I do not own Life is Strange or any of the characters in it.

WARNING: Contains themes that could be triggering such as character death, depression, mention of suicide, drugs and sex.

AND LOTS OF FEELS.

"What the fuck am I doing!?" Max thought but her thinking was quickly interrupted by the amazing feeling of Victoria's lips on hers "I- I need to say something! This can't be happening" but her body was shivering and her legs trembling from the touch of Victoria's hands under her shirt while kissing the smaller girl's neck, Max could smell a scent of alcohol in the other girl's breath "She's probably drunk, or high, or both... this isn't right.." Max thought of something to say and opened her mouth to speak but a soft moan came out instead as the other girl had gotten rid of her bra and started kissing her breasts "V-Victoria... I…" Max said, half talking half moaning. Victoria stopped for a second and kicked the door closed before throwing both of them on the bed and putting herself on top of the other girl, everything after that was just a blur for Max, but she felt better than she had ever felt in a long time.

The next morning felt surreal, last night was the weirdest experience in Max's life and that came from someone who had time travel powers "Was last night… real? Did Victoria really do that? And why did I agree to it?" Max got up from bed and looked at herself in the mirror, she had bite marks and hickeys all over her body "Oh my God. This is totally not cool, it actually really happened… how the fuck am I going to cover these?" She touched the marks on her necks and suddenly the blurred images from last night came back to her, Victoria's smell of alcohol, pushing Max against the wall, tossing her clothes to the floor, kissing every inch of her body and biting her bare skin every time she tried to say anything.

"It was wrong… it was so wrong, why the hell did I agree?" Max thought, touching the hickey on her collarbone "But it felt so… good. Fuck" Max's hand continued to look for more hickeys and bite marks, she had a bite mark on her back, a hickey on her stomach, she moved her hand from one to another, then she found one on her inner thighs between her legs, when she found it more memories came back to her, Victoria running her hand on her stomach while kissing her, looking at the girl's pants asking for permission and Max wanting to say no, but the desire burned so bad inside her chest she finally gave up to it and forgot all sense of decency she had.

"What happened to me?" she shook her head as more flashbacks of herself moaning and breathing heavily came to her mind "I was so out of my mind, that was so not me… but.."

Max couldn't wrap her head around why she wasn't feeling bad for what had happened, it was so embarrassing, she had never done anything like that with anyone and especially because it was Victoria who was there. But she wasn't feeling bad not even sorry, remembering those images actually made her feel good, and that was bad.

The farthest she had gone with anyone was kissing Chloe one time and it had felt so different from this, she remember the nervousness she had when she kissed Chloe, the warm feeling in her stomach, how happy she was to think that she might feel the same way, how nice it had felt to feel her lips and how beautiful her friend looked… but this was different, it didn't feel nice this time, it just felt… pleasant. Like she was releasing all her troubles and all the things that made her miserable, she just forgot about all of that, she didn't even feel like she was herself while she was doing that, in that moment Max didn't care about anything else, it was just her and that pleasant feeling, nothing else. No death, no nightmares, no nothing.

But she was back to herself now, back in her own mind, and it was horrible. Everything inside of her hurt, not physical hurt, but that ache that had tormented ever since that day, the one that went from her head, to her stomach, to her heart. And it never stopped, except from last night.

Max sit on the edge of the bed trying to fix her thoughts, she grabbed her legs and rested her head on her knees, covering herself from the world. "What am I going to do?" she sighed, and just sit there for a long time. "At least I'm not crying anymore".

The sound of her phone woke up Max, she had fallen asleep on the bed again and she tried reaching her phone but ended up falling butt-first on the floor, getting up with a little "ouch". Max looked at her phone and saw that she had –another- message from Warren, Max sighed, he had tried contacting her since that night but she hadn't responded to him apart from the one message she had sent him the day she woke up telling him she was fine and that all that was "nothing for Mad Max", which was a big fat lie, it's not that she doesn't want to see him, it's that she doesn't want him to see her. Her state was deplorable, red eyes and nose, messy hair, unhealthy skinny… "Mad Max my cry-baby ass" she said to herself. She wanted to read the message, but reading it would only make her want to see Warren, and that was not an option.

