QUICK WARNING, I GOT A TINY BIT GRAPHIC IN A COUPLE OF AREAS SO IF VIOLENCE BOTHERS YOU, PLEASE DON'T READ. ASIDE FROM THAT, I HOPE YOU ENJOY! OH, AND IF THE SPANISH IS WRONG, BLAME GOOGLE TRANSLATOR, LOL!
They'd found a beautiful inn on Long Island that housed a gorgeous little chapel inside. They'd both fallen in love with it the moment they laid eyes on it and were relieved when the innkeeper told them that they had just gotten a cancellation that very morning and that the place was theirs if they wanted it. They jumped on it and began planning with just a few days to go.
New Years Eve rolled around and at 4:00pm that afternoon, Olivia and Brian got married in a small, intimate ceremony just as Olivia had planned. She was radiant in a strapless chiffon, cream colored gown that stopped at her knee, she her hair falling around her gorgeous face in soft curls. Captain Cragen looked like a proud Father as he walked her down the aisle and actually got teary-eyed when it came time to give her away. The ceremony was beautiful. Brian cried as he said his vows, but Olivia managed to keep her composure. When Judge Donnelly pronounced them man and wife, Brian was passionately kissing his bride before that part had even been spoken.
The wedding was followed by a small reception that was over by 7:00 so that their guests could go about their New Years Eve plans. Liv and Brian decided that they would spend their wedding weekend at the beautiful little Inn they'd just gotten married in. Brian carried her up to their room and as soon as they'd gotten inside, he tossed his jacket on the chair and they were like two teenagers in heat! She kicked off her heels as they kissed and then she turned her back to him so that he could unzip her gown, thankful that her evening morning sickness had stopped 3 days ago. His lips never left her neck as he undid the clasp and then pulled the zipper down. She turned back to face him before letting her gown fall to the floor and Brian's eyes nearly jumped from his head when he saw the delicate cream lace bustier that left very little to his imagination and matching barely-there panties that she was wearing underneath.
"WOW!" Was all he could say.
"You like?" she asked while unbuttoning his shirt. He was speechless and just nodded while his mouth hung open. "I bet you'd love to take it off me huh?" she slowly peeled his shirt from his body and began to plant sensuous kisses on his chest and neck
"Yes." He smiled, unashamed that in his excitement, his voice had cracked like a prepubescent boy. She smiled, loving how beautiful she felt at the effect she had on him.
"So what are you waiting for? She asked in a in a low, sultry voice that was so sexy, he nearly came right there at just the sound of it! She put her hands to his chest and gave him a push, sending him falling backwards onto the king-sized bed and in a flash, she was on top of him, straddling his waist and kissing him passionately, her chest pressed against his. In seconds, his tongue was in her mouth and he had rolled her onto her back.
"I hope these walls are thick, 'cause it's about to get loud!" he said and went back to kissing his bride. They made love again and again throughout the night, ringing in the New Year in each other's arms. Later they lay in bed, she snuggled quietly against him.
"...you ok?"
"yeah... just..." he could hear the emotion in her voice. She was on the verge of tears.
"what's wrong Babe?" He asked as he felt them drop.
"I'm just really missing my mom right now! I got married, I'm having a baby... and she's not here."
"I wish I could have gotten to know her."
"She was amazing! So beautiful, and so strong, even in spite of... I just wish we'd had more time."
"You think she would have liked me?"
"No." she said and laughed. "My mother hated that I became a cop and she probably would have hated the idea of me marrying one even more. But I just know that she would have grown to love you once she saw how happy you make me... all she ever wanted was for me to be happy." She wipes her tears.
"Then she probably wouldn't want you to be crying on your wedding night." He said and kissed the top of her head, she hugged him tighter. There was a brief silence before she spoke again.
"Babe?"
"Yeah?"
"Do you think Heaven exists?"
"I do. Why do you ask?"
"...because I need to believe that she's somewhere beautiful." Though his heart was breaking for her at that moment, he couldn't help but smile at the beauty of her sentiment and he felt tears sting his own eyes.
