What If?

by SqueeDate

Tegan and Sara Quincest fic. What happens when Tegan gets her wish and finds herself in an alternate reality where Sara is her wife, and not her sister? Will be a LONG fic, updated often. Rated M for future chapters.

7. Are you Happy Now?

Warnings:Chapter contains a homosexual incestual relationship and sexual content between two women. If you don't like it, don't read it.

Rating: M

Summary:. What happens when she gets her wish and Tegan finds herself in an alternate reality where Sara is her girlfriend, and not her sister? Will be a LONG fic, updated often.

A/N: HEADS UP! This may or may not be my last chapter before a one month hiatus. I'm going to Maine for a Yoga/Isolation Retreat. Enjoy this chapter, and I'll update again in September (if this IS the last chapter before then). Let's say September 1st. Enjoy and review.

Disclaimer: COMPLETELY FICTIONAL!

Chapter 7- Are You Happy Now?

Sara's POV

My eyes scanned the restaurant. It was a busy Saturday night. There was an air of excitement and relaxation as people settled into a nice meal before a long night. I turned back to the table, and the conversation that was happening.

"..then she missed the step and almost flew down the stairs. It was hilarious" stated Dallas, finishing his story.

Everyone was laughing and I smiled, looking around at my friends. Raising the glass to my lips, I took another sip of wine, letting it slide down my throat and warm my stomach. Ted turned to me.

"So, Sara, how goes the baby making?" he asked.

I sighed, taking a longer drink this time. He raised both his eyebrows.

"That good, eh?" Dallas chimed in

I finished my glass and took a breath, all eyes on me. "We're postponing it. We're taking some us time, since the…reconnection."

"Yeah, everyone's been telling me about that. It's fucking weird to think of you and Tegan in love. You never even touch each other" mentioned Ted.

I pour myself another glass and huff.

"All I can say is good luck getting us out of each other's bunks this tour."

I took another long drink. It'd been a few days since the flu had left my system and I was happy to be living a normal life. A week in the state I was in felt like death. This was the first night I was away from Tegan, and I missed her already. I just wanted to hold her hand under the table. Instead, I settled for playing with the ring on my finger, twirling it around with my thumb, watching the gold shimmer in the light. I smiled wide.

"So you're doing another album?" asked Emy.

I nodded "Yeah. We've been working on a couple songs the past few weeks."

"Well, it helps when you've got a studio in the basement" said Dallas, taking a swig of his beer.

"That it does. We're having fun. I think we're going to try writing together again. Maybe do a duet."

Ted nearly spit out his gin and tonic. "A duet?"

I laughed and nodded "Yeah."

"Wow, you two really went like all out Grease love. Freaky. So do you like, have sex?"

I blushed a deep red.

"That's my sister, man!" exclaimed Dallas.

"Dallas, you do not want to stay in the spare room closest to ours when you spend the night, then." I smiled coyly and bit my bottom lip.

Dallas covered his ears and they went about another conversation. Underneath the table I pulled out my phone and texted Tegan.

Can we be at home in our bed yet? I miss you.

I sighed and closed my phone, downing another glass of wine, my head already starting to buzz. I pour my next glass and go to jump into the conversation at the table, but before I have a chance to, my phone starts vibrating. My mouth can't help but turn upwards as I look back down at my lap.

Sara, don't be anti-social. Have fun with your friends. We'll meet up later. I miss you, love.

I keep drinking, everyone at the table had stopped talking and were looking at me.

"What?" I asked.

"Are you texting her?" Dallas questioned.

I turned bright red.

"Oh, look at that blush" Emy chuckled, taking a drink.

"This is too weird. It's like you're a whole new person. It's freaking me out" Ted added.

"She makes me so happy. I thought I had her on a pedestal, but it turns out that real Tegan is way better than ideal Tegan. Way better! At…" I bite my lip and chuckle "at everything."

I see everyone at the table roll their eyes.

"Ugh, it's like I've fallen head first into a romantic comedy" grumbled Emy. "Well, when you guys do want to start trying again, let me know. You're fresh out of spunk, so Tegan'll have to come in and make a deposit a few weeks before so the lab can have it ready."

I choked on the wine, coughing. Tegan? A deposit of spunk? I coughed as Emy patted my back.

"You alright there Sare?" she asked.

I nodded, still coughing. Okay Sara, act like you know what she's talking about and figure it out later with Tegan. Not that Tegan's speculations were ever right, or even close to it. Luckily Emy followed up with a comment that sort of answered Sara's confusion.

"The lab guys were impressed last time. Said she must be like crazy fertile. Those ova practically converted themselves into sperm. I'm actually really surprised none of them took."

What world where we in that ovum could be converted into sperm? Wait, that meant… Tegan could be the father. I silently thanked the universe for the gift it had given me in returning me to this reality, with Tegan. It was like here, everything I'd ever wanted was possible. Wait, but Tegan and I are identical twins, right? That wouldn't go over well in baby making. Inbreeding isn't really a prime way to conceive a child. Just as soon as the excitement had crept in, it was replaced with disappointment.

"Can we not talk about it?" I downed my glass of wine.

Emy stopped laughing. "Sorry, Sara."

