(All credit goes to the talented Veronica Roth)

I wake up to my alarm going off. I look up feeling like I have gotten too much sleep. "Who fucking changed my alarm?" I ask aloud as it is 7:15 and my usual alarm is for 6:00. I get cleaned up for the day and run through the corridor hoping to at least be able to get something to eat before the Mess Hall closes. Thankfully I get there just in time and grab a couple apples that I eat on the way to the fear sim area.

I walk past the initiates that have gathered and enter the room and set everything up so I am settled for the day. Checking my supplies to make sure that there will be enough to last for the 7 transfers I have today. When 8 o'clock hits I make my way to the hall to make sure everyone is there, "Alright initiates this is going to be similar to yesterday unless you only have one fear, which is unheard of..." I say to them. I look down at my list. "Will, you're up please join me." I look at an interesting exchange between him and the Candor girl (I really need to learn their names) she sqeezes his hand reassuringly. It's actually kinda cute. "Ugh, this softy stuff is really starting to get to me."

He follows me into the room and sits down I can tell he is nervous, as well he should be. I push the needle in to his neck and settle in watch how he handles his fear, which incidentally is spiders. I watch the screen and cringe with him as the spider catches him in her web. My favorite part of these sims is when you can see the moment happen, the moment when they abandon their fear and their training kicks in. Will reaches in his back pocket and pulls out a knife and starts to cut himself free from the web when suddenly the spider charges him. When it gets close enough he plunges the knife into the spiders brain and in that instant he is awake and gasping for air.

I give him a minute to compose himself and offer a drink of water, which he happily accepts and then on his way out ask him to send Drew in. He says thank you and exits the room visibly calmer. Two seconds later in walks Drew. His takes so much longer that Will's did, and at this point I am sure that he is not going to make it at the end of initiation. His fear of heights really must have scared him. He comes out of the sim with tears brimming in his eyes. I hand him the water and then have to literally push him out the door summoning the big Erudite, whose name is Al.

I know I shouldn't but Al's fear of kittens makes me laugh. I know it stands for something different but watching it on the screen, this big Erudite kind of like I was when I first arrived to Dauntless, crying because he is in a room full of fluffy little kittens. He is in the simulation for a whopping 43 minutes and 38 seconds, two times longer than Drew. If I thought that guy wasn't going to make it Al has another thing coming. On his way out he is still sobbing like a baffoon I ask him to send in Molly.

She sits in the chair and I approach her with the needle when she cringes away from me. I grab her shoulder and plunge it in anyway, "I can already see where this is headed." I think to myself. Sure enough when the screen comes to life she is lying on an operating table with 7 or 8 doctors and nurses coming at her in all directions with different gauge needles. She screams and tries to move, however she is restrained to the table. One of the nurses reaches to poke her with one of the instruments but she bites her. Her leg comes free of the restraints and she kicks another one and in that moment she gasps awake. After regaining her composure and a sip of water which she almost refuses I motion for her to leave calling for Peter to enter.

Peter sits in the chair, I jab him with the needle and two seconds later the screen comes to life. I'm really confused when it does because I am looking at a crowd of people sitting at the choosing ceremony. Seconds tick by and all of the sudden Peter looks down and I jump because he is completely naked. I have not done many of these because for the most part I refuse, I have heard of it but this is the first time that I have seen public nudity as an actual fear. The crowd starts to point and laugh out as I am secretly hoping that Tris shares this fear. Peter tries desperately to cover himself up so that no one can see him, but for some reason he is unable to move his arms in that direction. In a moment of panic he takes a deep breath and you can see that he is trying to work out what to do.

In one swift movement he leaps off the stage and focuses on a man in the crowd and punches him in the face and steals his jacket. We do not encourage such things here in Dauntless but as long as he comes out of it I guess that is how he contained things. When he opens his eyes I look at him and he immediately goes scarlet looking at himself just to make sure he is fully clothes. I see him visibly relax when he realizes he is dressed. I know he wants to say something but as I am a leader he holds his tongue. "Wise decision." I think to myself. I look at him and ask him to send Christina in.

He slams the door and about a minute later the little Candor comes in, so that's her name, I won't forget it now. She is visibly shaking and completely against my nature I tell her, "You'll be fine, just remember to think and defeat your fear or slow your heart rate down." She raises an eyebrow at me, but nods and sits in the chair. I push the serum into her neck and sit down to watch the show.

I am in what seems to be a dimly lit cave. "Hmmm." I say audibly. Wondering if this is a fear of darkness or something different. Suddenly there is a flapping of wings and I am keenly aware that her fear is bats. she turns and runs back the way that she came. At this point there are droves or bats flying around and she is screaming and running and as she is running she passes a lit torch after two beats she abruptly stops and runs back to the torch grabbing it off the wall. She swipes it at the bats and as she grows bolder and calmer she wakes up. She is literally sweating from the adrenaline that is running through her veins I give her a full 5 minutes to calm down.

As she exits the room she looks back and me with gratitude on her face. "Please send in Tris." I tell her. Two minutes later Tris walks in and sits down on the chair as I brush her neck while pushing her hair aside, as a result bumps appear on her skin. It fills me with satisfaction knowing that my touch affects her so. She holds my free hand as I inject the serum into her blood stream, when that is complete I kiss her hair and walk to the screen as she is drifting in to simulation.

We are standing in the middle of a field and Max is standing in front of her telling her that she is less than factionless so she needs to live outside the fence in the wilderness on her own. Tears are streaming down her face and runs towards the city, instead of away from it. Out of nowhere Tris' mother appears standing next to Max and she turns to see that he is holding a gun to her mothers head. At this she grabs her gun out of her holster and pulls the trigger. At this she awakens. She shakily gets up and comes over to me. I want so bad to take her into my arms and kiss her, but I just can't yet. I give her the cup of water and kiss her hand, "Way to be brave." I say and hold the door open for her to leave.

I turn around to gather the numbers from yesterday and today and head to the training room to make the ranking list. This , as stated earlier is based solely on the time that it takes to complete the simulations.

1. Tris

2. Peter

3. Will

4. Molly

5. Christina

6. Drew

7. Al

I put down the chalk and make my way to the catwalk in the Mess Hall to make the announcement and grab some lunch before heading to the training room to work out. Smiling to see that my girl is currently ranked number one.