As soon as I pulled back, my eyes grew wide and my stomach turned.
"Phil, I-" My words seemed panicky and I had the strange urge to run as far as I could away from there, but I couldn't. Not this time. Instead I sat on the bed, my eyes wide as I stared at Phil's features, trying to find the words to say. His face was blank for only a few seconds before his lips turned upwards into a smile. I was still slightly unsure but Phil's smile calmed my nerves slightly. Phil looked down at the floor before looking back at me.
"You have no clue how long I've been waiting to do that." Phil laughed softly, causing me to follow suit. "I've literally had the biggest crush on you since forever." I laughed slightly, my nerves almost completely gone.
"So you didn't mind then?" Phil laughed a booming laugh, his eyebrow rising. "What?" Phil laughed again and shook his head.
"Dan, you mean that you seriously didn't realize that I like you?" I shook my head, looking down and biting my lip slightly. I had never had any of these types of talks and it was kind of both nerve-wracking and extremely exciting all at once. Phil laughed again, when I looked up again he had a smirk on his face. "Well just in case you were wondering, most friends don't act like that. Especially men." He laughed and grabbed my hand from across the bed. "So we're cool then? You're not going to go run off or anything right?" I shook my head and squeezed his hand to show that I wasn't going anywhere. Phil smiled at the small gesture and pulled me into him. We sat there, me lying in Phil's arm, sitting in silence. "You know if I had known that all it would have taken was for me to break up with Melissa and we could have been here like this even earlier, I would have broken up with her the minute I saw you here!" I looked up at Phil and shook my head, that wasn't why I had originally kissed him, but I let him think that anyways. "How's your hangover?" Phil asked after a couple of minutes of silence.
"It's good I guess, I've seen people have worse so you know." Phil nodded and laid his head down on my head. We sat in silence again as I felt Phil's body going up and down as he breathed. I couldn't help but try to match my breathing with his, closing my eyes to take in the moment. I don't remember when, but during the time that I had been sitting there breathing in and out with Phil I had apparently fallen asleep.
I woke up a couple of hours later to Phil's deep breathing beside me, meaning that he was still asleep. I let myself live in the moment of having Phil beside me, happy and smiling. It felt right to just be here with the one person that I cared most about. I felt my arms tingle with pins and needles, and decided that I needed to move. I looked up at Phil without moving my head and saw that he was still sleeping, so I tried to wiggle out from under his arm without waking him. I smiled as I stood up to make sure that Phil hadn't woken up. Only when I was absolutely positive that Phil was still sound asleep did I grab my room key and went to the bathroom. Along the way I met all of my friends' parents as they left for the break. It took me longer than I thought it would to head to the bathroom and back and by the time that I got back Phil had woken up as was sitting on the bed, waiting.
"Where did you go?" Phil asked innocently as he rubbed the sleep out of his eyes. I smiled goofily, staring at the boy sitting on my bed. Without answering his question, I sat down basically on top of him and tackled him to the bed, pressing kisses everywhere on his face before finally pressing a light kiss onto his lips. I let my eyes fluttered closed as our lips met and could feel Phil smiling into it. When I pulled back, Phil's eyes were still closed, but he had a goofy, happy smile on his face. "Well that was interesting." Phil laughed, opening his eyes and sitting up. "I like this new development in our relationship." Phil laughed again before kissing me lightly. "Hey are you hungry?" I looked at the clock, surprised to see that it was already after noon. I nodded even though my stomach wasn't growling, but at this point I just wanted to go anywhere with Phil. "Well get changed you bum." I laughed, looking down at my clothes to see that I was still in my pajamas. As I went through my wardrobe, I felt Phil come around and wrap his arms around my waist and place his head on my shoulder. I smiled despite myself and continued to rummage through my drawer. After I found a pair of pants and a clean shirt, I started to look for some socks. Phil started humming into my neck, swaying me slightly. As I searched, I heard something drop out of a pair of socks. My eyes grew wide as I knew exactly what it was that had dropped. Phil saw it at the same time as me and sighed. I picked up my very last razor and stared at it lying flat in my hand. The sun glinted off the metal as I stared, making my stomach flutter slightly with nerves. The razor felt as if it was burning my hand, as if just holding it in my hand was making it dig deep into my hand. I hadn't cut it so long that the razor brought make memories that I didn't want to feel. The feeling of blinding pain and blood dripping down my arm. Sheer physical pain removing the emotional pain that I had felt at the time. Phil didn't say anything as I stared at the razor in both sheer terror and sheer fascination.