I shrugged. I was starting to feel the lightheaded sensation of drunkenness and turned to see our waiter coming with our food. I welcomed the distraction.

Tegan's POV

My phone buzzed and I looked down to see the text message from Sara. I smiled to myself, and replied before looking back up at Hunter, Lindsey, and Leah. They all smiled at me. I blushed and put my phone back in my pocket, taking a bite of the fish I'd ordered for dinner.

"So I'm guessing that's going well?" asked Hunter

I smiled and simply nodded, sipping my jack and coke. "Really well."

"You seem really happy. Dallas has been telling me all week how happy he was that you were finally happy. Probably the happiest he's ever seen you." Leah replied.

I liked her. I hadn't really spent any time with her in the other reality, but here, where she was my sister-in-law, we were family. She was very chipper.

"I feel like a whole new person." I said.

"You seem like it" claimed Lindsey "You're all, smiley and stuff. Maybe you'll actually write a love song for once and put this tortured soul stuff to rest."

"I've written love songs" I protested.

Everyone laughed, and I looked around, offended.

"Okay, Tegan name one love song you've written." Hunter stated plainly.

"I….I…"

He raised an eyebrow and I gave up, exhaling and trading the argument for another drink. Everyone had a chuckle at my expense. I gently forked the last piece of my fish and sighed, wiping my face with my napkin, and stretching. Despite my earlier comment via text message, I really did miss Sara. But after a week in bed together, it was time to get out and see our friends. I knew we were still in the honeymoon phase, but was really dreading our first fight as a couple. Sure I'd fought with Sara all the time, more times than I can count. This was different. Fighting with your wife and fighting with your sister are two completely different entities. But so was fighting with your business partner and we'd eventually learned how to throw down fairly. Don't get me wrong, there's no doubt in my mind that we'll get through it, I'm just dreading the idea.

Sara's POV

We'd finished dinner just as the waiter brought over the bill. I snatched it up before anyone could think of taking a look. I pulled out my wallet.

"Sara, you don't have to do that" griped Ted.

"Well, I want to" I countered

"We can split it" suggested Emy.

I shook my head and paid in cash, folding the bills into the black folder, leaving a more than generous tip.

"I've got this one. My treat" I said.

There was a chorus of thank yous. I tucked the wallet back into the back pocket of my jeans, undoing the top button of my button up.

"So, what's next?" I asked

"Well I for one, want to dance my face off" said Emy.

"Gay bar?" I suggested

Ted chuckled, we always dragged him to gay bars. Dallas shrugged and Emy just nodded.

"Lets just crawl Davie" suggested Dallas.

We all nodded and stood up. We headed to the door and I started walking to the bus stop. Dallas grabbed my arm, stopping me.

"What are you doing?" he asked

"Taking the bus" I blinked back, confused.

"Do you WANT to die tonight? Sara, you'll get mobbed" he reminded me

"Oh, right, I'm famous. Sorry, I forgot"

I saw Emy huff at me. I shrugged

"I sometimes forget, okay?" I explained.

Ted hailed us a cab, and we all climbed in, Emy sat in the front passenger seat and engaged in small talk with the driver. I was smooshed between Ted and Dallas in the backseat. It was a tight ride down to Davie Street from where we'd had dinner. I started to see the familiar rainbow flag hanging from the telephone poles. Rainbow flags always make me smile, I don't know why. Seeing one is almost like a welcome mat, flying proudly in the sky. It let me know that I was indeed welcome here. The bad driver stopped and Emy paid him before I had the chance to. We all eagerly crawled out. My lungs filled with cool, Vancouver night air. I really don't like being cramped in areas for too long. Probably goes back to being cramped in the womb with Tegan. All my womb theories really make sense now that I'd learnt I was supposed to have had a whole womb to myself.

We started walking down Davie, taking a peek in here and there when I'd started to notice the whispers and glances. A few more steps and I had a group of young people step forward and ask for an autograph and a picture. I shrugged and happily obliged, much to the protests of my friends.

"You shouldn't have done that" whispered Emy

"They're just fans, Emy" I replied.

She raised her eyebrows at me.

"Don't give me that look, it's fine."

"Um, Sara…" I heard the warning in Dallas' voice as he automatically moved closer to me.

I looked up to see what he was warning me about. Apparently word had gotten around that Sara Quin of Tegan and Sara was outside, because I started to see flocks of people leaving the bars and walking towards me. I panicked. I'd never had this. Sometimes when I was out, I got recognized by a few people for autographs and pictures, but this…it was like I was the gay, female Justin Bieber. I did the only thing I could think of, I ran. I ran as fast as I could in the other direction.

As I was running, my lungs burning, I heard the others following, calling my name, and the roar of the crowd just behind them. I ran until my lungs burned, and I felt my airway close up. Puffer. I needed my puffer. I was about to stop when I saw another group of people running towards me from the direction I was running towards. I stopped and looked around. To my left was the street, but to my right was a club. I ran in, hoping to be able to be obscured by the darkness and the crowd. I ran right into the bathroom, having to shove through people. I'd finally gotten to the stall and locked the door. I pulled out my puffer and shook it, taking two hits, and instantly felt better. There was a knock on the door and a familiar voice.

