Chapter contains a homosexual incestual relationship and sexual content between two women. If you don't like it, don't read it.
Rating: M
Summary: What happens when she gets her wish and Tegan finds herself in an alternate reality where Sara is her girlfriend, and not her sister? Will be a LONG fic, updated often.
A/N: So, I couldn't stay away, and wanted to thank you for all of your reviews. WE HIT 200! Thank you to those who joined the chat. In case you don't know, the song in this one's All You've Got by Tegan and Sara from This Business of Art. Sara changes the lyrics slightly in her version to Tegan though. Read. Enjoy. Keep Reviewing!
Disclaimer: COMPLETELY FICTIONAL!
Chapter 32 – All You've Got
Sara's POV
I woke up to Dani crying over the baby monitor, yawned, unstuck myself from Tegan, and walked down the hallway like a zombie. I opened the door to her room and picked her up out of her crib. She's due for a feeding.
"Hey baby girl. Mama's got you. Are you hungry little one?" I ask and kiss her tiny face, putting her over my shoulder.
I feel her suck at the skin there, and I sit in the rocking chair, before easing her down to my chest. Those tiny baby hands land on my breast, and she latches on. I jump slightly, still not expecting the sensation. I close my eyes and use my free hand to rub her head. I can't believe she's two weeks old already. Then again, I can't believe it's only been two weeks. Thank god Mum and the gang finally moved out. They were driving me nutty. I think Dani was getting a little overwhelmed too. Now she gets Tegan and I all to herself. I smile when I think of Tegan with her. She's got my wife wrapped around her finger. It's the cutest thing in the world.
One more yawn and Dani's unlatching, making happy little grumbling noises and rubbing her eyes.
"Oh little Dan, you're too cute. How about a big burp for mama?"
I put her over my shoulder and pat her back, as she quickly burps up the gas in her system. I smile and feel her snuggle into me. It makes it so hard to put her down. It's odd not having her be a part of me anymore, not having her with me all the time. Soon my tiredness gets the best of me, and I have to put her back in her crib. With one last kiss goodnight, I lay her in her crib, and head back to bed.
I crawl under the blankets and lay right on top of Tegan, with my head on her chest. I feel her wake up and hug me, but quickly fall back asleep, as I join her.
A few hours later, I wake to Dani's cries again and immediately feel Tegan slowly roll me off of her, and get up. With a smile, I fall back asleep.
Tegan's POV
I knew this cry was for a diaper change and I wasted no time in getting to Dani's room. I picked my kid up out of her crib and brought her to the changing table, giving her a kiss and laying her down. I think she's starting to learn that if Sara and I have her, her needs will be met, because the moment either one of us picks her up, she stops crying. I make quick work of the diaper change and pull her back up to me. I go to lay her in the crib, but the moment I let go of her, she's crying.
"Aw, are you lonely peanut? Do you want some love?" I ask, pulling her back into my arms.
The crying stops and I yawn and rub my eyes. Taking a seat in the rocking chair, I laid her in my lap and make funny faces at her. I watch as her tiny Sara-shaped mouth smiles back at me. I giggle and her eyes stay locked on my face.
"Look at those eyes. Steal my heart why donchya?"
She smiled wider and hiccupped. Oh no. If there's one thing Dani doesn't like are the hiccups. I quickly pick her up and bring her to my body. She fusses, but doesn't full-out cry as I kiss her tiny head and gently rock her. When I feel her settle, I slowly lay her out on my forearm, her head in my palm, and grab a stuffed animal.
The stuffed duck has a very animated voice as I speak for it, and move it's head. Dani's fascinated and smiles at it. When I see her yawn, I put the duck down and bring her back to my chest. My baby girl sighs against me and I rub her back, singing to her softly. When I hear Dani's sleepy whimpers, I put her back in bed and head back to bed. I find myself tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep.
My feet carry me to the bathroom, where I drop my PJ bottoms. I turn the water on and step in under the warm stream. Once I get clean, I reach out and brace my tired body on an arm against the tiles. Yawning, I feel Sara's hand snake around me and her body press against my back.
"Can't sleep?" she asked.
I nodded and turned around, hugging her. I laid my head against her shoulder as my tired eyes closed. Two lazy hands ran up and down my back with the lightest touch. I let out a moan.
"My eyes burn so much I think I might cry" I tell her.
