look at her. Because of that I didn´t notice when Pein and Sasori entered.

When a hand landed on my knee I flinched and looked up to come face to face with Sasori, who was sitting next to me.

"Why didn't you tell us?" I sighed and rested my head on top of my arms.

"Isn´t it enough with all the other problems I have? Couldn´t this just go away on its own?" I asked him, my voice tired and sad.

"You know that´s not how it works…" Pein said from my other side. I sighed.

"I know, but what should I do about it then?" I asked him and he smiled at me before answering.

"Go out of course."

A few hours later, Pein, Konan and Sasori had managed to get me out to the garage and were now trying to get me inside the car. Sasori were already sitting in the backseat of Peins car and was trying to get me in there too.

"Please get in the car Sakura, no one´s going to hurt you in here." He pleaded with me. I sighed and gave up, they were clearly prepared to stay here all night if that was what it took.

"Fine, but only if I can sit in the middle." I told him and slid into the car.

"I can arrange that." Said Konan with a smile before she yelled.

"DEIDARA GET TO THE GARAGE NOW!"

We didn´t have to wait long before he showed up and she grabbed him and shoved him in the backseat with us before he had a chance to ask her what she wanted.

Since I now was trapped between Sasori and Deidara, Pein took the opportunity to get the car on the road. I was tense as a bowstring and clutched both Sasori and Deidara hard enough to give them bruises.

"Calm down Sakura, I´m not going to let anything happen to you." Sasori whispered in my ear making me loosen my grip a little.

"What are we doing?" Deidara asked from the other side of me and Pein told him about my problem.

"Then I suggest we drive until she feels safe in the car and then maybe go and get something to eat before heading back home." He said and the others agreed.

We drove all around town and after an hour or so I started to relax again, we pulled up in front of a fancy restaurant on the way back and I was relieved to see that the place had bouncers. The bouncers meant that nothing bad could happen to me inside the restaurant either.

When we arrived home I had a smile on my lips and my heart felt a little lighter as well. To see the little things my brother and Deidara did for each other, holding hands beneath the table, holding up the car door, a quick kiss when they thought nobody was watching.

It made me feel happy.

A few weeks passed calmly and all of my little problems started to disappear. I ate again, at least if someone reminded me. I didn´t get as many flashbacks or nightmares even though I still had trouble sleeping sometimes. I had no problems with going out of the house as long as I was not alone.

And I was finally going back out on missions.

I was going with Hidan and Kisame since Kakuzu had to take care of Itachi who had gotten a concussion the night before. We geared up as usual and headed toward the eastern border for our patrol.

I was calm but alert, I didn´t want any nasty surprises this time.

A crash was heard from inside an abandoned building and we quickly glanced at each other before getting closer. We snuck in undetected and discovered something that made me see red.

Sasuke and his team.

I forgot all about caution and launched myself at the bitch, Karin. She didn´t see me coming and fell to the ground underneath my weight. I had a good grip around her throat and I didn´t plan on letting go before she turned blue like Kisame. I heard the sounds of fighting around me but I didn´t take my gaze off Karin's now purple face and panicked eyes.

She finally stilled underneath my hands and with a satisfied smile I turned my attention towards the big guy, Jugo. I jumped on his back and before he realized what was happening I had broken his neck. It felt wrong to let him die that fast but I knew I wouldn´t be able to take him down otherwise.

Instead I looked around for Suigetsu and found him fighting against Kisame. I gestured for Kisame to go help Hidan fight Sasuke and he did it, even if it was unwillingly. I smiled a crazy smile at Suigetsu and saw him pale, he realized what was going to happen and that he could do nothing to stop it.

That didn´t mean that he didn´t try. I had to fight him both long and hard and he got in a few good hits on me before I got him down. I smashed his head in against the concrete floor, not caring that his blood painted me red.

At last I turned towards Sasuke but he seemed shocked to see that he was the only one left and stood completely still. Just as I was about to launch myself at him, strong arms wrapped around me and held me back.

"Enough Kitten." Kisames voice near my ear erased some of the bloodlust from me and suddenly I was terrified of what I had done. I had lost control. Kisame started to lead me back outside but when I heard the unmistakable sound of a cocking gun I quickly spun around again.