I sighed, finally walking over to the garbage and dropped the razor into it. I turned around to see Phil staring at me with a worried face.
"I swear Phil I haven't since I made you that promise, no matter how much I wanted to, I never did. I swear." My voice was pleading as Phil stood across from me.
"Dan, it's okay. I understand. I would have understood even if you had, I haven't really been here for you so I would have understood." I sighed, moving closer to Phil and wrapping my arms around his waist. I smiled and kissed him again softly, knowing then that I had found the most perfect boy. "I'm so proud of you." Phil whispered before walking away to slip his shoes on. I smiled even wider as I changed. After slipping on my shoes and grabbing both my phone and my wallet, Phil and I left my dorm. We walked in silence at first, just taking advantage of the short time to get our thoughts in order. It was easier to think outside in the fresh air where there were other people than cooped up inside my room with Phil and Phil only.
"So where are we going for lunch?" I asked Phil as my stomach rumbled slightly. Phil shrugged.
"Doesn't matter to me. How about the diner that we went to that one time?" I nodded, smiling and started to head off in the direction. As we walked I watched the people around me. There were parents with their kids at the park trying to make the most of the weather, the kids were smiling and laughing as they ran around. Another couple feet there was two girls carrying loads of shopping bags, talking and laughing as the walked to the next store. Next we saw new parents, pushing their baby in the stroller, their smiles beaming. There was a couple sitting on a park bench, the girl resting her head on his shoulder, the love evident in their eyes. As we walked I noticed the signs of life going on around me. There were people both happy and miserable everywhere, some enjoying the day and some not so much. It was a nice refresher to be on the side that was enjoying it as I looked towards Phil, the smile still on my face. "What's the matter with you?" I didn't say anything instead shaking my head. As the restaurant came into view, my stomach growled loudly, making me place my hands over my stomach to attempt to quiet it. Phil laughed before raising one eyebrow. "Race you!" Phil started to run towards the restaurant and I just laughed.
"Phil!" I yelled continuing my walking pace. "I can't run! I'm hung-over!" I yelled after him, but Phil continued to run until he touched the door, raising his arms in triumph. I was standing beside him within ten seconds, pushing him slightly.
"Dan you can barely run at all, you're so out of shape." I laughed and pushed him lightly, teasing.
"How do you know? I could have gotten fit these past couple months." Phil raised an eyebrow and pursed his lips. "Fine, you're right." Phil nodded his head like he knew it all along and walked into the restaurant. The diner looked busy as we stood waiting for someone to come and seat us. Finally, the hostess came back looking flustered.
"Hello, table for two?" She said, attempting a smile that she probably hoped would be convincing. We both nodded so she grabbed two menus off the stand and turned around to face us again. "Okay right this way." We followed her through the busy restaurant as she weaved in and out of the tables until finally we came up to a table tucked away in the far corner. She smiled, handed us our menus and walked off to go and serve another table.
"I have a feeling we're going to be here for a while." I said as I opened the menu to decide what I wanted.
"That's okay, I don't mind." I looked up at Phil just to find that he was staring at me, a light smile on his face. I smile, biting my lip slightly and looked back down at the menu. I could feel my cheeks up slightly when I looked back up and Phil and I locked eyes yet again. Finally, I forced myself to keep my eyes glued to the menu until I knew exactly what I wanted. When I finally decided on just a plain burger, I put my menu down and clasped my hands together. "So what are you going to get then?" Phil asked as he put his menu down.
"A good old burger, you?" I said attempting to mimic the accent of an American.
"The lasagna and that was terrible by the way." Phil said, sticking his tongue out slightly.
"Oh ya, let me see you try." I raised one eyebrow as if challenging him.
"Fine," Phil smiled at me as if he had been practicing for an American accent challenge all his life before nodding and opening his mouth, "Soda, sidewalk, twitter." I shook my head, laughing.
"Those were just different words! That didn't even make sense!" I complained, shaking my head again.
"Just admit it, you're jealous because I won." I laughed loudly, causing Phil to laugh and my head to hurt. "Oh my god, I'm literally so thirsty." I complained as I finished my glass of water within record time.
"Well that would be your liver trying to recover from the alcohol that you consumed yesterday. Yet another side effect." I sighed.
"If I knew it was going to be this bad, I never would have drank!" I whined, sipping my straw even though there was nothing in there. Phil shook his head, his mouth twisting into a small smile as he slid his water over to me.
