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Chapter 30

Sirius

This full moon cycle was the worst one in years, so we didn't take Paddy. And I mean the worst! We had no idea what happened. One moment the wolf was fine, clam, the next...it was attacking anything in site – apart from James and I though, somehow Remus managed to control it that much. But, even though James and I came out of the worst three days ever, the same couldn't be said for Remus. New scars, deeper than the others. More broken bones than usual. There were too many things that made it worse. Remus ended up spending quite a while in the hospital wing, much to his disappointment.

"Rem, stop trying to leave." I sighed, pushing Remus back down – gently – for the fiftieth time that week.

"But I'm fine. I should be able to leave." Remus protested.

"You are not fine! You couldn't move yesterday, and you barely remembered what had happened the day before the first...ya know."

"That's a common problem for me."

"No it's not, Remus. It's never happened before."

"But..."

"No! Just...please, stay here."

Remus looked at me, confused, before nodding and leaning back on the pillows. Sure, he was sitting up and it would be easy for him to try to escape again, but he probably wouldn't. I sighed with a relief, sitting back in the chair beside his bed. Now that I didn't have to worry about Remus hurting himself anymore, unfortunately, I could really take in how he looked – which was only a downer now, any other time I would love it. He couldn't wear a shirt, in case it pulled at the bandages around his torso that was covering up the worst and deepest of the scars; he had cuts over his face, but they would be gone in a few days; the scars on his arms were small and slightly deep, so were bandaged up too. That was all I could actually see. All I knew was that the upper half of Remus' body was far worse than the lower.

"Sorry." Remus said, quietly.

"If anyone should be saying sorry, it's me...I should have stopped you, I mean, you had enough sense to not go after James and me, so we would have been fine." I replied. "You have nothing to be sorry for."

"I do. If I knew you'd be this worried, I..."

"You'd what? You can't stop it Rem."

Remus stayed quiet. He just looked at me, looking like he was going to cry.

"Mr Black, it's time for you to leave, please." Madam Pomfrey told me, popping her head around a door on the other side of the room.

I nodded, standing up. As I did, I picked Paddy up off of the floor, handing him to Remus. I mean, he needed some company while I wasn't around.

"James and I took all the homework assignments from your classes up to the dorm. Lily had the notes you need." I told him, not bothering to keep the sad tone out of my voice. "All the teachers think you're ill because of stress, and think that's why you punched Snivellus... I'll see you tomorrow."

I ran a hand through his hair, resting it on his cheek for a bit, before leaving. I couldn't bear to turn around, because I know the look on Remus' face would crush me.

"Padfoot, you ok?" James asked after dinner.

The two of us were sitting up in the dorm, since there was nothing better to do. James was throwing a snitch in the air – even though he was a chaser – while I lay on my bed, staring up at the ceiling.

"Define ok." I replied, sighing.

"I'll take that as a no." James muttered. "You know there was nothing either of us could have done, right?"

"There probably was."

"No, there wasn't."

"How do you know?"

"Because neither of us would let anything like that happen to Moony if we could prevent it."

I clenched my eyes shut. I knew James was right, I knew it. But it didn't help. I just know there had to be...something that we – I – could have done! I rubbed my hands over my face before sitting up, crossed legged.

"Look. I care about Remus, just like you do. He hasn't had anyone to help with the transformations before, that's one of the reasons we became Animagi for him." James continued. "Remus doesn't feel like one of us and he's naive at times, even if he doesn't want to think so. That's just two reasons why I look out for him, and why he's one of my two best mates, you being the other one."

I sighed.

"Yeah, but..." I started.

"I'm not done yet." James interrupted, putting the snitch down, and standing up to walk over to me. "Now, I don't know every reason why you look out for him. But I definitely know one. You love him. You haven't told me that you love him, but I know you do. You haven't acted like this with anyone else before. And, it's because you love him that I know you would do anything you could to protect him. Which is what I would do for Lily, if I had to. I would throw myself in front of any spell for her, and I know that you would do the same for Remus. So believe me when I say, that neither of us would let anything bad happen to Moony if we could prevent it."

When he was done, he whacked me round the head, but I couldn't bring myself to hit him back. It was a little surprising hearing the speech from James and I wondered where it came from. But hearing my surrogate-brother/best mate/second cousin tell me everything he had just said...it made sense.

"You need to stop beating yourself up, mate." James finished, placing a hand on my shoulder.

"Thanks Prongs." I said, smiling slightly. "I guess I needed that."

"No problem. Now I'm going to sleep. Night Pads."

"Night mate."

Looks like I've been wrong for all these years. Talking to your brother can make you feel a hell of a whole lot better and really can help in any situation.

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