Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto

AN: Lemon in this one =)

Chapter Nineteen

The month flew by in a rush of doctor's appointments with Konan and Pein, furniture shopping with Hidan and regular patrol missions.

The night when Hidan discovered my new tattoo was rather amusing but in the end I got the same reaction as from Deidara and Kakuzu.

I suspected that they planned something for my birthday since they stopped their conversations when I entered the room, but I had yet to find any real evidence.

I had moved all my clothes and some other stuff into Hidans bedroom and my bedroom was now our 'living room'. My bed and dresser was replaced by a huge, dark grey, soft and comfy couch and a big 46" inch TV was in front of it.

It was the perfect movie room.

I was in the kitchen, eating a fruit while waiting for Konan and Pein to return from the first ultrasound when Itachi joined me. He leaned against the counter I was sitting on and I tugged lightly on his ponytail, making him turn and face me.

"What are you thinking about Tachi?" He gave me a serious look and I felt myself go serious as well.

"Do you want my brother dead?" Was his simple question. I felt myself freeze in a position that screamed panic. I did want his brother dead, I just didn´t think I could bear the thought of telling him that.

But apparently my silence was enough answer because he gave me the simple answer.

"I see." And then he once again left the kitchen, leaving me confused and kind of sad.

I hadn´t want to hurt him with the truth.

I was still standing frozen in the kitchen when Konan and Pein arrived a few minutes later. I took one look at Konans happy face and Peins shocked one before a big smile grazed my lips and I asked them.

"Well, how did it go?" Konan gave me a wide smile before answering.

"It went great! Everything´s fine and we´re actually having twins!" She told me happily before continuing inside the house. I patted Peins back as he walked pass me and told him.

"It´ll be fine, don´t worry." He gave me a grateful smile before he too disappeared.

The day passed calmly as most of the guys were out and I spend the day trying to figure out what to do about Itachi. Finally I sought out my brother, hoping that he could give me some answers.

I found him and Deidara in the gym, sparring, but as soon as I entered the room they stopped and focused on me instead.

"Sori could I talk to you for a minute?" I asked him and he only nodded once before giving Deidara a light kiss on the lips and following me out of the room.

I didn´t stop until we were securely locked inside mine and Hidans bedroom, but then I turned towards him and asked him.

"Itachi asked me if I wanted Sasuke dead and now I don´t know what to do… I didn´t answer him but I think that he knew my answer anyway…" Sasori frowned and thought both long and hard before he answered me.

"I think you should go and talk to Kisame about this. Kisame and Itachi were partners in the navy and as far as I´m aware they´re also best friends." I felt the need to smack myself, why hadn´t I thought of that?

"Thanks Sori, I´ll go and do that." I told him and gave him a hug before leaving him in search for Kisame.

I found Kisame in his room and I knocked on his open door before entering and locking the door behind me.

"Kisame we need to talk." I told him and he looked up from the book he was reading.

"About what?" Was his calm reply.

"About Itachi. He approached me this morning and asked me if I wanted his brother dead." Kisame frowned at hearing this.

"What did you say then?"

"Nothing, I didn´t know what to say but after a while he said 'I see' and left me. I didn´t want to hurt him but I´m afraid that I did that anyway…" I sat down next to him on the bed and hid my face in my hands, tears burning at the corners of my eyes.

I felt Kisames large hand land on my back and I looked up to meet his gaze before telling him.

"I really want his brother dead but not if it means that Itachi are going to hate me for it." Then the tears escaped from my eyes and Kisame pulled me closer, wiping them away with his free hand.

"I can see why you are worried; they are after all brothers by blood. But you need to talk to Itachi and tell him this, I´m not sure how he feels about his brother after what he did to you, perhaps you and Itachi can come up with a solution that both leaves you feeling safe and Sasuke still alive?" Kisame said.

"But what if he gets angry with me?" I asked him and blinked away the few remaining tears.

"Itachi is not a person who gets angry easily, I doubt that you will be able to anger him by only talking." Kisame reassured me and I nodded a weak smile on my lips.

"Thanks Kisa." I told him and left his room in search for Itachi.

It was getting late so I figured that Itachi probably was in his room just as Kisame had been in his. I knocked on his door and then waited nervously for him to open. When he did open, he had a tired, sad look in his eyes that made me feel extremely guilty. He was clearly worried about me wanting his brother dead.

"Hey Tachi, can we talk?" I asked him with my eyes towards the floor. He didn´t answer but he opened the door wider, letting me into his bedroom. "Thanks…" I whispered as I passed him before sitting down on his bed.

"This is about this morning, yes? I know you didn´t want to say out loud that you wish my brother dead but I got the message anyway." He told me before sitting down in his desk chair.

