Chapter contains a homosexual incestual relationship and sexual content between two women. If you don't like it, don't read it.
Rating: M
Summary: What happens when she gets her wish and Tegan finds herself in an alternate reality where Sara is her girlfriend, and not her sister? Will be a LONG fic, updated often.
A/N: Yay! More fluff. Happy Holidays everyone. Enjoy your Christmas chapter, complete with so much cuteness it would make the Grumpy Cat giggle. Read. Enjoy. Review.
Disclaimer: COMPLETELY FICTIONAL!
Chapter 34- Tismas Time.
Tegan's POV
I woke up to Dani wailing. I groaned and kissed Sara, who's chest I was asleep on to let her know that I had her. I dragged myself out of bed and into Dani's room, heading to her crib.
Mommy! Mama! I'm wet and uncomfortable!
I picked her up and gave her a kiss. She stopped crying and I brought her over to the change table, laying her down.
"Okay baby girl, lets see how much poop you made for Mommy" I whisper to her as I take off her diaper. "Wow. Big one! Good job munchkin."
I get her clean and put a new diaper on, doing her PJs back up and picking her up.
"You still tired little one?" I ask.
Warm and comfy and….
I heard her sigh and smiled, putting her back in her crib. Easiest baby ever. I left her room and tiptoed back into ours, crawling back into bed and snuggling into Sara. She groaned, starting to wake up. I put my hand between her breasts and slowly pressed her back into the bed.
"Just a diaper change. She's asleep. Go back to bed, love" I whisper to her and give her a kiss.
Sara sighs, taking hold of me and turning me into the little spoon. I smiled and intertwined our fingers, placing our hands on my stomach as I felt her lips kiss my bare shoulder. I closed my eyes. I let out a tiny moan, then felt myself drift off in the safety of her arms.
I woke up and didn't feel Sara against me. I groaned and turned onto my back, immediately feeling her hand through my hair.
"Good morning, love" she whispered.
I opened my eyes to see her sitting up in bed, nursing Dani. I smiled.
"I didn't want you to wake up alone" she told me.
I smiled and rolled over, burying my face in her thigh. Her hand rubbed down my back and I smiled.
"You're the best" I said in a husky, crackly voice.
She leaned down and kissed the top of my head, enticing me to sit up and go for a real kiss. She smiled against my lips, and I mirrored her smile. We broke apart and I let my head rest on her shoulder, watching Dani. Dani made eye contact with me.
Mommy Ocean song.
"You and that song. Okay" I whispered to my daughter, running a hand over her head.
I started singing The Ocean softly. This kid loves this song. Dani finished eating as I finished the song and Sara pulled her up for a burp. I grabbed the nipple cream from the nightstand and started gently rubbing it into both of her nipples. I looked up and met her eyes, which were closed and she was moaning. I gulped and felt myself moisten.
"Mmmm Tegan" she moaned into the early morning.
"Yeah? That feel good baby?" I asked.
She nodded and I watched her hips buck. I looked up to see Dani drifting to sleep. I grabbed her from Sara and brought her back to her room to sleep. I closed the door to our room and kicked off my boxers, getting into bed, naked with Sara. She giggled and wrapped her arms around my neck, kissing me. I wrapped my legs around her hip and flipped so she was on top of me. I felt her grind herself down, into me. My body responded immediately as I soaked onto Sara's thigh.
"Fuck, Tegan. That's so sexy" she whispered into my ear.
I felt her tongue in my ear and it made my whole body shiver. My body kicked into overdrive and I ran my hands down her back, right under the waistband of her boxers to squeeze her ass. I pulled her crotch deeper into me and moaned when I felt her pubic bone against my clit. Her hands took hold of my breasts and I couldn't help but arch my back. I felt lips kiss down my stomach and clued into what was about to happen. My eyes rolled back in my head and I tangled my fingers in Sara's hair.
"Oh, fuck Sara. Please" I begged.
I felt her tongue lick up my folds, and jumped as it went over my clit. I took in a gasping breath as she did it again.
"Oh baby you taste so good right now" she moaned.