"Sara?" Emy asked.

"I'm okay" I replied

"Do you have your puffer?"

I opened the door and held it up. I heard her sigh in relief. Right, Emy's a doctor. I keep forgetting.

"I hate to say but, I told you so" she stated and patted my shoulder, smiling. "I think you picked a good spot though, it seems crowded and dark enough. Dallas got us the VIP booth. C'mon."

Emy wrapped her arm around my shoulders and led me out, into the club. As we were walking to the VIP booth, I had a look around. She was right, I couldn't see anyone's face in here. It was all glow sticks and blacklight. It reminded me of the raves Tegan and I used to go to as kids. Tegan. Just as soon as I'd thought the name, I felt a pair of hands snake around to my collarbone and my tummy, pulling me gently back towards the body behind me. I had a momentary internal freak out, until my body made the connection. My nose picked up their smell and my smile grew wider. I know these hands, I know this body, I know this smell, and I certainly know that voice.

"Fancy meeting you here" her breath tickled my ear, sending my head spinning.

I felt the wetness between my legs start to flow and I gulped, my synapses firing just a bit faster in her presence, especially as she started kissing down my neck. My previous drunken state had subsided due to the nature of the past 15 minutes, but now that I'd relaxed back into those arms, I felt it return. I watched as Emy sat down, just now noticing I wasn't behind her. She looked around frantically, until finally finding me wrapped up in Tegan. She rolled her eyes and shook her head.

I turned to face Tegan and took no time to kiss her, my lips meeting hers dead centre. Lips bruised as we kissed hard. I got her bottom lip between my two and gave it a hard suck, taking a firm hold on her back. Tegan let her hands rest on either side of my face, returning the lip suck, and adding in a bite. I smiled and licked each of her lips, feeling her shiver. There we were, making out on the dance floor like two teenagers. I broke off the kiss, breathlessly. I laughed really loudly, and she laughed back.

"Are you drunk?" she asked

I nodded, laughing and flinging my arms around her neck. She chuckled and rubbed my back.

"I drank a lot of wine" I informed her.

"Oh, you're wine drunk. I guess you don't want a scotch then."

"You know I always want a scotch" I reminded her.

She laughed and kissed my cheek. "Go on up, I'll get you a drink."

I kissed her and whispered in her ear, returning the favour "Thanks, hot stuff."

I gave her bum a smack and she laughed. "Wow, you're really drunk, eh?"

I held up my thumb and index finger close together, then kissed her quickly before turning and making my way to the booth. I stumbled up the stairs, and plopped down next to Ted.

"I see she found you. Great minds must think alike" said Leah, from her spot next to her husband. She leaned into Dallas and gave him a kiss on the cheek.

"They've always had an uncanny tendency to think parallel to each other" said Emy, who was seated next to her wife.

"Yeah, it's weird. It'd like you two are twins sometimes" piped in Lindsey, taking Emy's hand.

I shrugged "Well it's a good thing we're not" I added to the conversation. Them thinking about Tegan and I as twins was the last thing I wanted. That was our little secret. Just then, Tegan slid a scotch on ice in front of me, and inserted herself next to me in the booth. She took a long drink of her jack and coke before kissing my cheek, and slipping her arm around my waist. I rested mine around her shoulders, letting her lay her head down against my chin.

"What'd I miss?" she asked.

"Oh, we were just talking about how sometimes you two are on the same wave length" commented Ted, holding Hunter's hand over the table.

Tegan laughed "Yeah, it's weird sometimes. But you know where it's great?" she left a pause for effect "The bedroom. Sometimes you just need a shift to the left, and this one over here does it without me even having to ask."

I blushed bright red as everyone laughed. "Tegan" I warned.

"What?" she asked, no idea what she'd done to deserve my tone.

"It's more than that though, like when you guys accidentally wear the same thing, or order the same meal. It really is sometimes like you guys are twins. Well, mind twins because you really don't look alike."

"WE DON'T?" we both exclaimed at the same time. It was the first time we'd heard that.

Dallas laughed a full out belly laugh before replying "No way. I mean, you've got the same hair colour, but you two look nothing alike."

"You will have super cute kids though. Probably crazy talented too" added Hunter.

I smiled and looked at Tegan, the memory of my earlier thoughts returning and pulling me from my drunken high. Now I just wanted to drink to forget about what we'd be missing out on. I downed my scotch and instantly felt the burn all the way down, Tegan caught on and followed suit. She waved the waitress over and ordered a round of doubles for the table.

"I'm paying for cabs. No 'scuses! Drink!" said Tegan, then she turned to the waitress. "Actually, bring bottles please? Scotch for this one, and tequila for all my friends!" she demanded politely.

Everyone nodded and the waitress walked away. Even in her drunken haze, Tegan could tell my mood had declined quickly. She turned to me as the table continued a conversation, wrapping her arms around my neck so that we were almost in our own little world. I could smell the alcohol on her breath as she spoke to me.

"What's up?" she asked

I shrugged.

"Come on Sasa, don' 'ive me that, I know some-s-s-omething's wrong." She drunkenly slurred.

"We'll talk later. Lets have fun tonight" I replied.