"Aww, babe. Maybe we should move her into our room" Sara whispers.
I shake my head "If we move her in now, we'll never move her out, and we'll never have sex again."
Sara chuckles and grabs the bottle of shampoo from over my shoulder, letting go of me to wash her hair.
"You know I'm good to go, right?" she asked.
"What do you mean?" I countered.
She chuckled and handed me the bottle, so I could put it back. I grabbed the soap and started to wash her as she rinsed her hair.
"I mean, I'm healed. Whoever did whatever to heal us, healed…"she sighed and tried to find a way to convey what she was trying to say.
I finished with her body and put the soap down, letting the water rinse away it's residue on her skin.
"I mean, my vagina isn't baby-sized anymore. I've been wondering why it wasn't sore. I remember it being like insanely tender the few hours after, but once you were healed it…felt normal. I was scared shitless to explore, but I did yesterday, and, well…" she took my hand and placed it at her entrance. "Tight and normal."
I looked up at her and gulped.
"You won't hurt me" she assures me.
I take a deep breath and enter her. Oh god that feels so good. She gasps and takes hold of my shoulder, getting to her tippy toes.
"See, it's all…" she tapers that off with a moan as I curl my fingers and she lays her head on my shoulder "healed."
I smile, and lift her up with my new strength. She wraps her legs around my midsection and I press her against the wall, hungrily kissing her as my fingers continue to move inside of her. I can feel her building. A shrill cry comes over the baby monitor. I sigh and put her back on her feet. Lips press against my cheek and I slowly pull out.
"I've got her, love. Try and get some sleep" she tells me.
I nod and turn off the shower. Sara grabs a towel and heads out, while I take some time to dry off. I make sure to inspect the new scars on my body. I'm so glad I don't have to deal with any of that healing and I can just be regular me again. I pull on a pair of Sara's boxers and one of my t-shirts and crawl into bed.
My eyes close, and I do my best, but sleep just won't come. I can hear Sara singing softly in the other room. I lay there with my eyes closed for an hour or so, just enjoying the calm until I can't lay here anymore. Walking into the kitchen, I see Sara at the table, eating some cereal with Dani in her baby chair in the middle of the table, facing her.
"Still can't sleep?" Sara asked
I shook my head "It's like, I know she's out here and she's up, and I don't want to miss something."
Sara chuckled and took a drink of orange juice as I poured a bowl of cereal and walked over, dropping a kiss on her head, then taking a seat and turning Dani to face me. I gave her tiny nose a kiss.
"Good morning munchkin. Did Mama give you breakfast? Did she fill that little tummy?" I coo at her in a high pitched voice and tickle her tummy, making her laugh.
"I swear that kid will suck me dry one day" Sara says.
"No worries about her appetite then" I mention, letting Dani take hold of my pinkie as I spoon some cereal into my mouth.
"I tried the pacifier again. She's super not into it. She'd rather suck my skin. She loves the breast though" Sara tells me.
"I love mama's boobies too" I whisper to Dani. "They're really good boobies."
I look over to see Sara smiling at me and I hold eye contact for a minute, before taking another bite of my breakfast.
"She wants me bad, Dani" I whisper to my daughter again.
Sara chuckles and leans over, running her hands up my thighs and coming in for a kiss.
"Oh, you know it" Sara says, kissing me gently.
I smile and give her another quick kiss, then look over and see Dani watching us, smiling, and kicking about. I give Sara one last kiss before she goes back to her spot. I sigh and look back at Dani.
"What do you say, Dani? Should we keep her?" Sara asks.
Dani smiles and kicks. I laugh and giver her tummy a rub.
"Good. Cause I'm not going anywhere" I tell my kid.
Sara takes the last bite of her breakfast and gets up. I keep eating as she puts her dishes away, then comes over and sits in my lap. She wraps her arms around my neck and gives me a kiss. I love moments like these. I smile into her eyes, my one hand still on Dani's tummy. I sigh happily as we break the kiss and Sara snuggles up to me.
"How did her umbilical wound look?" I ask.
"She's all healed up" Sara tells me.
I smile and nod, resting my head against Sara's.
"I still can't believe that we made her" I tell Sara.
"I know. She's perfect" Sara responds, kissing my cheek.
I watch the corners of Sara's lips turn upwards as she feeds me the last bite of my cereal, gives me a kiss, then gets up.
"I'm gonna put a load of laundry in" she tells me.
