Me back people. In the last chapter I said that Sumi took Usagi-san's hand and ran away. Big mistake. Misaki did that. Supposed to be I. Ok let the happiness began. I no own JR!

Chapter 4

We shouldn't have left the house to go to the park. I dragged him into the his room and shut the door. We both stood in the doorway panting. "Are you ok Usagi-san?" I asked him.

"I'm good." he said quietly. He took his shoes off quickly and walked into the room. I did the same and hurried behind him. He stopped walking.

"Misaki. I just wish that what he did to you never happened. I know that we would never have met but still you can never get rid of the past. You are forever sad and I can't do anything about it." he said and I saw a tear drop on the floor.

He was always caring. He always thought about me. What could I do to make him forget about me and be happy? My past is just weighing us down. I am constantly fighting to forget it but it always come back. The aching feeling of betrayal is ripping my heart apart.

I walked up to him and gave him a hug from behind. "I think I should just leave. I will only bring you pain. All your happiness would be engulfed by me. You took me in and tried to make me happy and forget about my past. All I did was cry and take your happiness away." I said and felt my tears starting to form.

He turned around and gave me a hug. "Please don't go. Don't leave me. You provide me happiness. I would be lonely without you. It's not your fault. It's that bastard's fault that he did that to you."

I felt so sad. My life was being torn apart. I could either try to forget about the past and let Usagi-san provide me the happiness that I need. Or I could keep my past inside me and soon become a pitiful boy with no future and could even attempt suicide. I need to choose one.

Usagi-san picked me up and put me on the couch. "I am going to take a shower ok. I will feel more relaxed when I do. Don't move from that spot until I come back." he said and looked at me.

I nodded. He gave me a little kiss on my forehead and headed into his bedroom. His kindness in killing me. I don't deserve any of this. I killed an infant from my very own family.

The least I could do is leave him alone and let him stop worrying about me. He needs his own happiness and I should have my own. He needs to free from the binding chains that I have left on his heart. I need to leave now.

I got off the couch and found a piece of paper and a pencil. I started writing.

I laid the note on the couch and found some tape to keep it on there. I crept slowly into his room and found some money laying around. I walked back out and walked out of his main room.

I walked out to the halls and asked a maid if I could have some bread and meat for a sandwich and a bag for me to put it in. She gave me a whole bunch of it and a bag. "Does Akihiko-sama know that you are doing this?" she asked.

I finished putting them in the bag and looked at her in the eyes. They were worried. His whole household is kind to me. It's almost suffocating. "Yes." I said and ran out the front door.

I will never forget you. Good bye Usagi-san.

My POV

Akihiko stepped out of the shower and dried himself. He felt better and refreshed from all of his hits that he had received from Sumi. He put on his clothes and walked out into his living room.

"Misaki, what do you want for dinner?" he asked as he stepped into the room. "Misaki?" he asked since he heard no answer. He looked at the couch and saw that Misaki was gone.

"Misaki, where are you~?"he sang as he checked around the whole room. He was gone. Forever gone. Akihiko became very alarmed. He really couldn't believe that Misaki was actually gone.

He traced his steps back and looked at the couch one more time. He saw a note on the couch. He peeled it off and started reading it.

Thank you for everything you have done. I am glad to have met you.

To tell you the truth I was never scared of you. From the start I knew that you were a nice and good man. Rich is just a title. Heart is the feeling. I am glad I have found it. I am sorry this but I have found that I have feelings for you.

Please forget about me. Be happy. I can't stay here any longer. Please keep smiling.

I took some bread and meat to eat. I also took some money. I will survive on my own. Continue on with your life like you had never met me.

I love you. Thank you.- Misaki.

"I can't believe this. Why? Why did he leave me? I just wanted to see your smile. Please just come back. I love you too. Don't leave me here. I need you Misaki." he cried out. He was in a mixture of mad and sadness. He wanted him back so badly.

He threw the note across the room which failed miserably because of how lightweight it was. It only swayed in air and landed on the floor next to him. Akihiko started to cry. "I love you so much Misaki. Come back." he said and laid on the couch.

He felt like sleeping. He wanted to let his mind be at ease. He was confused. Mad. Sad. Denying. The aftertaste of Misaki leaving him was tearing him apart. He let his mind close and his rest come to him.

Misaki's POV

I ran. I had no clue where I was going. I just ran away from Usagi-san. He would be better off without me anyways.

I ran onto the streets. I can still remember my life here. It was horrible. Then that day. That day when he came into my life. His comfort that he gave me.

I found a spot to sit down. I dug into my bag and took a sandwich. This and the money are the only thing I have left of him. I feel like half of me wants to eat all of the bread and spend all of his money till the last drop. The other half wants me to keep everything.

I threw the sandwich across the street. I am so frustrated. I don't know what to do. I started to cry. I miss him already. How am I going to live on like this? This is too much.

No, I can't say that. I have to stay strong. I have to let my selfishness go. I have to let go. I got up and walked the streets.

As I was walking, I heard some people talking about me. I was pretending that they weren't there. They followed me everywhere I went. Soon there was a whole mass mob following me.

I turned a corner and they did too. I turned around to face them. "What do you guys want?!" I asked them. I recognized some of them. They were Sumi-senpai's lackeys.

What were they doing here! "Hey look who is here. Never expected to find him on the streets again. Lucky us." one of them said. Why in the world did I just turn into a dead end corner. "There is no where to escape." one said.

They jumped on me, pinning my hands down and also my legs. I was about to scream but they covered my mouth with a cloth.

It feels like deja vu is haunting me. They stole my money, my sandwiches and did the worst thing to me. I must be so defenseless. They did it again. Except worse this time because there was more people and they each took turns. They raped me again.

I could feel blood all over me. I shifted myself a little bit and touched the spot where I felt pain. Blood was running all over my face, arms, legs, everywhere.

I felt like dirt. I felt even more worse than the bulling from school. Why am I such a girl. Why am I so stupid to let people do these horrible things to me. Why do I want to be back with Usagi-san so bad right now?

I can't feel my legs. I can't see anything. "Somebody call the police!" somebody said. This is so embarresing.

My world is beginning to blur. I can't think straight. I...

"What happened?" "Get him on the ambulance NOW" "Poor boy." "People these days are so horrible."

...Find me Usagi-san.

I cried while writing this. It's just... too sad. But yes, I am doing POV's now. Hope you liked it and review.