Nova's POV

Chapter 12

I walked slowly to my house I didn't want to get there quick My brother probably already knows that I wasn't with Tony. I sighed and looked at the ground as I walked. I should of just stayed home now look what happened I'm going to get in huge trouble! But the worst part was that Tony got hurt I hurt him,His heart How can I do that to him. He was only protecting me and that's it nothing else.I know he loves me and I just hurt him bad how could I do this!I hate myself right now. Why did I have to come to the park with Sparks why why why?

I am so stupid and dumb poor Tony I wonder what he's thinking right now?

I sighed as I was right in front of my house I have gotten here pretty quick.I took a deep, deep breath as I walked up to the door. I was about to knock when the door opened by it's self I looked at the figure that was standing in front of the door it was of course my brother Josh. I saw his face it scared me. I lost all of my courage as he continued to glare at me. Oh no im in deep trouble.

''Get in.'' He said with a glare and a very strong voice.

I gulped alittle and walked in I sat down on the couch and folded my hands together I saw Tony wallk towards me and stand right in front of me.

''Why did you lie?'' He asked.

I looked at him and sighed.

''I thought you wouldn't let me go if i didn't.''.I said.

He glared and this time he yelled.

''You bet I wouldn;'t have let you go!Why on earth would you lie to me just to go to the park with that boy. I told you if i ever see you with him I'll deal with it and i promise you it won't be pretty!'' He yelled.I looked at him then at the ground.

''I'm sorr-''I began.

''No sorry! I said your not allowed with any boys!'' He yelled.

This time i stood up and glared at him this can't be going like this!

''That's the thing Josh! I want to live I can't only be with one boy my entire life! I want friends i want to live like any other girl.'' I yelled he glared.

''This is my house and your my sister its my duty to protect you!'' He yelled.

''Well you aren't doing a good job. . . . I am very unhappy.'' I said.

He looked at me.

''I dont care I just want you to be safe.'' He said.

''Josh I am safe and I have never been more safe I promise you that spar-''I was cut off.

''Sparks is a bad influence!'' He yelled.

''Josh just give him a chance!'' I yelled.

He galred.

''And why do you care so much about this boy?'' He asked while crossiing his arms.

I stopped talking.

Why did everyone ask me this question why?

I care about sparks because well hes a good friend because I love being with him.

He makes me happy and-. . . . But that's all.

I like him as a friend and only a friend . . . . right?

''Well.'' said Josh.

''Because he's my best friend.'' I said.

He looked at me for a moment.

''What about Tony?'' He asked.

why did he bring that up If he knows that I broke up with himi he'll be so mad.

But i had to tell him he was going to find out soon enough.

''I-I broke up. . with him.'' I muttered but he heard.

I saw his eyes widen.

''YOU WHAT!'' He yelled.

'I broke up with Tony.'' I said again.

He shook his head.

''Why nova? He cares about you he loves you think about all the things he has done for you!'' He yelled.

I nodded a ''yes''

''I know Josh but. . . . .I can't be with a guy. . .I don't Love'' I said while looking at Josh in the eye.

He stayed quiet for a moment.

''All right nova But remember that you broke his heart and he cares about you more then any one here and loves you more then his life.'' He said.

''Stop Josh your making me feel guilty!'' I said.

''You should be.'' He said.

'Stop it Josh why would I want to be with guy I don't love.'' I said.

Josh didnt answer. Instead he said.

''Go up to your room.'' He said.

I sighed and nodded as i was about to take one more step he said.

'And never let me see you with that boy again.'' He said.

I stayed quiet and walked upstairs and staright to my room.

How am I supposed to stay away from sparks?

I have so many problems.

Poor Tony I hurt him bad.

But I know for sure that I don't love him well maybe I do but. . .

This is so complicated.

I cant decide at all.

I sighed and laid on my bed I looked up at the cieling.

''Why is love hard?'' I whispered to myself.

I closed my eys then a sentance came to my mind.

''My heart belongs to another girl.''

That sentance made my heart beat and My eyes open.

What did Sparks mean?

Could he have meant what I'm thinking?

Oh sparks you came in my life and there is no way to get you out. . . .

Sparks POV

I was laying on my bed looking at the cieling.

Stupid Tony came and ruined everything.

Nova.

I love her so much.

Why can't she just break up with Tony and come with me.

I know it may sound selffish but I love nova to much.

''Why is love hard?''I whispered to myself.

Why is it hard why cant it be eay?

Why can;t it be that we find someone we love we get it and then live happily ever after?

But of course it's not like that at all.

We have to fight for who we love there are so many problems in life,

Being in love feels great. To go everyday to school and see nova to see her smile to her laugh to see her.

I smiled at the thought of her.

Even thinking about her makes me smile.

Why can;t she love me back?
But I am deter,mind to win her heart no matter how long it takes.

I will not give up on her at all.

I love nova i ant to live with her get married with her.

I know im just a teen but having these thoughts makes me smile.

I even want children.

As many as she wants i wan t at least 3 or more.

Girl or boy? It doesn't matter to me at all.

Ha look at me thinking these things.

Im just a teen with my first love and Im already thinking about the future.

Ha im so stupid we aren't even together.

Whats the chance that we will get married or have kids?

I smiled at the thought how silly do I sound right now.

I looked at the time it was 9:58pm

sighed school is tomorrow.

I want to talk to her and this time I want to let my feelings out before I try to kiss her.

Ever time I try to kiss her I get interuppted.

Even in a dream and dreams are suposed to be well. . . .Your dreams.

To be happy and always smile right?

I wonder if nova loves me like I love her?

Oh nova you came in my life and there is no way to get you out.

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