Warnings: TRIGGERS IN THIS CHAPTER!TRIGGER WARNING! TRIGGER WARNING! TRIGGER WARNING! CONTAINS SCENES OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, RAPE, AND MURDER.Chapter contains a homosexual incestual relationship and sexual content between two women. If you don't like it, don't read it.

Rating: M

Summary: What happens when she gets her wish and Tegan finds herself in an alternate reality where Sara is her girlfriend, and not her sister? Will be a LONG fic, updated often.

A/N: And the plot thickens….dundundun. I had a lot of fun writing this chapter. Sara's at 28 weeks, not sure if I mentioned it in the actual chapter but for your reference. Ummm…I'm super excited for the next chapter. Get ready for some action coming up, and some fantasy/sci-fi type stuff. Read. Review. Enjoy.

Disclaimer: COMPLETELY FICTIONAL!

In case you missed it: TRIGGER WARNING! CONTAINS SCENES OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, RAPE, AND MURDER.

Chapter 27 – Remembering Essential Memories

Tegan's POV

It was dark. I stretched out my hands, but couldn't see them. Looking around, everything was shadowed. I knew I was on my knees. The ground beneath me felt cold. Then there was a small purple glow in the distance. It goes bigger and bigger. Was it coming closer? I slowly stood on shaky knees, trembling feet. Up to my full height. The purple glow opened. Like a purple vagina, giving birth, someone walked through. I felt relief wash over me when I saw her face. Kaki! I smiled and stumbled over to her.

"Kaki!" I call out into the darkness.

"Shh, Tegan. I don't have much time. I'm trying to get back, but it might take a while." She tells me

I nod, and listen attentively.

"You need to protect them. Do everything you can to protect them. He's going to come after them. When the lake changes states, you know what's at stake. I'm trying to prepare you, from a distance."

"I'll protect them. Kaki, what's going to happen?" I ask, desperately

"I don't know, but I'm doing all I can. We'll win, Tegan. Go. You've gotta go!" she called out, the yell fading out.

I was slammed back into my body and woke up, with a gasp. This darkness what different. I know this darkness. It was warm and welcoming. The firm push of Sara's palm on my chest, pushing me down to the bed made me sigh, and deflate. Her eyes slowly opened and her lips found my cheek.

"Bad dream?" She asked

I took a minute to think "I don't even remember it. What time is it?" I ask

"Four AM. Go back to bed, babe" she kissed my cheek again and I nodded as she flung a leg over my hips, and pulled me to her.

Inhaling her smell, I drifted back off.

When I woke up, I was curled into her pregnancy pillow, the blankets up to my chin. I yawned and felt for her, but she wasn't in bed. I rolled onto my back and let my senses come to life. Something smelt wonderful. I could hear her singing in the kitchen and just smiled to myself. What a way to wake up!

Getting to my feet, I pulled on a tank top and took the short walk down the hall and into the kitchen. I made my way behind her silently as she continued to belt out the Rhianna song. I wrapped my arms around her and kissed her shoulder giving Dani a rub.

"Morning baby. Eggs and Bacon?" she asked putting a hand over mine on her growing waistline.

I nodded "It smells wonderful."

"Thanks. I woke up early and couldn't get back to sleep. Sorry you had to wake up alone" she apologized

"It's fine. I get breakfast!" I smile.

She chuckles and turns around in my arms, kissing me.

"My optimist" Sara moons.

I smile and kiss her as she starts to giggle.

"What?" I ask

She runs her hands over the top of my head "Your hair! Tegan, only you can make bed head that bad look that good."

I chuckle. "How bad is it?"

"Oh, pretty bad" she laughs and gives me another quick peck before turning back to the stove.

We stand in silence for a bit, listening to each other breathing and the sizzle of the food in the frying pan, then she looks back at me for a moment "Hey, do you remember the dream you had last night? You woke with a bit of a startle."

I take a moment and try to recollect then shake my head "No, I remember waking up and you snuggling me, but that's about it."

She nodded. "I had a dream last night"

I smile, knowing the content "Oh Yeah?" I ask, huskily.

She nods "MmmHmm"

"Was I a librarian again?" I tease

"You know how I like my books and you. You AND books? Send me to heaven!" She chuckles. "But, no. You weren't a librarian last night. But how do you feel about surprises?" she asked.

I smiled and bit in my labaret "Oh, I like surprises."

