Sorry for the wait guys, this chapter is kind of weird I feel it's a bit rushed and like there is too much in one chapter, but hope you enjoy it.
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"D…Dave what are you doing here" Blaine's grip on the door tightened and his breathing hitched, is the really happening, is he really on my doorstep' thought Blaine trying to process this.
Dave just stood and stared at Blaine, he tried to speak but no words seemed to be coming out of his mouth, He took a deep breath and finally spoke
"I…I have come to see K…Kurt about today" said Dave, he put his hands in his pockets and looked at Blaine expectantly
"Eerr…right…erm…I'll go get him, come in" Said Blaine confused and shocked and now a bit irritated that the words 'come in' had slipped out his mouth, because Blaine really did not want him in his house.
Blaine walked through the lounge and into the dining room back to his family. Kurt looked up from his magazine and saw Blaine whose face was drained of colour, "Blaine, who was that?" asked Kurt
"I…its Dave, he wants to speak to you about today, he's in the hallway" Kurt gave Blaine a confused and stunned look and got up out of his seat and slowly walked to the front door
He stopped just outside the living room when he saw him "Dave w…what are you doing here, how did you know where I live" asked Kurt a little freaked out that Dave was in his home and had found where he lived.
"Well you said you live around here and I looked for your car and well…I'm sorry about today it was just getting to me, everything you were saying about your life…it…it just annoyed me that's all" replied Dave
"Yes I thought it could be that, I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you feel down over me going on about me all the time but this is a little weird Dave I mean…you looked around trying to find where I live that's a bit creepy don't you think?" Said Kurt urging him to have an explanation
Blaine walked in and stood next to Kurt and took his hand. Dave watched this and he felt a little wired over seeing them together, Kurt on his own was fine but when he was with Blaine Dave had a horrible feeling he did not quite understand and the only time he had felt it before was when Blaine came to McKinley once before he transferred and he saw Blaine kiss Kurt which made him angry.
Dave snapped back to reality "I…I just wanted to apologise and…well I just needed to say you really helped me today with some stuff you know"
Kurt was looking at him differently than he did in the coffee shop Dave noticed that "Well I'm glad I can help you but you can't just turn up all of a sudden Dave, If you want to meet up again just give me a call and we can arrange something" said Kurt as he noticed Blaine's grip on his hand tightened, He could feel Blaine's wedding Band digging into his skin
"Ok sure…I'm sorry about this Il see you guys around" and with that Dave rushed out the door and down the path.
Kurt and Blaine were still locked in place "Well that was weirdest thing ever" said Kurt looking at his husband "I also need that hand so if you're done squeezing the life out of it…" added Kurt
Blaine looked at his husband and Kurt could see he was clearly mentally somewhere else, Blaine let go of Kurt's hand after a few seconds "s…sorry I was just…he brought back some memories of that day when I came to McKinley that's all"
"Kurt are you sure he's…moved on from everything?" asked Blaine
Kurt took a minute to think and looked at the front door Dave had just run out of "I…I think so, he seems a lot more…content compared to what he used to be, He's been through a lot of rejection so no wonder he acts a bit weird now" said Kurt still thinking about Dave and what he had told him earlier in the day
"well I just…I don't trust him he seems a bit creepy, I mean he shows up here and then runs off again…" said Blaine
Kurt took Blaine's hand again and pulled him into the front room to sit down on the couch "I know he does seem different but what you just saw was not the person I was speaking to this morning, he doesn't seem the same, well apart from running off suddenly I think that must be a hobby of his" said Kurt
"Well just…be careful… I don't want you rushing in and being the hero forgiving him for everything" said Blaine looking down at the coffee table
"What I'm not rushing in and forgiving him, I don't think I could forgive him, I feel sorry for him because of what he went through after high school but I'm not forgiving him, god Blaine I'm not stupid I thought you said it was my choice on what I do about this"
Blaine was a little taken aback he could see that he was entering the territory of one of Kurt's bitch fits "Honey you do have a choice over this and you can handle it whatever way you want to I just…I don't trust him and I don't think I ever will"
"Well from where I'm standing it looks like I'm the one you don't trust, I'm not going to do anything stupid, do you trust me Blaine?"