I felt even guiltier then before. I could hear the pain in his voice and the effort it took to not let me know how much he hurt. To my amazement I could not detect any resentment towards me.

I wrapped my arms around my legs, making me as small as possible before gathering enough courage to tell him what I had told Kisame.

"Yes I do want your brother dead, but not if it will make you hate and resent me for it. Even if I´ll only be truly free without him living it´s not worth it, your well-being is worth more." I said without looking at him. I was kind of scared of his reaction despite Kisames calming words.

But Itachi didn´t answer me right away. Instead I looked up to see him kneel in front of me, his dark red eyes locked onto mine. His eyes showed an entire whirlwind of emotions that never made their way onto his face.

Sadness, regret, guilt, hope, fear and relief were only a few of them.

"Are you actually saying that despite what my brother did to you and the threat he are to you, you are willing to let him live? Because of me?" I nodded.

"I don´t want to do that to you…"

He cut me off by giving me a hug hard enough to give me trouble breathing and he didn´t seem inclined to let go any time soon. I couldn´t help but smile, Itachi Uchiha who was famous for being completely emotionless was hugging me and by the shaking of his shoulders I wouldn´t be surprised if he actually cried as well.

I wrapped one arm around his waist, pulling him closer, and let the other one gently pet his hair.

"It will be alright, we´ll figure something out." I told him in an attempt to sooth him. He lifted his head from my shoulder and instead let his forehead rest against mine.

"If you are willing to let Sasuke live, I will make sure that he never again will be able to hurt you or anyone else. I´ll hand him over to our cousin Madara, he´s the manager of the maximum security section of the psychiatric ward in city jail." He told me, his eyes closed.

"You´ll be safe with him in Madaras care, I promise this on my own life."

"I believe you." Was my simple answer.

The next few days were stressful but at the same time calm. Pein and Konan emptied the room next to theirs and installed a joining door to what would become the nursery.

And I had a feeling that the plans for my birthday party were almost done, if Konans mischievous smile was any indicator at least.

I felt stressed, restless, but I didn´t know why. Maybe I had been in the house for too long, maybe it was because of something else. I didn´t know but when I had tried to read a book and not getting further then the first five pages in two hours I gave up and threw the book across the living room, almost hitting Tobi in the head with it.

"SAKURA-CHAN!" Tobi yelled and then proceeded to jump over the back of the couch I was sitting in, suddenly straddling my stomach and keeping me down with only his weight.

"Hi Tobi." I said more calmly before looking towards the doorway, Tobi almost never went anywhere without Zetzu for some strange reason. I would have thought that Tobi would be glued to Itachis side since they were cousins but for some reason it was Zetzu that had gotten Tobi´s attention.

"Looking for someone? Will I do?" I heard Zetzu say from my other side, how he had managed to sneak by me without me noticing was a mystery that no longer surprised me.

"Hi Zetzu, how long are you guys staying this time?" I asked him. I knew that they spend most of their time out of the city and they usually only stayed in the house with us for one week each month. What they did when they were out of town I was too afraid to ask, I suspected that I didn´t want to know the answer.

"We´re staying for a couple more days at least. We we´re wondering if you wanted to come with me and Tobi on a little adventure?"

"Please say yes Sakura-chan! It will be so much fun! We´re going to a secret place of Tobi's!"

I knew that between Zetzu´s calm and Tobi´s childlike behavior I would have a good time no matter where we went, so I didn´t spend much time thinking about the offer before agreeing to go with them.

"Dress warm, we won´t be back until late." Zetzu told me and then they left me to prepare.

I went to mine and Hidans bedroom and rummaged around in his closet before I found a backpack I could use. I was wearing jeans and t-shirt and decided that the safest course of action would be to bring a change of clothes.

I packed a new round of clean underwear, a pair of jeans, another t-shirt and a warm hoodie. I also packed a bottle of water and a flashlight just in case.

Hidan had left a dark red hoodie on the bed which I put on over my t-shirt, it reached below my butt and the sleeves were long enough to cover my hands if I wanted to. At last I grabbed a jacket from my part of the closet before pulling on some boots and making my way to the garage. I had left a note to Hidan where I was and I was getting excited to see this 'secret place' of Tobi´s.

Zetzu and Tobi were already at the car and when I put my backpack in the back I saw that they each had a backpack as well as another bag with them. I took my place in the front, Zetzu slid in behind the wheel and Tobi got in the backseat before we pulled out of the garage and into the jungle that was the city.

I was surprised when we left the city behind us but even more surprised when Zetzu turned in on a small road in the middle of a thick forest. Tobi was bouncing in the backseat so we were apparently on the right road even if it didn´t seem like that to me.

But when the road finally ended we were at the most beautiful place I had ever seen. It was a large clearing in the middle of the thick and old forest. It had a river running through it and the only sounds were those of the birds and wildlife.

