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I opened my mouth and bit into the heart, eating it like an apple… maybe if I ate his heart he would stay with me. But it was simply foolish ramblings and heartbreak that attempting to justify my actions… I simply gave up and sat next to him, pulling him into my embrace. Mournful words fell from my mouth like the tears from my eyes, splattering against his bloodied skin as the time passed me by. I should have just left him… but I couldn't. The ground cracked beneath us, screams of terror echoing in the distance as everything crumbled apart.

My lover's body began to crumble in my grip, pieces falling apart until exactly five hours after his death everything was destroyed and I was shot through space like a comet. My body gave out then. The grief, the pain and the shock pulling me under. I was found by my older cousin and she looked after me for a couple decades until I was feeling a bit more like myself again. But still for the rest of that one billions years I felt empty and broken.

What was left of me without the one I had loved? I had learned far too late that he did not want to attack me. Did not want to kill me. But that was beyond my control now. It was done. He was dead now… and so was I. I was unaware of the growing resentment of my younger cousin. For he had remembered something I had long forgotten. The death of his uncle and my decimation of his planet… He hated me for making him uninhabitable. No life had bloomed on his icy planet since I froze it over and pushed it from the habitable zone.

In my own grief I did not see the hate in his red eyes, did not hear the shortness in his voice, and did not sense his growing hate. I did not know of his desire for my death. That he lusted for the destruction of the only planet in our solar system that was able to host complicated life. I did not know until he hit my planet with a space rock almost half the size of myself. I was decimated by that hit. My body was torn into pieces and I was knocked into a coma.

I can remember very clearly now what I dreamt of in that week long coma, it was a jumble of words and images that moved too fast for me to understand. I won't allow it-Cape no?-Letting go-Da?-Leave my Frie-Nein It-AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!-Bastard-Awww but-Do it with me-Abandon her to-Oh hole-Flame-Hero-Eh… Even now I can barely decipher the flashing images and words that caused my mind to hurt. Images of red uniforms, clear bottles and shining metal clashing against more of this metal with ringing that made my body twitch.

When I awoke everything was in disarray and when my eyes locked onto my cousin my rage burned and despite my injuries and flew at him. My angered screaming filled the silence as I tore into him easily, "WHAT DID YOU DO TO ME!?" He didn't answer my rage and that only angered me further until he was on the ground and my hand was in his torn chest. My fist was tight around his frantic heart. I was going to kill him. He had to die for what he did. But… I couldn't kill him…

In the end I pulled away and sent him back to his planet. This was when I pulled into myself. I put up barriers around my planet and its new twin born of the impact. I spent the next six thousand years with my feet over one of the bountiful cliffs sobbing until one dark day I felt water brush the bottoms of my feet. This was the beginning of a new life for me. I removed the barriers and watched as slowly my planet began to regrow itself.

Life began in the ocean and I watched in awe as slowly so very slowly everything changed. For many many years my planet was inhabited by mindless beasts, I watched them and hunted them when I was hungry. It was so very satisfying to kill and eat these large beasts. It did not last though. Soon another meteor came and my planet was barely holding onto life. By this time I had already begun drinking something called… vodka. It had been revealed to me in a dream of the future. A large man had downed a whole bottle with ease and I must admit I was curious.

I had created an exact copy of the bottle using my powers and it was a surprise to say the least. When I had sipped the bottle my mouth was on fire and I choked on it, scaring a few terrible lizards nearby. I was however tenacious and drank it every day for billions of years. Needless to say I have quite the alcohol tolerance now but I'm getting ahead of myself. Or behind myself… ah where was I… Oh yes!

After the dinosaurs were killed I watched as life slowly recovered once more… it wasn't much longer, well much longer in my terms I mean probably a good couple thousand years had passed before this happened, when odd creatures began to emerge… Ones that looked like me. Sort of. They were similar but not really very smart at first but they quickly adapted and spread. I was surprised as over the years they quickly became more and more advanced than any of my previous races had.

Over time I noticed something odd… Some of these humans did not work the same. In fact they were more like me but weaker. Much weaker. I approached them and was pleasantly surprised. They were something called nations and I was happy to spend time with them. I loved them dearly but one was different. One by the name of Rome felt more like a brother to me than a child. I was even given a name. Earth.

Authors Note

Apologies for the short chapter I just wanted to get ahead to this point

What comes next deserves it's own chapter.

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