Shihna held back a sigh as she observed everything around her. The party had decided to take a break from walking and fighting monsters. Her eyes wandered around to every member of the party. Refill was reading a thick book and oblivious to everything around her. Regal was preparing lunch and Genius was trying his best to have a conversation with Presea. Lloyd and Collet were...talking and laughing with each other.
Collet's so lucky, having a person that loves her so much. I should be happy for her...and for Lloyd too. She twirled a strand of hair around her finger. She felt...jealous. Eugh, I'm such an idiot. I shouldn't be having feelings like that. They're happy with each other. I shouldn't be like this. I- "Yo, Shihna!" Her thoughts were interrupted by Zelos Wilder's carefree voice. "Whatcha doin'?" he asked, sitting down next to her on the grass. "Nothing..." she replied blankly. For some reason Zelos always seemed to show up when she really wanted him to be as far away from her as possible. "Hmmm..." Zelos looked over at Collet and Lloyd. "They look good together, don't they?" Shihna nodded. "Are you jealous?" Shihna froze. "You are...aren't you?"
"O-of course not! Me? Jealous? No way!" she protested, but Zelos knew better. "You wanted to be with Lloyd, didn't you?" He continued prodding her with questions. "No..." she said. "Liar." Shihna's cheeks coloured slightly. "I..."
"You don't want to hurt Collet so you won't interfere with their relationship," Zelos continued. "You don't want either of them to be unhappy so you go on as if there's nothing wrong. You pretend you don't have any feelings for Lloyd too so you keep everything insi-" "Shut up!" Shihna clenched her fists angrily. "How would you know what I feel?! You're not me!" She glared at him intensely.
"Of course I know," he said softly. "I was worrying the whole time...what I would do if you ended up with Lloyd." Shihna's eyes widened. "Zelos..."
"Of course, there's no way you would have feelings for me anyways, so I guess it doesn't really matter." He looked down at the ground. "I'm not worth it anyways. I don't deserve you." She looked around to see if any of the others were watching. Either they hadn't noticed, or they pretended they didn't. "What are you saying?!" she demanded. "You told me to try my hardest, but now you're saying that you don't deserve me! You stupid hypocrite! I can't believe I ever liked you!" Zelos stared at her, his eyes wide. "Sh-Shihna?"
"Idiot!" she yelled. "I-I-" "Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!" she continued ranting while Zelos blinked several thousand times, surprise written all over his face. "Hmm?" His face lit up. "Oh, I get it!" Shihna stopped. "Huh?"
"Shihna doesn't want me to stop chasing after her! So she loves me after all! Ha ha ha!" Shihna's face burned as he laughed. "Y-you! Twisting things like that!" She whacked him on the arm. "Ah, you don't have to deny it! I already know that you-" He was interrupted by Shihna's hand hitting the side of his head. "I would never love someone like you!" she growled. Zelos rubbed his head. "Now that's the Shihna I'm used to seeing."
"Eh?" Her eyes seemed to get two sizes bigger as she focused them on him. "I've made up my mind now. I'm not gonna give up on you. You're going to be mine, Shihna," he said, poking her in the forehead. "I'll make sure of it." He stood up and started heading back towards the rest of the group. "...There's no way I'll ever be yours," she mumbled, clutching the edge of her purple top. "...Never." But she knew...that she was fooling herself. Of course, Zelos didn't need to know that. Not yet...
SakuMeiMei Says: Sorry, yet again! DX I didn't update for a few weeks! I had a big project and then I got grounded! And I still have so much to do. DX I'll try to get back on schedule in November. I need to make costumes for Halloween. Me and my hunnies are going to go as Zelos, Shihna and Collet. XD
Anyways, about this chapter. It's kinda...out of control. The characters kind of went off and did their own thing. XD Ah well...I wanted to write something where Shihna feels sad about Lloyd and Collet being together. I wanted her to be a bit sad and a bit jealous at the same time. XD I also wanted Zelos to show some of his feelings. Not sure if I managed to pull all of that off though. O.o;; Atleast...not in the way I wanted.