Then she lets out that cunning chuckle that she uses when she gets what she wants. I've learned that Sara getting what she wants is usual good for me. Really, really good for me. I give her another kiss on the cheek, then head outside to grab the paper. I head to the end of the driveway in my briefs and tank top, forgetting about the bite of the fall morning. I shiver and grab the paper, then quickly run back in. I shut the door and shiver, walking back over to Sara and turning her around so I can curl up in her.

"Tegan! Seriously? You're freezing" she complains

She wraps her arms around me anyways and I nod.

"I forgot it's not summer anymore" I reason.

Sara just laughs and turns to turn the burner off, slip the eggs and bacon onto two plates, then kisses me on the cheek and wrap an arm around me.

"Lets get you in the shower" she suggests.

She leads me down the hallway, into our bedroom, then the bathroom. She turns the hot water on, then tugs at the hem of my tank, pulling it over my head, before lowering my underwear just below my bum. She kissed my cheek as I kicked them off. Then she gave my bum a smack and I giggled.

"Get in there, I'll meet you in the kitchen for breakfast" she tells me.

I nod and get into the shower, as Sara walks out, turning on the exhaust fan on her way out. I happily let the warm water cascade down my body. I sighed and grabbed my shampoo.

Sara's POV

I put the plates on the table, then turned to grab my decaf coffee and a glass of OJ for Teegs. Grabbing the paper, I sat down and munched a piece of my toast. I smiled when I felt Dani start kicking.

"Guess you're waking up eh, tiny human?" I talked to her. "How's it goin in there? All snuggly and warm?" I asked. I was answered with a kick. "Well I'm glad. You know I'm getting really impatient to meet you, but I don't want you to come early. Come when you're ready, and big, and strong, not like your mommy when she was born. She was all tiny and weak. Grandma didn't think she'd make it, but aren't we lucky she did?"

Sadness overcame me. Tegan almost didn't make it. I almost didn't have Tegan. The tears started to fall as I looked at her empty seat, her breakfast plate full in front of it. What would I do, if? I can't even think about that. Dani keeps kicking away, and I give my belly a rub. This is ridiculous, I can hear the water from her shower. She'll be sitting next to you in 10 minutes Sara. Oh god, these hormones are getting the best of me. I gulp and wipe the tears away, inhaling sharply, trying to calm down. I heard the water stop and quickly composed myself. I didn't want to make a big deal out of this. I speared some scrambled eggs with my fork and started eating, paying attention to an article about a local homeless shelter. She plopped down casually in her chair a few minutes later. I felt relief wash over me as she crunched a piece of bacon. I put the paper down and smiled at her, hooking my foot around her claf under the table, making her smile and look over at me.

"Thanks for breakfast, love" she tells me

"My pleasure, babe. What do you have planned today?" I ask.

She chews the inside of her lip "Nothing yet. Did you want to do something?"

"Actually, there's been something on my mind lately" I admit.

I've been waiting to talk to her about this. She gives me her attention.

"I got into University" I tell her and she looks confused "After the tour, I applied. Now that we're not touring, and are taking a few years off, I thought that I might want to get a degree. It's all online, so I can do it all from home." I paused "I got early acceptance."

A smile spread across her lips "Sara! That's fantastic. Congratulations."

"You're not mad?" I ask

"Why would I be mad. That's a great idea. Come to think of it, I should look into a new venture too. Maybe I'll do some volunteering. I've always liked habitat for humanity." She adds in.

I sigh and finish my strip of bacon "The perfect woman."

I can see her gloat and giggle as we both continue to eat breakfast.

"So what are you going to major in?" she asks

"Sociology, with a psychology minor" I reply, finishing my food and trade it for a sip of coffee.

"Nice. So you'll be all like, educated. Now I'm REALLY gonna look dumb" she whines, sighing.

"Tegan, you're not dumb" I tell her.

"No, but next to you, Mrs. I-read-a-million books-a-week I look like I am" she finished her food too and sat back in her chair.

"Tegan, stop it" I tell her, giggling.

She chuckles, knowing I've caught on. "Damnit, you caught on to my plies for compliments."

"You don't need to manipulate me into complimenting you, doofus!" I exclaim

"Apparently I do" she laughs, finishing off her orange juice. "Thanks again for breakfast, hon." She gets up and kisses the top of my head, clearing our plates "I've got cleanup."