"I'm sure she is." She loved him so completely in that moment and there was no need for another word between them that night, except for what was spoken through their hearts to one another.
SIX WEEKS LATER, VALENTINE'S DAY
Valentine's Day was special for two reasons: it was the first they'd spend together as a married couple and, it was the first morning that she'd woken up to with no morning sickness!
When she opened her eyes, she was all smiles. And like every morning since Christmas, the very first thing she did was look at her hand and smile. She still couldn't believe that they had done it, engaged and married in just one week, and now, six weeks later, she was still bursting with happiness! It all felt surreal. Olivia Benson wasn't that girl, she didn't do happy because it never worked for her. And yet here she was, married, pregnant, with an incredible husband that she needed to locate because she was suddenly very horny just thinking about him. Damn, these pregnancy hormones are something else! She thought to herself just as he walked into the room, still in his robe and carrying a giant bouquet of red and white roses.
"Happy Valentine's Day, Mrs. Cassidy!" he said as he put the flowers in her arms and kissed her. She was smiling ear to ear!
"Happy Valentine's Day! Where on earth did you get roses at 7:30 the morning?" he shrugged.
"Babe, it's new York. What can't you get at 7:30 in the morning?" he kissed her again. She caught his scent and wanted to devour him right at that moment. He put his hand on her tiny belly. "How are you feeling this morning?"
"no nausea but.." she kissed his lips. "I'm ridiculously horny right now!" she whispered.
"Oh yeah? Well, I need to get ready for work, but if you if wanna join me in the shower, we can definitely scratch that itch!"
She didn't need to be told twice!
16th PRECINCT 9AM
She got to work that morning to find more flowers waiting on her desk, a huge arrangement of lilies along with a box of her favorite Swiss chocolates.
"Hey, how you feeling this morning?" Nick greeted enthusiastically.
"Good" she smiled as she took off her coat. Nick got giddy when he saw her little belly and immediately went to greet the baby.
"Buenos días, cariño. ¿Está tomando con calma en mamá hoy? ¿Sí? Bueno."
"Nick..."
"Un minuto." He said to Olivia before turning back to the baby. "Creo que tu mamá está celoso porque le gusta el tío Nick tanto. Sin embargo, no le digas que dije eso." Olivia laughed and looked down at her belly.
"Tio Nick parece olvidar que mamá habla español con fluidez." Nick stood up.
"That always slips my mind." He grinned. It was adorable how close they were.
"Where is everyone?" She asked as she walked over to her desk. " and when did these get here?"
"Um Captain's in a meeting at 1PP, Fin is in court, Rollins just walked in and the flowers got here five minutes ago." Olivia grabbed the chocolates and began tearing at the package with her teeth while she leaned against her desk.
"Need some help there, Liv?" Nick asked, amused.
"I'm good." She replied, still gnawing on the plastic covering.
"Hey guys." Amanda greeted before she rubbed Olivia's belly. "Hi baby!" she cooed and continued talking to the baby. It amazed Olivia how a pregnant belly could reduce a squad of decorated officers to mushy, giggling-
"Yes!" she exclaimed, a bit too excited when she finally got through the plastic. She didn't even care that Nick and Amanda were staring at her. She just opened the box and happily began eating the delicious confections.
"So, you and Cassidy got plans for the evening?" Amanda asked as she took a chocolate from the box and popped it in her mouth."Oh my lord, these are better than sex!" she exclaimed
"You're not sleeping with the right one." Olivia grinned. "he made plans, I don't know what they are but if this morning is any indication, it's gonna be good!"
"A good man is so hard to find, especially in this city!" she said as she helped herself to more chocolate.
"Yeah, but sometimes, he's a lot closer than you think." she sucked the chocolate from her thumb and sat the box down on her desk. "I'm gonna go call mine and thank him." She said as she walked off towards the cribs. "help yourself to the chocolate!"
"I was already gonna eat it but thanks!" Olivia laughed as she disappeared from the squad room. Nick watched her walk away and he couldn't help but smile. In the almost 3 years they'd been partners, he'd literally watched her transform from a guarded introvert to a happy, vibrant woman in love with life. He couldn't even begin to understand where she found the strength after the hell she'd gone through last spring...
