Chapter 5
Stay With Me
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As the days passed Clarke was becoming a bit withdrawn and Lexa could see the sorrow coating her eyes and the way she would cling onto her just a little bit tighter when they parted in the mornings. When Clarke left for work, she always made sure to give Lexa a kiss goodbye and those kisses seemed to grow a little bit more frantic and passionate with every passing day. Lexa could feel Clarke's desperation, her need for comfort when they kissed each other. Before either of them knew it, it was a week before they planned to leave. Lexa had told her people about having Clarke there with her during her week long vacation and though Indra and Gustus protested they knew they couldn't change her mind and she was their leader, their Heda.
Lexa contacted her people once every day and she always made sure to include Clarke in her conversations with her people. Indra also didn't like that either but she couldn't tell her Commander what to do so she had to begrudgingly accept that an Arkadian was listening. Indra purposely spoke in Trigedasleng but apparently Clarke was learning the language and would often call Indra out about her comments in her own native language. It infuriated the woman to no end to know that a good portion of what she said was understood by Clarke.
Clarke lay in bed in Lexa's arms, as she normally did these days. She turned her alarm off before it went off and just lay there in Lexa's warm embrace, taking comfort in her love's presence. Nuzzling into Lexa's neck, Clarke felt Lexa place a soft kiss at the top of her head. "We have … we have just another week of this now Lexa." Clarke's voice was soft and hollow, gravelly with many emotions.
"I know Clarke, I know. We should make the most of the time we have left before we go, Clarke. I … I would love it if we could somehow stay together but you have a life here and I must lead my army. If this were a different life … if we were different people … perhaps we could do something more to stay together." Clarke felt a tear escape her eyes and it trickled onto Lexa's neck. "Don't cry Clarke." Lexa tried to move Clarke's head back so she could see her but Clarke refused to move. "How can I kiss you if you don't let me see your face?"
"You're just trying to trick me so you can be all loving and comforting and romantic. I want to be upset right now and if you do that then I will be comforted by you but become more upset at the thought that we leave in just another week Lexa. I don't want you to go. I want … I want you to stay with me."
Sighing Lexa knew she wanted to stay too but she had been stuck in this house for the most part, confined in it unless Clarke took them somewhere far away. Clarke knew that anyone from the hospital would think it strange that they were together after Lexa's release so Clarke would drive several counties over to avoid anyone who knew them in order for Lexa to get out of the house. Those days they went on romantic dates and Lexa was able to let loose and breathe in the air not as clean as Trigeda's air but at least it was air outside of the house. Clarke took Lexa to her first amusement park and won her a stuffed animal, a raccoon in particular, by 'shooting some hoops' in a game called basketball and Lexa was impressed. Lexa, in turn, won Clarke a little stuffed animal lion by shooting out a star in the 'shooting gallery' and the cocky smile on her face afterwards earned her a heated but chaste kiss. The person running the shooting gallery might have been flirting with an oblivious Lexa and that might or might not have been another reason that Clarke kissed Lexa so passionately after winning the stuffed lion.
Many memories ran through Clarke's mind, memories that were going to have to help her get through when Lexa was gone. She planned on staying with Lexa for her vacation but after that … she wanted something more. "What are you thinking Clarke? You look so … distraught."
"Nothing bad just … I'm glad we have so many memories, that we made the most of our time together so that when you're … when we're not together I can remember everything we've done together and even though I'm going to miss you … you'll at least be there with me in my mind. Well, kind of." Lexa never questioned if Clarke truly cared for her, she could see the affection in every gaze, feel the love in every tender caress and heated or gentle kiss, hear it in the way Clarke's heart beat wildly when they kissed, and taste it with every fervent swipe of her tongue. Sometimes Clarke would pull away and bury her face in Lexa's neck, trying to hide the sorrow on her face but Lexa just knew.
"Clarke … for the longest time I wouldn't allow myself to show that I felt anything when other people were around but then you came into my life nearly six weeks ago. The way you captured my gaze when I first woke up … I knew there was something different about you … something special. I could also see that you could see right through my guarded walls because you showed me right away that you could see my emotions. You have always been able to see passed the barriers I put up and I never knew how that was possible until you told me that my eyes spoke for me. No one else I've ever known has been able to do that, not even Costia could. Only you, Clarke … only you."