I smile and sit back, continuing to read the paper, but she comes back and pulls my face back to drop an upside down kiss on my lips. I feel my heart skip a beat as she slows it right down, gently sucking my lips, before slowly pulling away, my lip still quivering for more.

"I forgot to say good morning" she smiled, then walked back to the sink to clean up.

I sat there, staring at the paper, trying to figure out just how with one kiss, she could have me begging for more. I folded the paper back up, put it on the table, and walked into our bedroom, stripping, then taking my shower.

I turned on the water and stepped in. I grinned when I looked over at Tegan's shampoo and body wash, using them instead of mine to get clean. I smelt like Tegan. My need grew, and I bit my bottom lip, running a hand over my breast. They've grown quite a bit in these past few months. I'm now wearing a C-cup. Tegan's happy about that. But right now, I'm happy running my nipples between my fingers and enjoying the accompanying sensation. My other hand ventures down to my clit, rubbing the entire upper half of my pussy with my flattened fingers. I moan and lean against the shower glass. I close my eyes and picture Tegan, riding me the first time. I remember scrolling up her body, to her bouncing breasts and the look on her face. I moan and my hips buck. Her sex face. Oh God. I move my fingers to rub my clit directly, getting rough with myself as I picture her biting her labaret into her mouth and giving me those eyes. My fingers move faster against myself as I feel it coming. The water's cold now but I don't care. I picture watching myself slip in and out of Tegan, slick with her cum. I feel the tightness in my body as I imagine her pussy lips gripping me as I pull out. I cascade over the edge and my knees shake as my orgasm rips through me. I finish with a sigh and a smile, turning the water off.

I take a minute to catch my breath and rub my tummy.

"You always calm down when I do that. Hopefully mommy and I can still do that when you get here. If not, you're going to have two very cranky parents. Fuck, Dani. I still can't believe you're in there, and you're ours. You know we're gonna be super embarrassing. Especially on stage." I smile as I realize something "You're gonna become part of our banter. Oh, you're gonna hate us as a teenager!" I giggle and grab my towel, drying off as Tegan walks in and starts to do her hair. I give her a quick kiss and she smiles, before I walk out and into our room.

A small sigh comes out as I have to by-pass my regular clothes. At 28 weeks, I'm as big as a house and have been stuck on maternity wear for a while. Dani's going to be a big baby Emy says. I'm fine with that. Big and strong. I lean back slightly to catch a glimpse of Tegan's form in the bathroom. Just like mommy. My eyes venture over her scantily-clad body, all the new firmness and bumps very visible. Look at that ass. I gulp, remembering my surprise for her and smile. Later, Sara. Returning my attention back to the closet, I grab a pair of stretchy waist jeans and a big hoodie, pulling them on, before joining Tegan in the bathroom.

Standing in front of my sink, I grabbed my toothbrush. I dabbed on some toothpaste, and started to brush. We keep stealing looks at each other, smiling, until I'm done brushing and I finally lean in and give her a quick kiss. I run a brush through my hair, parting it to the side, and head out of the bathroom, into the living room. Halfway there, I feel a shooting pain start in my ass and radiate down my legs. It makes me cringe, and I have to grab onto the back of the couch for support.

I wait a few minutes, thinking it will pass. When it doesn't, I can't help but whimper.

"Tegan" I call out.

I see her poke her head out of the bedroom and down the hallway, catching a glimpse of me. She walks out and towards me.

"Sara, what's wrong?" she asks, worriedly as she reaches me and puts a supporting hand on my back.

I groan "Shooting pains down my bum, into my legs".

Tegan helps me onto the couch and I wince "Worse. I've gotta stand up"

"Okay Sare, hang on" she tells me, supporting me back into the position, bent over the couch.

Tegan rubs my back as I try to breathe through the pain "Tegan, call Emy."

She doesn't answer me, but runs for the kitchen phone, dialing quickly. I close my eyes and do my best to relax, but my lower body's on fire. Tegan's quickly back, pressing a heating pad to my lower back. It eases up some of the pain.

"Sasa, Emy's on her way over. She said that Dan's probably on your sciatic nerve, but she wants to make sure it's not something else. She said to go ahead and lie down, it might help." She relays to me.

I nod and reach for her. Tegan wraps an arm around my waist, while I put one across her shoulders. I go to take a step and cry out in pain.

"Okay babe, hold on. Let me try…" she cuts herself off mid sentence.

