Warnings: TRIGGERS IN THIS CHAPTER!TRIGGER WARNING! TRIGGER WARNING! TRIGGER WARNING! CONTAINS SCENES OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, RAPE, AND MURDER.Chapter contains a homosexual incestual relationship and sexual content between two women. If you don't like it, don't read it.
Rating: M
Summary: What happens when she gets her wish and Tegan finds herself in an alternate reality where Sara is her girlfriend, and not her sister? Will be a LONG fic, updated often.
A/N: So, I'm in exams. Give me a break. However, since there's been such an uproar I busted my butt to finish this chapter. Story's heating up. I can't wait until I can finally write the birth and start writing them with the baby. GAH! It's all planned out in my head and I can't wait to share it with all of you. To the Guest who sent the review about being upset that this wasn't up before they went to bed: I hope that I provide you with a smile when you wake up. Maybe you don't have a special someone you wake up to, to make you smile. If you don't, let me be that special someone. Thank you to all of you who review and who've stuck with this. And to my new readers and reviewers thank you! We should do something special when the story reaches 200 reviews. I still can't believe I hit the 100, 000 word mark! WOW! Anyways, back to the story. Fucking longest Author's Note EVER!
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In case you missed it: TRIGGER WARNING! CONTAINS SCENES OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, RAPE, AND MURDER.
Chapter 28 – Like a Fiddle
Tegan's POV
I gulp as the dream comes back to me. Oh God. I feel my heart quicken and Sara rubs my back.
"Tegan? Tegan what's going on?" she asks, trying to dip her head so she can look at my face.
"Sara" I whine and put a hand on her belly, hugging her with my other arm.
"Tegan, what, baby?" She asks again, rubbing my back as she holds me tightly to her.
"Kaki…" I hiccup "Kaki came to me…in a dream" I confess.
I slowly let go of her and do my best to keep breathing, but I'm losing control.
"He's coming after us and Dani. She told me. When the lake changes states you know what's at stake" I repeat.
Her face softens "Tegan, it was just a dream…"
"No. It wasn't I was…awake in it. She told me I had to protect you and Dani. That she's trying to get back" I relay.
I start to convulse and my palms sweat. I roll out of her grasp, and my body hits the floor. I whimper and my stomach can't stop shaking, laying on my bare stomach on the bathroom floor. I'm going to lose Sara and Dani. I'm going to lose them. I can't fight. I don't know how.
"I don't know how…" I whisper "I don't know how…"
One moment, I was looking at the bottom of the tub, but then Sara's face was in my view. She'd laid down on the floor with me, on her side. I looked into her eyes as a hand held my bare back steady. She didn't say a word. Just laid there, watching me. I shook, then tensed, feeling everything inside of me tighten. It felt like something inside of me was going to shatter all my muscles were so tight. I couldn't' help holding my breath. Sara ran her hand down my spine and back up again, staring at me. I finally let out a giant breath and struggled for air. I'm drowning in my own head. I'm drowning in my body. I squeezed my eyes shut and it finally passed. I lay limp and sweaty onto the floor. As I caught my breath, Sara scooted closer, pressing herself onto my back. She kissed my shoulder and laid half on top of me.
"Are you okay?" she whispered.
I nodded.
"Now, what did Kaki say in the dream again?" She asked.
"I thought it was just a dream" I spat back
She sighed and moved the hair off my face gently "Tegan, if you feel like it was something more important, then I believe you."
I thought about snapping at her, but settled for a loud exhale "When the lake changes states, you know what's at stake."
She nodded, then leans in and gently kisses my lips. "I don't know what that means, but we'll figure it out. How about we take this one thing at a time. Lets go deal with Lindsey and Emy, and then we can talk about this" she suggested.
I nodded and took a few more deep breaths.
"Tegan, it's all going to be okay, love. We're gonna get through this" Sara reassures me.
I nod and get to my feet. Reaching out for her, she grabs my arms and I pull her up and into a hug. I hold her close.
"Thank you" I whisper.
"Anytime babe." She pauses for a minute "God, I can wait to have this baby and be able to full out hug you again. I miss laying on top of you"
I smile and wipe away my tears, letting go of the hug "Me too."
"Lets go do this" she reminds me.
I nod "Team?"
"Always." She replies and takes my hand , kissing the back of it.
