Abi woke up on Jay's chest. She looked around the room to find their clothes spread out across the floor of his bedroom. What had she done?

Jay started to kiss Abi again before they had even made it to his bedroom. He closed the door behind him and pushed Abi up against it. She arched her neck back and he responded by planting kisses down her jaw and towards her chest. Both of them were breathless.

Slowly, so she didn't wake Jay, she sat up and leaned against the headboard of the bed, closing her eyes as she thought about the previous night's events. Every moment of it had been perfect.

Abi's eyes fluttered closed and she let out a soft moan causing Jay to smile at her. He pulled her away from the door and walked over to the bed, holding her hand loosely on the way. Gently, he laid her down on the bed and climbed on top of her so she was between his legs. He leant down to kiss her again and she didn't hesitate to respond.
Suddenly, he had pulled away. "Are you sure you want to be doing this?"

She'd known what she was doing. The drink had had no part in convincing her to go through with it. Jay always made her feel special. Sex with him was completely different from sex with Ben. Ben made her feel dirty and used but Jay made sure she knew that he loved her, and she loved him too.

Abi leant up on her elbows to look at Jay in the eyes, giving him the answer he needed. He smirked. Voluntarily, she pulled Jay's top up over his head and in return and he pulled down her jeans, throwing them on the floor. Soon, they were both in their underwear. Jay leant across her to reach the bedside table and pulled out a condom from one of the drawers.

She loved him. She'd been trying to convince herself otherwise for months by sleeping with Ben but she knew she'd been lying to herself all along. Last night had proved it to her, yet still, something about it didn't feel right. How did she know that the night before hadn't just been a quick shag for Jay? After all, he was the one that had broken up with her.

Jay had the condom on. It was happening. They were about to do this. The thought of it had made her squeeze her eyes shut.
"Abs," she heard Jay whispered. "Abi, look at me."
She refused, keeping her eyes shut but he tilted her chin making them flutter open.
"Abi, it's me. You don't have anything to be afraid off."
She nodded, and he pulled of her knickers.

Maybe that was why she had been nervous. Subconsciously, she knew that he was after one thing, and one thing only. As far as she was aware, Jay hadn't been with anybody since they had split up. He was probably desperate to get it all out of his system, and Abi had been stupid enough to let him use her. Maybe she had been more tipsy than she first thought.

Once he was inside of her, the memories came flooding back. This had been them on a weekly basis not that long ago. She wanted that again. Abi orgasmed. Loudly. Then quickly covered her mouth with her hand worried that she had woken somebody up. Jay laughed and her reaction and nuzzled his head in her neck.
"I'd forgotten what this felt like," he said, breathless.
"Me too."

She felt stupid now. Abi wasn't one of those girls. She didn't have one night stands and she had let Jay manipulate her into it. Or had he? He said that he wanted her as much as she wanted him. Don't be stupid, she thought, he broke up with you remember?

When he was done, Jay rolled on to the bed beside her.
"Abi."
She turned to face him. "Yeah?"
He pushed her hair behind her ear and stroked her cheek with the back of his fingers. He smiled but didn't say anything.
"What?" she asked again.
"Nothing," he shook his head. "You're just beautiful."
She shoved him playfully in the arm. "No I'm not."

Abi was losing an impossible battle with the thoughts in her head. She glanced at the clock next to a sleeping Jay. 8 o'clock. She had to get out of here before anybody noticed her. She stood up and starting looking for her clothes, pulling them on as she found each item of clothing. She felt so stupid.

"Don't be so stupid," he told her. "You don't need me to tell you that you're beautiful."
Abi felt a blush creeping up on her. Jay always said the right thing. She bit her lip.
He leant forward and kissed her. It was softer this time, now that the sex was over that hurried feeling from before was gone.
Jay pulled back and laid down, letting Abi rest her head on his bare chest.
"It's late," he told her. "You need to sleep."

She was just about to walk out of the door when she heard Jay yawn and stretch behind her.
"You off already, you dirty stop-out?" he laughed.
She turned to face him, slowly. "That's all last night was to you," she spoke quietly.
"Abs, I was just kidding."
"No you weren't. Not really."
"You know what last night meant to me, Abi."
"But I don't," she argued. "Jay, you broke up with me."
He looked down at his hands. "I know I did."
"And there was a reason for that. You don't love me."
"Wait a second Abi, that isn't what I said."
"Yes you did. When we broke up-"
"That was months ago now."
"So? Months, weeks, days, what difference does it make?"
"Time makes a difference."
"Exactly. How could you love me now if you didn't a few months ago? We haven't even spent anytime together since then that could have made you change your mind."
"You know I'll always care about you, Abi."
"But you don't love me, that's the point."
"You don't know how I feel. Being away from you made me realise-"
"That you wanted sex," she interrupted. "I mean, you've been without it for a while, right?"
"Don't put words into my mouth."
"I'm not. You know its true. Abi's so naive, lets get her tipsy and put her to bed."
"That isn't how it is at all."
Abi laughed and went to turn the door handle.
"I'm in love with you, Abs, and I've hated every day that I have had to see you with another guy who doesn't treat you how you deserve to be treated."
Abi was taken back for a moment but she refused to let him win. "I don't believe you."
"Why not?"
"You've had months to tell me this, and you wait until you've got into my knickers before you do."
"What was I supposed to say? I know you're sleeping with my brother in the room next door to me but I'm secretly in love with you and I want you back."
"That is exactly what you were meant to say."
"How could I? You convinced me that you were happy with him and I didn't want to ruin that for you. Besides, Phil would have killed me for coming between you two. You and I both know why he was so supportive of you both."
"Why is it always about your family who, may I remind you, are not actually your family Jay? Why do they always become before I do?"
"You know why."
"No, I don't. Please enlighten me."
"I can't piss them off. I'll be out, homeless and back on the streets."
"You are so dramatic."
"Ha! That's rich coming from you."
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"Abi, I just told you that I loved you and you've turned it into something that it's not."
"I'm just saying the truth."
"Which is?"
"You only love me when you've got nobody else. You'll get bored of me again soon."
"No I won't."
"Yes, you will and I don't think I can go through that all over again Jay. I was a mess after you broke up with me and I don't have the emotional capacity to get through it again this time."
"What makes you so certain that I'm going to break up with you?"
"Because you've done it before. Look, I understand why you did break up with me, okay? I know that we'd been together for a long time, and you wanted to meet new people and broaden your horizons or whatever. I'm completely okay with that, Jay. But what I'm not okay with is you using me every time you get bored of somebody else."
"Is that how you really feel? Despite everything I've said?"
She nodded.
"What about last night?"
"Last night was great, and it was just like it used to be. Which is why it cannot happen again."
"Well, if you're sure about this-"
"I am."
"Then I guess this is it for us. It's over."