Now Kurt had pushed Blaine to far "How dare you ask me that, does that even need answering Kurt"
Kurt looked into his husbands eyes and reached over and took his hand once again "No, no it doesn't I know you trust me…I don't want to fight over Dave of all people, I'm sorry" said Kurt
Blaine was now shocked at what Kurt had just said "did Kurt Hummel-Anderson actually just apologise and admit being in the wrong" said Blaine now smirking at him
Kurt had a huge grin on his face "Consider yourself lucky because you're the only one who can make me do that"
"What I'm that great I can get you to admit being wrong, I think I may need to hear you admit it again" replied Blaine with a laugh
Kurt got up off the couch and swatted Blaine playfully "don't push your luck you got it once I think that's enough" Kurt leant down and pressed his lips against Blaine's and he pulled away to discover Blaine had his puppy dog eyes on "Oh ok I'm sorry I'm sorry I was wrong ok wrong wrong wrong wrong for saying that, god look what you do to me!"
Blaine laughed and smiled at his accomplishment.
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Dave Karofsky got home that night to his small apartment on the other side of town, it was dark and silent as it always was. There was no one there to greet him as he came through the door or anyone he could talk about his day to, Dave wanted this so badly, just someone to share his life with.
He sat on the couch in front of the small fireplace and picked up his laptop off the coffee table, he logged onto Facebook which he did not do regularly as he did not see much point to it, He searched the name that was playing on his mind and clicked onto the page. Kurt Hummel – Anderson, his eyes ran over the information on the screen Relationship status: married to Blaine Hummel Anderson, Dave felt anger rise in him, why was this upsetting for him Dave questioned to himself. He clicked onto Kurt's photos and began to scan through them, pictures of Kurt and Blaine, family photos, holiday photos and wedding photos all rushed past him as he clicked the next button repeatedly in hope to come to the end but also strangely wanting to see more. Dave stopped when he came to one photo in particular, the photo was recent and was a holiday photo of Kurt and Blaine sitting with Leila and Caden on their laps, all four of them smiling at the camera looking truly happy.
It was now clear to Dave what was happening, he was feeling the way he felt in high school but now a lot deeper and the feeling also hurt 'No, no this can't be happening' Dave said to himself over and over again. Dave was falling once again for Kurt Hummel but there was a problem he was now Kurt Hummel – Anderson.
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It had now been a week since Karofsky had come to the Hummel –Anderson house and Kurt had heard nothing from Dave, this did not bother Kurt too much as he wanted Dave to be in control of when he wanted to talk or meet up. Kurt was at work alone today, Kurt didn't mind working alone because it meant he could carry on designing pieces of clothing for the New York company he also worked with. He was sitting at the counter carelessly sketching away when Dave walked in through the door.
Kurt looked up and they made eye contact "Hey Dave, what are you doing here, I haven't heard from you in a while"
Dave walked up to the counter and leaned against it "Hey, sorry I just had a lot going on and had a lot of thinking to do"
"No problem, so can I help you with anything or do you need to talk" replied Kurt
Dave looked down at the sketch Kurt had done and then back to Kurt "No not really, not today, I just wanted to know if I could come over and we could chat again like we did last week"
Kurt thought for a minute "Eeerr, sure when do you want to come over?"
"Shall we say Thursday around 12" replied Dave pushing himself off the counter and standing up straight
"Sure I'll see you then" replied Kurt with a small smile, Dave turned on his heel and walked out the door
'What are you doing Kurt, letting him come to your house Maybe Blaine is wright, he is kind of creepy" thought Kurt as folded the sketch book, Just then his phone beeped and he swiped the screen to see that he had a text from Blaine
Hey, on my lunch break do you want to go grab a coffee. X
Kurt smiled down at his phone and replied sure, see you soon, love you x
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Kurt bought him and Blaine coffees and grabbed a table in the corner of the coffee shop He watched Blaine pull up outside and walk through the doors, a smile taking over his face as he saw his husband.