We walk out of the bathroom and back into the living room. Emy was sitting on the couch, with Lindsey next to her. She must have gotten here while I was…freaking out.
"You alright?" Emy asks
I nod "Yeah, I'm fine"
I see her exchange a look with Sara who nods as I walk over and give Lindsey a hug "It's nice to see you" I tell her.
"So good to see you too. It's been a while" she replies.
Sara comes over and they exchange greetings too. Sara and I have a seat on the couch perpendicular to the one they're on. She curls up to my shoulder and I wrap an arm around her.
"Emy just told me what they're playing on the news. Fuckers." Lindsey told me
I shrugged and looked at Sara "Let 'em talk" I said, smiling at my partner.
"Look at the two of you. Doesn't even phase you" Emy mentioned.
That comment snapped me back to the problem at hand. "We've got bigger fish to fry"
Sara nodded "Guys, there's something Tegan and I want to tell you. Can you promise to keep an open mind?"
Emy and Lindsey look at each other and nod, then look back at us "Yea, sure. What's up?" Lindsey asks.
I take a breath and look at Sara, then turn back to them "Remember how we hated each other, then woke up one morning and were just…POOF in love?"
They nod and I look back at Sara, gulping, She nods, understanding.
"WE, Tegan and I never hated each other" Sara says.
Emy and Lindsey start laughing.
"What Sara's trying to say is that, that night…the night before the POOF, we were different people" I add
They slow down the laughter "Well, yeah" Emy says.
"No, like that wasn't us" I add in "Fuck! This is going to sound crazy"
Emy and Lindsey are looking at us curiously now "What do you mean?" Emy asks.
I take a few more deep breaths to work up the courage "Kaki King's a Fairy, there's another world. In the womb, we were switched with this world's Tegan and Sara by some big bad because we're destined to kill him. Kaki switched us back. So we came here, and your Tegan and Sara went to our world" I sighed once it was all out in the open.
Lindsey and Emy stared at us "And now you think we're crazy" I say, throwing my arms up and shaking my head.
Sara rubs my knee "Look guys, I know it sound unbelieveable, but it's true. A few months ago when Tegan…when Tegan was abusing me…" She says, giving my knee a squeeze. I rub her back in return.
"I knew it!" Emy said, standing up, and coming towards me "You sick fuck! She was pregnant! How dare you?"
Emy went to hit me, and I simply swatted her fist aside. How did I do that?
"Emy, stop!" Sara yelled "That wasn't Tegan"
"But you said…" She whined, turning to Sara and backing off of me.
"That wasn't THIS Tegan. There was a mix-up and they got switched. The other Tegan was…she was so mad that she couldn't be with you" she said, looking to Lindsey "that she took it out on me. She didn't know I was pregnant until that last day."
Sara chokes on her words, holding back the tears. I'm sending her all the love I can through my palm on her back.
"Thank god MY Tegan got back, or I'd be dead" she finally let the tears out, looking at me lovingly.
I closed my eyes and breathed, moving the hair off her face and cupping her cheek. We both took the moment of being in our own world before facing them. They looked shocked.
"I don't…I don't.." Lindsey rambled "Tegan…with me? But Sara, you were with me, when…"
I nod "Maybe here, but back in our world" I scrunched my face, this was so odd "we were together. Like for a long time. I had to like chase you and everything"
"But you two…weren't you together?" Lindsey asked.
Oh, this is the big one. I bit the side of my bottom lip.
"We were twin sisters" Sara said point blank.
Lindsey's face exploded in shock. Emy shook her head.
"No, no. I don't' know what the fuck you did to brainwash her Tegan, but this is SICK! This is sick I tell you. " Emy walked over to Sara and took her hands "Sara, listen to me. You can't let her do this to you anymore. Whatever she's made you believe is not true."
Sara laughed "Emy, it's okay really. She hasn't brainwashed me."
Sara looks over at me affectionately and we exchange looks as Emy's giving me the death glare. I can see Emy look back to Lindsey out of the corner of my eye, and suddenly Lindsey's looking angrily over at me too. No! She thinks that…
"I've never hurt Sara! I'll never hurt Sara! Fuck! How do you two not see that her and Dani are my life" I say point blank.
Emy turns to Sara "Sara, please come with me. Let me help you. You don't have to suffer anymore."