She answered with a strong hand up my thigh. I couldn't help but smile and let out a breathy moan as she reached so close to the spot that was aching for her. She smiled and rolled a wet tongue in my ear, making me quiver in excitement. I gulped and gently dug my nails into the back of her neck. I was putty under her skillful hands. She smiled, knowing she had me right where she wanted. Tegan kissed me full on, slipping her hands now, just barely under my shirt to meet the skin of my lower back. My skin tingled and my heart pounded. The waitress pulled us out of our tryst by putting a tray of shot glasses on the table, then two bottles. She smiled at us and winked. I took the bottle of scotch and poured myself another. Tegan poured everyone shots, then held one up.

"To our healthy and happy marriages! Cheers!" she exclaimed

We all clinked glasses, and they did their tequila, sucking on limes, while I down another glass of scotch, pouring yet another. At this point I was drunk beyond drunk, hiccupping. Tegan did a second shot and turned to me, wiping her mouth with the back of her hand.

"Wanna dance?"

I nodded and stood up, taking her hand. I stumbled down the stairs. Whoever thought of putting stairs in a club was dumb. I wanted to fight that person. I actually just really wanted to fight someone. I lead Tegan to the dance floor, where I turned around to face her, putting a leg between her two and wrapping my arms around her waist. Hers encircled my neck and we laughed. We moved our hips together, as I let my hipbone grind into her crotch, eliciting a moan from that gorgeous mouth. I watched as she bit her labaret and tilt her head back to meet me. I smiled and she attacked my lips again, while we bounced to the beat. I broke the kiss and turned, moving my bum into her front. She had a fascination with it, and as she wrapped her arms around my stomach, I looked at her over my shoulder, bringing a hand up to wrap around her head as I ground into her front. I'd never done this with anyone. I hoped she felt special, but from the look on her face I could tell she did. I knew I was turning her on, so I rolled my hips, pulling away from her, just to brush against her again in the rotation. Her hands rubbed up and down my stomach, trying to refrain from going up and taking hold of my breasts. I turned back around and tangled my hands in her hair, smiling wide, once again letting my drunken state take over. She smiled back, taking my waist and rubbing up and down my sides as we moved. I kissed her quickly, but she held me there and returned a heated kiss.

"You're teasing me so bad right now" she huskily mentioned

"Oh, am I?" I asked

"Just wait 'til we got 'ome and ya find out jus how much. The things I'm unna to do to you."

I felt my underwear dampen, just imagining.

"Well then you better pace the rest of drinking because you're already slurring, and trust me baby you're gonna get it just as good tonight."

She smiled at me and nibbled down my neck, causing me to throw my head back, this time grinding her hipbone into me, hitting my clit directly. All the hairs on my body stood on end. The DJ switched the song, and BodyWork came on. It felt so indulgently sexual to be dirty dancing like this to our own song. Tegan laughed and I smiled, as she pulled away.

"I love this song!" she exclaimed, causing me to laugh hard.

"Me too" I responded.

I leaned in and kissed just in front of her ear and whispered "I have to pee. I'll be right back."

She nodded and kissed my cheek, letting me go and dancing on her own as I made my way out of the crowd, into the bathroom again. I pushed open the stall door and sat down to empty my throbbing bladder. Alcohol will do that to you. Sitting down, where it was a bit quieter, the full effect of the liquor spun my head. I really had crossed my limit by like four drinks. Ah well, damage done. Might as well enjoy it. I finished up and flushed, then washed my hands. When I made my way back through the crowd, I saw Tegan drunkenly yeling at a woman. I walked over.

"Don't touch me!" Tegan yelled.

The woman moved to touch her again, and Tegan swatted her hands away "Come on, Tegan. Just one dance" she pleaded.

"No! Thank you, but no" said Tegan. The woman went to grab Tegan's arm again, but my karate kicked in and I snatched it before it came in contact with my wife's body. I twisted her arm behind her back, getting up behind her and whispering in her ear. Tegan's eyes were wide in shock. I wanted so badly to punch this bitch for disrespecting Tegan. I shook angrily.

"She said no. That means no. So I suggest to apologize to my wife before I rip this arm off. Got it?"

I saw the woman's throat bob, as she nodded "I'm…I'm sorry. Sara, please don't hurt me" I gave her a shove away from us and she scampered off.

I turned back to Tegan, who was still incredibly shocked, standing there with her mouth wide open.

"You alright?" I asked

She nodded "Thanks. That was…guess that karate paid off."

I shrugged my shoulders, acting like I was loosening up "I still got some moves"

She dodged the joke, moving in, looking around, and letting her hand rub against me through my jeans. I felt a lighting bolt jump from my center to my chest. I quivered, my knees shaking. She steadied me and leaned into my ear .

"That was so sexy." Tegan rubbed just a little harder and I breathed deeply into her ear, nuzzling her face. "What do you say I get us a cab?" she asked, shifting to face me. I kissed her passionately, with full, soft lips. Nothing like the kisses we've shared so far tonight this was a kiss letting her know how much I wanted her. I wanted to feel her moving inside of me, hitting the sweet spots only she could find. I inhaled through my mouth and whimpered as she let go of my crotch. She broke the kiss, leaving me on fire. We walked up to the booth and paid for the liquor. Tegan made sure everyone had cash for a cab ride home and we said our goodbye.