She hooks an arm under my knees, and picks me up almost effortlessly. I let my jaw drop briefly, before burying my face in her chest. She carries me over to the couch and lays me on my side.

"There we go" Tegan reassures, grabbing a couch cushion and placing it between my knees.

She sits on the floor, our faces level and wraps an arm around me to hold the heating pad in place against my back. The pain slowly starts to fade and I sigh as it dies down to a dull ache. Tegan leans her forehead against mine.

"I hate seeing you in pain. It breaks my heart" she whispers.

"I never want to break your heart" I respond.

She kisses me softly, and I hold her face in my hands, gently pulling away.

"I love you Sara" she admits.

"I love you too Tegan." I pause for a minute "How the hell did you pick me up and carry me?"

She shrugs "I have no idea. I just wanted to, and I did."

"Babe, you're getting stronger. Like…" my hand goes down to lift her shirt and reveal the barely visible lines of a six pack "a lot stronger".

She gulps "maybe it's the…the sex. We've been having a lot of sex. That takes some muscle power and stamina."

I nod, because the pain is coming back and I start to wince again.

"Emy'll be here soon, love. Just hang on. Do you want me to sing to you?" she asks.

I nod and she starts up Justin Bieber's As Long As You Love Me, with dead-on vocals. I can't help but giggle at first, then settle into her voice.

"Keeping it Canadian I see" Emy calls out from behind Tegan "You guys are way too cute together".

I give Emy a half grin when I see her. She's trying to contain a giggle as we both notice Tegan blush, embarrassed.

"Hi Emy" Tegan whispers, then moves.

"Hey" Emy takes her spot, sitting on the floor, looking at me. She sighs "What's up?"

"Shooting pains from my lower back, down my legs. They're killing me." I whimper in response, and Tegan rubs my knee.

Emy nods and leans forward, running a hand down my spine "Let me know if any of this makes it worse" she tells me, applying pressure at a few different spots.

I nod, and rest my head on her side, as she keeps feeling around.

"No pain?" she asks.

I shake my head and feel Tegan give my leg a rub.

"Yeah. It's your sciatic nerve. Unofrtunately, there's not much I can do." She tells me.

I whimper and Tegan gently places a hand on my stomach, grounding me, before starting to gently rub my belly.

"I can give you a massage to try and help" Emy suggested.

"I thought massages weren't safe at this stage" I echoed her words from a few months ago.

"Well, from Tegan they're not. No offense Tegan, but I'm trained in prenatal massage techniques and understand your anatomy right now" Emy mentioned.

"Oh god, please!" I pleaded.

Tegan chuckled and I reached for her. She took my wrists, and gently sat me up. Emy nodded and sat behind me on the couch. Tegan slowly eased my back to meet Emy's front, and handed Emy the heating pad. As my head lowered to Emy's shoulder, I was flooded with sensations from the past. They made me smile. It was like cuddling with your best friend after not having seen her for a long time. Emy's my best friend.

"I'll go grab you some lotion" Tegan offered, then headed into our bedroom.

"Emy, did you know they you're my best friend?" I ask her.

"If someone was about to give me a massage to ease up a shitload of pain, they'd be my best friend too" she replied, smiling.

"No, I mean like really. I've missed hanging out with you. Lately it's been all about Dani, and the pregnancy. I miss being friends with you." I tell her.

"I miss hanging out too, Sara. But yours and your baby's health is my number one concern right now, and work is hectic, and Lindsey's been stressing out over a big case." Emy sighed in reply.

I nod "Being adults sucks sometimes"

"Yeah. No kidding" she replied

Tegan walked back in and handed her the bottle.

"Alright, Sara, shirt off" she instructed.

Tegan helped me ditch the shirt. It was odd being half naked in a room with Tegan AND Emy, whom to me, was my ex: even if she wasn't actually in this world. But, the pain in my lower body kept my mind off of that fact. Her hands met the source of my pain and I moaned, my eyes rolling back. Tegan laughed. Emy continued with the massage.

"How's that?" she asked

"Oh my god. Tegan, you're fired" I joked

"You're sure firing me a lot lately. If only you'd fire me from taking the garbage out" my wife replied, sitting in front of me on the couch, and turning on the TV.

"They still haven't found Kaki, eh? I really hope she's okay." Emy said, while working out a tender spot.

"I'm sure she is. You know Kaki, she likes her space" Tegan added.

