A/N Lemony chapter warning... Disclaimer... Characters owned by S Meyer, I do not own Twilight or any of its characters. This story is in no way an attempt at copyright infringement. Apologize for the lateness and shortness of this chapter but then, this story has taken a rather unexpected turn, henceforth I will try to get the next chapter out ASAP, I need to know what's happening :/

Chapter Fifteen. Can't breathe.

Bella's POV.

I was numb to any pain as I crawled into Edwards lap, his tears more than I could bear, he was breaking before my eyes. I wrapped my arms around him and held him as tight as I could, as he sobbed into my chest. I couldn't think about anything else right now, he needed me to stay strong for him. It was lucky I guess that my family never had to sit and wait like this, our parents were killed on impact, so the hospital itself didn't have those painful memories for me. Though that didn't stop the pain of knowing what this was doing to everyone of us. I could see Rose holding Emmett together and Jasper doing the same with Alice, her hand in Carlisle's. We were just sitting here supporting each other until the tears ran dry, there were no words that could help anyone, so we all stayed silent.

Finally after another hour someone came to update us on what was happening. Esme was still in surgery having an emergency hysterectomy, the baby had been delivered but at just twenty two weeks she was taken to NICU. That's all the information they could give us at this point, but they were both still alive, that had to be a good thing, there was still hope... right? I didn't voice that thought and neither did anyone else, but we all had to hope. We took it in turns to go and see the new addition to the family, we were not allowed to go in, but we could just see her, she was unbelievably tiny and looked so fragile. She was surrounded by monitors and covered in tubes, I couldn't help the tears as I saw this tiny person, she was a Cullen, my sister, she was a part of all of us.

It was another hour again before the doctor finally came out of surgery, collectively we all held our breath, waiting for news of our Mom.

"She is out of surgery, we had to give her a blood transfusion and due to the damage to her womb we have had to remove it, but baring any further complications she'll make a full recovery." the doctor informed us and we all let out our breath in relief.

Carlisle and Alice went to see Mom in recovery, whilst we sat and waited for them. The following days turned into weeks and they were a blur but finally getting Mom home after two weeks was a relief to us all. We had worked out a rota of chores, so that Mom didn't need to lift a finger, but after just two days she was ready to kill us all for fusing over her too much. We all took it in turns to stay at the hospital with Izzi, she was still in NICU. In the mean time Emmett's plans were hotting up for Alice and Edwards birthdays and our bachelor/bachelorette party.

Emmett had announced some of the games he had intended for us to have at the party, one of which was a piggyback race through the forest, Edward had insisted on us training for this. So for our almost daily walk in the forest we would walk until out of sight of the house and then Edward would pull me on to his back and set of running. My ribs were almost healed now so it didn't really hurt anymore and Edward was getting stronger and faster by the day. His stamina was also improving, but nowhere as much as in the bedroom. Or like our last two runs through the forest, had resulted in me whispering in his ear and making him hard. Therefore making it impossible for him to run and so, I had bark imprints on my ass from where we had ended up having sex up against a tree for the past two days.

"And no distractions today, okay? We need to focus on winning." Edward said as I climbed onto his back.

"Are you complaining?" I asked him.

"No, obviously not but I'd much rather make love to you in the shower afterward, than fuck you up against a tree." He pointed out.

"Fine," I said leaning towards his ear. "I'll try not to distract you when the time comes." I whispered, causing him to growl at me and I giggled in response.

"Behave," he growled.

"As you wish, onward my faithful steed, trot on." I teased squeezing my thighs together, I could almost hear his eyes rolling at me.

The three mile trail was not a difficult one, when we neared the clearing where we had stopped the previous two days, Edward released his hold on my legs and stopped running at our tree. It seemed that passing this tree was more difficult than he imagined, he grasped my shoulders and spun me around, his lips crashing down on mine hard and needy. I met his forcefulness greedily, even after weeks of being with Edward I still couldn't seem to get enough of him, he was never close enough unless we were connected in someway.

"The shower?" I asked.

"I'll make love to you in the shower." He promised. "But I need to fuck you against this tree first," he said as he pushed his hand down the front of my sweat pants and he growled at me when he realized that I was not wearing any panties. He pushed down my pants and made me get on my hands and knees, I felt my heart-rate increase as I obeyed. He slid the head of his cock over my entrance, "So wet for me." He murmured as he thrust into me hard and fast and deep, one hand on my hip, with the other hand he grasped my ponytail between his thumb and forefinger whilst he held on to my shoulder. His grunts and groans as he thrust into me were so animalistic, so primal that my own orgasm built quickly and as my muscles squeezed around him he pulled out, pushing my tee out of the way as he came on my back. God damn that was hot!

