Sparks POV

Chapter 14

I was so close to nova's lips I could almost feel them.

I smiled alittle as we closed our eyes and moved closer and closer.

We stopped once we had our lips just a few millimeters away.

I slowly put my lips against her's but not all the way. You can't call it a kiss yet.

It felt great even though we hadn't kissed yet something ran through me like a shock and it felt good.

I got closer and then Nova pushed me away.

I was suprised at her action. What happened?

She looked at me for a moment then she got out of my grip and began to back away.

I went to far and to fast.

''Nova/'' I said.

She shook her head and turned around to leave.

I wanted to run after her and say what happened but something holded me back.

What happened why did nova push me away/

Could it be that she doesnt. . . . . .Love me?

B-but. . .

Why not she loves being with me she broke up with Tony and we have almost kissed like 3 times.

But why did she push me away?

This is messed up.

I put my head down and glared at the floor.

I was so sad.

She doesn't love me.

I felt like crying.

Because I love her but what can I do if she doesnt love me back?

I sighed and walked to my locker.

Later. . . .

I was in my fist class waiting for the class to start.

All morning I have thought the same question.

''Why did nova push me away?''

I thought.

I thought she loved me well i was most certainly wrong!

I'm so stupid like nova will ever love me.

She's probably still in love with Tony.

I glared at my notebook.

Then I saw angela come in She smiled at me and quickly sat next to me.

''Hey sparks.'' She said.

''What do you want.'' I said flatly.

She pouted and said.

''Well I was hoping you and me could go on a date.'' She said.

I stared at her for a second.

''Didn't I tell you angela that I'm not intrested in dating!'' I almost yelled.

''I know but look sparks you can't love nova all your life please I love you and you dont even pay attention to me!'' She yelped.

I sighed and shook my head.

She groaned and stayed quiet.

Nova is the only one for me. . .

Novas POV. . . . . .

I was in class. Why did I reject sparks?

Why didn't I let him kiss me?

Why did I do it.

I know that I wanted to kiss him as much as he wnated to kiss me.

But why did I push him away?

I don't even know myself.

Something inside of me just made me do it.

But why/

I shouldn't had done it why do I hurt everyone!

I hurt Tony and now. . . . .sparks.

I sighed as i leaned on my chair.

Then Tony came in the bad thing was that he sits next to me in ever class I have with him.

He didnt look at me but sat down and I sighed.

I looked at him He was just staring straight at the board.

I had to say something.

''Tony?. . .'' I said softly.

He stayed queit.

''Tony don't be mad it hurts me to see you so sad.'' I said.

This time he turned my way with a glare.

''You should of thought of that when you left me!''He said.

''Tony please we can still be friends.'' I said.

''No nova I cant be friends with you because eveytime I see you I want to kiss you hug you. And i can't stop it.'' He said.

I sighed poor Tony I hurt him bad.

''I'm sorry Tony please forgive me.'' I said.

he looked at the board again.

Then the teacher came in I leaned in my seat again with a sigh.

Why is my life being so hard.

Why did I have to find love/

It only makes things way more difficult!

Later. . . . .

It was lunch time.

I put my things away in my locker. When I got to my locker the hallways were practaclly abandon.

These kids just hate being in class.

I sighed and leaned on my locker as ii closed it.

I closed my eyes for a second.

I'm so stupid i should of kissed him.

I know I want to.

Because I know that. . . .I love him.

And not love him like a friend but more then a makes me feel better he makes me feels safe.I know he won't hurt me in any way.

I know sparks and I know that if he loves me He would treat me great.I know hhe would never cheat on me or leave me when I need him most.

Oh sparks. . . . . .

I should of kissed you.

But now what do I do/ Its not like I can look for him and tell him my feelings.

I can't stay away from sparks anymore!

I want to feel his love his kisses. Anything!

I opened my eyes and leaned off my locker.,

I should look for him I should apoligise I should tell him my feelings.

But im in school. I should wait till school ends.

Then I could tell him to meet me somewhere right?

I can't hidde this love that I just want to shout out to the world!

I dont care who doesn't want me with sparks I will always want to be with him no matter how far away Im from him. No matter if my my brother takes me away I will always be in love with is me he is my heart my soul my sun. He lights up my day. I know im just a teen and people might say. Its just a crush you'll get over it. But this is not a crush its more then a crush and I think its becoming mor then love. Everytime I see sparks I feel like hugging him kissing him!He just has that affect on me. I was afraid to admit that I love him but Im sure now.

I have to convince him to meet me somewhere.

And i have to tell him that. . . . .. .

I love him.

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