As he quietly crept closer, he could hear a voice from inside:
"I gotta say, detective, you were the SWEETEST piece of ass I ever had the pleasure of doin!"
Nick could feel his blood begin to boil! "But as you know, all good things have to end... any last words?" He was going to kill her! Nick signaled the team to stand down and he sped up his pace. He had to get to her! Why couldn't he hear her? Was it already too late?
He'll never forget the scene in front of him when he entered that bedroom; his partner, his strong, fearless partner naked and broken on a blood stained mattress, he couldn't tell if she were even conscious and that animal was leaning over her with a knife.
"I guess this is goodbye!" Lewis said as he raised the knife, intent on plunging it through her chest. Nick didn't hesitate. He raised his weapon and from the doorway he fired a single shot into the Lewis's back quickly dropping the man to his knees before he fell, facedown onto the floor, blood pooling around his body.
"STAND DOWN!" he yelled to the team when he heard their footsteps approaching. He wouldn't allow them to see Olivia in this state and he quickly scanned the room for something to cover her with. He grabbed the blanket from the sofa against the wall and ran over to the bed, draping it over her body as the team entered the room. He sat cradling her in his arms.
"Liv? Liv open your eyes! Please open your eyes!" he begged as he checked her neck for a pulse. Her left eye was swollen shut and there were so many cuts and bruises, she was barely recognizable. "She's alive, GET A BUS!" he yelled, relieved. Her pulse was weak but it was there. He prayed that she would be ok. A moan came from the floor and Fin, in an absolute rage ran over to Lewis and began violently stomping on his body.
"MUTHAFUCKER!" he screamed as he continued stomping. The other officers in the room knew that they should stop him but this was one of their own that he'd brutalized and so they decided to let Fin have his way for a little longer. Fin stomped and kicked until he heard bones begin to crack in the man's body and he kept going. The officers ran to pull him away, but not before Fin delivered a final stomp to Lewis's ribs, relishing in the sound they made as they shattered under his boot.
Olivia finally came to in the ambulance on the way to the hospital. She was completely hysterical. Nick had tried his best to comfort her but she was disoriented and terrified. When she finally noticed that it was her partner and that Lewis was gone, she completely broke down sobbing, but she was so dehydrated that there were no tears for her to cry. Nick slowly reached out to her and took hold of her hand. She squeezed it as if it were her lifeline and in that moment he cursed himself for not protecting her from this while tears spilled from his eyes for what she'd gone through.
"DETECTIVE AMARO!" Munch yelled, standing inches away from him. Nick suddenly snapped out of his trance.
"What? I'm... sorry Sarge.
"Save the daydreaming for break time. You and Benson head over to Mercy. We got a 10 year old that just tested positive for pregnancy and gonorrhea." Nick sighed. He should be used to the degeneracy by now but it never fails to shock him.
"On our way!"
BENSIDY APARTMENT 5:20PM
Olivia got home a bit after 5 that evening surprised to see that Brian was already there... and in a tuxedo.
"Why are you in a tuxedo?" she said before kissing him quick on the lips.
"well we can't exactly have a romantic night on the town in jeans, can we?"
"We're going out?"
"Yep. So you should probably get dressed, the limo will be here soon."
"you got a limo?"
"I did."
"What am I gonna wear?"
"Already taken care of, now..." he kissed her. "get ready" she eagerly headed to the bedroom where she found a garment bag on the bed. she picked it up and unzipped it, inside was a gorgeous red dress. She smiled before putting it down and going to the bathroom for a shower. by the time she was ready almost 45 minutes later she was breathtaking! The dress hugged every curve beautifully and showed off her bump without being too tight and it stopped a few inches above her knee to show off her gorgeous long legs. Her hair fell beautifully around her face and her makeup was flawless. She was a vision to behold.
"WOW!" Brian exclaimed when she walked out of their bedroom. "You look amazing!" she smiled.
"You don't look so bad yourself!"
