Chapter 16

Roman seen Dean's face. Dean looked…sad. Dean talked and laughed with Seth. But Roman can see it. That is what makes Roman a great lawyer, he can read people.

Dean can feel Roman looking, watching him. He tried to be happy for them. He is happy, but his heart is heavy. He knows if they are going to start this relationship off right, with no secrets, Dean has to tell them about what happened.

He'll tell them when they get back to the hotel room. Now, it's just the three of them enjoying themselves.

"Where are we going?" Seth asked Roman. Dean turned and looked at Roman to.

"Paul told me about this place." Roman started to say.

"Uh, oh." Seth responded.

"Don't worry, nothing bad." "This place is very elegant." Roman told them. "They have small private rooms to eat your dinner. They get very important people eating there. Politicians, business men, diplomats, movie stars, and so on. So this restaurant have some small private rooms to eat dinner, and talk business, or anything else. So I figured, we could go there. We are out, but still private and we can talk…about us." Roman explained more.

Seth and Dean smiled. They liked that. No one around to hear what they have to say.

They finally got to the restaurant, and got out of the limo. But before they went in, Dean got a call. He doesn't know who it is. Not many people have his number. Especially since it's new. He looked and it said it's a blocked number. He thought it might be Stephanie, so he answered.

"Hello, my little boy." Said the voice. Dean just went white. He looked around to see if he could find him.

"How did you get this number?" Dean asked.

"Oh, come on." "Is that anyway to say hel…" Dean hung up before he could finish.

Roman and Seth seen and watched Dean. They saw how agitated Dean got.

"Hey baby boy, what's wrong?" Roman asked him.

Randy and William is a different situation.

"I'm sorry, but this relationship is a mistake." Dean said shakily.

And as he is about to turn and leave, Seth stopped him and turned him where he had to look at them.

"Hey, Roman and I are in this relationship 100%." Seth told Dean. "You can tell us anything." Seth said.

Dean wasn't sure how they would feel and think about him.

"Okay." Is all Dean could manage to get out.

Now Dean had no choice to tell them. He thought Randy and William was the worst part of his life. But actually they weren't. Dean sighed, and looked at Roman, and Seth. He can't hide it any longer.

"I thought I wouldn't have to tell you." Dean told them. "But now I do, and I'll understand if you don't anything to do with me after this." He continued. Roman and Seth can hear shakiness of his voice.

Seth went over to Dean and put his arm around him.

They went inside, and Roman told the host that Paul Heyman has reserved a room for them. The host showed them to the private room. They looked at the menus, and ordered. Again, they all ordered steak, and baked potato.

As the waiter is leaving, the host came in with a bottle of champagne. One of the best.

"Compliments of Mr. Heyman and Mr. Lesnar." The host said.

Then he poured each of them a glass and passed them the champagne.

They all held up their glasses, and Seth made a toast.

"To a new beginning." Seth said happily.

They cling glasses, but still can see how scared Dean is.

"Tell us baby boy." Roman whispered. Then he reached over and squeezed his knee.

Dean set his drink down.

"Okay." Dean said nervously. Dean looked down trying to build up the courage. But he knew if he didn't tell them, he wouldn't tell them at all.

"I never knew my real dad. He died when I was real young. He was a fireman, he with two other of his firemen brothers, died during while trying to get some residents out of an apartment complex. Found out later, it was arson. The owner didn't want to do any repairs. So he let it go, faulty wiring. My mom was strong…at first."

Dean stopped. Then Seth scooted over to be closer to Dean, then wrapped his arm around Dean.

"My mom was strong, then to cope, she started to use drugs, and drink. Boy did she drink. She never hit me, but she did scream and yell at me and tell me I bring her down. No man wanted her because of me. She was also so beautiful. But that went away when she started using. Then to keep up with her habit, she sold herself. Yeah, my mom was a prostitute. Not one of my proudest moment when the kids at my school found out my mom sold herself. I became an outcast. Kids who I thought were my friends, stopped talking to me. I was totally alone."

Dean stopped again to compose himself. Took a deep breath, then continued.

"As I grew up, she would bring home strange men to our rundown apartment. We had to sell the house we lived in. Sometimes I would sleep out on the fire escape because the men didn't want me in there. A neighbor lady would feed me once in a while when she did have enough. Then one day she was smiling. Happy. I never seen her this happy. She was nice to me. I couldn't believe it. Then I found out she met a man, and his name was Steve. And he didn't mind that she had a kid. I was only twelve. I thought great. My mom wouldn't yell at me, I would have a dad to do things with…be a family again. Boy I was wrong. Even though he had a job, he was a personal trainer, but he was lazy. And he became her pimp, and he took most of the money, only gave her enough to feed her habit, and barely gave any for me to eat on. He wanted to be sure my mom wouldn't leave him. So he made her dependent on him."