We crashed through the front door, a tangle of bodies. I shut and locked it, my lips never leaving Tegan's. She pinned me to the door, hands holding mine up above my head as she pressed her body into mine. The wood of the door rattled at the movements. She unbuttoned my shirt, sliding her hands in to meet my skin. I let out a throaty, animalistic moan as I tugged at the bottom of her shirt, pulling it over her head, then quickly unclasping her bra, flinging it across the room. Those gorgeous mounds fell out and were immediately being covered with my palms. Tegan's head shot back, as the flat of my palms found hard nipples and stimulated them. She took a handful of my collar in each hand and tugged, pulling me to the left, into the kitchen. We stumbled over chairs as we made our way to the sliding door. I pressed her against the glass, fumbling with her belt. She breathed heavy, breaking the kiss. I backed up, trying to focus on the mechanism as she put her arm over her eyes. I gave up and moved back in, kissing her and holding her back while I slid the door opened. We stepped out as I shut the screen door behind us.

We stumbled down the stairs, as Tegan finally took my shirt off, tossing it aside to land in the grass. We were both heading towards to dock. I finally got her buckle undone. She kicked off her shoes, and pulled them off. Her arms were around me again, burning a trail of heat and passion across my back as she undid my bra clasp. I felt the night air hit my nipples and I shivered as they instantly hardened. Tegan lowered her face to take one into her mouth. My body jumped and I held her head, moaning. Looping my index finger under her chin, I pulled her back up to kiss her as I slid off my own jeans and shoes. We'd just gotten onto the dock when we broke away, individually taking off our underwear and socks, then I jumped in. The water rushed around me. The cold liquid, flushing my body after such a heated night caused my blood to rush, and my excitement to rise. I felt my clit throb for attention. I surfaced, just as Tegan jumped in. She bobbed up right in front of me and I swam to her. We giggled like kids, and she splashed me. I returned the favour. Then we stopped, catching each other's eyes again.

Tegan attacked me like a bear: arms flinging around me, mouth pressing tightly to mine. Okay, so not quite like a bear. I moved a hand to feel her wetness. Luckily I could stand on the sandy bottom of the lake, and I held us up. She ground into the touch, begging for more. My thumb found her clit and she gasped, biting my shoulder.

"Oh fuck, baby. You're so wet" I exclaimed.

I felt her nod against my shoulder and her body jerk up as I started to draw light circles over the tiny bundle. Her muscles stiffened.

"Shit! Sara!" Tegan screamed.

I let go of her clit and heard her whimper from the loss of contact, but quickly replaced it by gently rolling one of her labia in my fingers. Her hands tugged my hair, then let go and ran up and down my neck. I was throbbing, aching to be touched. Her moans causing my body to respond. I had to take her, I wanted her to take me. I gently pressed a finger to her opening and felt her muscles spasm slightly at the anticipation. She cried out

"Please baby, Oh my God please."

She kissed my face desperately, giving me pack after peck until I finally plunged into her, feeling her tightness wrap around my finger. She gasped at the feeling and everything in her body squeezed. She felt so exquisitely warm and tight. I gently started to pump just the one index finger in and out.

"More! Please Sara, I need more!"

I obliged and added a finger. I could feel her stomach shake, and her grip tighten like a vice. She was moaning loudly now. I moved my face to meet hers and she kissed me hard, with such a need. I curled my fingers up, and that was it. She couldn't last. I felt her stiffen, whimper, then felt her entire body contract around my fingers. She screamed and threw her head back, letting me drink up her moonlit chest and dripping locks of dark brown hair. She was perfect. She was so perfect. I saw the tears glisten down her face as her cunt gripped me so tightly. I kept up the motion, hitting her sweet spot time and time again. She was a screaming, shaking mess, held up only by the firm hand I had on her back and the weightlessness the water created. I leaned forward, closing the gap, and taking a nipple between my teeth. When I didn't think it was possible, her orgasm heightened even more. I was sure she was cutting off the circulation to my fingers. I didn't give a shit, this was the sexiest thing I'd ever seen. I felt her move her legs up around my lower back, digging her heels into my lower back, forcing my fingers deeper. She was an animal, writhing under me, against me, onto me.

"FUCK!" I yelled out, so turned on by her actions.

"Oh my God, Sara!"

"I've got you, I've got you, just keep going love, it's okay." I assured her.

She dropped her head to my shoulder again, hugging me close, and I curled up just a bit harder.

"Stop, please. I can't…" She whimpered breathlessly

I immediately stopped moving, staying inside her and kissing up her jaw. I felt her body relax, and her unclench my fingers. She tried to catch her breath as I gently slid out of her. I kept kissing up her jawline, to her cheek, and stealing a soft peck on her lips. Had I hurt her? I was being pretty rough. My excitement had died down at the prospect that I had. I'd never been stopped before. She was still hanging off of me though.

"Baby, are you okay?" I asked

She nodded.