I spread my legs wider to accommodate her and she happily hooked her hands on both of my thighs, diving in to focus on my clit, running her hot, wet, strong tongue over my most sensitive area. I felt myself pour out and my body tighten. She moved a hand to my stomach, holding me down. I took a firm hold on the sheets and rolled my hips into her eager mouth, feeling two of her fingers press against my entrance. I let out a whimper, needing her inside of me so badly. She stopped with her tongue for a moment and looked up at me.
"Please don't stop, Sara" I beg.
"Do you want me inside of you?" she asks.
I nod and feel her tongue back on me, making me arch again, but this time she pushes two fingers into me and I gasp and moan at the same time. It's the sweetest sensation. I feel her push against my walls, deeper into me. I squirm under her and breathe heavily. She curls her fingers to meet my g-spot and I cry out, getting lost in the sensations. I feel her suck my clit into her mouth as her fingers work inside of me.
"Baby I'm so close. Oh fuck. Oh fucking fuck" I call out.
I feel her move a bit faster, fucking me with hooked fingers, and rolling my clit in her mouth. I squeezed my whole body and felt myself teetering on the edge of the cliff. Sara changed strategies and aimed for that place deep inside of me, finding it on the first try and sending me over the edge. The first few shockwaves clued her into what was happening and she climbed my body, wrapping her free arm around me and kissing me deeply. I let the warmed waved roll over me and held her tightly against me. I buried my face in her neck, my body out of my control as the orgasm took me over. I moaned loudly into her and she never let up, moving those fingers deep inside of me, keeping me going.
"Does that feel good baby? Do you like it when I fuck your pussy like this?" Sara whispered to me.
Fuck yes, dirty talk. Holy shit Sara. All I can do is nod against her.
"I can feel your cunt squeeze me, pulling me deeper" she whispered.
I moaned loudly and bucked my hips, my body still responding to her touch. She picked up the pace and I felt the intensity skyrocket. I bucked and thrashed, moaning like a banshee. But then I hit this point, were it teetered on the edge of too much.
"Stop!" I called out.
Sara stopped immediately, and I hugged her tight, my body finally winding down as I tried to catch my breath. I felt Sara gently pull out and hold me tight. She gave me a few moments to recuperate.
"Babe, are you okay?" she asked.
I nodded "It just got too intense."
She nodded back and kissed my head, hugging me as I moaned, the aftershocks still in my body. I finally fell limp and spent into the embrace and she kissed all over my face.
"You" she kissed my cheek "are" she kissed my temple "so" she kissed my forehead "sexy."
I smiled and nuzzled my head into her. I let out a happy little sigh as I felt her tangle her legs in mine and wind some of my hair around her finger.
"Cloud Nine" I whispered.
Sara just tangled us into each other more. I took in a breath that filled my lungs with all things Sara. I felt the butterflies and smiled. These moments are perfect. I want to spend my life in these moments with her. I slowly lifted my head and connected our lips, pouring my soul into her. I felt her moan into my mouth and I hugged her close to me, my hands running slowly down the skin of her back as we both hung our jaws opened and shuddered at the sensation.
I looked up and met her eyes. Holding the gaze, one hand circled the side of her hip, around to between up and rubbed up along her slit. She moaned, never breaking eyes contact. I leaned in and kissed her again, taking us to that place of utter connection. I took in another inhale and felt the tears spill down my face. She reached up and wiped them away, breaking the kiss and locking her gaze on me as I slowly entered her. I watched as she bit her bottom lip and let out a tiny grunt.
"I love you" she whispered.
"I know, I can feel it. Can you feel me?' I asked
She nodded and hugged me tightly to her, pushing her face into my shoulder as I found Sara's special spot deep inside of her. Her hips rolled into me and I gasped at my emotion to making love to her. I felt hands through my hair as she pulled me in for another kiss. My fingers started to move inside of her and I felt her face scrunch in response. I kiss her slowly, making all my movements match the rhythm of the kiss. My breath came heavy and laboured. Sara's body was responding to mine as it always does: her heart was racing, I could feel it in the pulse inside of her, and her beating clit against my palm. Her walls were warm and slick, gripping me with every movement, sucking me in. Her body want me there. She wants me there. Sara. Even just the idea of her gives me chills. I open my eyes and she's looking at me again. Tears now cover her face and I kiss each one as it falls.
"Do you want me to stop?" I ask in a hushed tone.
