Alright lovelies, as requested by a lovely reviewer I'm going to keep up this series by adding all of Piper's thoughts and commentaries when/ if she reads Alex's letters. Yay we finally get to see her perspective! Love you all :)
Piper's responses are in BOLD.
AV
Queen's
Piper Chapman
Litchfield Prison
This letter just arrived in the mail. FUCK YOU ALEX. I'm still pissed at you. Why would I ever read your letter. There's nothing I want to hear from you. Every time I'm with you I always seem to be making these irrational moral choices. Everything is right or wrong and all black and white. Good and bad. Good and evil. You get the picture. Well I'm done with you. I'm finally done. I'm putting this letter in the goddamn trash. There.
Well actually maybe I'll put it in the trash tomorrow. I'm still slightly curious as to what it says. Probably lies. But amusing. Well maybe. I'm in prison it's not like we have loads and loads of distractions here. Since I've got back this place is shitty as usual. Nothing great nothing new.
My head is whirling at this letter. Why do you have this power over me Alex? Why do you have this seemingly gravitational pull. If you were here I'd punch you in the face you manipulative cunt who wrecked my life not once but twice.
I broke the law over you. I screwed over my family and my fiance. I've destroyed everything good I ever had for you narcissistic selfish person that you are.
Three days later I pull this out of my cubby again. I hide them there because people usually keep out of other people's shit if they know what's good for them. Now I'm picking at the seams of the envelope where a letter opener has already cut it open already open and torn.
We don't even have the freedom to tear open our own letters. I'm picking at the seams deciding whether to pull out the paper or not.
Once week later. I cave. I decide to read it. But No matter what you say I won't believe you...
Letter One
Oh is this like some series now? Some like I don't know Harry Potter saga where everyone betrays everyone and it all works out in the end?
Dear Piper,
Humph. I'm Piper to you now? We were never friends.
Wait why do I even give a fuck. You're nothing to me now.
Think of the betrayal. Think of how she hurt you. Think of how she lied to you.
If you even read this letter (which I highly doubt)
Well you underestimated me Alex. Or overestimated me. I don't even know what's weak or strong right now. Whether opening this is a sign of strength or weakness.
, I'm telling you in advance that this letter is NOT an apology.
WHAT THE FUCK ALEX, if you ever thought I'd ever forgive you you might have started there. I mean this is worse than when you were locked in the fucking dryer. And you're not even here right now. You write to me and expect me to what? Like you? Love you? Get back together Get it together Alex I'm not twenty three anymore can't you see you can't just kiss me like it's alright anymore.
I'm not at all sorry for what I persuaded you to do so don't even think about it.
REALLY ALEX? NOT EVEN A LIE.
You were ever one for bullshit.
At least you never tried to lie again.
Though your lies are better than mine I'll admit that.
You lie with your eyes.
You lie so hard you believe yourself so you believe your own truth your own lie.
So why should I believe you now.
Just like your first conviction I reaffirm that it is only your actions that landed you in Litchfield.
MY ACTIONS.
Jesus Alex. Sure but LYING at my own hearing. Really Alex. That wasn't my own actions that was being twisted around your pretty little finger again.
I never forced you to go to Brussels; you were all over the adventure and now you face the consequences. Same to for now.
And the consequences for my first conviction were to be thrown in this shithole with YOU. And the opposite happens now. How ironic. Are you the only one who got out? Or did all the other minions get out too?
If it is any reassurance I would like you to know that it is a good thing you lied at your trial
WTF
Like I alluded to in Chicago, Kubra's power reigns much stronger than that of our court system.
NO SHIT ALEX. Even I knew that and I'm not one of his goons.
He's out Piper.
OH MY GOD.
He's out? After you testified against him? How is that even fucking possible unless you lied to me about being in the upper circle with him. Maybe you weren't actually his right hand man maybe you were just some random importer that he could have fucked over.
He's out on the streets on the loose again with more power than ever to disappear, to terrorize, to steal, to gain money.
Of course. He's a criminal. Tell me something I don't know you're wasting my fucking time.
He's out to kill. And we all know who his next target will be.
Wait Alex are you safe?
A thousand thoughts swirl in my head. I can't breathe for a moment. I try to sit down and I end up sloppily fall onto the space between the wall and my bunk. Alec could be dead. Dead. DEAD. I can't imagine it. What would I do without her. Well wait I thought I had nothing to do with her. Why should I care? We're over. We're not together anymore. She doesn't want to be my prison wife. I think of the eight years I lived without you. I was fine. I told myself I was fine anyway. Maybe I wasn't. Maybe I was. What would I do if I found out you were dead? I don't know if I would scream or laugh. It's not funny.
I look back on the years we were together all over the world. You were my world. Wait I can't think like that now it's only a letter. Only a letter she's not dead. She's not dead. Take in a breath inhale exhale. Take in a breath. Steady yourself. Look at the wall. Realize you're here right now.
So then why you ask did I tell them the truth?
You tell me.
Why would I reveal information that puts me in danger every moment of my remaining days?
Honestly Alex.
Since I know you I would say that its because you LOVE the adrenaline. You LOVE the rush and you love the power. You just wanted to speak those words that pierce like icicles when you spoke and it cut right into Kubra Balik. You loved every fucking minute of it.
