A/N: Important message at the bottom.
A month.
It's been one month since I realized I needed to ask Bella what we were to each other.
The only problem…I couldn't figure out how to bring it up.
I felt childish pulling the whole 'Will you be my girlfriend' question. I might as well scribble it in a crumpled up note and ask her to check yes or no.
Mom and Emmett both thought I was being ridiculous, and thought I should just flat out ask.
I guess I've been scared of the rejection, despite this month with Bella being more than amazing.
We've gone on more dates…to the movies, to sporting events. It turned out Bella was a big sports fan like me. I even contemplated trying to arrange a weekend getaway to London for the Olympics, but I thought that might be a bit over the top for her.
She is after all, a relatively simple person and prefers little things opposed to grand gestures like that. It's one of the things I find so appealing about her.
A lot has changed in the past month...just about my entire first floor of my house is cleared out. We should be getting ready to start on the second floor in a week or two. Although that might take a while as well…and there is the basement and attic to deal with once that is finished.
I haven't really mentioned much to Bella though about my past yet. She knows Mom and Dad adopted me, but I haven't gone into much detail beyond that. I think that's my main reason for not talking to Bella yet…because once things are real with me and her…then that means I'll have to really start opening up about the hard stuff.
I know I'm running out of time though. Bella thinks my jealous reactions when guys flirt with her or check her out are cute, but I can see the look in her eyes every time she reassures me that she's not interested in them. Not so much that she wants to see anyone else…but that she's unsure, just like I am, of where her and I stand. I can't keep waiting around anymore…if I do, I might just really lose her. Hell, the whole check yes or no thing sounds pretty appealing at this point. But the one thing that is certain…like Mom and Emmett said…I need to just ask.
A/N: I know I have been fairly regular with updates for this…one every day to every other day. But the next two weeks I may not be able to update as regularly. My mother is having oral surgery tomorrow and will need my help for the next few days as she recovers, and right after that I have a friend coming into town to visit me for a few days (I live in Vegas so more than likely I'll be playing tour guide rather than having time to write). I will try my best to get chapters prewritten and stockpiled so I can get them out on the same regular schedule I have been, but for the next two weeks, I can't guarantee that will happen. I will return to the regular schedule of updating starting August 10. Thanks for understanding!