She shakes her head "No. Just stay close. Please keep kissing me. I need to feel all of you" she asked of me.
I nod and comply, leaning in to run my lips over hers again, to taste Sara. Just then, the phone rang. Sara groaned.
"You should get that, it's probably about today" she told me.
I nodded and started to pull out, but felt her hand on my forearm
"No, keep going" she asked of me.
I smiled and she nodded with an equal smile on her face. I pushed back into her and she threw her head back. I picked up the phone as she stifled a moan.
"Hello?" I said, thrusting into Sara gently and slowly, feeling her walls swell and accept me.
"Hi honey" I heard my mum say on the other line.
"Mum! How are you? Sara and I were just getting up" I told my mum, feeling Sara pull me close again and bury her face into my neck.
"How do you manage to sleep in this late with a newborn? Are you drugging the child?" She asked.
"No, she's just…easy I guess. You ready for Christmas today?" I asked.
Sara let out a high pitched cry, and bit into my shoulder, as I continued to move in and out of her agonizingly slowly.
"About that, Tegan: I've got the flu. Dallas and Leah called and they've come down with it too. We really don't want to get Dani sick" Mum told me.
"Are you okay? Do you need us to bring you anything?" I asked.
"No, no, I'm fine, I just want to stay away from the baby. It looks like it'll just be you, Sara, Dani, Emy, Lindsey and Kaki though" Mum told me. "I'm so sorry honey."
"It's okay Mum, just get some rest and feel better. We'll celebrate another time" I tell her.
"Thanks honey. Merry Christmas. I'll call you later" Mum told me.
"Okay Mum, bye."
I hung up the phone then crushed Sara's lips with mine. She rolled me on top of her and wrapped her legs around my midsection. We both giggled, but hers quickly turned into a moan as her back arched and I found that spot again. I kissed up her neck, rolling my tongue over the veins and tendons, before meeting her lips again. I could feel the tension in her body escalating quickly. The way she feels, it fills me up with happiness. I curl my fingers, bringing a different sensation to the table, and she clings to me, moaning deeply. I squeeze my eyes tightly. It feels so good to be with her like this, it almost hurts. My entire chest swells and comes alive with the butterflies that she brings. We share the air between us, both breathing I shakily.
I open my eyes at the same time that she opens hers. I see constellations in her eyes the sky can only fathom. I see depths the sea would be jealous of. I see warmth that a fire could never attain. I see love that every soul is wishing for, only mine has it. I have her. I'm the only one on this planet who has her. With that, I hear one last gasp as she squeezes me tightly and erupts around me, her body vibrating in pure ecstasy as her eyes roll back. I kiss her quickly and let her hold me as tightly as she wishes. She whimpers into the night one word.
"Tegan" trembles off her lips.
"I love you Sara" is my response.
She slowly comes down, and sinks into the bed. When I feel her slump, I lay next to her and pull her to my chest, running my fingers through her hair and kissing her forehead.
"I think I'd forgotten how amazing it is to go slow and make love to you" I tell her.
She slowly looks up at me and gives me a gentle, soft kiss.
"I'll never forget how that feels. Never" she responds in a whisper.
She kisses the skin between my breasts as a tiny cry permeates the air. She looks up at me and smiles. Our creation. We both quickly get up and pull on boxers and t-shirts, heading into Dani's room hand in hand. We get to her crib and Sara leans over, picking her up.
Mommy. Mama. I want snuggles. Bed is lonely. I don't feel good.
I feel my heart melt and Sara holds her close, giving me a worried look. She mouths "thermometer" to me and I nod, running off, and quickly coming back with the baby thermometer. Sara's got her hand on the back of Dani's little neck and is whispering to her.
"It's okay baby girl, mama's got you. Mommy's right here too. You're okay" she finishes as I move around behind her, to where Dani is resting on her shoulder.
I run my hand over Dani's little head and can feel the heat. I press the forehead thermometer against her head, and it beeps. I look at it and nod.
"101" I tell her. "I'm gonna give Emy a call."
Sara nods.
Mama, I'm cold. My tummy hurts.
I felt my heart break, as I walked out the bedroom door to grab my phone. I walked back in, the phone ringing. Sara now had Dani on her back, laying against Sara's forearm as Sara rubbed her tummy. She looked over at me with that worried face. I walked over and rubbed her back as I talked to Emy.