"Yeah, but 7 months. It's just weird" Emy wondered.

Before we had a chance to continue the conversation, our names flashed onto the screen, along with the picture of Tegan escorting me to the bus.

"In other news, an attempt to cover up a string of legal matter against musician Tegan Quinwas uncovered this weekend."

My jaw dropped and I looked over at Tegan, who's eyes were wide. She was slipping into the mode again.

"Tegan, turn it off" I ordered.

"No" she replied.

I swallowed hard.

"Their record company attempted to keep matters quiet, and were successful until this morning, when eye witnesses started to come forward. A young man, who will remain anonymous reported being out on a run and physically assaulted by the musician, then was paid to keep quiet about it. Another victim of Tegan Quin was kept in the basement of a home and repeatedly assaulted by the 32 year old, until she was found a few months ago. She too was paid off. Several other witnesses reported seeing Sara Quin admitted to the hospital with a stab wound to the abdomen, a mere 5 months ago. I will remind the audience that Sara Quin is currently 7 months pregnant. I'm no mathematician, but that means she was pregnant at the time of the stabbing. Let us also not forget that just 2 months ago, a young fan was attacked by Mrs. Quin. This is a warning to all that see her: she is dangerous."

The newscast ended and Tegan turned off the TV. Emy was still working on me, but my eyes were glued to my partner. She slowly stood up and walked out of the room

"Tegan, are you okay?" Emy asked as she passed.

My eyes followed her as she walked into our room and shut the door. I know what she's going in there to do. I turned back to look at Emy, who got to her feet and helped me to mine.

"Go take care of her" she said.

"Thanks Emy. You should stay for dinner. Get Lindsey over here. I'll get Tegan back." I said.

The phone rang and I nodded to Emy who picked it up, as I walked into our room. I shut the door behind me, and got into the bathroom.

I saw her there, shirt off, on her hands and knees, forehead to the floor. Despite the awkwardness, I got to my knees next to her and rubbed her back.

"Babe, I'm right here. Let it out. Just let it happen" I tell her.

She convulses and I get a forearm under her midriff, pulling her into me. She wraps her arms around my neck and buried her face in my skin. When she gets like this, all she wants is to be closer. To feel my calm around her: to listen to my heartbeat and feel my breathing. I make sure that my breathing is slow and steady. I know what helps her. Moving slightly away, I'm able to get a firm hand on her chest, and one between her shoulders, and I compress her body between them.

"I'm here, I've got you" I reassure her

I can feel her start to come down as my gesture holds her up. She's sweating, shaking, trembling. I kiss her temple and wrap my arms around her. In a few minutes, she nuzzles into my neck and returns the hug.

"Thank you" she whimpers

"I'm always here for you" I remind her.

"I don't know how you can calm me down so quickly" she replies, slumped in my arms.

"I know you Teegs. I know how that head of yours works. I know what to do to counteract the bad it does you sometimes. Just like you know how to for me." I reply, smoothing back the hair on her forehead and giving it a kiss.

"I love you" I remind her as well

"I love you too Sara" she replies.

"I invited Emy and Lindsey for dinner. I think mum called after you walked out" I tell her.

She sighs "Sare, what am I going to do?"

"We're going to do nothing. Let them talk" I advise "We've got our own problems. All those issues have been dealt with. They're all going to get sued for speaking up, against contract. The media's just now finding it out all at once and is making it into something it's not. They don't know us, Tegan; they don't know what REALLY happened. It doesn't matter anyways, love. Dani'll be here soon. She's our number one right now. All the important people already know all of this and aren't going anywhere." I remind her.

"I think we should tell Emy and Lindsey about our…situation" she blurts out.

"Tegan…" I warn

She sighs and leans into me "Sara, I'm serious. I think they deserve to know. I think if we explain it, they'll believe us. If they don't well, we're hardly to blame. You've got pregnancy brain and I'm going through emotional upheaval. I just think that they'll understand." She paused for a moment and took a breath "I think something's coming. I keep feeling like we need to get people in our corner. There are no two people I want more in our corner than them."

I processed this, let it sit with me, then nodded "Okay, we'll tell them."

As I say this, I can see Tegan's brain running a million miles an hour, then she looks outside and her eyes go wide. I know that look: she's just remembered something. Her gaze stays locked outside the bathroom window.

"The lake! When the lake changes states you know what's at stake" she mumbles to herself.

What the fuck does that mean?