Chapter 2
Freddie was awoken the next morning by his phone buzzing, he knew what awaited him. He sighed and quickly got out of bed and picked up his phone. The buzzing had stopped, he had received 14 text messages and 5 missed calls all from Sinead. He didn't bother to phone her back he just switched off his phone and made his way downstairs. He was where his heart wanted to be, he didn't need to be stuck somewhere he didn't want to be which would be at the flat with Sinead.
He got downstairs to see everyone sat eating breakfast, "Morning Freddie, Want some breakfast" Sandy asked as she dished Jason some fried bread on his fry up. "Urm no thanks mum, I'll get something later" he politely said as he made his way to the sofa. He didn't feel like eating as his mind and nerves were over thinking still and he didn't think he could stomach any food. Sandy didn't say anything but she had a concerned look on her face as she knew as a rule Freddie would never turn down one of her fry ups. Lindsey looked at Freddie apologetically as she knew that she was partly to blame for his behaviour because of the previous night's conversation.
After a couple of hours Freddie went for a shower which lasted a couple of hours he wanted to stay in there forever if it meant he wouldn't have to ever face Sinead again. Part of him still loved her but he knew that he would never be able to love her as much as he loves Lindsey. When Lindsey told him he deserved somebody better than her it made him realise that Sinead deserves someone better than him as he would only end up breaking her heart. On the way back downstairs Freddie bumped into Lindsey, just seeing her improved Freddie's mood. "You okay" Lindsey asks with a concerned look on her face. "My mind is everywhere Linds, I don't know where I am anymore" he said. Lindsey put her hand gently on his shoulder. "If this is about last night, then remember what I said. Just tell the woman how you feel" Lindsey soothed. Freddie laughed nervously "Yeah I'll do that, thanks Linds" He said as he winked and dropped his dirty laundry off in his bedroom.
Freddie sat on his bed and ran his fingers aggressively through his hair. He knew he couldn't tell her he just knew it. Lives would be ruined; his family would most probably think he was stupid if the truth ever came out. He didn't know who to turn to. He decided that he would go and tell Sinead that he just wanted to be friends with her before anything got too serious between the two. She had spoken about marrying him in the future. He would always agree with her. Now he thought it would be better to break her heart early on into the relationship rather than a couple of months or years into marriage.
He quickly got dressed into a grey t-shirt with black skinny jeans and a leather jacket. He popped his head around the living room door "I'll see you later, I'm off to sort things out with my girl" he said with a smile on his face. "Alright love, good luck" Sandy said smiling warmly, she figured that he wasn't hungry this morning because of problems with Sinead; she was partly right but she was far from the truth. He said bye to everyone else and nervously made his way to Sinead's flat. He knew he was being totally wrong calling Sinead his girl, but what else could he have said?
As he made his way to the flat he worked out in his head what he would say, he hoped he could word it right and hoped that she wouldn't be too hurt with what he was going to say, he prayed that he could still be good friends with her but at the moment he thought luck would turn bad. He was right by thinking that because as the door opened he was greeted with the biggest shock of his life.