Why would I want to come "home" to another life of fear -
Coming home. That's what love is to me. Like coming home. And she's never coming home. Unless she falls in love with some other bitch. Who I will hate on principle. Not that I care because I'm supposed to be done with this bitch.
where every creak at my apartment door makes me jump in paranoia,
Like hell it does. You're Alex Vause get your shit together. I was always the panicked one. I was the one to jump at every turn you would make fun of me for it. You thought I was just a goody goody still. You would try to scare me it was a fucking passtime.
cower in fear and pull out a gun from my belt pocket adrenaline coursing through my veins as I steele myself to be a killing machine.
YOU'RE ON PROBATION YOU CAN'T HAVE A GUN.
Honestly Alex, you REALLY love running in with the law.
You're just begging for trouble.
It's like you're trying to get put in here again.
Well newsflash Kid, all that IS "Home" to me. Fear, doubt, paranoia has been my life since I was very young.
Well you've done a good job at hiding it.
You were always so strong. Grew up fast.
I know what its like to always have enemies on your tail.
Maybe the police are the good guys Alex.
And do I want to be done with all that once and for all?
NO. I don't believe you. Not for a second. You missed dealing more than you missed drugs Alex. You're fucked up.
Of course Piper, but I'd also like to win the Lottery and that's not happened either.
Would that change anything? You have more money than the fucking Lotto. You make that in a day. You could have all the money you wanted because of those dirty drugs.
So this is the closest I was ever going to get - a chance for Kubra to be in prison and me to be free.
Free to what Alex? You have no qualifications. You said yourself you can't get a real job!
And even in all its bitterness I savor this taste of freedom like having the first taste of a persimmon in spring.
Why do you even like those anyways? You and your soft fruit. Seriously. Those things are way to sickly sweet for me. You always had the sweet tooth.
Its an imperfect yet perfect feeling.
Freedom?
Angst?
Fear?
Paranoia?
I can't even tell Alex. Be more clear.
Are you worried about me?
Is that a yes or no answer?
NO.
I highly doubt it.
WELL FUCK YOU TOO.
I know you too well Kid
KID? Is this REALLY the time to be treating me like a child when YOU are the one who made me lie while you went off to be a tattletale. And you're the one begging not me.
and I know that you're probably too focused on your own life right now.
First of all there's nothing to do here so really I'm not that busy. But no I am not dwelling on you not being here in fact life is great right now without all the drama thank you very much.
You're probably focused on your dissapointed lawyer,
Ew. Dr. Bloom?
Or you meant how much he's an idiot. I'll give you that.
or some new Litchfield prison drama,
HEY this shit's tough to navigate. People are cruel you know. Especially criminals.
or maybe even your Ex Larry.
HA!
What you think I'm back to boys again.
Actually yes. Because he's giving more security than I've ever had with you.
But I hardly doubt you spend your time wondering about the shadow of [what is it for you? Is it lust or boredom or anger or revenge?]
Answer E: All of the above
that clouds your head when you dare to whisper my name.
Actually you don't really come up really. Nicky dosn't even really ask about you.
You probably think this is my own goddamn fault so I have to deal with it alone whiles you go fuck someone else. I just hope sex with them is not as good as what we have [had?].
YES. Yes it truly is all your fault Alex.
And I know you won't have any trouble finding someone to keep your bed warm. What about one of your endless drug mules.
Alas I can see the question forming in your mind as your eyes gleam along these tiny scribbles.
Of all the things running in my head how could you possibly know.
Questions.
Things I'm wondering.
One letter isn't enough to answer them.
You confuse me Alex.
You're a fuckup.
And a messy one at that.
You know it.
I can see the wonder and confusion as you search for a glimmer of what?
Fuck you.
How could you-
You're not even here and you mess with my head.
GET OUT.
Hope?
No.
Hope that someday your {What am I even to you} I'll just say Alex will come home to you with roses.
Ha! One time when we were together I bought you roses. You hated them. I spent all day picking up all the reddest ones because they matched your tattoos. And you just said I was way too hetero.
Am I worried about you Piper?
Doubt it.
Yes I am.
Liar.
There. I said it.
Liar.
Do I still care about you Piper?
No.
Yes
No.
. I do.
NO YOU FUCKING DON'T.
Quit playing me Alex. I can't do this again.
Why does this make me happy though. Why does it matter to me why do I have to fight for it not to matter why am I getting tingling feelings missing you I don't miss you but maybe.
There, I fucking said it are you satisfied?
What are you doing the bare minimum to please me now? Is this some game?
Have I blown your egotistical mind out of proportions now?
HEY My ego is NOT that big. I'm not that self centered. At least not as much as you think.
Hardly like more ego can fit inside those long, blonde locks of hair anyways.
HARSH.
Did I plan beforehand how I was going to play the trial?
OBVIOUSLY.
You wanted to fuck me over as bad as you possibly could!
Did I know in advance that I was going to get you to lie while I was going to tell the truth?
YES. SEE PREVIOUS.
That's a story for another time, Kid.
FUCK YOU.
Best of luck at Litchfield Piper,
FUCK YOU.
From Alex
FUCK YOU.
I want to tear this thing to goddan bits a million pieces like you rip my fucking heart out every time I hear a word you say. I'm not going to write. Then you won't write back. Why don't you just enjoy your newfound freedom all by yourself or get a new Naive blonde to mess with why don't you Alex because my mind has not been changed.
I still hate you. I'm not sure I love you. Anymore.
So there it is,
Piper responding to Alex's letters. Please review and tell me what you think. Does this interest anyone? Do you like the format? Should Piper write back?
Have a great weekend everyone!
Bobbiejelly