Hidan were a few feet behind us and Sasuke had his gun trained towards his head. I quickly grabbed Hidans hand and spun him around just as Sasuke fired the gun. I heard two bullets fly past my head by mere inches and felt the other four lodge themselves in my vest.

I felt when we landed on the ground but the pain in my back overshadowed everything else. I heard Hidans frantic voice in my ear.

"Sakura! Sakura are you okay?!" I let out a pain filled moan and heard Hidan swear. Suddenly someone lifted me off of Hidan and then I felt air rush by me as we ran back towards the car.

I let out another whimper of pain and heard Kisames voice close by.

"It´s okay kitten, the bullets are stuck in the vest. Hurts like hell but you´ll be alright. You probably saved Hidans life." I felt grateful for his words and soon he laid me down on my stomach in the backseat.

Then I heard the slamming of two doors and we were on our way back. I listened to Hidan calling someone as a way to distract myself from the pain.

"Kakuzu! Sakura got hit in the vest, four times and close range."

"Yeah she awake but I think she´s on the border of unconsciousness."

"Yeah we´ll be back in five."

We hit a hole in the road and I whimpered again and then closed my eyes, not being able to fend off the blackness any longer.

I woke up with a start and sat up, making me almost cry out in pain. I was in my bedroom, it was dark outside and I was alone. I slowly stood up and looked at my bare back in front of the mirror; it was all one big black-blue bruise.

I grimaced but popped two painkillers in my mouth and swallowed them with some water. Then I sat down at the bed again and moved to the middle of it before trying to remember what had happened.

I knew I had been on a mission with Hidan and Kisame and that something extreme had happened.

Suddenly the memories came back and my eyes widened as I remembered what I had done. I had killed three people. I could go to jail for this, I was a murderer!

Panic started to fill my entire being and small, desperate noises started coming out of my mouth. I was even to panicked to scream. I scooted backwards until I hit the headboard of the bed and couldn´t get any further. Tears streamed down my face as I desperately tried to get enough air, I wanted to scream and make Hidan come and help me but I hadn´t enough air to do that.

My hand found the small lamp on my bedside table and I gripped it tightly before I flung it against the far wall, making it shatter in a million little pieces. I hoped that the noise had been enough to wake up Hidan…

Suddenly my bathroom door was flung open and Hidan was here, looking franticly after the reason behind the sound. His eyes locked on me and softened before becoming worried.

"Sakura are everything okay?" I gasped for breath, trying to tell him what was wrong but didn´t succeed. He sat on the bed with me and pulled me against his chest so that I was sitting in between his legs.

He gently put his hand over my eyes, the other one making calm circles on my stomach. "Slow breaths Sakura" He told me and after a while I managed to calm down, but I was still upset.

"Care to tell me what´s wrong?" He asked me, voice low but caring.

"I… I killed them…" I whispered, leaning back against him.

"Yeah you did, it´s that what has you so upset?" I nodded and his hand slid from over my eyes down to the side of my throat.

"Why?" He asked while gently pressing kisses against the other side of my throat.

"Because… that makes me… a murderer." His hands had now moved again and were now cupping my breasts underneath my tank top, making it kind of difficult for me to answer him.

"No it makes you a survivor; they would have killed you if they had gotten the chance. Don´t forget that. Besides, you saved my life, isn´t that worth something?" He purred against me actually making a low moan escape my lips as his hands worked their magic and the now familiar heat low in my stomach started to appear.

He gently bit down on my neck before pulling off my tank top, the sudden skin on skin contact made me gasp, I hadn´t realized he had come in here without a shirt.

"Still worried?" He whispered in my ear and I shook my head no.

I felt him smirk against my skin before my shorts disappeared and his fingers played with my sensitive nub. I arched back against him and his other hand tightened around my breast. His hot breath fanned over my neck, making me shiver as I came closer and closer to the edge.

Suddenly he moved underneath me and I felt his hard length poke at my entrance. He slowly slid inside me, making me bury my nails in his thighs. The feeling of him fully inside me in this angle was incredible, his chest pressing against my back comfortingly.

He used his arms to move me up and down on him, making me feel that I was light as a feather. I kept my grip on his thighs as he pumped into me and I let my head fall back against his shoulder. When my orgasm hit everything went white and I heard Hidan grunt in my ear. He laid us down in the same position and then slowly exited me while pressing a kiss against the column of my neck.

The feeling of his chest moving behind me was soothing and soon I fell asleep once more.