I nod and grab Dani from her chair, laying her head in my elbow and holding her close to me as I put my dishes in the sink. I go over and lay her on the floor, and look around at the toys littered about. I grab a pair of fabric keys and hand them to Dani who grabs them, and plays with them in her hand for a bit. We do this with an assortment of toys, until she starts to fuss.
"How about some skin time?" I ask
I take her jumper off, then slip her up under my shirt. She sucks on the skin on my chest and sighs. I sing to her softly and stand up, heading over to the kitchen and putting the dishes in the dishwasher.
This baby thing is easy. Why do people complain about it? I mean yeah, I'm tired but it's because I don't want to miss a minute with her. Then I think about it: I've got a great partner, we share the responsibility; neither one of us is working; we've only got the one kid; we've got lots of support; neither one of us is stressed about money or anything really; we've both been healed up; and Dani's a pretty happy baby. She really only cries when she needs or wants something. We've had no instances of colic, or prolonged fussiness. We've kind of got it made. I start to clean up the kitchen, wiping down the countertops, continuing the song and keeping a solid grip on Dani. I know Sara's gonna wanna deep clean today. She's been itching to but the others wouldn't let her while they were here. It's been driving her nutty.
She walks upstairs and smiles when I turn to face her.
"It's adorable when you do that" she says, walking over and kissing Dani's head on my shoulder. "I'm pretty sure she'd want to spend all day there if you let her."
"I've got no problem with that. What do you think champ?" I ask, kissing Dani.
She sucks on my shoulder in response. Sara must be making eye contact with her, because I feel Dani squirm and kick my tummy like she does when she's amused.
"Is mama making funny faces at you?" I ask.
I hear Sara giggle and she gives Dani another kiss, then gives me one.
"We should go buy a Christmas tree today. I'm gonna pull the decorations out of storage" Sara told me.
"Oh man, I almost forgot that's happening in like a week" I said, exasperated.
"It's okay babe, we've been preoccupied. Mum's taking care of most of it, I just want to decorate the house" Sara tells me.
I nod and lean in to give her a kiss. She inhales sharply against my lips and takes a handful of my shirt, pulling me to her.
"I'm gonna go get some homework done, but when she goes down again: interrupt me. I'll need a…study break" she whispers into my ear and lets go of my shirt.
I gulp as I watch her walk away, her ass swaying. She knows I'm watching it. I hear the door to her study close and I let the breath out and pat Dani's bum.
"You have the sexiest mama" I tell her. "Wanna finish cleaning the kitchen, peanut?"
I smile and start to deep clean the kitchen, singing as I go, and rocking Dani. I get to cleaning the stove, and Dani starts crying. I stop, walking over to the sink and washing the cleaner off my free hand. It's just vinegar, but I don't take any chances. I pull her out from under my shirt, rock her softly, and give her my full attention.
"What's wrong baby girl?" I ask, feeling her diaper. "You're dry, you're warm, you're getting lots of attention, no hiccups. Are you hungry?"
I give her a kiss and walk over to Sara's study. I knock, then open the door.
"I think someone's hungry." I tell her, walking over.
Sara takes off her glasses, and puts her pen down. I hand her Dani and she lifts her shirt. Dani starts to root, and latches on. Sara's expression every time she does is priceless. I think the sensation still startles her. I'm kind of jealous that Sara gets to bond with Dani like this. I walk over, behind Sara's chair and look down at my daughter. The feelings of jealousy go away when Dani's eyes make contact with mine. I smile and Sara leans up to kiss me on the cheek. I turn my head and give her lips to meet, instead of cheek.
"Are you ready for that surprise I promised you a long time ago?" she asks in a sexy voice.
I smile and feel myself start to moisten. I nod.
"Good, because I'm going to blow your mind" she growls at me, leaning in for another, more aggressive kiss.
I feel her run her lips over mine and I open my mouth, letting my tongue glide over hers. It's soft and warm, and makes me moan. I can feel her smile, and start to hand me Dani, who's done eating. She breaks the kiss, panting, and closes her books. I hold Dani's face between my thumb and forefinger and pat her back, waiting for the burp. Sara and I never break eye contact and it's making me quiver. What is she going to do to me?
"Put her down for a nap and meet me in the bedroom." She orders, leaving the room.