"Did I hurt you?" I asked

She chuckled and shook her head. "Fuck no. Sorry, it was just too intense"

I smiled widely, my ego inflating. I slipped on the bottom of the lake, sending both of us tumbling back into the water. We laughed. I pounced onto Tegan, trying to hold her underwater. She was much stronger though, and tossed me off easily, only to swim towards me. I was standing up to my waist in the water, just staring in awe into the night scene. The mountains converged in the middle. They were lined with trees and capped with snow. The lake was crystal clear. You could see almost straight to the bottom. I cupped a handful and took a drink of the cool water. It tasted so crisp and clean. I looked down and saw a few fish scurrying about. I couldn't believe that this wasn't vacation, that we actually lived here.

Arms snaked around my waist and I leaned back into my wife's warm body, glad for the support, because my head was still reeling.

"Did you think I was done with you?" Tegan whispered in my ear.

I smiled as she kissed down my neck, to my shoulders, playfully biting.

"Of course not" I replied, a little breathless.

My mouth hung open with no sound when a hand slid down my belly, and softly pressed against my clit. My body started to double over in the shock, but Tegan's hand steadied me, and I consciously came back up to rest my head on her shoulder. I felt the supporting hand move to cup one of my breasts, its partner now working circles on my clit. My hands move behind me, gliding over her hips to take hold of two firm bum cheeks under the water. I tense my arms as the ripples of pleasure travel up my body from where her finger was circling my most sensitive area. I bit my bottom lip as her tongue found the spot just below my ear, intensifying the experience.

"Mmmmm….Tegan"

"Does that feel good baby?" she asked cockily.

I nodded and rolled my hips back, grinding my bum into her. I heard her moan and felt her nipples harden against my back. I felt her sink into the water, and groaned in frustration as she moved away from my clit.

"Don't stop" I complained.

"Just trust me on this one" she replied, taking my waist again and turning me around to face her. I did, and she kissed me softly, slowly walking us into deeper water. She pulled away again.

"Float on your back."

"What?" I asked.

"Float on your back." She echoed.

I shrugged and did as she requested, floating on my back in the water. She was chin deep, standing up, so she moved forward, wrapping an arm around my lower back. Tegan kisse my ankle, making her way up my leg. It wasn't until she was breathing against my wetness that I figured it out. My heart skipped a beat. This was something neither one of us had experienced together yet.

"Sara, you smell so damn good."

I moaned, and fought with everything I had to not buck my hips into her face. My clit was pounding. I'm sure she could see my heartbeat in it. Then I felt her lick up my slit and I almost came. It took every ounce of self-control not to. I reached down and tangled my hands in her hair, feeling myself start to sink, until Tegan added another hand for support. My hips couldn't help but buck now, as I felt her tongue wrap around my clit. I gasped, feeling my core tighten.

"Ffffuck!" I screamed.

Everything was drawn in and tensed. Every muscle was flexed, even my brow was knit. I squeezed my eyes shut and grit my teeth. The moment Tegan sucked my clit into her hot, wet mouth, my world exploded into a rainbow and I relaxed everything, my head sinking below the surface. Tegan quickly replaced her tongue with her hand, fingers gently tugging at my bud as she dropped my legs, and pulled me back up. I panicked, coughing up water that I had aspirated, but still trembling as my orgasm ripped through me, each wave, feeling like heated molasses running through my blood.

"You okay?" Tegan asked as I kept coughing up water.

I grabbed tightly to her neck, but she was too freaked out and stopped- much to my dismay. She patted my back.

"Sara, keep coughing. Cough it all up" she instructed.

I did and once it was all gone I let out a long groan of frustration. I hopped up, wrapping my legs around her waist in the water and squeezing my still aching cunt on her stomach.

"Maybe that wasn't such a good idea. Sorry, love. I thought you were gonna drown" Tegan apologized.

"In that moment I wouldn't have cared. That was…exquisite" I replied

Tegan responded with a soft kiss to my lips. I audibly sighed and let my lips release hers.

"I'll make it up to you, promise" she said.

Her words weren't slurred anymore and I could tell she was starting to sober up. Me, I was still very much intoxicated. Tegan held me firmly as I pressed my cheek to her wet skin. I felt her shiver as the water evaporated off her skin, into the night air. Climbing down, I left my hands on her chest.

"Let's go inside. You've got some lovin' to make up to me" I said.

Tegan nodded and took my hand. We waded back to the dock. I put my palms firmly on the surface and tried to push myself up to no avail. Tegan gave me a boost and I got a leg up to roll onto the deck. I laughed in my drunken stupor at my lack of strength. Tegan pulled herself up easily and chuckled, coming and offering me a hand up that I gladly took.

"You really did drink a lot, eh?" she asked

I nodded, intertwining our fingers. She walked me back into the house, closing and locking the patio door. Tegan let go of my hand as she waltzed over to the cupboards. I could feel myself starting to sober up. All I wanted to do was lay in our big, comfy bed. My feet shuffled down the hallway, into our bedroom. I face planted onto the bed, letting out a groan. Then, I felt something warm and hard poke my lower back, I jumped in surprise. Tegan's hand ran over a shoulder, down my back as she chuckled. I rolled over.

"Been a while since we've brought this thing for a whirl. As I recall I have yet to have a turn with it" she said with sultry in her voice.