Dean looked up, tears forming. Dean didn't know when Seth took his arm off him, but he was holding his hand now. Seth squeezed his hand. Then kissed Dean on the cheek, and brushed the tears away that are coming down his face.

"He never had money for food, but had money for alcohol, drugs, and the gym. He was a big muscular man. Some say handsome, good-looking. He had light blonde hair, built. I admit, he had a beautiful smile. When we first met, he was nice. He warmed his way in by getting close to me. Showing my mom he loved kids. The after a couple of months, he changed. That is when he showed his true self."

Dean stopped again. Taking a deep breath.

"He never showed any interest in me in the three years he was there with us. But then one night, he had a couple of his friends over from the gym. That is when I found out he was bi. Yeah, who would have thought. And at that time, I never really knew what being gay or bi really meant. It was a Friday, and I came home from school, my mom was out with a…a…friend that Steve set up. One of his friends seen me. I got the creeps from him. I really don't really remember what he looked like, but do remember his name…Kevin. But I do remember he was muscular, nice white teeth, and the darkest eyes I've seen. They looked soulless."

Dean took another deep breath. Then continued.

"I was fifteen, and should have noticed girls. But I didn't. I was noticing boys instead. I was confused what my body was doing to me. I was already a social outcast, now I thought I was a freak. The kids at school were already talking about my mom. In the locker room one day, I was staring at the quarterback as he was changing. What it would be like to be with him. One of his friends caught me staring. Then after, they called me a fag. I thought it was bad before, but after that, it got so much worse."

Dean closed his eyes.

"That Friday was bad enough. Then came home, Steve was there with three of his friends. They were there to go out on dates with my mom. But one of his friends, Kevin was gay. He would fuck women, but only in the ass and he would think of men. I went to my room. But made the mistake of not locking my door. I don't know what was said out there, but about a half-hour later, my door opened. I was planning to leave and stay somewhere. I didn't care where. I would have been happy sleeping on the park bench that night. But I didn't leave early enough. If I would have left just a couple of minutes sooner, I would have missed Kevin coming into my room. TWO minutes…"

Dean then broke down. Roman moved closer to Dean. "It's okay baby boy." "You don't have to continue." Roman whispered. Then kissed his cheek.

"No, I need to do this." Dean sniffed.

Roman nodded. Then he grabbed Dean's other hand, and squeezed it. Encouraging Dean. Showing him that he's going to be fine. Showing Dean that he doesn't have to go through this alone.

"As I was about to leave out the window, Kevin came in. He shut the door, and then he locked it. "Leaving somewhere." He asked me. I turned around, but before I could say anything or do anything, he was on me. He threw me onto my bed, and he was on top of me. It happened so fast. I did managed to knee him in the balls, and shoved him off me. I tried to go out the door, but it was locked. And just as I got it unlocked, he was there on me again. He turned me around, then he backhanded me. I fell down to the floor. I was dazed, then he picked me up, then hit me again. But this time I fell on the bed. My mind was foggy. I felt my shirt being ripped off, my jeans being pulled off. I was stripped…na-nak-naked, then he turned me over, and he…he…he…raaa…raped me. I never knew a guy could get raped. He…"

Dean was crying. "Why didn't I grab something?" "Hit him with something!" Dean was yelling. Roman and Seth hugged Dean tight.

Roman looked at Dean. "That wasn't your fault Dean." "There was nothing, I mean nothing you could have done." Roman told Dean. "You got that." Roman said sternly. Roman didn't mean to sound like he was mad.

"Not your fault. You were a boy, just a boy. And hoped your mom threw him out." Roman said.

There was a silence, then Dean said something that shocked both Roman and Seth.

"No." Dean whispered.

"I told her what happened. She yelled at me for trying to get rid of the greatest thing that happened to her. I was trying to get rid of Steve, Kevin, and the rest of them. Then she laughed, and said I probably deserved it, and said that I begged for more. I swear I didn't! I told him to stop. I told him to st…st…stop." Dean cried out.

Roman and Seth held Dean tight. Comfort him. Now they just want to protect him even more. Now they understood how Dean is so compliant to Randy and especially William. Dean only knew that kind of life. They probably figured he had to do things to survive until he met Randy. They know Dean didn't have to continue.