"Why must you insist on saying such romantic things Lexa? I'm already so in love with you but now … I just … I don't want to go to work and face so many hours without you. I just want to stay in this bed and cherish the time we have together, however little it is. Because I have a vacation scheduled I don't have any extra days off to spend with you and that's all I want right now, to have more time with you."
Lexa cut whatever else Clarke was going to say by kissing her passionately, heatedly. Her tongue thrust into Clarke's mouth when Clarke let out a moan at the forcefulness of the bruising kiss and it quickly turned into even more moans when Lexa pulled away and kissed at her neck. She was sucking harshly on the pulse point there, knowing how crazy it drove Clarke from the few times they went a bit further than just kissing and making out but never quite going all the way yet. Clarke was moaning loudly as Lexa moved down further and started unbuttoning Clarke's silky pajama top. A content sigh left Clarke's lips until Lexa started mouthing the sensitive area in between her breasts. Lexa had had trouble with Clarke's bra when she first encountered it but now that she'd had several weeks of practice removing her bra she was quite efficient at divesting Clarke of the annoying barrier, something she did now and was glad for the front clasps.
"I want you but you have to go to work." The husky way Lexa said it caused Clarke to shiver and Clarke almost considered calling off but knew there was no feasible way she could do that without feeling guilty. Closing her eyes and enjoyed the feel of Lexa's lips, teeth, and tongue laving at her nipples. A particularly gentle nip with her teeth got a vocal response out of Clarke and her hand shot to the back of Lexa's head, gripping her hair gently with her fingers.
Clarke was beyond turned on by Lexa's actions and she was so ready for more, moaning as Lexa's tongue swirled around one nipple and her fingers pinched and flicked the other. "Lexa," Clarke husked out, "Beja, ai gafen yu in Leksa (please, I'm thirsty for you Lexa)."
"But you said you have to work Clarke. I don't want to make you late or cause you to miss the day." Lexa said, starting to pull away but Clarke pushed against Lexa's head with her hand.
"No, I need you more than I need to go to work right now. Please, Lexa, please. This can be quick, you've been teasing me this entire week by kissing me but then stopping us from doing anything more." Clarke was on the verge of whining for something, anything from Lexa.
"When we finally make love, I don't want it to be fast and meaningless. I want to take my time with you because this will be our first time together and I … I want it to last. When I have to go, I want to take these memories with me Clarke. I want to be able to close my eyes and remember what it was like to feel you shudder under my skin, I want to be able to remember how you tasted and felt against my tongue, I want to be able to hear your voice in my head when you scream my name after coming undone. I want to remember the look in your eyes when you crash down from your high. I want all of that with you."
"My god, Lexa. Why do you always have to say such cruelly beautiful things?" Clarke closed her eyes and attempted to tamp down on her desire for the other woman. "I'm going to go take a very unsatisfying shower and think about dead puppies to try to cool off because I am extremely wet right now." Lexa groaned at the information. "And you're going to lay here knowing that and not being able to do anything.
"Perhaps I should have gotten a taste while I still had the chance." Lexa sounded petulant and Clarke smirked in response. Before Lexa could ask why Clarke was smirking she watched as Clarke reached down and snaked her hand in between their bodies and heard the wet squelch when Clarke touched her wetness. Lexa moaned at the sound and watched as Clarke brought her hand back up, two of her fingers obviously wet with her arousal and placed her fingers at Lexa's lips.
Engulfing Clarke's fingers immediately she moaned at the taste of Clarke's arousal and cursed herself for not at least finishing the job while she had the chance. Clarke was so sweet and delicious. "Tonight Lexa, we're definitely going to make love tonight. There's no way I'm not having you after everything you said and the fire you started Lexa."
