She stared at the knife in her hand, its blade shining in the light of the full moon. Part of her wanted to do this, but the other told her "No, don't do this. You'll regret it."

But what did she have to lose? What was the point of her staying in this world? All she caused was pain and suffering. She had failed so many times. She failed to protect those that she loved most...failed to make up for it...

She even failed to protect Corrine, who had died to save her.

She was so stupid. It was all her fault. All her fault...

The image of Kuchinawa telling her "You don't deserve to live," invaded her head.

She didn't deserve to live. Not at all. What was the point of living if all she did was destroy other people's happiness?

Shihna's hand shook as she placed the blade against her wrist. It was funny how she had almost used this knife to kill Collet, but now she was going to use it on herself. She started to sob, her shoulders shaking uncontrollably. "Argh, why can't I just get this over with?..."

She heard a soft knock on her door. She didn't respond, hoping that whoever it was would go away. The person on the other side knocked again, pausing to listen for a response, but was only greeted by silence. The person waited a few moments longer, and decided to open the door.

"Shihna?"

Zelos.

He was the last person she wanted to see, the person that constantly drove her over the edge. It surprised her that she hadn't gone totally insane earlier on this journey. But that didn't matter now. She had finally snapped. All of his sexual innuendos, and idiotic comments, his annoying tendency to place his arm on her shoulders...

His laughter, his perfect smile...

None of that mattered.

"Are you okay? I heard something so I came to check on you. You-" The red-headed Chosen stopped, and noticed that she was clutching in her hand. His face immediately darkened. "What are you doing?" he demanded. He didn't even bother to wait for an answer. "I can't believe this, Shihna. Have you lost your mind? I won't let you do such a stupid thing!" He lunged forward, and struggled to pull the knife out of her hand.

"Let go, Zelos! Leave me alone!"

"And do what? Leave you here to die? No way!"

"But I want to, Zelos! There's no point in me being here. I-"

The knife clattered to the floor.

"You're so stupid, Shihna!" Zelos engulfed her in a tight hug. "Do you honestly believe that we'd be happy if you died? Nobody in this group wants to see somebody suffer any more. We don't want to see any more people die. That includes you, damn it! We don't want to lose you. I don't want to lose you!"

"...Eh?"

"If you're feeling down, then talk to one of us about it. We'll listen to you, and try to help as much as we can, okay? There's no need for you to take your own life. That'd just be..."

Something that I've considered doing...

"It'd be stupid," he continued. "We're all here for you, okay? I'm here for you..."

Shihna started to cry again, as she listened to his comforting words. She couldn't say anything. She didn't know what to say. They were here for me this entire time...

"Just let it all out, Shihna. Cry all you like. I won't laugh or make fun of you," he murmured. He rubbed her back reassuringly. She sobbed harder into his shirt. "Good girl."

She wasn't sure how long she sat there crying in his arms. She just knew that at some point she had fallen asleep. "Nnh?" A blanket had been placed over her, and a note was sitting on the table next to the bed.

"I hope you're feeling better. I'll hold onto your knife until I trust you to not use it on yourself. Smile a little more, k? You look prettier when you do.

Zelos."

"That idiot," she mumbled. "He can't possibly think that a stupid note like that is going to cheer me up again..." Despite what she said, a smile started to light her face.

"Thanks," she mumbled.

"You're welcome, darling."

"Ack!" Shihna fell off the bed in surprise. "Y-You! What are you doing here?!" she exclaimed, pointing at the red-headed Chosen that was standing in her doorway.

"I came to wake you up, but I see that you already have. You better hurry up and get ready. Everybody else is waiting," he answered.

"Okay," she said, trying to untangle herself out of the blanket. "Oh..umm...did you talk to the other about what happened last night?"

"No. Do you want me to?"

"N-no. I think it's better if they don't know..."

"Alright. I won't tell," Zelos said.

"Thanks," Shihna mumbled. "Now get out of my room. I'm going to change."

"Ooh. That's the perfect reason for me not to leave," he purred, wiggling his eyebrows suggestively.

"You pervert!" Shihna growled, grabbing her pillow and throwing it in his face.

"Oomph! Alright, alright! I'm sorry! I'll leave!" he whined. He closed the door behind him as he left.

"Idiot." She looked at the note that she was still clutching in her hand. "You always seem to know how to cheer me up..."

SakuMeiMei Says: I'm exploding! All over the place! Kaboom! Kabaaam!

...No seriously. I am. My schedule's gone nuts. My brain's fried. I want to light my piano on fire.

Putting that aside...

Sorry for not updating last week. D: I was just...busy. Insane. Losing my mind. Rooar. But I shall update more soon because I have a pile of oneshots that aren't typed out yet.

It was weird writing this one. Very few people have written about Shihna being extremely depressed. It was kind of hard to write...because sometimes I feel the way that she did in this chapter. XD;; I hope it turned out good though.

I prooooomise that I'll update more soon.