It was like the physical form of the word calm.

At first I was so stunned by the beauty of this place that I hadn´t noticed that both Zetzu and Tobi were quiet and waited for my reaction.

"Does Sakura-chan like Tobi´s secret place?" Tobi asked me, his voice unusually calm and soft.

"I love your secret place Tobi…" I answered without taking my eyes of the pretty scenery in front of me. I got out of the car and made my way across the clearing.

The trees were tall and proud, telling me they were old, and their leaves had taken on the colors of autumn, red, yellow and brown. The ground beneath me was covered in grass and not a stone was in sight. The river was wild yet seemed controlled and the fast passing water was clear and cold.

When I was satisfied with my small exploration I turned towards the guys. They had laid out a blanket on the ground and a picnic basket was also present. Zetzu were standing by the blanket, watching me with a small smile, while Tobi were standing only a few feet away, almost vibrating with happiness.

I launched myself at Tobi and we fell to the ground, me on top of him.

"Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!" I told him and hugged him hard against me.

"You´re welcome Sakura-chan." He answered me, his voice suddenly dark and mysterious but still telling me about the smile behind his mask. His darker voice made me shiver, but I was not afraid, I had heard it before and knew he did that when he was really serious about something.

After we had gotten up I took off running only to launch myself at Zetzu next, making him fall to the ground as well.

"Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!" It was his turn to be showered in my gratefulness and I was determined to show both of them how much this trip meant to me.

"You´re quite welcome Sakura, it is after all one of our favorite places too."

While I was thanking Zetzu, Tobi unpacked the picnic basket and suddenly there were a lot of sandwiches as well as hot chocolate that craved my attention.

We ate and talked and suddenly it was getting dark outside. We enjoyed the last of the chocolate while watching the first stars appear on the night sky before getting everything back in the car and returning home.

As soon as the car started moving I fell asleep against Tobi´s shoulder in the backseat, I smile still painted on my lips.

I woke when someone lifted me out of the car and carried me away. I opened one eye and saw that it was Hidan who was carrying me. I snuggled closer to his warm body and felt him chuckle at me.

I heard a door close behind me and then I fell through the air only to land safely on the bed. I snapped my eyes open and glared at Hidan.

"Don´t do that to me! How many times do I have to tell you?"

I tried to be angry with him but when he plopped down beside me on the bed and nuzzled my neck, I felt the small amount of irritation melt away and be replaced with something much hotter.

"Sorry…" He purred against me and I smiled at him before pressing my lips against his in a soft kiss. He froze for a second before returning the kiss, pushing me down to lie on my back at the same time.

He kept his lips locked onto mine, barely letting me breathe, and I could feel his hands making their way up underneath my shirt to caress my stomach and ribs.

He gently tweaked my nipples, making me moan and giving him entrance to my mouth. His tongue wrestled with mine and while he won that battle, I managed to get off his shirt, giving me a clear view of his god-like abs.

He continued the assault on my mouth as his hands found new trails over my body, making me shiver in anticipation of what I knew would follow.

Suddenly my clothes were gone and his hot mouth was all over me, kissing, licking and gently biting. I moaned and dug my nails into his shoulders, surely leaving marks.

His mouth descended on my core and with the help of his clever fingers he had soon brought me to my peak. I flipped us and with a mischievous smile I took his length in my mouth.

I heard him gasp and then I felt his hands nestle in my hair, attempting to control my movements. I bobbed my head up and down while humming; creating a vibration in my throat that nearly drove him crazy.

"Sakura I´m going to…" He tried to pull me away but instead I only sucked harder, making him come almost against his will. He fell back against the mattress and I slowly climbed up to lay down next to him, licking my lips in the process.

His eyes were glued to my lips and after a quick look down I could see that he was already getting hard again.

He gave me a predatory look and then I was on all four, his mouth pressed against the back of my neck, his tongue licking a trail down my spine.

I shivered and unconsciously pressed myself closer to him, he took the opportunity to slid inside me, making both of us moan. I gripped the sheets tightly as he started to move inside me with a pace that left me breathless.

His hands almost left bruises on my hips but I didn´t care as I got closer and closer to the edge for the second time that night. The movement of his hips got more erratic and I knew that he was close as well.

Suddenly I came, hard and fast and Hidans name left my lips in a scream before the world around me went black.

When I came to I was sprawled out on my stomach, Hidan lying next to me with a satisfied look on his face.

"Hidan…?" I murmured in my pillow, confused about the smugness on his face.

"How do you feel Sakura?" He asked me, a glimmer in his eyes making me believe he found something funny.

"I feel fine, why?" I told him, already suspecting what he was going to say.

"I made you blackout." He told me, a huge smile on his lips. I sighed before laying my head on his chest, using him as a pillow.

"Yeah, you did."