Lexa agreed wholeheartedly, still sucking on Clarke's fingers. She moaned when Clarke pulled her fingers back, clean of her arousal. "I'm going to eat you Clarke. You taste divine and I want more of you. You're like the forbidden fruit in the Garden of Eden. Now that I've gotten a taste of your forbidden fruit Clarke, I want more even if I will be banished from heaven because of it."
"Seriously Lexa, stop saying things like that. It only makes things harder for both of us."
"Can I just have another taste before you leave Clarke?" Clarke almost objected as she watched Lexa moved down her body but wait for permission. Clarke wanted to shake her head but seeing the blown pupils of desire in Lexa's eyes she nodded her head and groaned when Lexa moved her sopping wet underwear aside and got a tongue full of her arousal. Moaning loudly at the feel of Lexa's hot tongue traveling up her slit completely Clarke wondered if the torture of not having her finish was worth the brief pleasure.
"God, Lexa. I don't know how I'm ever going to manage to concentrate at work now."
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If even one more person asked Clarke if she was all right she was going to snap and just go home to Lexa so they could have sex. Having sex or working to save lives? There was absolutely no dilemma for Clarke in answering that question. She would much rather have sex because there were other doctors at the hospital and most of the time she wasn't performing lifesaving surgery on these people … unless they were on their death bed or in a terrible accident. Okay, so maybe she should choose to save lives over having sex but she couldn't help but want sex more because she hadn't experienced it yet and Lexa was so mother fucking HOT. Like seriously, whoever Lexa's parents were, she would have to thank them for creating such an unbelievably gorgeous, amazing, beautiful, sweet, breathtaking, romantic, stunning, badass, hot, strong, attractive, charming, striking, endearing woman and Clarke could just go on. It wasn't just Lexa's face but her soul, the emotions she saw in those stunning green eyes whenever their gazes met. Clarke was so in love it wasn't even funny.
"Dr. Griffin, are you okay?" Clarke took a deep breath and let it out slowly before turning to the person behind her to answer them.
"Yes Jackson, I am perfectly fine. Thank you for asking." Clarke gave him a small smile before walking away and counting down the minutes. She looked down at her watch, nostalgia hitting her as she looked at the watch her father had given her before he was taken away from her to be executed. They had been able to give each other one last hug before he was murdered by Chancellor Pike.
For a moment anger washed over her features before she smoothed her features out and calmed herself down. She would not let those memories take hold of her and ruin her excitement for tonight. She was sure, if given the chance, her father would have liked Lexa more than her own mother would. Clarke could just imagine her mother's disapproval of Lexa and could see the both of them butting heads with each other over various things. Just the thought alone made her miss Lexa even more than she already did. Despite the fact that Lexa was still here for the time being … she missed her because she knew that soon … for an undeterminable amount of time they were going to be apart from each other. They had already discussed keeping contact with each other through the radios because Lexa didn't exactly have a phone where she was.
"Um, Dr. Griffin … are you … okay?"
Almost losing her temper, Clarke resisted the urge to growl at Harper for asking her again if she was okay or not. "I believe you asked me before and my answer is still the same. I just … my girlfriend is going to be gone for business for an undeterminable amount of time and she's leaving next week." Clarke sighed, figuring she owed this much to Harper because she was always so kind to Lexa and she was one of her favorite nurses out of some of the downright abysmal nurses working there. "I really love her and I'm going to miss her so much, you know?"
Harper gave Clarke a sympathetic look. "I didn't know you were dating anybody but I completely understand. The one boyfriend I dated a while back had to leave for something for work too way back. It's actually part of the reason we broke up but I'm sure your girlfriend is much better than he is."
This actually piqued Clarke's curiosity. "What did he do … wait … no. Don't tell me he … he did didn't he? He cheated on you?" At Harper's nod Clarke gave her a sympathetic look in return. "I'm sorry Harper. I hope your next boyfriend or girlfriend is treating you better if you have one."
"Oh, uh I haven't really dated since. It hasn't really been that long since I was last on a date … just a year or so." The shocked look on Clarke's face made Harper laugh. "I'm just kidding actually. Lately I've been on a few dates with someone and I really like her. She's so sweet and it doesn't hurt that she's absolutely drop dead gorgeous too."
