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Chapter 20

I still can't stop thinking about my sweet Bella trying to have sex with me. I should have known better. I knew she wasn't ready, yet I started to go through with it anyway. I wanted to for two reasons. For one, if she said she was ready and that's what she wanted then I didn't feel that I should doubt her and for another, I just really wanted to have sex with her. I can be real selfish sometimes and I know I need to work on that.

I've still been thinking of what I can do for Bella to let her see that I am serious in letting her have control over her own destiny. I still can't believe I told her that she can leave one day when it's safer if she wanted to. I don't want that to happen, but I couldn't stop the words from spewing out of my mouth. I never thought I would start to put someone else's happiness before my own. It's still a hard concept for me to believe.

We are still lying in bed and we are still naked. I'm holding her close to me with my arm around her waist. Her ass is practically poking my morning wood and that's not helping matters to say the least.

It's so hard to be a good boy, but I must control my urges. I carefully pull away from her and lay my pillow against her back. I just can't stand it anymore.

I practically leap into the bathroom. I lock the door, start and step into the shower. I should take a very cold shower, but I know what I came in here to do.

I wrap my hand around my cock and as bad as it may be, I replay the scene from earlier, but with a different outcome.

I pretend that I'm back in the bed with Bella and once again I'm about to press my tip into her waiting pussy. This time there are no sobs as I slowly ease myself into her, but moans of pleasure.

My hand tightens around my shaft as the images float in my head.

"Oh Edward," my fantasy Bella moans as I fully sheath my cock inside her.

"So tight, so warm, so wet," I say as I imagine her walls taking me in. At that image, my hands are now in a craze rubbing up and down. I need to add a little more visual to this fantasy.

I look up at Bella as I pull out and plunge back into her. She is arching her back and her tits are on display for me. Her pink, puckered nipples are just begging to be sucked. I hate to let her down, so I quickly place her rosy nipple in my mouth and suck like a baby that hasn't been fed.

My dream Bella wraps her legs around me and pushes me even deeper into her body. The joining is magnificent.

While my visual gets intense so does my hand … practically treating my dick like a jackhammer.

I imagine looking down watching as my cock thrusts in and out of her.

That does it for me and I explode all over the shower wall. I just pray that if the time ever does come for us to have sex that I will last longer then I just did.

I finish cleaning myself and the shower wall and then step out to dry off.

I walk into the bedroom with the towel around my waist and notice that Bella is still sleeping. Luckily, she didn't hear my imaginary escapade.

I pull on some sleep pants and grab a shirt for Bella should she wake up and be embarrassed by her nudity.

Slipping back into bed, I try to be careful and not jostle it. Bella turns over anyway, but doesn't wake up. She's very close to me now and puts her head on my chest as if it were her pillow. Her arm goes around my waist and she squeezes me tightly.

Although I know she's not really feeling anything more than gratitude, I still can't help but grin like an idiot by her actions.

I can't help but wrap my arms around her and sigh. I feel bad for the way she came into my life, but I just can't help but to be glad that she's here. I couldn't stay away from her if I tried. I don't have the strength to stay away. Never thought I'd see the day that a cocky and arrogant mobster like me would find myself falling for a girl.

My phone begins vibrating on the desk. I'm irritated that I don't get to lie here with my girl, but I know I need to take this call … damn it.

I try to get up out of the bed as quickly and as gently as I can. I then sprint over to my desk and get my phone.

"Talk to me," I answer.

"Your dad is at a restaurant now having dinner with Aro," Ramone says.

"Where?"

"Spirillo's," he answers.

"Keep an eye on them both. I want to know what time they kiss their wives good night tonight. Got me?" I demand.

"Yeah, boss, you got it," he says knowing nothing else would be acceptable.

So that means my men will be tailing Aro and my father for most the day. That leaves my day free to get some things done as well. Where to start?

As if on cue, I hear Bella groggily call my name,

"Edward?" She slips slowly up in bed and one corner of the sheet drops down exposing one of her luscious tits to me. She doesn't notice this as she sits up straighter and looks around the room for me.