I nodded, opening my arms up to her, and spreading my legs. I could feel the warmed silicone against my clit and I shuddered in anticipation. Tegan smiled wide. Oh she'd get a kick out of this. She aimed the tip at my opening, just gently brushing it. I moaned and bucked my hips. Then she looked up at me.

"You ready?"

"Give it to me. I want to feel you move inside of me" I told her.

Tegan moaned hungrily and I hissed as she pressed the tip slightly into me. She stopped, looking down at me

"Sara, have you never…with a…?" she asked

I gulped and shook my head. I was aching to have her enter me. To show her how amazing it felt to meet the tightness of me; to be inside of me. I wanted her to feel my body's responses to her actions. I wanted her to feel my orgasm inside of her, just like I had hers.

"Babe, we don't have to, I can…"

"No" I grabbed her arm and looked in her eyes. "I want this"

"You're not drunk anymore, are you?"

It was more of a statement in question form. I shook my head. She leaned down and kissed me softly, yet passionately. I rubbed her shoulders, then up her neck, pulling her face in closer. I wrapped my legs around her waist, my cunt drooling on her stomach. She bit my lip and moaned into my mouth. She knew how badly I wanted her. I slowly unlocked my legs and opened back up for her again. Tegan never stopped kissing me as she positioned herself back at my entry point. I felt her press in a little deeper, very slowly, very gently, just barely inside. I tried to breathe through it, but I'd be lying if I said it didn't hurt.

Tegan broke the kiss, moving to watch my face.

"If you want me to stop Sara, just say the word and I'll do whatever you say. You're in control here" she reassured me

I nodded. There was no pressure here. After a few moments, the pain subsided and I moaned. Tegan took the cue and pressed just a little deeper, dropping kisses on my jawline. I wound my fingers in her hair like I always did, and massaged her scalp. We were going to make love. We'd fucked earlier, but we were going to make love right now. I looked down and saw that she'd already slipped three quarters of the way inside of me. The sight of her inside of me turned me on so much. I gently dug my nails into her scalp, as I felt myself give way for more of her, I moaned. This felt incredible. I could feel her slight weight on top of me, and when she turned to face me she kissed me softly. It felt good to be face to face. She broke the kiss. I smiled up at her, playing with her hair.

"You okay?" she asked

I nodded, then sat up to whisper in her ear

"I want you to make love to me Tegan. I want to be taken as yours."

"I love you" was her only response. It wasn't her typical I love you. She spoke this one with her eyes, her hand gently brushing my bangs back, off my face, and with tears in her eyes. She leaned in and kissed me gently, pushing the rest of the way inside. Pain ripped through me, causing me to grimace, squint my eyes shut, and whimper against her lips. She stayed there, letting me take her in and get used to her. I felt a hand move down to rub my tummy, something she'd learnt was the ultimate way to comfort me. My tension eased.

"That's my girl" she praised, kissing my cheek.

I took a deep breath, calming down.

"I'm gonna move just a little, okay? Tell me if you want me to stop" she told me.

I nodded, but as she moved a noise I didn't expect to come out did, a guttural moan. She looked at me shocked and pushed back in. I gasped at the overwhelmingly new sensation. When she was all the way in, she hit a spot back there I didn't even know I had. I ran my hands down her back, giving her bum a squeeze, then travelling back up, taking hold of her shoulders and pressing my lips into hers. She started to slowly pullout, hitting my g-spot as she did, then push back in and hit that new spot.

"Oh baby, just like that" I encouraged.

She kept the slow, even, steady pace. It was so weird. I could feel the tissue of my insides cling to her on the way out, and be pushed against on the way in. The friction felt fantastic. I felt Tegan push all the way in and stay there. I remembered what I did to her that morning, and it looked like she had the same idea. Her arms snaked around me, pulling me up, into her lap. She kissed me passionately as I hugged her tightly, breaking the kiss to let a deep moan roll through my body as I started to stretch from her being pushed so deeply into me. This new position meant a new angle.

"Feel good babe?" She asked.

"Fuck yes" I responded, kissing her again.

Little tiny ripples started up as I felt Tegan just pulsate her hips, focusing on the spot deep inside me. I felt myself building up. I kissed her harder, squeezed tighter, and moaned louder. She raked her nails down my back, sending shivers through my body. I felt myself tighten and she gasped. That's right. THIS is how it feels to be inside a woman Tegan. I leaned right into her ear and let a low, vibrato moan ring through her ears. I felt her pulse quicken and she broke out in a sweat.

"Do you like being inside of me? Feel my walls squeezing you tightly?" I whispered in her ear.

She nodded, her face scrunching up. She was close, but so was I. I could tell she was trying to remain gentle, and not flip me over and fuck me silly. Any other time I would have told her to do it, but I wasn't ready yet. Besides, I was getting close too. I arched my back, as I started to teeter on the edge. My heels dug into her back, and I felt her push me deeper. I screamed at the sensation. She stopped immediately, taking it as a sign of distress. I grabbed her back, shaking my head.

"No, no. Good scream. Fuck! Please don't stop. I'm so fucking close Teg."