"Hey babe" Blaine sat down in the chair opposite him and leaned over and kissed him on the lips "how's your morning been" asked Blaine as he started to stir sugar into his coffee. Kurt looked up at Blaine "It's been boring and slow; Dave came by and asked if he could come over to talk on Thursday again"
Blaine instantly stopped stirring his coffee and looked into his husbands eyes "oh" was all he could manage to say
Kurt sensed something was up "what, what is it" asked Kurt
Blaine licked the froth off the wooded stirrer and placed it on a napkin "Kurt I don't want him in our home that's all" replied Blaine as he looked deep into Kurt's eyes
"I know how you feel, but what was I supposed to say" said Kurt
"Well you could have arranged to meet him somewhere else other than our house, I just don't want him there Kurt that's all" Blaine was now a little agitated
Kurt did not want to argue with Blaine so this time he did not reply, the two were quiet and Kurt just watched his husband mindlessly stare out the window
Blaine starred out the window not wanting to continue the conversation that he knew would end in a fight with Kurt, He was looking over at the park that sat next to the coffee shop, parents with strollers walked by, children were running around screaming but one thing caught his eye a woman walked by holding what looked like a fairly new born baby, Blaine missed that, the cuddles and the holding of tiny hands, if he was honest with himself he missed it all, diapers included. It hit Blaine like a slap in the face, the feeling he had over the past few weeks, the feeling that he needed something or as if he was missing something. Blaine now knew what he wanted.
"Blaine, hello are you there" said Kurt waving his hands around trying to get Blaine's attention. Blaine snapped his head back round to Kurt "sorry Hun I was just thinking" replied Blaine
Kurt was glad Blaine had decided to drop the Dave situation; he reached over and grabbed Blaine's hand "about what?"
Blaine really did not want to tell Kurt what he wanted right now and plus in a coffee shop "Nothing much I was just day dreaming"
Kurt looked down at his and Blaine's hands and looked back into Blaine's hazel eyes that he often got lost in "do you want me to arrange to meet Dave somewhere else?" said Kurt
"No, it's ok I suppose it's not going to do any harm" replied Blaine as he gave Kurt's hand a squeeze"
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The next night the kids were sent to their beds early because Kurt and Blaine were having one of their special nights, Kurt was straddling Blaine, planting kissed down his neck, he moved up to his jawline and then passionately kissed him on the mouth, Kurt sensed Blaine was not very into it which worried him, Blaine was normally the one to get into it and take the lead but tonight was different
Kurt pulled back and looked at Blaine, Blaine placed his hand on Kurt's hips and Kurt placed his hands on Blaine's chest "what is it babe" Blaine asked innocently
"Your distant tonight you're not all there, what's up" Blaine took a moment to think and replied "Nothing's wrong, let's just carry on were we left off" Kurt pushed Blaine back as he went forward to kiss him "don't lie to me Blaine Hummel – Anderson, what's wrong"
Blaine bit his lip and looked up at Kurt though his eyelashes "well…um you know that I said I felt something was missing..." Kurt nodded urging him to go on "Well I know what it is"
Kurt pulled his hands from Blaine's chest and grabbed his hands "Ok what is it?"
Blaine had a small smile and Looked into Kurt's eyes "I want another child " said Blaine nervously followed by a nervous laugh
Kurt starred at Blaine for a moment and did not know what to say when suddenly he let out a laugh from the bottom of his stomach "good one Blaine, now really what's bothering you?"
Blaine gave Kurt a look of confusion "Oh god you're serious" said Kurt his smile now gone
"I know…that it's a big thing but we can afford it, we have the space and Leila and Caden are so fantastic and we have so much love to give" Blaine was stopped in the middle of his speech by Kurt putting a finger on his lips, Kurt got off Blaine and sat next to him "Are you serious, another child, Blaine what about Leila and Caden they are four and six, you really want to add a baby to that and our jobs…" Kurt did not know what else to say Blaine had truly caught him off guard
"I know it would be difficult but we can manage it, we are stable in every way and we are great parents I just really think we should do this" Said Blaine with a sparkle in his eye
"Blaine Leila if four we have only just got out of dirty diaper stages with her and you want to do it all over again"
Blaine noticed this was not going how he had wanted it too "well, yea, don't you?"