"Emy, really I'm fine. I'm not leaving Tegan" she replies, taking my hand.
Emy sighs and I look at Lindsey "Want me to prove it to you?"
Emy looks up at me quizzically as Lindsey nods.
"When you were 7, you had a dog named Jasper who ate one of your Barbie's heads, choked and died. You still blame yourself for his death. I bet you didn't tell THAT to me here, but you did in the other world" I tell her.
She looks shocked "Emy, they're telling the truth".
Sara turns to Emy "You weren't potty trained until you were 4" Sara mentions.
Emy's eyes go wide "How do you know that?"
"You told me. In the other world, we were married for 5 years" Sara tells her. She looks over at me "We were born twins, but we were mean to be lovers. I spent every day from the age of 13 wanting Tegan. I thought it would never happen, then one day it did. The next day, we wake up here, in this house, in this life. Then she was ripped from me" Sara snuggled back into me, hugging me "only to come back and save mine and Dani's lives. Tegan has done nothing but protect me since the beginning."
I lean down and kiss her head. Emy sighs and looks at Lindsey, shrugging "Okay."
We sat in silence for a bit, before Emy spoke up again "it actually makes a lot of sense."
I nod, giving Dani a little rub "I'm glad you guys know. It was hard keeping it from you."
"You were really sisters?" Lindsey asked.
"Phh-yea. Can you believe it?" Sara replied.
"So our Tegan and Sara are in your world?" Emy asks.
I gulp as Sara answers "Yeah." She's rubbing my forearm quickly, trying to drain my anxiety.
Emy and Lindsey sit with the new information for a bit. I look to Sara, needing some comfort and she wraps her arms tightly around my midsection, then kisses my cheek. I look back up at them.
"Kaki came to me last night and said that When the Lake changes states you know what's at stake" I told them "I don't know what it means, but I know this big bad is going to come after Dani.."
"No one's touching Dani" Lindsey immediately states.
"Yeah. We're not letting anyone near her guys" Emy adds in.
I nod "Thanks. I'm going to fight my best for this but honestly, we don't know what we're fighting. I'm really lost in all of this. I have no idea what to expect"
"Tegan, we'll take this step by step as it comes; as we've taken on everything in life" Sara reassures me.
I nod "So we've got you two on our side?" I ask.
"100%, Teegs" Lindsey assures me.
"Yeah. I'm in. By the way, sorry about the…" Emy apologizes.
I nod" it's alright. You were protecting Sara. I can hardly fault you for that."
"How did you? I mean you just swatted my punch away like it was a paper airplane. How did you do that?" Emy asks
"I don't know. Lately I've been…stronger." I tell them.
"In what ways?" Emy asks.
Sara answers for me by lifting my shirt to reveal my stomach. I see Emy and Lindsey's jaws drop.
"Holy shit, Tegan!" Lindsey exclaims "Is that real?"
I nod, and push my shirt down, blushing. "I've got all these instincts too. Like when that girl lunged at Sara, and when I had to fight off the other Tegan and…send her back. Hey, lets order a pizza?" I say Before kissing Sara's head then getting up and heading over to grab the phone.
"The usual?" I ask.
Everyone shrugs and nods and I start dialing as they have a conversation in the background.
"When the lake changes states, you know what's at stake. What does that mean?" Emy asks.
I see Lindsey bite the inside of her cheek as she thinks.
"Well, let's deconstruct it. Like a puzzle. So we have the lake, which I mean…" she points outside "is obvious. But states: what do they mean by states? What are the definitions of states?" Emy answers.
"Geographical" Emy pitches in.
"Maybe the pH level will change, that would be a change of states" Lindsey adds.
"We should test the pH of the lake, and map out its current geographical parameters. We'll need a baseline before we can assess whether or not either of those are changing.
I hang up the phone and catch the last bit "Wait! Water. When I was ripped from this world a few months ago, I'd fallen overboard. I woke up in the other world. The water transported me."
Emy looks at Lindsey and her eyes go wide with realization "What if the pH change is a pre-emptor to the portal opening? If the lake changes pH states, AND geographical states, then it could potentially erode the basin and take over the house, swallowing everyone up and transporting us to God knows where" Emy states in a panic "We need to keep an eye on this. Lets go get those baseline measurements." Emy turns to Lindsey "Lets go grab the tools. We can get pH strips at the pool store, and I can grab some measurement tools at the hardware store" Lindsey nods and turns to Me "We'll be back in an hour."
