"Yeah, I'm fine." Bella said defensively, crossing her arms.
I looked at Jasper, my eyes narrowing at him, asking him to tell me. He didnt look at me tough, his eyes were trained on Bella's and he looked confused for a second then regained his posture.
"Jazzy?" Alice questioned, her hand resting on his forearm.
"What wrong?"I asked, looking between Bella to Jasper.
The tense atmosphere was thinning, I could feel the tick air around me becoming thin and wearing out. My body was unwillingly relaxing due to Jaspers handy work.
"Jasper don't! If there's something wrong with Bella, then I want to know about it."I demand, looking him dead in the eye.
"There's nothing wrong with me Edward." Bella insisted drawing my attention to her.
"Then what the hell was Jasper talking about." I persisted, sending him a glare.
He wouldn't tell me his own brother. If something was wrong with Alice I would tell him in a heartbeat. Can't he tell how my heart is pounding with worry for my love. Unimaginable things popping into my head all at once, but none making sense as to why Bella would not be okay.
"I was just thinking about something." She answered timidly, not wanting to say what exactly.
"Bella-"
"Edward, please can we talk about this later." She begged me, pleading with her eyes.
I didn't want to wait until later. I was an impatient person, and I wanted to make sure she was alright. I wanted to know what was going on. I wanted to help her. But, I also loved her, and I didnt want to push her. So I did what any gentlemen would do and nodded, keeping my pleads for her to tell me locked away in my thoughts.
Throughout biology I watched her, seeing her behaviour . She seemed fine to me. She knew I was watching as well, her muscles would tense and her eyes would look at me in a quick glance as if she was double checking.
She didnt protest as I held her hand under the table. she even smiled when I did so. A smile, she couldn't be that bad if she smiled. I was worried, but kept it all to myself. Knowing that later she would have a lot of explaining to do. First for the blush, and then for what ever she was thinking about.
"I'll pick you up after class."I remind her, kissing her forehead.
"Can-Can we go to the meadow after school?" She asked me, a sheepish smile on her face.
"Uh..." Could we? I guess so. "What about Charlie?" I asked her.
"He has a late shift." She told me.
"Well... I'm not sure, It took us a while trying to get there at human speed before, I don't want us to get lost in the darkness." I pointed out. No vampire instincts meant me and Bella would be easy prey. I didnt want to put either of us in the sort of position.
"Oh, yeah." She said sadly.
"Why do you want to go?" I wondered, moving out of the way to let the other students enter the gym.
"We just, haven't been in a while...I wanted to see it again." She admitted.
I grinned. She had said 'we' not that she hasn't been in a while, but both of us haven't. I guess she is right. We really haven't and I would love to spend another day in the meadow by her side. See the beauty of the meadow through a humans eyes. Now I really wanted to go visit the meadow again.
"I'll arrange something for the weekend, try and get a sunny day." I said, and my reward was her vibrant smile lighting up her eyes with happiness.
I would do anything to make her smile.
Riding in Bella's truck is just as painful as driving in it as a vampire. The thing was still unbearably slow. I put up with the truck, mainly because Bella seemed to have some sort of weird attachment to the ancient thing. she seems to like old things, which explains alot as to why she deals with me.
She pulled up into the drive way of her house and I was determined to find out what was wrong with her today. This was defiantly later, and it was time for her to tell me what has been worrying her.
We walked inside, Bella being Bella had to just try and prolong the situation.
"Would you like a drink?"She asked me politely, not meeting my eyes.
"I'm fine thanks."I tell her, and she nods.
"I'm going to get some water anyway, um, you can go wait in the living room." She told me, giving me the smallest of smiles before escaping into the kitchen.
I sighed, letting her get some water, and I went and sat on the sofa like a gentleman. Bella's living room has always intruded me. The photos of her past life before me, a life where she had no knowledge of vampires and her life wasn't at risk. Its just nice to see a happy Bella, like I can some how see her past.
"Um here, I know your not thirsty but if you change your mind."She shrugs placing a cold glass of water down on the coffee table in front of me.
She holds he own in her hands, like she is cradling it. She takes a large gulp out of it, keeping it still in her hands.
"Bella," I began, and she can tell instantly what I am about to say. "What was Jasper talking about, what happened today?" I asked her and she sighed, hanging her head low.
"I dont know where to start."She admitted, biting on her lower lip. This wasn't time for my thoughts ,but I couldn't help the fact that it made my insides jump at the sight.
"Why don't you start from the morning."I suggested.
She hesitated for a while, not saying anything. I was on edge the whole time she was silent. I wanted to plead her to speak, just to tell me. How worried she looked made the anxiety in my body increase with every second ticking by.
"Well this morning, I was thinking of last night.I kind of had a dream about us...like you did."She admitted, looking at her fingernails and a new blush raised on her cheeks.
"Oh,"I breathed, slightly shocked myself. "Well, what about at lunch Jasper said you were worried?"I persisted.
The thought of Bella having a sex dream over us excited me to no end. But my body was still on edge knowing there was more to be said. There has to be something more.
"I-I was thinking about when we...when we had sex and I realized that, we never used a condom."
"Edward...say something?" Bella begged, her worried face staring intently at my own worried face.
I was frozen, my mind trying to process everything at once, but all I could think of is what she said. Her words running around in my head, replying over and over again like a movie on loop.
How could I have been so foolish? I was so wrapped up in Bella the most important thing that I could forget totally went out of my mind.
I wasn't worried if Bella was pregnant, no, that thought actually pleased me. It may be out of wedlock, but all my life I was brought up to crave the family life. a beautiful loving wife, with children and a picket fenced house. That was the dream of every man in the early 19th century. To share that dream with Bella would be amazing.
But then I had to think about reality. There is noway Bella would want a child at this age, she hasn't finished school, her father would most likely shot me and she has her whole life ahead of her. I know from talking to her that her parents marriage young and had her, she told me she doesn't want to make the same mistakes her parents did.
I was worried, but I was worried about Bella.
"A-Are you okay?"I managed to ask her.
She looked down at her fingers folding them into her lap.
"To be honest I'm not sure. I dont know what to do." She mumbled, hiding her face in her hands.
I needed to be supportive here.
"Hey-" I started, shuffling closer and pulling her into me, so my arms wrapped around her and her head rests on my shoulder."We can go see Carlisle and make sure everything is...normal. I'm so sorry Bella, I shouldn't have been so reckless, I should have thought it through and-"
"No, don't you dare Edward. That was the best night of my was perfect, you had the roses and the music-"
"Actually that was all Alice,"Fuck. "Why didn't she see this coming, we could have avoid this?" I grit out in between my teeth.
"What if I'm pregnant Edward?"Bella questions her eyes wide with worry. I had to be honest with her.
"Then I will support whatever you want to do and be by your side every minute. I love you, and if your pregnant, I will love our child just as much as I love you."I promised her, my heart clenching from the truth of my words.
She melted under me, I watched as a single tear escaped her eye and she smiled at me, crying happy tears. She clung onto me, wrapping her arms around my neck and squeezing me to her.
"I love you so much," She whispered in my ear, completing me with those simple words.
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