"No Blaine I don't, at least not yet anyway, I'm happy how things are now" replied Kurt with a little sadness as he watched Blaine's smile slowly fade away
"I…I thought you would love the idea of another child" replied Blaine feeling a lump in his throat
"No Blaine I don't, that's not what I want, maybe in a few years but not now, I'm sorry" Kurt could see he had hurt Blaine and he wanted nothing more than to put it right but he just couldn't
"Oh…errr, well ok then" replied Blaine, He rolled over and pulled the cover up to his chin.
Kurt reached his hand put and put it on Blaine's shoulder "Hey, I'm sorry, what's wrong, I didn't mean to upset you"
Blaine rolled over to face Kurt "I just thought you would be on board with the idea and…I just got it wrong ok, I just thought that you would like raising another child with me and I thought that this time we could both have a shot at being the biological father"
Kurt was taken aback at how much Blaine had thought about this "Blaine of course I would love to raise another child with you but just not yet, we are already raising two children and that's hard enough"
"It wouldn't be hard though because me and you can manage anything together and I think we could do this" replied Blaine hopeful that Kurt would change his mind
"Blaine I said no, I don't want to, like I said maybe in a few years, when our careers are sorted out and the kids are bit older" replied Kurt as he lay down and tucked himself in
"But our careers are good we earn enough money and…" protested Blaine but was cut off bye kurts raised voice
"DAMN IT Blaine do you not understand I said No, I don't want another child right now" Kurt did not intend for that to come out so hurtful
Blaine starred at Kurt in shock, what he thought would be a great idea was now something he dreaded to bring up, he thought Kurt would love the idea and everything would be great but sadly that's not what happened, Blaine got out of bed and grabbed his dressing gown "I'm going to stay in the guest room" Blaine said dully trying to hold back tears
"Blaine wait I'm sorry for that , look at me" said Kurt with a hint of desperation
Blaine stopped in front of the door, his back facing Kurt "I don't want to look at you right now Kurt" and Blaine walked out the door closing it behind him
'I don't want to look at you right now' That's hurt, Kurt pushed his face into the pillow as tears welled in his eyes and started to run down his face 'I'm just not ready' he kept telling himself. Blaine slid into the unfamiliar bed and laid his head down as tears also ran down his face, Blaine tried to sleep that night but he found that without the presence of Kurt next to him it was not possible that's when he told himself 'Kurt and the kids are the most important things Blaine" so Blaine decided that he would wait for Kurt at least he did not say no to the idea completely.
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Kurt woke up that morning realising he had only had two hours sleep after he found it hard to sleep without Blaine net to him in bed, he stretched his arm over were his husband should be but his hand only touched the bed sheet. Kurt sat up and noticed a note on his bed side table that was clearly written in Blaine's hand writing, he started to read through the note with tears in his eyes.
Kurt
I have gone to work early to clear my head after last night, I want to talk about this when I get home but I want you to also know that this is what I want and I will wait as long as it takes for you to want it as much as I do. I'm sorry I left you with the morning rush with the kids, I made their lunches and got their bags ready, tell them I love them and I will see them later
Love you always. Blaine xx
Kurt felt a tear run down his cheek, but he knew that everything would be ok. He just wasn't ready
So I felt that Blaine wanting another child was a bit sudden but this is for the rest of the story I won't give too much away but I think there will be a small time jump later on in the story and then I know for certain that there will be a big time jump (around 8 years in the future – still thinking about it)later on . So Dave has some serious issues now and things are affecting Blaine and Kurt's relationship but don't worry. I also have not forgotten about Caden and Connor that's not finished either I'm just taking a break from that storyline, it will be back. TOMORROW IS THE NEW EPISODE! It's been a long wait!
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