For a few seconds that tit is all I can look at it. All I want to look at. All I want to do today is now suck on that tit. Never realized I cared so much about them, or maybe it's just hers.

Bella finally turns and notices me, she smiles and the red in her face begins to spread and I can't help myself from looking down to see if it has spread to other places. After noticing that her blush does indeed spread to her tits, I look up at her face and notice she is looking straight at me with a look of utmost embarrassment. It's then that I realize what an idiot I just was for blatantly staring at her exposed tit instead of talking to her.

I quickly look around the room at anything but her.

"Um ….um… there's a t-shirt on the bed for you … uh, somewhere over there. I set it down for you earlier," I explain in the most un-articulate way possible.

"How would you like to spend the day together?" I ask her as I see her slip the t-shirt over her head from the corner of my eye.

She makes her way over to where I stand. "I would like that, but don't you have to work today?"

"No. I'm taking the day off. There's somebody I'd rather spend the day with," I say and grin at her.

A genuine smile graces her beautiful face as she steps in to hug me. "Thank you, Edward."

My arms encircle her and hold her close as she hugs me. I've never felt the need to be so close to a woman as I do to Bella. It feels as if she belongs in my arms. The funny thing is, though, is that this man that I thought I was … this supposedly hardcore mobster … has a very soft spot and place in his heart for this wonderful woman. The thing is, is that Bella deserves so much more.

I'm still holding her close to me relishing in the feeling of her in my arms when I suddenly realize I haven't said anything to her and that I probably should release her from my hold.

"It's my pleasure to spend the day with you," I say as I carefully disentangle our arms and kiss her on the nose.

"You mind if I take a shower?" She asks, still smiling.

"Of course, and you don't have to ask me," I answer.

While she is in the shower a thought occurs to me on something I can do for Bella. If I'm right, I think she will love this.

I am very excited as I grab the phone and call a lady that I know who can just about take care of anything.

I eagerly explain my idea to Sherry. She is more than happy to assist me, and says she knows exactly who to call to get the ball rolling.

I feel lighter and a little giddy after I hang up the phone. I think this is a surprise that Bella is sure to love. At least, I hope so.

.~*~.

We start the day by taking a walk around the park. Bella is wearing a simple cotton dress and button down sweater on this unusually warmer day in October. She is comfortable enough for us to walk hand in hand as I guide her around the lake to a perfect spot shaded by a tall oak tree.

I set the basket I've been carrying down and lay out a blanket. Then I carefully lay out our lunch.

Bella is pleased with the spread, and a little wary when I take out the bottle of wine.

"I've never had wine before," she tells me as I pour as both a glass.

"It's a Cabernet. It's dry and not quite as fruity. I think you'll like it. I'm just going to pour you a little bit. If you don't like it, I do have some bottled water in here." I hand her the glass and she takes it from me with a skeptical eye.

As she takes a sip, she scrunches up her eyes, obviously preparing for the worse. I try, but fail to keep my chuckle inside.

She takes the glass away from her lips and looks at me.

"Well?" I ask, cocking an eyebrow.

"It's good, but I guess it takes getting used to," she answers and takes another small sip.

I chuckle again, and can't seem to stop myself from leaning in and giving her a quick kiss on the forehead. She's just that adorable.

"I've got something I'd like to talk to you about," I begin.

"What is it?" she asks nervously.

"Nothing bad, in fact, I think it's quite good. I hope you will think so as well."

"Lay it on me," she says, oblivious to the fact that her statement has my dick stirring.

"How would you like to finish high school?" I watch her face carefully as the question floats in the air.

"H … How would I do that? I mean I know it's dangerous for me to leave the house alone at this time, and I'm not sure I'm ready to be around other people." I can see the worry lines in her face. I can't help but to reach up and cup her face in my hands.

"Sweetheart, I will get you a tutor and you can take some online classes."

She stares blankly at me. I wish more than anything that I could hear her thoughts.

Before I know it, she is in my lap and hugging me fiercely.

"You would really do that for me?" she asks with wide eyes.

"Of course, Bella. I only want to make you happy."

The next thing I know her lips are on mine.

.~*~.