"I'm happy for you Harper. I think it's time for me to go now that everything's been quiet for a while though. I'll see you tomorrow."
Clarke was almost giddy now that she was leaving and she wasn't expecting what she was met with when she came home. As soon as Clarke had stepped into her house after closing her garage she was pushed into the door, closing it in the process, and lips were attacking her fiercely. Clarke let out a moan as Lexa continued to kiss her hard before moving down to her neck, leaving Clarke to pant breathlessly while moaning when Lexa started sucking at her neck. "Mounin hou, ai hodnes (welcome home, my love)." Those words caused the flame that was already burning in Clarke's center to burn even hotter.
Finally catching her breath enough, Clarke managed to get out, "Lexa, take me to bed now."
Another surprise awaited Clarke as Lexa just picked her up around the waist and started carrying her to the bed and Clarke wrapped her legs around Lexa in response and she moaned again when Lexa kissed around her collarbone. "Yu gafen Klark? Gafen fou ai Klark? (Are you thirsty Clarke? Thirsty for me Clarke?)"
"You know I am Lexa, god am I ever. I don't think I can wait any longer Lexa, take me. Please take me now. Beja, ai gaf yu in Heda (Please, I want you Commander)." Hearing Clarke tell her she wanted her in her own language spurred Lexa on even more.
Placing Clarke on the bed gently, Lexa removed her clothes as Clarke watched, completely transfixed by every graceful movement. "Den yu hon ai in ai niron (Then you get me my lover)." Clarke shuddered at the words, more than ready for Lexa to take her finally.
Watching as the last item of clothing dropped to the floor, Clarke couldn't stop staring. Her gaze went from Lexa's head to her toes several times because she was amazed by Lexa's beauty. From Lexa's gorgeous face down her perky set of breasts, deliciously defined abs with the barest hint of a scar, a little bit of hair at her center, toned thighs and calf muscles … Clarke knew she was lucky. "Heda … yun medo meizen. Nou, yun keryon meizen Leksa. Yu meizen Leksa (Commander … your body is beautiful. No, your soul is beautiful Lexa. You are beautiful Lexa.)"
"Mochof, ai Prisa (Thank you, my Princess)." Lexa actually blushed but then her expression turned predatory. "Now it's your turn." Lexa took Clarke's clothing off of her body slowly, almost like she was memorizing every new patch of skin available to her. With each article of clothing Clarke became more and more restless and the wetness soaking her underwear was becoming more apparent as she lay in wait.
Clarke was almost impatient enough to take her clothes off when Lexa finally peeled her underwear off of her body. The anticipation for what Lexa would do to her next filled her as she watched Lexa climb onto the bed closer to the end where Clarke's legs were. It was then that Clarke had an idea of where this was going but instead of finally meeting her center Lexa instead started kissing around her ankle much to Clarke's dismay and awe. She was disappointed that Lexa hadn't gone straight for her clit or at least started licking at her arousal but she had never felt more worshipped as Lexa never lost eye contact with her as she kissed up her left leg. It was so sensual.
Lexa nudged Clarke's legs further apart to give her room and placed a soft, almost reverent kiss against her pussy lips before she stuck her entire tongue inside and Clarke nearly screamed at the pleasure, letting out a hoarse groan at the gentle invasion.
"Ooh, yes, finally Lexa." Clarke moaned indiscernible words as Lexa started eating her pussy out but the occasional word made it out of her mouth. "Fuck, fuck, fuck, faster Lexa! Fuck! Oh, fuck me. You weren't kidding … oh, right there! About eating me when I finally came home." Bucking her hips because the pleasure was too great, Lexa had to place a hand across her stomach to still her as she continued to thrust her tongue in and out of Clarke at a leisurely pace, almost torturous for Clarke. "Please, Lexa, a little faster." Lexa smirked and sped up the movement of her tongue and Clarke gave a more powerful buck in response and Lexa could feel her tightening around her tongue. "Shit, Lexa. I'm … unh, Lexa, ah, I'm going to fuck! Fuck … I'm … cumming!" Another powerful buck and Clarke was coming all over Lexa's tongue and mouth and Lexa drank every drop that landed in her mouth, swallowing every gush of flavor as Clarke reached her orgasm and was coming down from the high.