I gulp and Dani burps. I keep patting her back and I get a second burp, then a sigh from her. I cuddle her up to me and know she's already asleep. I get her back in pajamas, and put her down in her crib. I make sure the monitor's on and practically run into our bedroom.
I look around and see Sara seated on the bed, naked, wearing the feeldoe, and jacking herself off as she moans like a banshee. I feel my floodgates open as I walk over to her. She knows I'm here. I smile and approach slowly, seeing a sly grin on her face. Uh oh. She's got something up her sleeve.
When I finally get to the bed, I take my shirt off and climb on top of her, kissing her passionately. Her hands take my face and she kisses back with a fever. She moves her touch lower, taking hold of my breasts, as she runs her fingers over my nipples. I go to return the favour, but she shies away.
"No, Teegs, they're sore and crackly" she whimpers.
"Sorry" I apologize, blushing.
"It's okay babe, just kiss me" she tells me.
I nod and return to kissing her instead, running my hand lightly down her tummy, making her shiver. I feel her break the kiss and take control. Firm hands on my shoulders lift me off of her just high enough so she can escape from beneath me, than a firm hand on my back shoves me into the mattress. Holy fuck. What just happened? I feel the warmth of her skin and the drag of her breasts against my back, as I'm pressed deeper into the bed. I whimper and feel my pussy quiver, not knowing what to expect, but knowing it's going to feel amazing. Sara's hand lowers my shorts just beneath my ass, and she moves her lips right next to my ear.
"I've wanted to take you from behind for so long now: shove your torso into the bed and fill you up" she whispers, a hand dipping to trace my drooling slit.
I moan and squirm under her, parting my legs further. I feel her run the tip along me, like her finger once did and I buck back into her.
"Oh fuck, Sara" I moan into the air.
My head is spinning and I can smell her drooling cunt from here. This is turning her on. Not like I'm surprised. It's mutual. This is fucking sexy. I want her so badly right now. I feel my body shake in anticipation.
"Do you want me to fuck you, Tegan?" that husky voice tickles my ear.
"Fuck, please! Fuck me, Sara!" I call out.
I feel the tip rub against my clit and I jump. The hand is returned to my back to hold me down. Then, I feel her at my entrance, and I lift myself to my tippy toes. She takes hold of my hip with her free hand, and I'm about to lose it.
There's a POOF sound and Sara jumps back. I whimper at the loss, not having noticed the intrusion, until Sara is in front of me, shielding my body. I look up and see two wizard-looking men. My eyes go wide and I grab my shirt, pulling it on and pulling up my boxers. Now it's my turn to stand in front of Sara.
"Umm…what the hell?" I ask.
"Greetings Tegan Quin, The Great Warrior" the one says and extends a hand.
I gulp and reluctantly shake it. I feel Sara's hand on my lower back, letting me know that she's here.
"We are the Harborours from the Yanting Realm. We bring thanks for your service to the universe" they both bow.
"Ughh…okay" I say, scratching my head.
The second one turns to Sara "And you, Sara Quin, Keeper of The Warrior…"
Sara laughs and slings her arm around my shoulders "Ha! I'm your Keeper."
I give a half chuckle "My Gay-Keeper."
The two men bow "I am sorry we have mis-addressed you, sacred one. Sara Quin, Gay-Keeper of The Warrior we are forever grateful for your servitude as well."
Sara and I both lost it laughing. We fell into each other, leaning against each other for support as our laughter took over. I slowly composed myself to meet two very confused faces. I wiped away the tears.
"Oh, um…you're welcome" I tell them.
"Yeah. Me too" Sara adds in, still unable to contain her laughter.
She buries her face in my back, trying not to seem rude.
"Well, we are here to grant each of you one wish" one of them tells us.
I shrug "Okay. I wish for more wishes."
They whisper to each other, then turn back to me "I am sorry brave one, but that is one wish we cannot grant."
I sigh and look around "I really don't need a wish" I tell them.
And I didn't. I already have anything I could ever need or want. As I'm thinking, a face crosses my mind. It's the face of the woman Ivanov violated as me. I gulp, knowing that she will never be the same, and never be given the justice or closure of seeing her abuser punished. I look back at them.
"Actually I do. Kara Thompson. I wish to have her abuse at Ivonov's hands erased from history."
I feel Sara's hand move from my back to snake around me and give me a tiny hug. You liked that, eh love? The wizards nod in unison.
"It is done" they say in unison as well, then look at Sara.