Max looked out her window, it wasn't really late and there was like an hour before the sun started to set. She looked out the window for a while, thinking. "Was it really wrong? I don't even know if Victoria was drugged, she could even not remember anything…" Suddenly, she turned around and headed out the door, with a decisive feeling inside of her she headed towards Victoria's door "I need to know what happened, I have to talk to her" when she was just outside her door, Max froze for a second "What am even I going to say? 'Hey you remember going down on me last night? No? Well yeah that happened' So awkward…" unable to think of anything to say Max just knocked on the door and expected the worst, except nothing happened. Max knocked again but nothing happened. She was just beginning to image Victoria overdosed and dead when she heard someone "Are you looking for Victoria?" The girl said, Max turned around and saw Dana, she must have not recognized her at first because when she turned around Dana almost jumped.

"Oh… Hi Max, how are you doing? You look… nice" she said, doing the best smile she could "I thought you were still in the hospital, I hadn't seen you since…" she stopped, Max noticed how she cursed at herself for doing such a bad choice of words.

"Hi Dana, I'm… okay I guess, as much as I can be right now. You probably haven't seen me because I haven't left my room much" –"only at night" she thought "And also because Principal Wells told me that I am excused to miss my classes until I feel better"

"That's cool Max, you probably should rest and, uh, feel better" Dana said awkwardly, cursing under her breath again.

"Yeah but I need to find Victoria first, you know if she's in there?"

"No, apparently she just suddenly recovered from whatever she had these days and went out like nothing had happened, she's back to being her bitchy self now I guess."

"Really?" Max said, surprise showing a little too much on her face.

"Yeah, Taylor and Courtney came looking for her this morning, they were like crazy worried and she just came out of her room all dressed up and acting like she didn't just spent the last 3 days locked up in there"

"That's crazy…"

"I know, honestly I don't even care what that she has been up to, I just hope she wasn't hiding Nathan in there or something"

"That would be a big plot twist" Max said with a giggle, she found the idea of Nathan just hiding in Victoria's closet for 3 days very funny.

Dana smiled and nodded "I'm glad to see you Max, this dorm has been like fucking drama-land these days, I even left the Vortex Club, couldn't stand those stuck up snobs trying to defend Nathan, without him and Victoria the club is dead anyways."

"Is the club really closed now? Did Victoria really leave?"

"Well, we all just assumed she did, and I don't think a lot of people are going to stick around after, uh, you know." she shifted in her feet "It's better off this way, that 'Vorshit' Club was more of a place for egos and drama than for having fun, we have better fun without it" Dana smiled a genuine smile at Max.

"I'm glad to hear that, maybe without it we can actually have some peace at Blackwell" Max smiled, the idea of the Vortex Club gone was very comforting to her.

Suddenly, she remembered what she was supposed to do "Sorry Dana I've got to go, do you know where Victoria might be?"

"Well, she might be in class, they suspended the Photography class while they… find someone new" Dana cringed a little saying those last words "Some students moved to other classes while there was no Professor, and the most popular seemed to be Fashion Design which is in the art class, same classroom Photography was in"

"Thank you Dana" Max said and quickly ran out of there.

"Max!" Dana said "I'm really happy you're here"

Not knowing how to respond Max just tried to give a little smile and headed outside the dorm.

Once outside, the light hit Max's skin like fire, she hadn't been out in the sun since that day and the heat felt like a stranger to her, she looked at her own hands in the sunlight, skinnier than they had ever been. Max continued walking, not minding the stares people would do when they saw her walking around campus in the middle of the day "Focus Max, we need to talk to her about last night, I need to know if she even remembers anything" she continued not noticing when her walking became running, and suddenly she was running around campus.

When she got to the building Max was really agitated from the brief run, "I guess I shouldn't do this when I haven't eaten anything in 3 days huh?" a few people saw her struggling to breathe and went up to her to ask if she was okay, which she just shrugged off and tried to ignore, Max walked towards the classroom trying to sort out her thoughts but she couldn't. When she got to the classroom door she didn't stop to think about what she was doing before opening the door, storming in the classroom and yelling "Victoria!" to the entire Design class.

Hey, sorry this one took a little longer, I'm trying to keep the length good for you guys but I'm very busy this week and next chapter is probably going to be a little late too. Anyways I worked hard on this one, it was a tricky one because I had to rewatch some of the game's scenes to not go too out of character in some parts, I hope it worked out! As always reviews are the best for me so please tell me what you thought about this one! I tried fixing some mistakes I had with the previous ones so I hope this is better.

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