I tucked some hair behind her ear. She still wasn't convinced. So I leaned in and kissed her nose.

"I want you here with me. Lets come together again. I want to feel you. Please baby, please. I need this."

She nodded and kept our eyes locked. I kissed her, holding her cheeks tightly.

"Thank you" I said, and bucked my hips, finding her eyes again.

I place my hands on the back of her neck, and placed my forehead on hers. We rocked, each movement hitting all the right spots. I moaned deeply, as I watched her face contort. I could feel my body climbing to the top of the mountain, building up inch my inch. I could tell Tegan was meeting with resistance inside of me by the way she rocked just a little more eagerly. We were breathing the same hot air. I could feel her exhale as I inhaled, and vice versa.

"Do you feel me, love? Feel me tight-" I gasped as I teetered on the edge "en around you?"

She nodded and I scrunched my face up, squeezing Tegan tightly.

"Oh, baby I'm right there. Fuck. Oh my God how can I be staying right there?" I asked rhetorically.

I was seriously right on the edge, right at the moment between Hey-this-feels-good and holy-shit-I'm-coming. That last moment of pure, agonizing pleasure. My toes curled, my abs tightened, I squeezed Tegan so tightly I thought I might crack a rib. Then I exploded into a million pieces, my whole body convulsing and shaking as the spasms took over. Tegan held me steady as she let go as well, thrusting into me a little more eagerly. She laid me down on the bed and got ontop of me, moving her hips to bring herself in and out of me slightly. I scratched blood trails down her back in my orgasm frenzy.

"HOLY FUCK! OH FUCK! OH FUCK! I'M COMING! TEGAN! TEGAN! TEGAN!"

I called her name again and again and again, screaming it into the night. She finished way before me and kissed my collarbone, up my neck. I finally started to stop thrashing and come down from the orgasm. I laid limp, save for an arm limply resting on Tegan's shoulder. I couldn't feel my body. My eyes were closed and my head was spinning. Tegan kissed me everywhere.

"You okay?" she asked.

I shook my head "I think I might be dead. Everything's numb."

She smiled and kissed me softly.

"You are so amazing" she told me, grazing my cheek with the backs of her knuckles. I smiled and attempted to raise my arms. Didn't work out so well.

"Come here."

She started to pull out

"Don't. Stay inside me" I demanded

She did, slowly pushing back in to another moan from me, but then turning us on our sides, facing each other. She leaned in, linking our foreheads and gently rubbing a thumb over the dip in my back. It felt so perfect. I started to regain feeling in my body, and I felt a few tears shed from my eyes. Tegan quickly brushed them away.

'Did I hurt you?" She asked

I shook my head and cupped her hand on my face.

"Happy tears, love. You are so incredible. I feel… I feel so loved and so connected to you. I never thought I could love anyone like this. I didn't even know this was possible. I want to give you everything you've always wanted right now."

She looked up at me with a look in her eyes.

"You do?" she asked

When I nodded, she bit her lip.

"I want to start trying to conceive again."

I gulped and emotionally backed off.

"Tegan…"

"You said that you want to give me everything I've always wanted. I've always wanted a child, but was never in the place to have one. But we're financially secure, we're married, we've got this house. What's wrong? I know you want to be just "us" but we've been just us for 32 years now."

I shook my head, angry that she didn't understand, angry that she was trying to manipulate me like this, angry that she was pushing the subject. Why was she pushing the subject when just twenty minutes ago she was making sure I was going at my own pace? Why now is there pressure when there wasn't before? And why did I feel like I wanted to give in?

"Tegan, I don't want to have a child! Ever! So stop pushing me" I yelled.

I pulled off of her, and got to my feet. Walking over to my dresser and yanking open a door, I saw her pull out the toy and get to her own feet.

"You what? We talked about this!" she grumbled at me

"Well I changed my mind!" I yelled back, pulling on a pair of boxers. I was just realizing that pulling off like that wasn't a good idea. I was sore.

"Changed your mind? So that's it then, you just went ahead and made the decision that we're not having kids?" she asked, flinging her arms in the air.

"Guess not" I shrugged, pulling on a t-shirt.

"You're so fucking selfish, sometimes. God, what the fuck Sara? Why the fuck don't you want to have a kid?"

"I just don't, okay?" I responded

"No, that's not an answer. Why don't you want to have a kid?" she asked again

"This is what I mean. You don't get what you want, so you pressure people into it. It's not fair."

"Why Sara?"

"Because if I can't have your kid, I don't want to have one."

It came out of my mouth before I even had time to think about it.

"But you CAN have my kid. Hunter was telling me that the other Tegan and Sara were…"

"Using Tegan's eggs to make sperm, I know" I interjected

"So then what's the big fucking deal?"

"We're identical twins! Fuck, sometimes you're so fucking stupid. We have the same fucking DNA; hello inbreeding!"

I could tell that Tegan hadn't thought of that. She was hit with the same brick I was earlier in the restaurant. She spaced out, withdrawing into herself. She had a look of horror on her face. In another situation, I'd have comforted her, but I was too heated. I couldn't handle it.

"Happy now? I'm sleeping in the spare room tonight. Good fucking night."

I stormed out, slamming the door.