Sara's thinking and I wish she'd hurry up, because my clit is twitching. I'm itching to feel her slip inside of me. I feel my body shudder, and she must notice my state, because I feel her hand slip under my t-shirt to rub my bare skin. My eyes close and I lean into her.
"I wish for the health of Lindsey and Emy's unborn child" Sara tells them.
Good one, love.
They bow and say in unison "It is done."
"Well, thank you umm…gentlemen?" Sara tells them
They nod "We appreciate your service, and we are sorry we interrupted your…coitus."
They bow and disappear. I waste no time, and quickly grab at Sara's boxers, lowering them and giving the toy a firm tug. She moans and our lips meet.
"What the fuck was that?" she asks between kisses.
"Don't know, don't care. I'm aching for you" I tell her.
She smiles against my lips and starts to kiss me. She's tugging at the hem of my shirt when the doorbell rings. I groan and whine, stomping my feet and throwing a little tantrum. Sara simply drops her head to my shoulder and exhales, pulling her boxers back up and walking into the kitchen. I take a moment to breathe through the frustration, and then follow.
She opens the door to Kaki, who's surrounded by a bunch of other women.
"Come on in" she says, defeated, and pulls Kaki aside.
I watch as she whispers to Kaki, and Kaki shrugs and says louder "I'm sorry, I tried to hold them off, but they heard that the Harborours from the Yanting Realm were coming and wanted to beat them to the punch. What were you guys even doing anyways?"
Sara gave her a look and Kaki gasped "I'm so sorry."
Sara sighed, letting it go as the group of women walked over to me, surrounding me. There were about 5 of them.
"The great Warrior, Tegan Quin. We honour you" they all knelt and I heard Sara chuckle.
I looked at Kaki, who was looking anywhere but me.
"We are the Fairies of the Universe's Will" the chorus rang out.
I looked at Kaki "So they're yours?"
She sighed and nodded "My sisters."
I laughed, looking at all the pint-sized fairies. Shorter than even Sara and I.
"Stand up, guys. Anyone want something to drink?" I asked
"I could go for a beer" Kaki said.
I saw Sara move to grab her one.
"We do not wish to impose on The Great Warrior and her Gay-Keeper" they said.
Kaki called out to me over them, with crossed arms "Word travels fast."
"How about I set you all up with a movie, so Sara and I can get something done?"
"Tegan!" Sara called out.
"What? I'm tired of being interrupted" I call out.
"Play nicely, or you won' get your surprise" she said.
I whined and stomped my feet again.
"I'll send you a video of that, so you can show her when she complains about Dani's tantrums" Kaki muttered to Sara as Sara handed her a beer.
Sara clinked her glass of water with Kaki's beer bottle and smiled.
"I heard that!" I said.
"We can give you the surprise" the fairies said.
"Wow. No. Don't even think about it" Kaki called out, as Sara walked over to me. Kaki turns to us "Mind reading."
I feel myself blush, knowing what they saw.
"Anyways…" Kaki continues "we came to give you our gift."
I was growing impatient and squeezed my thighs together, gently pulsing my hips, the tension unbearable. Sara must have felt the commotion, because her hand was stealthily cupping me behind her back, rubbing me through the borrowed boxers. I bit my lip to keep from moaning.
I'm faintly paying attention to Kaki talking in the background "Some of the Queen's listening dust. I thought it would be useful until Dani starts talking. All it takes is a pinch, blown over her, and you'll be able to hear her thoughts. But only the two of you."
My ears perk up at this, and I see Sara accept the bag.
"Wow, thanks. This is…fantastic. Every parent's dream. Right, hon?" Sara says, looking back at me.
"Yes. Thank you" I squeal, as Sara's hand is still rubbing me.
She stops and I exhale, putting my head on her shoulder.
"Well, we're gonna leave you two to umm…enjoy life. Thanks for entertaining us."
"Alright, thanks for the gift" Sara says.
The Fairies start to leave and Kaki turns back to us "I'm putting up a privacy shield. You've got 2 hours of no interruptions. I'll see you guys at Christmas."
"Thank you" I call out.
She laughs and the front door closes. Sara turns around and kisses me, dropping the bag to the floor, forgotten for the moment.
"Can you be any fucking hotter?" she asks "I could feel you squirm against me. I could smell your cum from a mile away. Fuck you're driving me crazy."
