((Ok, definitely eating my brain. I promise there is a really good reason Mai is so incredibly out of character. It'll be in this chapter. It's dark and has a gooey center. I'm deeply grateful to all your kind reviews. Hikari you won't be disappointed I hope. Keep in mind the rating here and this chapter will stand totally on it's own for reasons that will become obvious. Yes names are deliberately chosen. And as always I in no way shape of form own Ghost Hunt.))

If Mai let herself think about the true reason she felt this way she'd throw up. She heaved every time her brain meandered down that path. In the end all her pain since that day was his fault. He'd caused it. If it were as simple as a broken heart she could have overcome it, but it went so much deeper than that. She squeezed her eyes shut to try and block out the memory of what had come after. Sometimes she could break it's hold on her psyche and others she could not. This would be one of the times she could not. It seemed clear as day but had distortion around the edges, almost like an old film that had degraded.

It was his fault afterall she'd been by that lake. In the rain. In the dark. She had sunken down and cried after he'd left but the ground was damp and she was cold so eventually she started to pick herself up. As she stood a voice startled her pity party and she turned to see two boys watching her. They were typical punks playing at being bag guys. American jeans slung low on their hips, black bandanas tied around their developing biceps and matching Tanks with a pair of brass knuckles printed on it. It had to be some kind of insignia.

"There's a curfew around here."

All she could do was look up and no, she looked down and away, searching the leaves of set grass for an answer. "Sorry, I"m leaving now, " she had managed to mumble.

"There's a fine to pay when you brake it." The other boy laughed at this. She was kinda shocked. They wanted money because she was out late.

"I've got 2000 yen. She dug in her bag for her wallet and threw it across so it landed at the first boys feet with a thud. When he made no move to grab it she let herself look deeper at him. His skin was a shade darker than her own. Small pimples dotted his cheeks and his eyes were pinched. His mouth moved as if he was rolling his tongue around just under his lips, thinking. When he finally spoke his face shifted and became darker.

"Hiro, I don't think that's enough. Do you think that's enough?" The other boy laughed and shook his head. Mai stepped back and drew a hand up to her heart to finger the key she wore around her neck.

"It's all I have. You can have my phone, or my bag..or.." she trailed off as they approached her. When they laughed harder she turned to run and ran into a third boy's chest and bounced off landing on her butt with a thud. Her skirt flaired up showing her panties and that seemed to make them laugh harder. When had the third boy got there she tried to think but he grabbed her by the hair and pulled her up.

"There are other ways to pay." His breath stank of alcohol and when she whimpered and grabbed at the hand holding her hair he shook her a bit and laughed harder. She was half bent over being forced to move whichever way the newest boy moved his hand. It hurt so badly. As she began to panic she felt one of the other two boys come up behind her. He ran his hands up her thighs and lifted her skirt up to rest on her back, giving the boys a view of her panties. She started to blush a deep red. He laughed as she began cry from the pain.

"Please," She cried out when she was thrown to the ground. She looked at the boys and tried to get to her feet but was cut off when the smallest lunged and grabbed her arms and held them above her head. He forced them over her head and held her wrists in a vise like grip. She was in hysterics now. She started to beg as if it were some kind of mantra. "Please, please, please."

"Hold her still Hiro. Bitch is gonna pay the toll," He laughed harder and slapped the first boy on the back with a grin. "Okay Naruki. You want to be one of us, show what you've got. Make her beg for it.

The first boy licked is lips and laughed when he was her twisting on the ground till held by her wrists. "Oh baby, is it your lucky day." He was laughing as he got down and licked her tears. She was terrified and shivered between the cold and fear shaking her body. She closed her eyes scared of what would come next. She heard the boys laughing as a zipper was pulled down and she heard the rustling of cloth as he kicked them away and then the tearing of her panties and they were forced off of her.

This wasn't happening. She clenched her legs shut. This couldn't be happening. No this wasn't what was supposed to happen. Mai was supposed to tell Naru she loved him and he was supposed to love her back. She was supposed to be gently pulled into his arms and kissed lightly. He was supposed to walk her home and kiss her goodnight after seeing her safe and warm in her apartment and promise to call her the next day. At least that's how she always imagined it. Her first time was going to be with him. Gentle, tentative kisses and light touches. He'd look at her and tell her how beautiful she was and how loved. It'd be magic made between. He'd make love to her and the hold her all night. They'd talk till dawn and spend the day in bed discovering everything about each other. This was not how it was supposed to be.

"Help hold her down." She felt two pairs of hands pulls her legs apart in opposite directions. They were so cold was all she could manage to think and then she felt the weight of her attacker on her chest and she settled between her legs. He grabbed her face and tried to stick his tongue in her mouth. She screamed and he laughed harder. "You're going to enjoy this."

Then there was pain and burning. He pushed his hard member into her and she felt her body stretch and tare. She felt the pain and heard the laughter of the boys as the boy on top of her pushed as deeply as he could into her making new tears well in her eyes and she cried out in pain.

"See," he said to his partners in crime, "Bitch loves it." They all laughed harder as he pumped his hips. Leaving and entering her body. Bruising her sex and enjoying her pain. When he had been at it for a few minutes that felt like hours the boy groaned and thrust himself all the way into her. "You like it when I'm balls deep? You do, don't you." He laughed hard as he got off and she whimpered in pain. When he pulled himself off of her and the hands fell away from her body he looked down at her.

A cruel smirk bent his lips when he noticed the blood that ran down her thigh mixing with his semen. "Consider your debt paid." They others laughed and smacked him on the back as he dressed and they walked away still howling about her loss of innocence and making crude remarks about her 'performance'.

Mai wasn't sure how long she had laid there. She tried to block it all out. The stinking of her eyes. The pain from her wrists and the burning in her groin. This was all his fault for leaving her like this. She loved him and he left her. If he'd loved her she'd have still been innocent, pure and whole.

After an eternity she finally got up and groped around for her wallet and bag and start to stumble towards the town.

It was all his fault.