"I love how you taste Clarke. I really do. Your arousal is as sweet as you are, delicious." Lexa smirked at Clarke and Clarke couldn't help but find that attractive as well.
"Get up here," Clarke demanded. Clarke kissed Lexa as soon as she was up high enough for their lips to meet and she moaned at how she tasted on Lexa's sweet tongue. Before Lexa could realize what she was doing, Clarke had flipped them so that she was on top. "It's my turn to make you scream my name in pleasure Lexa."
Not giving Lexa a chance to respond or protest Clarke thrust two fingers into Lexa and latched her lips onto her clit. "Klark … jok … jok ai Klark! (Clarke … fuck … fuck me Clarke!)" Lexa panted heavily as Clarke thrust her fingers quickly, her rhythm almost brutally fast in tandem with harsh sucks against Lexa's clit. Lexa came within moments of this and as Lexa came down from her high, sex twitching at the emptiness when Clarke removed her fingers. Lexa didn't even have a chance to whine from the emptiness before Clarke's tongue replaced her fingers and she swallowed down Lexa's warm cum. She hummed at the taste and Lexa moaned her name over and over again at the wonderful vibrations Clarke's humming gave her still twitching center. Clarke's humming in fact set Lexa off for another orgasm and she shuddered at the sensation of coming so soon again.
"You taste great on my tongue Lexa. You're just as delicious as I thought you would be. So tangy on my tongue. God, I don't know why we waited so long to make love but I could do this all day with you, Lexa." Clarke sat up, straddling Lexa's stomach and Lexa moaned at feeling Clarke's fresh coat of wetness against her abs and she groaned when Clarke sucked her fingers clean. "I could come on your delectable abs. Why are you so fucking sexy Lexa?"
"Clarke, you swear so much when we're having sex. You've never sworn before but here you are, swearing left and right like a dirty girl."
"Shof op Leksa (Be quiet Lexa.)"
"Why don't you make me Clarke?" Lexa challenged.
"Oh, now you're asking for it." Clarke never backed down from a challenge. She moved up Lexa's body until her pussy was above Lexa's face and when she looked down to make sure the position was okay with Lexa she started grinding her face against Lexa's mouth and groaned when Lexa pushed her tongue inside of Clarke's wet center. Lexa brought her hands up to cup Clarke's ass, squeezing hard as Clarke rode her face. "Yes, fuck, Lexa." Clarke was gently grinding now because she didn't want to hurt Lexa and it was almost impossible for her to ride Lexa's tongue because she wanted to go so much faster but she didn't want to risk hurting Lexa. Lexa could sense this and pulled her tongue out of Clarke and Clarke silently thanked her as she started to ride Lexa's face like she really wanted to and moaned as she came after just a few more seconds.
They continued for a few more rounds until they lay on their backs to catch their breath and brought the sheets over their body. Clarke took the time to notice the tattoos on Lexa's body. When she started tracing up and down on the one on her back Lexa smiled. "Do you have any?" Lexa asked.
"Uh, just one on my wrist. It's my dad's name … Jake."
Lexa turned to face Clarke, "we can talk about something else, Clarke."
Clarke smirked cheekily at Lexa, "we don't have to talk at all." Lexa smiled widely and moved the few inches that separated them and leaned in to kiss Clarke, balancing her weight on her right arm while her left moved down Clarke's body, ready for another few rounds.
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So this chapter was pretty smutastic. I was originally going to have them wait for their sexy times right before Lexa had to leave like how Thirteen was but I figured that it would be like shooting Lexa again … what *pointing fingers at a certain somebody* so I gave them a week to enjoy instead. I might have stolen a few lines from the good part of that episode but so what? Sue me for it! Also, I'm not asking for any set amount of reviews every chapter or anything but something more than one or two per chapter to tell me your thoughts would be really nice. Please? I try to update everyday but yesterday was a 12 hour long shift for me and most of it was hell because we were slammed yesterday.
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