She hastily pulls my shirt over my head and kisses me hard. I break it to take her shirt off.
"You're going crazy?" I ask. I kiss her quickly "I'm a fucking puddle over here. A quivering mess, and you're just rubbing me through my shorts."
She smiles "You liked that eh?"
I nod and kiss her, fumbling with her boxers, until I grasp the toy in my hand and tug.
Sara gets impatient and backs me into the island, turning me around, and shoving me down into it like she had on the bed earlier. I can smell the cleaner I used on the countertop as she yanks down my boxers. I push my bum towards her.
"No foreplay. Just give it to me" I moan to her.
She abides and I gasp as she inserts herself into me. My mouth hangs agape as I feel the tingling sweetness of the shaft pushing through me bit by bit. I reach back for a hand to hold, and she takes hold of both of mine, placing them over my head on the counter, and continuing the push into me. I shudder and moan into the marble. My nipples are agonizingly hard against the cold rock. I feel Sara's own nipples drag over my back as she kisses up my spine. When she hits the very back of me, I feel a loud moan come from her. She lets go of my hands, and I instinctively hold onto the counter. My body lifts and her hands drag around my front to massage my breasts. I hiss at the sensation, my core tightening. Sara moans, feeling it along the shaft and into her g-spot. I push back, needing to feel her move inside of me. She gets the signal and slowly pulls out, causing my insides to drag along her. I drop my head onto the countertop and my back arches. My body is covered in pins and needles, every nerve stimulated. Her hands abandon my breasts and take hold of my hips, as she starts to push back in.
"Holy fuck Tegan! You feel amazing" she moans.
"Please don't stop" I tell her.
Her grip on my hips tightens and I spread my legs a little further, letting her hit me as deep as she can. She starts to move a little faster, creating friction. I feel my body respond instantly and my clit throbs. I feel the muscles in my back contract and flex, and I smile to myself knowing that this is giving Sara a good visual. She fucks me a little harder, I can feel her eyes locked on my back, and purposefully shift my shoulders to make the muscles ripple. I hear her moan through gritted teeth and I gasp as she picks up the pace.
"Oh fuck, Sara! My clit! My clit!" I call out.
She starts to slam in and out of me, with every thrust hitting that spot deep inside of me that no one knows better. Every drag out brings friction to my walls, making me tremble, but she now reaches around to run two fingers over my pulsing clit. My stomach shakes and the fire starts to build. I can feel my body start to sweat. I'm taking gasping breaths, and hearing loud grunt-moans from my wife, who's pounding me over the counter.
"Holy fucking shit Tegan" Sara calls out.
Her free hand grips hard at my hips, rocking them in to meet her thrusts. She's fucking me so deep and so hard.
"Please. Don't. Stop." I call out, with a pause between each word for a gasp.
My hands flail above my head, knocking some mail and a couple apples to the floor as each inhale is now a gasp. My whole body starts to shake and tighten.
"Tegan, I'm gonna…" she pants to me.
I feel my abs tighten further and my knees shake. I hold on for dear life.
"I am too" I call out.
I gasp and it hits me, rolling over my body in a cadence of warm waves, making my eyes roll back in my head, and my lungs gasp for air. Not moments later, I feel Sara collapse on top of me, taking my hands and shaking against my back. The contractions ripping through my system are so intense, I can't help but convulse and shiver. Sara recovers quicker, and I can feel her lips on my back. She moves my hair to the side and kisses my neck. I feel her slowly pull out and I jump as the toy clears my entrance. Sara's hands wrap around me and pull my limp body to her. I let my arms drape over her shoulder and around her neck, as she slowly drops her back down the side of the island. She holds me safely against her skin and kisses my temple, as my body continues to shake and tremble. Her bum hits the ground and I finally exhale, closing my eyes. I smile against her and feel her chuckle. We're a sweaty heap on the floor. I've got a full body high and am so incredibly relaxed.
"Totally worth the wait" she whispered to me, then kissed my forehead.
"You can do THAT whenever you want. I will NOT complain" I tell her, catching my breath.
She smiles and hugs me tighter.
"My tummy feels wonderful" I tell her.
She lifts one of my arms, and lets it drop, limp.
"Don't expect me to move anytime soon. I'm not even sure my legs work" I tell her.
"I wouldn't dream of asking such a thing. I'm guessing you liked that" she whispered.