"Drink, you'll need it because who knows how long our waitress is going to take." I mumbled a small thank you at Phil before starting to drink. As I sucked on the straw, I looked at Phil, who was looking around the restaurant watching people eat and converse. I smiled with the straw still in my mouth, surprised with how my day had turned out. Never would I think that I would wake up this morning to Phil getting me breakfast or finally kissing Phil after all this time. Yesterday I thought that I would never see him again, but yet here we are eating lunch after just having had a conversation about our feelings. Phil looked back over at me, his eyebrows furrowing. "What are you smiling about?" I shrugged and finished the last bit of my water.
"Just recent events that's all." Phil nodded, smiling before reaching his hand over the table to touch mine lightly. At the feeling of his touch, my hand heated up, how cliché. We were still touching, having a type of staring match when our Waitress finally came back with more water and a note pad to take our orders.
"Sorry about the wait, it's pretty busy in here." She smiled and you would never know how crazy the restaurant was at that exact moment, her face looking for calm and collected. "So what can we get you?" I allowed Phil to order first before reciting my order. Our waitress filled up both glasses of water before smiling one last time and heading off to the kitchen. I moaned slightly as I took my original glass and starting on it again.
"Okay so how have your classes been?" Phil asked before taking a sip of his own water. I shrugged, finally pushing my water away from me now feeling like I was going to explode.
"Charlie's been forcing me to go to class and do my homework. Law is definitely not for me." Phil cocked his head and furrowed his eyebrows, obviously confused as to why I would do law then. " I thought it would make me look smart to take law in Uni." Phil nodded as he understood and then laughed. "What?" I asked. Phil just shook his head and continued to laugh. I stared at him as he laughed, relishing in the way his tongue stuck out when he laughed. "Oh whatever." I said as I took another sip of my water.
"Speaking of Charlie, he's not that much of a prat. He seems like a nice guy." Phil said, his eyebrows rose slightly, "Last time we talked about him, you made he out to be such a prat!" I shrugged slightly.
"Well after a while, I kind of went down hill and one day he just kind of helped me out and after that we became friends I guess." I shrugged again before sticking the straw in my mouth. Phil nodded his head and smiled slightly.
"Well either way, I have to say thank you considering it was my fault." I shook my head no, but didn't want to start arguing about anything so just left it as it was. We sat in silence for a minute, looking around the room and waiting for our food. "Oh my god, I'm starving!" Phil said as our waitress came back with our food 10 minutes later, placing in front of both of us. "Thank you so much." He smiled at the waitress before picking up his fork and digging in to his lasagna. I picked up a fry and tossed it into my mouth, my stomach gurgling with hunger that I didn't realize that I had. We ate in silence for a minute or two, allowing ourselves to digest the food before Phil announced that he had to go to the bathroom. He got up and left me alone at the booth, while I continued to nibble at my burger. Phil had only been gone for about 30 seconds when I heard the voice behind me.
"Dan, how are you today?" I turned around to see the last person that I wanted to see coming up behind me; Adam. "So are you here on a hot date then?" Adam's voice was joking, but I could hear something underneath it. I didn't answer him, instead looking at the table, tracing an outline of the wood with my finger. Adam sighed before sliding into the booth across from me. "Look, I'm sorry about last night. I didn't mean what I said, hell I barely remember what I said. All I know is that I was wrong and I'm sorry." I didn't answer nor did I bother to look up, that was until I heard a cough behind him. I looked up to see Phil with a confused look on his face.
"Who are you then?" Adam looked at me before sliding out of the booth and facing Phil.
"I'm Adam, nice to meet you." Phil looked at the both of us, his eyes narrowed slightly. "Anyways, last night was fun Dan, we might have to do it again sometime." Adam said before walking away, not even bothering to glance back around to see what problems he had caused. I looked down at the table before looking back up at Phil, a false smile on my face.
"Well he seemed fake. I'm assuming he was the person from last night that brought you back distraught?" I nodded slightly and Phil sighed, reaching out to put his hand on mine. "Are you okay?" Phil's voice was full of concern as he asked. I looked down at his hand covering mine, the warmth comforted me and without thinking about it I nodded.
"I'm good." I said smiling because for once in a long time I actually meant it. We continued to talk and eat, until we were finished, laughing and smiling the whole time.
AN: Sorry for the cheesyness! I'm not the best at writing fluff so hopefully its not too bad! (: let me know what you think!