"The car is downstairs, you ready?" she nodded. He helped her into her coat and handed her purse to her.
They had a romantic dinner at Aureole and after, he surprised her with tickets to Coppélia, in spite of the fact that he hated the ballet but, he sat through all 2 and ½ hours because she loved it. Later when they got home, they took a bubble bath together and afterwards he gave her a sensual massage before they made passionate love by candlelight.
He would have a hard time topping this next year!
OLIVIA'S OB/GYN 1 WEEK LATER
Olivia sat nervously on the exam table waiting for Dr. Vawnly while she and Brian talked.
"...you're 16 weeks today. The doctor said at our last appointment that it's time to consider scheduling the amniocentesis and we still haven't decided."
"Yeah, I know. I just..."
"I know."
"abnormalities."
He walked over to the table and stood in front of her, running a hand over her small bump, a contemplative look on his face. "...you thought about it much?"
"yeah." She whispered. Her apprehension was evident in her voice.
"But...?"
"Look, I know that me being over forty puts us at a higher risk of something being wrong but... just having the test is a risk in itself. I could get an infection, my water could break, Brian I could miscarry... It just... it doesn't seem worth it." tears filled her eyes as she protectively wrapped her arms around her child. "I couldn't handle it if I lost this baby!"
"...you're not gonna lose our baby." He assured as he put his arm around her.
"...it was a slim-to-none chance of me getting pregnant in the first place, after what Lew-" She took a nervous deep breath and suddenly grew quiet, the memory was still too painful. But he understood. He'd been there at the hospital, gone through it with her. He'd seen what was in the reports; Severe injury from sustained rape with a foreign object. That bastard had used a striking wrench to further violate her in his final act of depravity. He'd severely lacerated her cervix, and after they'd repaired the damage she'd developed a lot of scar tissue that the doctor said would make it extremely difficult, if not impossible for her to ever get pregnant. And even though she hadn't been trying at the time she'd conceived, she considered this baby to be her miracle, they both did.
"Hey, we're not gonna think like that. We're making this decision based on doing what's best for our baby."
"or what's best for us? I just feel as if the whole idea of this test is to find out whether or not child is perfect enough for us to want to keep it. Bri, I loved this baby from the second I knew that he or she was growing inside me, and that love is only growing stronger with each passing day!"
"I know." He agreed as he softly rubbed her belly. She closed her eyes and sighed before speaking, placing her hand over his on her belly.
"Brian, I want our baby no matter what. There is nothing that test can say that will change that, I mean, if there is something wrong, we'll deal with it, right? Unless... unless you can't, and if that's the case-"
"Liv, we made this baby. This is my child and I already love it! I don't care if it has... 8 arms or a butt growing on top of its head" she laughed "there is nothing we can't handle as long as we're doing it together."
"so it's okay if I don't want the test?"
"it's okay." She threw her arms around him and breathed a sigh of relief.
"I don't know what I'd do without you." She said, still holding him tight.
"You'll never know." He promised as he pulled away and looked her square in the eye. "I'm yours Liv, forever... or until you don't want me anymore and even then, good luck getting rid of me!" she smiled and took his hands in hers.
"So I guess we've made a decision?"
"I guess we have." He leaned in and kissed her lips as she put her hands to his face, cupping it, then wrapping her legs around him as the kiss grew more passionate. Just then, Dr. Vawnly entered the examination room."
"I am so sorry for the wait... but it looks like you two are just fine without me!" she laughed.
"Hey Doc." Brian said, totally embarrassed as Olivia buried her head in his chest, cringing.
"So, Mr. and Mrs. Cassidy" they both smiled, loving to be reminded that they were husband and wife. "we can probably find out the sex of the baby today if you wanna know." They looked at each other before Olivia spoke.
"No. We wanna wait... for everything, which is why we've decided against having the amnio."
"And you're both sure about this?"
"we are"
"Okay then. Just let me inform you that if you decide to change your minds, there is still plenty of time."
"Thanks Dr. Vawnly but, we won't need it." Brian said. Olivia looked up at him and smiled.