"She probably got the flu. It's been going around" Emy tells me.
"Yeah. Mum, Dallas, and Leah all have it" I tell her.
"Pay attention to her behaviour. If she refuses to eat or starts acting really odd, or if she hits 103 then get her to the ER and call me, but she should be okay" Emy tells me.
"Thanks Emy. I'm guessing we're cancelling Christmas though. I wouldn't want Lindsey to get sick" I tell her.
"Yeah, that's probably for the best. Merry Christmas. Keep me updated you guys."
"We will, thanks Emy" I tell her.
"Bye." Emy hung up.
I hung up and ran my hands up and down Sara's shoulders.
"Looks like a Christmas on our own. Just the Quins" I tell her.
She nods and leans back into me.
Mama, I don't feel good.
"I know baby girl, I know" Sara tells her, pulling her back up to her shoulder and hugging her.
Dani vomited down her back and Sara just rubbed Dani's back as she cried. I took the crying baby from Sara and held her, kissing her forehead as she cried.
"I'm gonna go change" Sara said.
I nodded and grabbed a receiving blanket from the dresser, putting it over my shoulder, and walking Dani into the living room.
Mommy, I don't yike this. It hurts.
My heart shattered and I hugged her closer, resting my cheek on her head.
"Oh baby, I wish I could help. Do you want a tummy rub?"
Mmhmm.
She whimpered as I sat down on the couch, bending my knees and laying her against my thighs. I lifted her shirt and pressed my palm against her skin, rubbing her tummy. I watched her eyes close and blink open.
"Dani, go to sleep. It'll help. Mama and I will be here when you wake up, I promise. You can hang on us all day if you want" I tell her.
I ran my thumb over her tiny forehead and her eyes closed.
Okay Mommy.
I watched her as she fell asleep. I kept rubbing her tummy and her forehead. Sara came back in the room and dropped a kiss on top of my head.
"I'll make us some breakfast" she told me.
I smiled "Thanks. Way to take the baby puke like a champ, by the way hon."
She beamed a smile "Mother of the year, right here."
I chuckled and Dani sighed in her sleep. Sara moved to the kitchen, and I listened as she got breakfast ready. I kept a watchful eye on my baby girl and sang her favourite song to her softly. My eyes slowly wandered to the Christmas tree. This is Dani's first Christmas. I watched her sleep soundly in my lap. I finished the song and sighed. I love her so much. How could I ever love anything or anyone more than this? I hate that she's sick. A solid 20 minutes later, Sara came by and handed me the baby sling.
"I know you don't want to let her go, but you've gotta eat, love" she whispered into my ear.
Sara rubbed down my chest and kissed my cheek.
"Strawberry stuffed French Toast is on the table" she whispered.
She gave my chest a pat, then got up and walked to the table. That sounds so good. I put the sling on and gently positioned Dani in it so that she was snug against my chest. I got up and headed to the table, feeling her breathing against me. I sat down and Sara smiled at me, reaching over the table to feed me a forkful of her French toast. I gladly accepted it and moaned as it hit my tongue.
"Oh my god, babe. Where did you learn how to make this?" I asked, chewing.
"Television" she said in her sly voice.
I smiled at her and patted Dani's bum, tucking into my breakfast. Sara was looking out the patio door longingly.
"What's up, honey?" I asked.
"Nothing, just thinking about the fun we're gonna have out there when Dani gets older" she tells me.
"Think we'll have a hockey player or a figure skater?" I asked, looking down at our dozing daughter.
"Maybe. She'll have one heck of a playground though" Sara said.
My wife all of a sudden became distraught.
"Sara, what's wrong?"
"I was just thinking about how amazing growing up with you was. I mean ya, at times you tortured me and we fought well…like an old married couple. But I always had a buddy with me. I always had a playmate. Dani won't have that. What do we know about raising an only child, when we've spent at most 6 months apart our entire lives? I just…I don't want her to miss out on having a childhood like ours" She told me, shrugging.
I thought about that for a moment. She was right. Would Dani be lonely? Then a thought occurred to me.
"You know, it's about time Emy and Lindsey move out of that apartment. You know, they've got a little one on the way and will need more space. Emy's always talked about wanting to move up here and open her own practice" I suggested.