"It's okay now baby boy." "You don't have to explain anymore." Seth whispered against Dean's cheek.

"No, I do." Dean said back.

"I was taken by Child Services. But got bounced around a lot. They didn't want to deal with my problems. A depressed, beat up, busted, broken down, boy. When I turned eighteen, I had to leave the program. I lived in the streets. In order to survive…eat, I had to do things I wasn't proud of. I had to…"

But Dean was cut off by Seth. "You don't have to explain anymore." "That is the past." Seth said to Dean.

"But I have to." Dean told them.

"One night I was with someone, it got a little rough. He was hitting me. Then suddenly someone grabbed his hand, and hit him. Told him to stop hitting me. That I didn't deserve to be treated that way. The guy told him I did deserve it, and I was just a common whore. A whore. Yes, did things I'm not proud of. But for the first time, someone stood up for me. And even after he heard what I did, he still didn't care. He bought me dinner, and we just talked. That person changed my life. He helped me get my life back on track. Father O'Malley became the father I lost many years before. He helped me get a job, go back to school, made me feel like a person again."

Dean stopped. He looked down again. "This is the first time I actually told the whole story." "I never even told Randy the whole story. Then before we came in, I got a phone call. It was my Kevin this time. Steve would call to. I always change my number, but somehow they always get my number." Dean continued.

Then Dean felt his chin come up. It was Roman. Then he kissed Dean softly on the lips. Then Seth turned Dean to him, and kissed him.

"I know we said this before, but we would never hurt you Dean." Roman said with care.

Dean shook his head yes. "I know." "I've learned to use my instincts since…" Dean trailed off.

It seemed like forever, Roman and Seth hugged Dean. All they want to do now is protect him. Roman and Seth care for Dean. Roman knew he is special, but also broken. But he didn't care. He was to, and so was Seth. They were made to be with each other.

Then they heard a knock. It was their food. They were hungry. They dried their eyes, and started to eat their food. But Dean knew something was up with Roman and Seth.

"Okay, what's up?" Dean asked.

"Well, we did want to ask you something, but we can talk about it tomorrow." Seth said.

"You can tell me." "Please, no secrets." Dean told them with a little shakiness in his voice.

Roman cleared his voice. "Once a year, on Seth's birthday, I let Seth have me." Roman said to Dean. "Or if we do let someone in, Seth will have him to."

"But Seth has already had me." Dean stated to them.

"Yes, but you haven't had anyone." Roman said. Then he put his hand on Dean's hand.

"I want you to have me Dean." Seth said. Then Seth leaned in, and whispered into Dean's ear…"I want YOU inside me."

Dean couldn't believe it! He looked at Roman. Roman just smiled. "I like to watch." He said as matter of fact.

Then Dean looked at Seth. Seth just smiled as he put a piece of steak in his mouth.

"You want me…" Dean was starting to say. Then Seth cut him off. "Inside me." "Yes." Seth finished. Then another bite.

"You with us doesn't mean you always have to be the one on the bottom, so to speak." "You will also have Seth." Roman told him.

"But me, your birthday." "Seth, you both can have each other anytime you want." Roman stated. Then he ate some of his steak.

"Well, baby boy?" Seth asked him.

"Yes." Dean responded.

Seth and Roman smiled real big.

"I never…" Dean trailed off.

"We know. We want to give you this experience. You deserve it. You should have this experience." Seth told Dean. "And now, we can have each other." He smiled.

Dean smiled again.

They talked more about their relationship when they get back.

"And another thing, we need to talk about is where you going to live?" Roman asked Dean.

"We know you just got your apartment, but we would like you to move in with us." Roman told Dean. "But we also know you need more time." Roman continued.

"So, we were thinking you can live at your apartment during the week, then on the weekends, you stay with us. Then after a couple of months or so, you move in with us. Give you time to get things in order." Roman kept saying.

They keep surprising Dean.

"Thank-you." "I love you…both of you two." Dean told them.

"We know baby boy." Seth responded. Then brushed his cheek with his fingers.

They talked about Dean moving, work, having a party when Dean moves in. They kept talking, making plans when they get back.

"Well, I'm full." Seth sighed out. Then he stretched. "Now to burn this food and dessert off." Then he turned to Dean. Dean could see the hunger in his eyes. But what surprised Seth is he seen the hunger in Dean's eyes. He was smiling big. There is that smile again, and those dimples. Dean is shining again. And he had Seth and Roman to thank for that. And when they get back, he's going to have to get them something special for helping him. Roman paid the bill and got in the limo on their way back to the hotel.

Their night is not over…