I nod and look at Sara, who was deep in thought. The front door closed as Lindsey and Emy left. I walked over to Sara and sat down "We have the best friends." She doesn't respond, and looks deep in thought "What are you thinking about?" I ask, rubbing her back.
She sighs but doesn't look up at me "I feel like it's simpler than that. These prophecy things are always simpler than the characters make them out to be. I have this feeling that we're overthinking it."
"Sara, this is real life. This isn't a novel, or a movie. Prophecies are super cryptic here" I explain.
"Maybe you're right. And well, it's all we've got right now" she said, defeated.
Taking a breath, I rubbed her belly. "How are you feeling?" I asked.
"Alright. My legs are still really sore, but the distraction is helping. I only wish it was a better distraction" is her answer.
I nod "I'm sorry, love. I know this pregnancy's been tough for you."
She nods "It'll be worth once she's here though. Tegan, we're gonna have a daughter. Like a person. We're gonna have another person. That's so scary to think about".
I smile "Yeah. But so wonderful. I can't wait to parent with you."
Sara smiles in return and I put my hand on the heating pad that's now cold "Babe, do you want me to heat this back up for you?" I ask.
She nods "Please?"
I smile and lean in for a sweet kiss before getting up, and bringing the heating pad to the microwave.
"Tegan, while you're up can you grab the jar of peanut butter?" She called out.
"On it. Oreos too?" I asked.
"Do we have some left?" she replies.
"Yes, because I hid them from you." I chuckle.
"Tegan Quin, you did no such thing!" she exclaimed.
"Sara Quin, I know how you are with cookies. You should be thanking me, because without me, you wouldn't have cookies right now." I reason, opening the cupboard I was hiding the cookies in. I can practically hear her sigh from the couch "When do your classes start?" I ask.
"Next week." She replies "They're start when you want, so I wanted to get started sooner rather than later. I bet I can finish my coursework before Dani's born" she challenges herself.
"I bet you can, Mrs. Speed Reader. I bet you finish two" I add in as the microwave beeps.
I grab the heating pad out of it, and snag the jar of peanut butter off the counter, heading over to Sara. I put the snacks down on the coffee table, then get behind her on the couch, putting the heating pad on her lower back, then wrapping my arms around her and kissing her neck.
"This is perfect" she moans, untwisting the jar of peanut butter.
"You're telling me" I mumble before burying my face in her back.
"You're super snuggly today now, arenchya?" she giggles, taking a bite of the cookie.
I nod in her back. I slowly pull my face out to whisper to her. "I'm so grateful for you and for the universe righting itself. I sometimes forget how close we've come time after time to not being together. For me to not be here, like this with you. The way I feel with you Sara, there are no words. I just feel…alive and happy. You bring me to life. Sometimes I forget that not everyone gets an experience like this in their lives. And I'm just…so thankful that's all" I finish, then bury my face back into her.
"I love when you get your sentimental moments. They come out of left field, and you always say the most beautiful things" she whispers back. I feel her reach around and grab my bum "And you have the sexiest ass."
I laugh. "I can always count on you to make some kind of ass remark."
She gives me a light smack and moans. I raise an eyebrow and slip my hand under the waistband of her maternity jeans and into her underwear. I hear her gasp and moan, so I continue, until my fingers find wetness.
"Tegan" she purrs.
I smile evilly and stroke her center. I use my free hand to lift her leg and drape it over my hips so that she's open. She moans louder, as I can access her clit now. My fingers find it and I'm rewarded with a hiss.
"That the spot?" I ask.
She chuckles and nods "You know very well that's the…"
I cut her off by entering her with two fingers. She pushes her face into the arm of the couch and wiggles her hips back into me. Oh yeah. That's the spot. I move in and take her earlobe into my mouth.
"You are so fucking sexy" I whisper as I curl my fingers up.
"Oh fuck!" she exclaims.
Sara reached back and takes hold of my ass again, grinding hers into my crotch as I work inside of her. I find that ridge deep inside, and run my fingers over it. I look down and see her toes curl. I can play this woman like a fiddle.