I shook my head "No, not at all" I said sarcastically, while chuckling.
I sigh happily against her "Is this real life?" I ask.
"Yeah, and…" she pauses.
I feel her reach around the corner and open a drawer. I hear her clink around, then her hand comes back out to meet her other one. After some fumbling, she opens whatever it is she got out of the drawer. Something aromatic and sweet it pressed to my lips.
"Open" she instructs.
I obey, opening my mouth, but never opening my eyes. She places something in my mouth that melts and makes me smile. Chocolate.
"Fuck Sara. I' m already in love with you. You don't have to win me over" I remind her, chewing the chunk in my mouth.
"I just like seeing you happy" she tells me.
My heart melts and I open my eyes, kick off my boxers, and turn into her lap. I straddle her and lean in, giving her a chocolate flavoured kiss. My hands cup her face as she puts the wrapped bar on the floor, and runs her open palms along my hips, to my lower back. I break the kiss and sit down in her lap. I smile and take a pinch of the fairy dust, blowing it over her. I see her bite her lip and blush, but watch as her eyes soften. I start to hear Sara's voice, although her lips aren't moving. It's a song. There's a song running through her mind.
This is the time of my life…
Is the line I hear first, then she stops and thinks:
I'll start at the beginning for you.
Instead of thinking it though, she sings it out loud, running her hands up my back:
"Here the lights fall just as hard, a bit softer in the stall.
It's not really wrong, it's not really right,
I'm wide awake.
You're upfront, upshot, upstart,
Up in every case,
The kind of girl that whispers:
Thank God for you.
Well ooo yeah,
All I want is you
Oooo yeah,
And all I'll need is you.
And your confusion is in the night that I stumbled,
It's in the morning that I,
That I struggled,
Because I start to forget but, you will always remember,
The kind of girl who laughs and says:
Get up off your knees.
Ooo yeah,
All I'll need is you
Oooo yeah,
And all I'll want is you.
Ooo yeah,
All I'll need is you
Oooo yeah,
And all I'll want is you."
I smile and drop my head to her shoulder. She continues with the song and the backrub. This is what she thinks when she gives me that look. These are the thoughts that were going through her mind as my heart was melting for her.
"And so you come, and so you go
Tell me how hard, how fast, baby tell me how high I must go.
Tell me what you want, tell me what you need,
Tell me how hard, how fast, baby tell me how high I must go.
This is the time of my life,
This is the time of my life,
This is the time of my life,
This is the time of my life."
Her voice rings out the last note and I sigh, swooning.
"Sara…" I whisper.
"Boy am I happy I wasn't thinking about your ass for once" she jokes.
We chuckle and I put my hands on her chest, looking her in the eyes and sitting back on her thighs.
"I love you" I tell her, honestly.
"I love you too, Tegan. More than you'll ever know" she counters.
I smile "You know, that was my last thought before I died: that neither you, nor Dani would know how much I really loved you both."
Sara gave me a shining smile. It wasn't the big, gummy one she got when she thought something was funny, but the tight-lipped one she got when some kind of happy hit her at her deepest point. It was the same smile I saw on our daughter when she looked at me.
"Tegan, I know. I'm sure Dani does too. But, I know" she said, tilting her head to the side like a puppy and swiping my hair off my forehead with an outstretched finger.
She does know. I can see in her eyes that, this feeling that goes so deep that I don't understand it completely, she feels that from me. I know too. I can feel it radiating off of her. There's this moment of transparency that overcomes both of us. This knowingness is new. It feels wonderful. All I can do is seal our lips together, and run my hands along her shoulders as my lips glide over hers. When we pull apart, she hugs me to her tightly and we rest our heads on the other's shoulder. We sit like this until Dani starts to cry, awake from her nap. I sigh and pull back from Sara.
"I've got this one" I tell her, while my right hand breaks off a piece of chocolate.
I press the candy to her lips, and she opens to accept it, smiling. I push it in, then lean in and give her a peck before I get up, grab my boxers, and hop into them as I make my way down the hallway.
Sara's POV
I watch her pull my boxers up and disappear down the hallway. I sigh and lean my head back on the island, smiling and enjoying my chocolate. I fell like a 7th grader who just slow danced for the first time with the boy she has a crush on. I think I'll be 90 and Tegan will still make me feel this way. I close my eyes and slowly inhale, just enjoying the moment. Just like I enjoyed every moment of this life.