Edward pulled some tissues from his pocket to clean us both up. "Sorry love." He said, pulling me on top of him, "Don't know what came over me, but I just had to have you there and then," he muttered into my hair. "No panties." He moaned shaking his head at me.

"Maybe in future we should take the longer route around the clearing and avoid these few trees altogether from now on." I suggested.

"I think your right, sorry," he said again as he kissed the top of my head. "I'll make it up to you later I swear." He promised.

~F~

After a month Izzie was strong enough to be moved to the paediatric hospital in Seattle, so we all went to the hospital in Forks to see her off. Carlisle and Mom were going with her and staying in Seattle. I had been a bit out of sorts on the way to the hospital and had managed to shrug it off, but whilst we were all waiting around I began to feel hot and faint, what was wrong with me? I suddenly felt nauseous, I ran full out to the restroom and barely made it before the contents of my stomach hit the bottom of the bowl, what was wrong? I didn't get sick, not for anything, not even during my period, was I due on? I was due on the thirteenth, so what was the date? I thought about it but I really had no idea, I just couldn't remember, I pulled my cell from my pocket and looked at the date, 30th. I heard the gasp slip through my lips and watched through glazed eyes as my cell slipped from my fingers but I barely heard it as it hit the floor. I didn't even feel Alice as she grasped my shoulders holding me upright, or Rose as she was right in my face, I could see her lips moving but I could not hear any of her words.

Edward said he'd always pull out, he promised, I was sure that he had every time, or was it the condom we'd used for half the night? How could this happen? It felt like I was stuck in a long corridor, one with no doors and no ending. It just went on and on with no end and I was trapped with no way back, nowhere to go, trapped in my mind. I needed to get out I couldn't do this, I turned and walked out of the bathroom, there were faceless people everywhere. I felt hands on me but barely, I shook them off and kept walking I needed to keep going, to keep moving, I opened my mouth to scream but I heard nothing. I struggled at the restraints that I felt pulling me back, I thrashed out and tried to scream more but still no sound came out. I could hear only silence and I could feel only restraints, I began to panic when I couldn't breathe. I gasped for air but my lungs were left wanting and everything went black.

~F~

I woke up to the sound of bleeping, I was in a hospital bed with no idea what I was doing here or how long I'd been here. I looked up to see Rose's face and she scowled at me.

"What?" I asked, but then I remembered what had happened.

"What the hell Bella? I thought I taught you better than this, why in hell did you not take precautions? you're pregnant? How the fuck did that happen?" Rose yelled at me, I could hear the heart monitor pick up speed. I heard a gasp and looked in the direction it had come from, Edward stood in the doorway looking like a rabbit stuck in the glare of headlights. Different emotion crossed his face, fear, regret, then anger, but then he ran, he literally ran from me. Just the idea of being the father of my child had finally sent him running from me. How dare he? He had no right to his anger, I know it takes two and all that but he promised me that we were safe. He was the one who wanted me to tie myself to him in every way and I had thought that that is what I wanted too. But I wanted to live first, I didn't want to make the same mistakes as my mother, pregnant before getting out of school. I wanted to live first, go to college, have a career, make something of myself. I wanted some knowledge of life before I bought new life into this world, I wanted that and I wanted that with Edward, but not yet, not for a good five or ten years. Now I was trapped and I felt again that uncontrollable, overwhelming urge to escape, just like Edward I wanted to run, how could I be angry at him for doing the one thing that I needed to do myself?

If this wasn't bad enough, if I didn't feel broken already, then what happened next did it for me. Because I was still a minor and under Jasper's guardianship I had no say in what happened next, he came in to see me. He adamantly insisted that he was taking me to Seattle the second I was discharged so that I could get it terminated. No matter how scared or unprepared I was, I couldn't do that, I knew he would some how make me, but how..? How could I stop them? I had a real live baby growing inside of me, a miracle, my own little Izzie. Who is he to think I would want to get an abortion? To flush it away with yesterdays garbage. No! I couldn't let that happen, I knew I wasn't old enough or ready enough to cope with this, but like everything else in my life, I just got on with shit. Because of the distress that my brother and sister were causing they were made to leave. Once my visitors had left I did the only thing I could, what Edward had done, abandon all hope... so I ran. I dressed quickly, took the small rucksack of clothes and my purse, I saw my cell on the table but I left it there, if I was going to get away then I needed to get completely away. I turned off the heart monitor and removed the tabs, then I pulled out the drip in my hand, leaving my engagement ring with my cell. I mingled with the other visitors and I snook out of the hospital undetected. I went to the ATM for some cash and I managed to get a bus to Portland, heading in the complete opposite direction to the one they would expect. After getting something to eat I went to the bus depot to purchase a one way ticket and I took the Greyhound heading down to California and said goodbye to everything that I knew.

A/N This is what happened last night, I don't know why, but I will try and work it out in the next chapter which will be Esme's POV.