"Tegan, you're a genius!" Sara's face lit up.
"Well, we've got all these houses. We might as well. Can you think of better neighbours?" I asked.
Sara shook her head "Lets give them two houses. Emy can use one as a practice" She suggested.
I smiled and nodded.
"See, problem solved!" I exclaimed.
We continued with breakfast until Dani woke up and I passed her over to Sara for a feeding.
We hung out like this for most of the day, just lounging around, taking care of Dani. We watched some Christmas movies and snacked all day. After dinner, Dani's fever had come down a bit and Sara and I had decided to bring her into the shower to help ease some of her discomfort.
Sara stripped Dani down as I ditched my clothes, then she handed her to me.
Mommy, what's happening?
"Don't worry champ, we're gonna take a shower. It's gonna feel nice and cool and get rid of the yuck feeling from being sick" I whisper to her as Sara undresses.
Mama?
"I'm coming in too Dani. Don't worry. We're both here" Sara sooths her.
Dani lays her head back down on my shoulder as I turn on the water, and let it run until the thermometer reads a temperature cool enough for Dani. I step in, holding her close to my chest. The spray hits my back and cascades down to her. Sara's hand is on my back as I wait for Dani's reaction.
She laughed. Not just in our heads, but out loud. My face lit up and I turned to Sara as Dani splashed in the water on my chest. We quickly got her clean and let her play for a bit longer.
I yike showers. Mommy's skin is nice. I'm Naaaaaakeeeee.
I laughed so loudly as Dani's happy little voice ran a million miles an hour in my head. Sara was snorting behind me, hiding her face in my shoulder as our daughter just kept on going.
We're nakee in the showa! Nakeee in the showa. Tismas time. Nakeee in the showaa.
Is she…singing?
"Please remember this so we write it down when we get out. Her first song" I laughed at Sara.
"She's going to kill us when she gets older. Plus, this is totally going to get added to stage banter" Sara tells me.
Nakeee in the showa. Mommy and Mama. Tismas time.
I turned back to Dani and kissed her forehead.
"That's a really nice song, munchkin. It's time to get out though. I'm gonna hand you to Mama so I can dry off then get you warm and dry" I tell her.
Nakeee in the showa.
I shake my head, still laughing as I hand her to Sara. I start drying off as Sara joins her by singing the song out loud. As I dry off, I add in some harmonies and hear Dani laugh from my partner's arms in the shower. Once I'm dry, I grab a super soft towel and open it up.
"Alright. Time to get dry and warm" I call out.
The song ends and I open the shower door. Sara hands me Dani.
Mommy do you like my song?
"I love your song little one. It's gonna be stuck in my head now" I tell her, taking her from Sara and drying off her tiny body, then wrapping her in the towel.
Mama, I'm hungry.
"Alright little Dan. Just let me dry off and Mommy's gonna get you dressed. Then we'll fill your tummy" Sara responds
Otay.
I smile and bring her into her room, putting her down on the changing table.
Nakeee in my oom. Nakee in my oom.
I laugh and rub her down with baby lotion, making sure her skin doesn't dry out.
Tismas time. Mommy and Mama. Nakee in my oom.
"I think you just might get that Proclaimers song out of your Mama's head if you keep singing that" I inform her. "Lets get you all snug and ready for bed."
I get her into some PJs and pick her back up as Sara came back in. I handed her off and gave Sara a peck on the lips.
"Alright little one, mama's here" she told Dani, not having bothered to put a shirt on.
Sara held Dani to her chest and Dani latched on, sighing happily. I walked into our room and pulled on some PJ bottoms, opting to go bare chested too. I walked back out and heard the fireplace on in the living room. I headed out there to see Sara seated on the ground, by the fire, feeding Dani. I smiled and walked over to the kitchen, making us each a hot cocoa. I brough them over to her, and handed her one, slipping in behind her and resting my back on the couch. Sara leaned into me and sighed.
"Thanks for the cocoa" she told me with a kiss.
"My pleasure. Merry Christmas, Sara" I whispered into her ear.
"Merry Christmas, Tegan" she whispered back.
We both looked down at Dani.
"Merry Christmas little Dani" I told her.
"We love you very, very, very, very, very much" Sara added.
Tismas Time. Mommy and Mama.